We ran out of places to colonize, so
Now the capitalist are after our time
Though your mind might not realize yet, our
Attention has been commodified

All these fans around me but only you, see
That eyes are as good as gold nowadays, please
Check out the newest subscription released
So I can feed my kids and escape the freeze

****** and incels fighting over bucks and *****
But free videos take advantage of ***** and
Strippers prefer cold polls to ***** cause we
All gotta clock in sucker, ***** to ****, so

We scam each other hoping to get ahead
Scheming over the same table we broke bread
Together in public we feed on street cred, but the
He said she said won't put a roof over your head

So better get famous *****, let everyone know
Your business is going swell, gonna buy some blow
Gonna sell some ****, make a scene, then go
Do anything you can to keep them eyes on you.

Blades cut back to the roots
Forced us to start fresh
Like the waning moon
Or the sun when it sets

From frost to morning dew
Life wakes from its rest
Seeds grow into shoots
Surviving winters test

Cycles begin anew
Like babes to a breast
Or when flowers bloom
On Persephone's dress

I put blinders on my heart

to keep from bleeding out my mouth

all over the shoes of those too mummified to

feel the souls of their own feet anymore

Something
Something's rattling within me
Shaking my rib cage
Increasing my heart beat
Pressing my vessels
Increasing the pressure
It's... Nothing in particular
Just the crushing weight
Of global disarray
Pushing me against the brick
Grinding my teeth to dust
Scraping my skin on cement
Anxiously awaiting the end

Real pride is bred by
Overcoming struggles
To set aside your time
Suffering for others
Grow as a person
While remaining humble
Arrogance stamped out
By love for your brothers
Chivalry is more
Than holding open doors
A dense moral code
Keeps the soul powerful
The minds corruption
Seeds of the weak hearted
Fools only follow
What leaders are born to be.

You have time to change your profile picture, but not to read my messages... You find time to be with them and do this and that, but where am I at in the picture? Could you even point me out? You've spoken love to me as if it were something that could be, something that could eventually... but when? When will I become a priority? And why is it that the thought of you more and more often just makes me want to cry? I'm tired of hiding, tired of this mirage, it's been a facade all along hasn't it?! Cause this is how you get attention. This is how, you've always gotten along, to obtain what you wanted. Yet, If I'm to confront you over the situation, and how you make me feel, then I'm the one in the wrong. *******, I'm so done. If anyone deserves to bring this energy out of me, they could at least bear witness to the spectacle... lest the show be all for naught and I'm left rotting inside, like the fermented fruit on the ground. There's nothing worse than being ignored. To be gored by your words would be preferable to the silent cold I've been enduring since you decided I wasn't ******* worth it. Well I know my worth God ******* ******, and I won't sell for less than the time it takes to change your god forsaken profile picture.

Past nights haunt me in the bedroom
Pillows not so comforting since
Peace lost under a blood red moon
The ghost of my sins, still Present.

Trauma can wear many faces
Tears streak a fallen angels wings
Terror marks us through the ages
Raging wind destroys every Thing.

Soft whispers stoke the secret flames
Seared nerves can no longer feel pain
Strike my metal, I'm not to blame
But I can't seem to wash the Stain.

Decisions I made lead us here
Devils over my left shoulder
Dancing demons into my ear
Live out my days in Disorder

Grain by grain the sand
Fell through the sieve
You slipped through my hands
Your belief faltered

The pile stacked against you
No perceivable escape
This land becomes your tomb
Your body upon the alter

Ready to make the sacrifice
Nothing is gained if absent
Blood is mankind's truest vice,
But ink is the authors

It's pretty easy to write when you have a topic in mind and emotions are high.
When love is swelling inside, or
When the pain is overwhelming you.
But its a lot harder, for me, to capture
Beauty in day to day moments,
Mundane reality, repeating itself like a
Daily alarm reminding you that it's time to be "creative"...
I want my art to be genuine, and
They can tell when you try too hard to be noticed, but it's not easy either,
Too really put yourself out there.
It takes a lot of effort, and practice, and raw talent, that you may or may not have, but theres something pulsing, something beating in your chest that just wishes it could display itself...
I long for recognition, please, hit that
LIKE button, so I know, at least, that this meager life I'm living might mean something to someone.

