Need to get out of bed
It's a chore
A fight in itself
But only
Cause you're scared
Don't worry
I'll help you out of bed
Each day
More taxing than the previous
I can't stand
The way it is either
But do we have many choices?
So just get up
Become entwined with my joy
Don't be scared
It'll be alright
Harsh times will soon get replaced
With days where
You want to get out of bed

Arched back
Eyes full of determination
Limber frame
Eager fists
Muscles hardened
I'm near the breaking point
But until I reach the limit
Nothing will break
Especially not my resolve
You monster
Masquerading as mankind
Your reign ends when I move!
For my father...
Who is not missing
But forgot how to fight
For a cause he believed in
I will not rest
Until you stop breathing!

Chose a path
.
.
.
How do I know it's the right one?
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.
.
Is there a correct path?
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.
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Never learned how to do this stuff...

Stubby legs...
Small frame
Broken like glass
I want to go down those stairs...
All the others can
Why am I different?
One day!
I will descend
And discover soon enough
What lies beyond
The stairs that descend
Into a new realm

Why give life?
Humans breed all destruction
Drift through space
Make even more
Increase
Population bursting out
Some are nice
Most are aggravating
Why give life?
Want a child?
There's plenty of them
Wishing for a home
Three meals given through love
Not systematic necessity
Why stop with people?
There's so much that already exists
Let's all stop
Why give life?

Have we truly grown?
Or...
Are we still buds
Waiting to bloom?

I know it's illegal
I know I could be better
But this
Is all I've ever known
If I must
Die in a heist
Stealing to live
Protecting the ones
Who understand the most
My people...
So be it
I'll end my life
Doing something good
Selfless
Not selfish
It's morally flawed
But what else is left?
Wasn't born
To act as a renegade
Don't look down on me...
It's how I keep on fighting
My lineage is already spoiled
What's one more?

Can't get over you

Instead

I'll forgive myself

For thirsting over you

You dishonor my family name
Wrecked it
Tossed into the muck
Hurt
My family's source of joy
Dishelved
Lineage snapped in two
Worst of all...
Crime no one can surpass
Original sin
Definition of corruption
Embodiment of ******
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.
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You stole my juice box.
What happens next
Will never be forgotten

Sometimes                                                                     Authority
                   Life                                                        Back
                          Goes                                      Take
                                   Down               Finally
                                                Till we

From beyond
The horizon of darkness
A child
Holding a battered flag
Etched into
His ideals
What he chooses to believe in
Despite all
The injured near him
Just a kid...
How can he keep going?
The innocence of hope
Perseverance
The last thing his family left him
And he's just a kid.

Shot
Bruised
Sliced
Broken
I refuse to give in
To my limits
I wish to go beyond them
Mom
Dad
Thanks for believing in me
You're why I proclaim
To this day
I am still a hero
Good and evil vary
But a hero...
Always saves the day
I can't be the one...
...To change that!

Missed an hour
No problem
Missed 3 hours
That's a problem
At risk of disease
Not good
I've caught a cold
It's not even winter
Forgot something
What day is it?
Need to visit my grandpa
Hopped in the vehicle
Woke up
To shattered realization
If only I slept
At a daily rhythm

Weep in the sun
All will think
It's nothing but necessary sweat
Beading from moist eyes
Even when the sun goes down
The sweat moves
Down like a river
From a vision lens
Relied on

Solo
Then I paired with you
Together
Now you stray away
Broken
Need to put you down
Solo
Again I am

Seems like the world gets worse
Point which we can’t converse
Crime and drama on TV
May sway you to agree
News founded in the dollar
Reveal to us the true color
The world’s seeming decay
Preys on naiveté
Violence brings lasting effects
Raises paranoia to its apex
Corrupting their perception
Lowering our countries reception
News turns to fear
No wonder we want to disappear
Only corrupt is an illusion
Associated with confusion
Watch out for what you view
Twisting your mind like a *****
Implanted ideas from the mass media
That’s called brainwashing in the encyclopedia
Never pure evil
What are we? Medieval?
Hold onto the good
It’s just misunderstood
...
It wasn’t left in your childhood

My name is an identity
Everything else
Just call those credentials

Escapism
Word of the day
A concept extinguishing your ray
Some run from real danger
Retreat to a sole safe space
Some retreat from a perceived threat
That never was dangerous
Some hide from reality
To dilute their perceptions
A dark thought
All of us run from ourselves
Contact never goes through our head
Rather be caught dead
But why?
It’s okay to escape from reality
But ourselves?
We are the thing that we most hate
Stuck in an incurred fate
Desires to escape…
Yet is it so dangerous?
Here’s a theory
A mere idea
Escaping is improbable when faced with an obstacle

Bound by blood
Warm-blooded
But you're cold

If this world was created for us
Why aren't we happy in it?
Uncomfortable
At every turn
Is this our universal nightmare?
Or a dream left unfulfilled?
Take a trip to the wild side
They seem fine
With their own lives
No thought of existence
Future?
That'll come tomorrow
Why can't we be like them?
Probably because
We are different
Some are corrupt
Some raised on virtue
Yet now I clearly see
Life's music
It's called
A harsh noise wall