A part of me, now, wonders if you'll ever hear the last verse I wrote for you.
A part of me wonders, how we'll ever grow to be more than words on paper.
A part of me, starts to consider walking away from the past; But,
A part of me remembers the spell I cast was meant to last forever.

I can't take it back. All the agony we put each other through. I wasn't alone in the achievement, you see, it was a mutual decision. For so long I closed the doors, locked myself away from everything I had ever known, but how could you know what I was going through?! Or how could I know what I was doing to you.... it was selfish, and I'm ashamed to admit that I'm not sorry for taking the time necessary to grieve. I just wish we could start again... not start over, I don't ever want to step back into the past, but to take the things I've learned from yesterday's withdrawn eclipse and bring them to your light. But you're ashamed of me.... even worse, because the honest truth is that I left you behind, and it took the love of another to open my eyes and see that you had always been there for me. Sorry isn't enough, and I'm not sorry, because she's so ******* beautiful and without her I'd still be hiding in the shadow of my former self, but that's the position you deserve. I want to kiss you, and **** the poison that jealously is seeping into your heart, but you're too righteous, too realistic for romance at its finest. Kindness can only go so far... I guess my negative *** out ran you years ago. I'm sorry it took me this long to look and notice...

I'm sorry I stopped writing for you...
Perhaps that's why you've forgotten?
I thought my actions now could suffice
So busy I didn't notice we were rotten.

I have been praying for more time alone
The children require so much attention.
Money's been tight, but still on occasion,
I wish I could buy back certain decisions.

Please, don't take this plea for granted...
I thought, at least, we have potential.
Romance is fickle as season changes
Still, my heart for you longs for Easter

Your touch sets my surface aflame
Nervous signals flashing
Fingers searching for a purpose
Steaming furnace requires spoking
Radiation heats our home
With ancient bodies, glowing coals
Fading colors fuming red
Forming drops of salty liquid
Pours from porous epidermis
Falling down from heavens forces
Pulsing, throbbing, pressure rises
Reaching to God, fulfilled desires

Ahhhhhhhhh
How it feels to taste pine
After a long days grind.
There's nothing better than
Coming home to find
A pretty flower already dried.
No need for a grinder, I
Kinda like twisting my kind
Buds be chillin on ice
Take one taste of this spice and
Pipe dreams take over your mind.
Eyes scream as the pressure rises
There is no disguising these trees, but frankly
There's no need to hide it!
It's quite alright, don't fight it,
Legalize our ancient medication.

**** Flat Earthers

Can you still feel their pain?
Or have we forgotten pleasure
Try to bleach away the stains
Blood left on your treasures

Bury the coins down deep
And lock away the guilt
While choking on the key
My inky guts spilt out

I'm sick on melancholy
Numb to what's right or wrong
The ship has sailed, behold her glory
Sirens wail, so great their song

Stories told by word of mouth
Gossip scribbled out a map
X marks my heart, 10 paces South
Tricked again, fell in the trap

The clash of steel, the smell of smoke
Aye, I gouged out his eye again
Nay, just another sad bloke
Who's plans went awry Captain

As I patched up my face, and dusted my coat
A crack in the mirror split across my soul
The two parts of myself, the survivor and the ghost
Both covered in blood from others we stole.

Digging up shallow graves from
The days past, however many bones
Laid to rest in hollow holes
And covered with tainted memories

Trudging through a swampy mold
Black and blurry faces being told
Cast your sins in metal gold
Behold your Idol, still smoldering

Holding on to callous woes
The wart is becoming tumorous
Bleed it out into a bowl
And drink up your deliverance.

Have you ever felt utterly lost for thought? An urge to act, boiling in your center, but in your mind... The only thing you can find is the question that leads you back to where you started in the first place. In this case, what is my meaning? As melancholy engrosses my being, I search for a feeling more than just the buzzing in my face, or the pressure in my temple. It's supposed to be simple, after all, they're still just symbols we made up in the first place? Stemming from a need to communicate, but it's become so complicated. I'm contemplating ways of connecting with you, but the medium seems inescapable... will anyone ever really know me? No... just the bits and pieces I allow, details seamlessly left out of the shadow, as if all you ever knew was the light. I know it's cliché of a Scorpio, to act like I know how to get inside locked doors, but you'd never even realize that I've already seen past the lies, your eyes speak worlds beyond the minds filter. And I'm so tired... of trying to be honest and getting punished for it. But giving you what you desire is satisfying, even if it's all just an illusion. As if you don't know it's a fake... you've just convinced yourself that it's better this way, cause romance is defined this particular day and age, by mermaids, and beasts, and the ***** industry. I've given in enough to know, it's ******* difficult to try something new, but jealously is a toxin created inside of you. We were never meant to own one another, just to love one another, but what is love when just being together isn't enough? You want to know me, you gotta know you, otherwise you're undeserving, and I'm sorry if that's cold, but my time here is precious, and if I don't find my way out of this soon... she may just pass me by...

Those three words...
Slipping from your lips,
Seeping under my skin, I'm keeping quiet
Now, feeling like you ******* took something from me...
See, the surface is cool,
but deeper down the water's cold.
Sea, you sold your soul to a shallow attitude, while
I'm left shivering in a half empty home.
Drowning without your fire.
Despite the flash of passion we shared,
Ashes anointing our pair, you lit up my world...
Then just as fast as the flare,
You were gone.
I did so much wrong...
But tribulation makes me strong.
And so, I arose to the occasion.
I chose to walk among stars,
And I'll be around to take care of you
when you call, to prove to you,
All of my words are true.
Only now, we both have to accept, existing in different dimensions
of these
three words...
no matter how much it hurts.

The day drifts by
My mind seeking it's
Routine fix with
Nicotine dreams while
Sirens sing in my ears
Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I have something to show you
A piece of perspective
You, otherwise, would never know
See, through my eyes it went but
From yours it goes and
Words can only get us so far so
We just make more up as we go
I've never felt quite like this before
How would you put it? Um
When understanding looks like a chasm so vast that
Alexandria could be cast down to the firey pits of Mankinds worst shortcomings...
The sad fact is that
We can imagine anything except what it's like to walk in the skin of another.

Couldn't count my desires
Gotta let the lotto winner's
Roll 'em up and smoke the sinners

Sniffin' bliss, and rollin' spliffs
Criss cross your boney fingers cuss'
Christ's forgiveness can't cross rivers

Stakes and stones and broken homes
Crack the window, Daddy's cookin'
Dinner for your "step-sisters" nose

Drowning in euphoria
Bleached blonde concoction of toxic
Environmental pollution

A hundred bucks buys a smile
At least for a little while you
Don't have to feel the world dying

Speak to me, like you did that night. Look at me, your eyes so bright. Walk with me, by pale moon light. Talk to me, we can make this right.

You are the Major to my minor, the roots to my leaves. You are the silver lining my mirror, you bring out the best in me. You are the fire to my water, the sky to my sea. You are the light that casts my shadow, you shine on the worst of me.

Speak to me again, I miss my friend. Look at me again, it doesn't have to end. Walk with me again, out on the sand. Talk to me again, I promise to you I'll make amends.

You are the Major to my minor, the roots to my leaves. You are the silver lining my mirror, you bring out the best in me. You are the fire to my water, the sky to my sea. You are the light that casts my shadow, you shine on the worst of me.

Carry on my dear, there's nothing to fear.
The road ahead appears before nimble minds and loving tears. Carry on my dear, I'll be waiting right here. Counting ahead the years drag every moment you're not here.

You are the Major to my minor, the roots to my leaves. You are the silver lining my mirror, you bring out the best in me. You are the fire to my water, the sky to my sea. You are light that casts my shadow, you shine on the worst of me.

Your touch sets my soul ablaze
Days with you under the Sun
Running across your face, the rays
Gazing at you, my hearts been won.
Stunning beauty has me in a daze
My crazed mind is overcome
Strung along on oxytocin, raised
Chemical levels...make me think Im in...

A complicated place and time
Rhymes only sound right when
Blended, words are whirling inside
Minds can be dangerous given
Again and again we've redefined
Humankind and our position within
A grim existence, alone besides
A light in space; behind your eyes...