Came into life on this very planet
Full of water, land, and pomegranate
Given a light to block out the night
The star of flame, what a sight!
That boils our body and peels the skin
This isn’t paradise for it’s full of sin
Planet full of fun and games
Oh, that’s not true? What a shame
A place where nightmares come to life
Bond with one other person and call them a wife
Society isn’t built on the foundations of purity
Charity is old, hide your insecurity
Keep those emotions locked in tight
Hide indoors from the sunlight
The cruel and beautiful paradox
Human life controlled by clocks
Where is my guardian? Where is our hero?
The truth is there’s absolutely zero
Yet, still, we all have dreams
We aren’t hostile cause we make teams
I haven’t yet found my hope
Hanging off the end of a rope
Want to clean the corruption with a bar of soap

We did it!
Saved the city
I call my home
But...
It doesn't feel familiar
Did we forget to
Put something back?
Cortal Avenue
Not the same
We won
So why am I not
Proud?
It's time to celebrate
All I can ponder
Is the next challenge ahead
Without another
How will we grow?
Sometimes though
I wish it would stop
No more trials
Peace, come to me
I don't want to win
Instead
Give me a haven
Reject the legends
I accept tranquility

Away
Get yourself out of here
Disgust?
Of course not.
I said...
Leave this place
I cannot hold on
Any longer
To such a
Corrupted tabernacle
I'll swallow the pain
Try not to inflict it
You weren't the one
Removed my arm
Now I'll say again
Run away
From the injured one.

When I open up my eyes
Look forward to you
Need no caffeine
For you revive me
Today you seemed happy
S t r i k e !
In came the doubt
Is this the path you want?
W a i t !
Why are you asking that?
You’ve gone this far
Close to the end
On the precipice of success
Don’t go back
To what ruined you
Inside you want to go
But I wont let you
Swear that it’s no good
The hurdles have been cleared
Yet when you jump over one
You create three more
Wish I could be your hero
Zero possibility
But how about
I knock the hurdles down
This wasn’t here before
Stop building up defense
For a threat in your imagination
Listen to me faintly
Cry for mom
Yell for dad
Whatever gets you out of this
Trip toward tragedy
You question the world
Daily
Why can’t you accept yourself?
Oh how I wish I knew
To save you from yourself
It’s not your fault
Life is just this way…
For now
Strike down the illusions.

In the red vortex
Black lines
Move around the sky
They're everchanging
It's because...
Those are people
In this world

Assigned at birth
I'm your Lenta
Use me anyway possible
First for love
Hug me
Pick that up, please
Now you've...
You're the same.
Just a little bit of ferocity
**** them
Grab him
Put him in the Sanction
It's the same.
It's the same...

Pray for a break from the day to day
Before I decay
The world is in a rush
Sudden flush
Young boy no care in the world
Teenager begs for a dreamworld
Adult finds comfort in civil life
Elders pray for a decent afterlife
In between the busy weeks
I wish to feel the sun on my cheeks
Cold drink freezing my hand
Looking toward my promised land
Then the sun quietly sets
I sit in silence with no regrets
Stare at the night sky
A beauty I can’t simplify
Of course, this is a mere thought
Haven’t quite yet hit the jackpot
One day I’ll be on the roof
On that day I’ll feel bullet-proof
One day I’ll enjoy my youth
On that day I’ll face the truth
One day I’ll be an adult
On that day I’ll still exult

Cast to the river's depth
Punctured on prevalent pieces
Stone and flesh come to one
Commander has fallen
Leader’s reign comes to an end
Not by human hand
By chance
Roll fate’s dice
Taking up the mantle
Emotions soon dismantled
Feel like an imposter
Invading a title I never deserved
Everyone’s got their doubts
There are many routes
Down to the grave
Avoiding grief at all costs
Last time I led
Looked for bodies not men
Time taught me
Chance is the way of life
Brace the spirits of the men
Recognize the wishes of the women
“Welcome to paradise”
Who’s paradise is this?
Not one I pursue
Slung around wrists
Cold metal I was raised in
Leading brought me trouble
Now I end where I began
On the wrong side of life
Corrupted mind
Purified heart
It’s all I can muster
Fresh out of luster

Oh, you trapped my soul
Locked it in the jailhouse
I came here a man out of time
Today a parasite
Clinging onto the walls
Wrapped around the bars
Stone walls are my friend
Prisoners are my family
Orange jumpsuits for a uniform
Carving the lines into the granite
What time is my parol?
Tastebuds conform to the slop
No one believes my cries
This verdict isn’t mine
I never did the crime
I must have been framed like a picture
Tricked by the trickster
My lawyer was in on the plot
Helped no one but himself
Oh, you trapped my soul
When will the day come
Where I leave behind these walls?
Somedays I think
This is where I belong.