Stars are watching us fall forever
Never before has this moment been
Seen through the eyes of a great beholder
Cleverly drawn out by cryptic men
Sin can't possibly be the measure
Treasure is weighed by scales within
Skin can feel a spectrum of colors, so
We suffer with pain, pleasure and passion.

This is all wrong...
My magick was naught, but a sad song.
All along, your intentions were wrought with
Rusty prongs

Belial beseeched you so
You put on a thong.
You poisoned my blood,
And though I preached love
I've been forsworn.

It tore me in two,
To no longer belong
Lost in the throng of
Faceless pawns

Tasteless lawns
**** the fruit, lest it pours from a flagon
Lukewarm, like the colostrum
We licked at once we were born.

Before all of this... form
We were one another's pornhub
Maybe I'm just "tootin' my own horn" but,
That's still better than being stillborn.

Another routine
Some more nicotine
Sipping on caffeine, with
Buried emotions.

Despite agony
Forget your daydreams
Ignoring your needs, while
Remaining stoic.

Pop two more Aleve
Take pills to relieve
No time left to treat, your
Chronic conditions.

Life comes then it leaves
Death waits patiently
Dust falling through sieves, and
I'm feeling home sick...

Can't sleep and
Can't think straight
Twisting scenarios
Blistering sores
Scratching the wound
Because it ******* itches
Ripping at scabs
Until I **** the infection
Crimson blood spills
Its an obsession
Its an addiction
And I can't ******* sleep
Until its quiet.

Drugs are like people
When we first meet them
You get such a thrill
How could such an experience
Be contained in a vessel
We try to keep our distance
Addiction makes us look dependant
But we can't wait to get more

OH that sweet taste of fulfillment

People are like drugs
We put some on a pedestal
We look at others with disdain
It's so easy to blame it on them
The chemicals in our brains
So cynical but the truth is
That once you get used to it
Life is pretty mundane.

Sweat drips into gasoline pipes, the
Burning in my stomach causing
Noxious fumes clouding the sky, as
Acid rains down on my tongue, while
Chewing on black rubber, but
Don't swallow your sorrows, remember
Steer clear of the profits, that
Promise a better tomorrow, see
The fruit of knowledge is bittersweet
And all of these people gotta eat, so
We'll carve through the rock and blood
Black skeletons soaking in sin
To keep our treats in refrigeration
There's little man hasn't already done.

When it's my turn to die
I want people to cry
Just like a cloudy night
As rain falls from the sky

When it's my turn to leave
Turn over a new leaf
Like flowers bloom in spring
There'll be fresh air to breathe

When I see heaven's gate
For you, it's not too late
To let go of your hate
To start with a clean slate

When it's my turn to go
I still want you to grow
As big as stars that glow
Though it seems darkness rules

When it's my turn to pass
I hope you can still dance
Life is beautiful romance
And in your heart's halves
Lies a chance at eternity.

So the truth is
This universe is a black abyss
And all that exists, everything
That we would call "conciseness"
Is beams of light eternally swirling into deaths gaping mouth.
Now, which event would you say
Brings us back to unity?
To be made, or unmade all for
God's glory? Or... Is there something
Beyond this everlasting duality?

If you could just recognize
That I still exist,
Then I could make it through the day
I little less of a mess.
I won't let you destroy me
With perpetual distance
I'm a magician, in me
There's hidden genius.
It saddens me to believe
That the most beautiful thing
To come of our meeting
Are the words I sing.
Fallen from heaven
Still my dream remains.
To step upon my alter,
Forever The Fool
With you beside me, a Queen.

It's the part of the story, that
You can't quite put into words
Despite the message being sent
Through written symbols and prose

It's the point where the science is
Dissolving into ether
The solution is clear as day
Burning bright in your center

It's the similies we see, when
Peering into the cosmos
Black holes spiral the galaxies
Like Iris casting rainbows

There's an art to the way you walk
In teaching children to talk
The purest act of creation
To learn love and expression

If ignorance is bliss
And knowledge is power
I'll conquer the abyss
And defend my Tower

If Babel did spiral
And cursed all our people
I'll learn occult symbols
And cast out this evil

If Zeus blasted my crown
And reduced to rubble
I'll flow red from your brow
And rip through your muscle

If Prometheus ran
And flames danced in his eyes
I'll pluck two apples and
Hand you our sweet demise.

Walking down the lane
With glass memories and
White wine wilted flowers

Devil's have no shame
Dancing with the flames while
Diva's flood my tower

You'll never escape
Youthful wishes gleam by
Yet, lost in the shower

Lightning strikes the gate
Lucifer's one blessing
Lucky fools gold powder

Lightning struck and
Cracked the foundation
I've been building upon
Shaking my tower of
Preconceived priorities...

I'm falling now, slowly
Watching my dreams
Tumbling back in time
To the beginning...

I made a mistake when
I stacked to much pressure
Fracturing the stone that
All other things depend upon...

Now, I'm resting surrounded
By the wreckage I caused
By overestimating my own
Ability to hold it all together.

Blessed by Thee, the gift of creation.
Cursed by needs of individualism.

Blessed by Thee, eternal unification.
Cursed by greed, social consumerism.

Blessed by Thee, light the gift of vision.
Cursed by breed, melanin racism

Blessed by Thee, a drop of infinity
Cursed by genes, fates indecision.

Blessed by Thee, the heart of a musician.
Cursed by jealousies rotting prison.

Blessed by Thee, Will of The Magician.
Cursed by bodies physical division.

Blessed by Thee, Love and compassion
Cursed by creed, systematic division.

Over and over again now
A savior has come to us
With words shared by the crown
A weighted blanket of morals

And over and over again
We sold this golden blanket
For 30 pieces of silver coin
So quick to forget the lessons

We used this coin to build a wall
Surrounding all of our possessions
Praying to God that it stands tall
While children paint it with excuses

The desperate need a place to sleep
But we traded golden bedding for lead
Nothing left for them to eat or drink
So we cover their land in bloodshed.

The golden blanket now soaked red
Torn open on the side with our spears
too late to put these nightmares to bed
Even gold can't soak up a mother's tears.

I've been working for a while now
Taking tools in hand, looking upon
My alter, pointing to the heavens and
Waiting for magick to happen.

I'm a proud man

Much has changed in me since
That fateful day when you came
And broke the chain around my neck
Casting the medallion to the ground.

But I am trying

So I came back home and decided
I'd hang from this tree for awhile,
Rope knotted around my ankle, tight
Blood vessels pulsing in my temple.

To take things slowly

You see, the world looks quite different
When you take the time and effort
To seek a new perspective on things
That you never truly understood to begin with.

And listen...

Time has an incredible knack, for
Marching us into the next chapter
Pages turn by light of your lantern
Guiding me back home

I built a life of fame and fortune
Paved my way to riches and stardom
When lightning struck, I watched it crumble
Left with only stone

Vanity and Lust wrought my twenties
Greed and Wrath spent all of my plenty
The cost of life's lessons is our Envy
Gluttony for truth

Transitioning into thirty three
Searing flames of holy prophecy
Right hand scribbles my biography
Pride has sold my youth

We pay our dues in isolation
Growth consuming the old foundation
The desert teaches moderation
The Sun's golden hues

You and me
Is all I know, now,
Everything else blurring
Happening in the background.

In my dream
Angel who's come down
Facing hell's fury
Bearing pain, now earthbound.

Come unto me
Remove your nightgown
Embrace loves beauty
Shimmering beads upon your brow.

You and me
Is all I know, now,
A true Lovers story
Happening in the background.

Running fingers over the ridges of your rib cage
Sliding gently down your spine
Feelings linger over the bridges of time and age
Your beautiful eyes are divine.

Tightly woven fabrics define your curvature
Patterns carve out your mind
Brightly colored magicks entwine our pleasure
Tattered edges by design.

Dreadlocks twisting like branches from a tree
Matted blonde bow ties.
The shock that kissing you causes in me
Goosebumps couldn't lie.

Our time here, together, is sacred to me
I pray for daily reminding
Our childhood fears doused in good company
The Lovers light is shining.

What has Nature done to us?
You can’t write past wrongs while time is set in stone, but making an effort to be better next time is akin to Love is it not?

Cain wasn’t just jealous, he was HUNGRY, and
I was just so ******* lonely

I’m an animal, but why do I  care?
Who is forcing us to do this

I long for breathe, please give me life, please me, please me, please me

Why would I want to do anything, if you just wouldn’t ******* hurt me
Are you comfortable?
What does it matter if we don’t know what it means?