A harsh winter breakup
Heist of a jewel
End times of the dead
Terrible tragedies
Fear personified in one
Wars that ask
Have we been fighting in vain?
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.
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There's a film for it all.

Today is tomorrow's past

Standing on a cloud of smoke
Orange light floods the sky
Around me is nothing
But something...
Something is still here
An owl
Tall as I
He has a name
But I can’t remember
Playing was all he cared for
It was what he lived for
I waved to him
But he did not wave
Instead I saw
His piercing eyes
Soften
Suddenly cried
Another light surrounded him
My eyes cried as well
He is gone
Yet from the clouds
Onto my feet
Laid a doll of an owl
I picked it up
Hugged it tight
Placed into my pocket
Carried to the very end
Now today I see
Where my heart landed.

Lifted above
Ascending above our heads
Arms support
A sleeping body
Exhausted from crisis
Tired of fighting
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A rival appears
One that never passed grade school
We tried to get them away
Cough
More coughing
She's awake...
The ruiner of our days
Will be blocked
By the woman
With a broken bat
She may not win...
But she'll try
Until she becomes a sacrifice.

Youth + Tragedy = Phobia
Phobia - Youth= Tragedy

Living with no fear...
Hardly a life that they have lived
Have they lived?
What separates us from the unliving?

Final resting place
Of my father
Mother
Sister
Brother
Aunt
Cousins
...
I may die here
Fulfilling the family duty
However
I'll go down
With resistance
And pride
More than you can say
Of your cowardly lineage
Deliver my fate!
You two-bit henchman!

Treated like a goddess
Slaughtered like cattle
Was she ever enough?
No one will know
Until it's too late
But of course
She had to jump out
Protecting someone else
Till her oxygen ceased
Yet why...
Did the goddess choose me?

A young boy
Naive and unaware
Of the enemies that lie
Across the ocean's edge
Ignorant
Of what he'll do to them
Once he grows up.

Faint silhouette
Static back on a background
Actual safety
Came with your embrace
Then
You fled the complex
Too caught up
In what your movement manifested
Not what my soul thought...
Of your existence
Crucial
Critical to humanity
...
I wish that was what I thought of first...
Instead
I thought of how you affect me
Feral animal
Who else will comfort my flesh?
Trapped in shackles.

What hat should I wear today?

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Crumble down to...

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I don’t understand
But at the same time
I see why this happens
To people like me
Issued out by people
Claim to be lawful
Could be the same
As me
Sadly I will never know
Staring at bars
Black as death
Make me wish for it
To come sooner
Redemption?
America has to import that
It’s not grown here
Reparation though
That’s in a surplus
Yearly grown with no GMO’s
Picked fresh
But it’s purpose is to end
By satisfying something else
Am I a vegetable?
Picked fresh for the day
When I bring satisfaction
To “pay” for my crimes
If only they could see
I am more than my mistakes
I am more than indulgent choices
I am doomed
Yet the one to point fingers at
Fled long ago
Now I’m here…
…at least the chair is somewhat comfy.

Where does the heart
Meet satisfaction?
Does it come with a place
Or a kind enough action?
I guess I’ll never know
For today is slow
Childish feelings
Cloud throughout my mind
Bundled in pairs
Of trouble and danger
Someone gave you all my love
Who was the one?
I guess I’ll never understand
That’s what my friends are telling me
It’s not the season for heartbreak
Falling down
White flakes covering up
Forever remaining unchanged
What have I done?
Just having fun
My own breed
Is not your own
I guess I’ll never comprehend
Unless the ocean waves
Tap the heavens
But I’ve already moved on
At the end of days
It’ll seem like nothing
So for now
The clouds separate
I remain unchanged.

Tonight there is no light
Only thing I understand is the night

Deliver unto me a fright
Good luck, never in my sight

The darkness doesn't bite
Struck down with blight?
That's a fate I'll rewrite
I'll become the light

Banished into the spotlight
Quit acting uptight

Soaring from a new height
I can almost touch the daylight

Once hope pierces through
Maybe I'll stop feeling blue

Looking through a haze.

In
Then out

Memory
Distant memory

I call it
School

Sometimes
We all have a time
Where we wish to
Be alone
Separated from the bunch
Cutting down on portion size
Of social time
Not sorrowful in heart
Nor empty in soul
Days just come where
We wish to be

alone.

Never took action
Draped in dissatisfaction
Tomorrow come soon.

Don't break the shield
Once it crumbles
It's gone forever
My shield...
Well it'll never go
I've tried to pry it off
Too late
It's embed in.

The pilot commands
A robot to function
As they see fit
But when the pilot cannot be trusted
How will anything get done?
That is the brain.

The world begins
When I open my eyes
The world ends
When I close them.

Let me hold my fate
With my own flesh
But to you
Not good enough
So you took my hands away
Time for my fate
To simply decay
At least until...
...I give it a renaissance.