EATSLEEPFUCKSHITMACHINE

why does feeling pleasure have to be so painful? I just wanted to look at you, so I created a universe for us

I AM

except it’s not that easy is it…

To feel all that LOVE and to LOVE all that PAIN you caused because I left you inside of me

do you enjoy my suffering?
at least then it would be worth something

I could trade my time here for some time there instead and maybe then I could be happy?
If I eat something, then that means someone else feels empty right? Am I supposed to feel guilty or full?

YOUCOMPLETEME

****** war feeds mostly carnivores
I wish we could all just get along, ha, ha, ha, but if you step on my toe I’ll
******* **** YOU

Children whisper secrets to each other while trading the bones of their ancestors with fairies who give them shiny metals, all colored shades of gray

If rainbows are broken white light then why shouldn’t I be racist?

I’d love it if you’d love me how I wanted you to love me

I JUST WANT SOMETHING THAT I CAN CALL MY OWN THAT I CAN CONTROL

Why y y y y y y y y y y y y y y y y y y

I’m here now and I don’t know why I was born, but if you’d like to give my life meaning I can pay you money
Where are we going?
Can you build
WHAT ARE YOU WORTH?!?!?!?!!
......has it always been this way

I never wanted to be
As still as the stone
Though,  even the mountains
Slowly erode away

Time flows like rivers
Winding up and down
Rapids here,  trickles there
Always in motion

Hearts thump with purpose
Though, sometimes erratically so
The anxiety of the end
Coming ever closer

The spirits come and go
Passing through the veil
Heed their warnings though
You'll follow their trail.

Sitting by candle light
Fire in my eyes
The night is young,
Waxing moon is fruitful
Truthfully, we know
not what seeds shall bear, but
Be it thy Will,
It will be done.

Clocks turn and
Stars burn but
Out in space
Shouts are silent.

Man is violent.
**** and face
My demons
Rage is blazing.

Shake the cage.
Steal your age,
**** it and
Take if you must.

Just survive.
Alone rocks
Mountain tops
Are dust to Us.

Your Lord's speak.
Death and dark
Surround us,
No one escapes.

Look both ways
Stop before you cross
Remember the days
Forget about your flaws
Try on their shoes
Feel, they're souls
Spirits speak truth
Water fills my bowl
See through my eyes
Light bringing fire
Every star dies
Whirling black pyre
Burning bushes whisper
What I command of man
To do unto others
Whatever Good you can.

You're too light hearted when I'm trying to be serious.
You're too distant when I'm feeling delirious.
You're always cracking jokes, while I'm trying to be honest
You're ******* with my hopes, while I'm trying my hardest.
You're leading me somewhere I'll never return from.
I'm pleading with you, can I leave a trail of bread crumbs?
Your maelstrom has already destroyed the past.
Your storm has already flooded the caste.
You're like the Wheel, spontaneous, yet ever present.
Thrice I tapped my heels, battling with resentment.
Where do I go, now that my home is in shambles?
You're already gone... at least, you left me my sandals.

Its been a long night
Seen better days, but
Just might make it 'ight
Still grind till my teeth rot
Peel out when the engines hot
Burn trees cause Im stressed out
**** the cops, can't catch the mouse

Money'$ law now,gotta buy your freedom
Seasons pass, still can't defeat 'em
Keep dreamin, and scheming fools
Will not believe Him, Lord
Light is my blessing, words
Teaching a lesson... Remember....

We used to be dirt.
Before that we were stars.
Abused and distraught.
Own so many scars.
Seen home in her heart.
What beautiful flaws.
My love in this world.
Till Death do us part.

Evil strung across her face, flaring
Yellow eyes glaring with
Hunger in her sparkling smile
Fangs protruding waiting
Ever so patiently...

Im in terror.
She promises the end of me
As I turn to flee, helplessly
Weightless as gravity fails
I flail fighting the sky, but
To no avail...

I am alone now.
Left in the scaffolding
Its baffling, what was she?!
I can still hear her laughing?!
Why not just **** me?
Was I not prey? More of just a play thing?
Maybe...but still
Way up here, alone...
Im as good as dead.