"dolt" poems
I should not have blamed only my father, but,
he was the first to introduce me to
raw and stupid hatred.
he was really best at it: anything and everything made him
mad-things of the slightest consequence brought his hatred quickly
to the surface
and I seemed to be the main source of his
irritation.
I did not fear him
but his rages made me ill at heart
for he was most of my world then
and it was a world of horror but I should not have blamed only
my father
for when I left that... home... I found his counterparts
everywhere: my father was only a small part of the
whole, though he was the best at hatred
I was ever to meet.
but others were very good at it too: some of the
foremen, some of the street bums, some of the women
I was to live with,
most of the women, were gifted at
hating-blaming my voice, my actions, my presence
blaming me
for what they, in retrospect, had failed
at.
I was simply the target of their discontent
and in some real sense
they blamed me
for not being able to rouse them
out of a failed past; what they didn't consider was
that I had my troubles too-most of them caused by
simply living with them.
I am a dolt of a man, easily made happy or even
stupidly happy almost without cause
and left alone I am mostly content.
but I've lived so often and so long with this hatred
that
my only freedom, my only peace is when I am away from
them, when I am anywhere else, no matter where-
some fat old waitress bringing me a cup of coffee
is in comparison
like a fresh wild wind blowing.
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And now there would come a time
a swift sharp clock on the bed
Blaring its little chime in between the hard bells
Like an angry little arm
Charming if not for the alarm
And everyday I slap the face of it
Like an unwanted *****
And she is silenced
Quick unlike
Said chick
But I am a cruel guy and have no sense of wet and dry
Nor cool or heat
There's nothing bothering me
Time just ticks off and I laugh at it
But my cells divide and turn into little old protoplasmic men
And yet I am not called upon them
Because they are stupidly designed and I have no sympathy for arts and crafts
No masterman
who failing to raise his hand
Clams up
With such poor artwork
Slap that ***** in the dilapidated sistan
Now In San Francisco
Where the alley streets stink of ***
And the European facades are just that
Crumbling
Poopy
And full of ****
And what yet are they dreaming to be?
The church that survived fire
Great conflagration
God didn't make a rainbow at the end of that,
Now did he?
He's a water-sign
Dolt
And water only jolts your mind
When it scatters true light,
Ain't that right?
But it's all the same
Just different hues
And the news
Isn't new
Just Blaring and yelling
And speeding television crews
Riding their stories
Up and down the many stories
Trying to build a city of angels
On a bituminous hill
Shills
No life skills
And I walk the city streets with a ugly old leather
Brief
Casing the joints and rolling my own
Unhappy and alone
Kerouac and the dreams on the monangular input where the triangular avenues meet
And he has no road
While airplanes shake their jets on the tarmac and trebuchet into the air
Going god knows where
Seeing a new piece of the sculpted pinball
Perpetually trapped in the machine
How bout Nippon
Or Hangujin
Or Han Chinese
Or Berlin
Anywhere but when
A little ways along the state
Of "in"
All these strange things
Aug 16, 2018
Aug 16, 2018 at 3:00 PM UTC
God knows how our neighbor managed to breed
His great sow:
Whatever his shrewd secret, he kept it hid
In the same way
He kept the sow--impounded from public stare,
Prize ribbon and pig show.
But one dusk our questions commended us to a tour
Through his lantern-lit
Maze of barns to the lintel of the sunk sty door
To gape at it:
This was no rose-and-larkspurred china suckling
With a penny slot
For thrift children, nor dolt pig ripe for heckling,
About to be
Glorified for prime flesh and golden crackling
In a parsley halo;
Nor even one of the common barnyard sows,
Mire-smirched, blowzy,
Maunching thistle and knotweed on her snout-
cruise--
Bloat tun of milk
On the move, hedged by a litter of feat-foot ninnies
Shrilling her hulk
To halt for a swig at the pink teats. No. This vast
Brobdingnag bulk
Of a sow lounged belly-bedded on that black
compost,
Fat-rutted eyes
Dream-filmed. What a vision of ancient hoghood
must
Thus wholly engross
The great grandam!--our marvel blazoned a knight,
Helmed, in cuirass,
Unhorsed and shredded in the grove of combat
By a grisly-bristled
Boar, fabulous enough to straddle that sow's heat.
But our farmer whistled,
Then, with a jocular fist thwacked the barrel nape,
And the green-copse-castled
Pig hove, letting legend like dried mud drop,
Slowly, grunt
On grunt, up in the flickering light to shape
A monument
Prodigious in gluttonies as that hog whose want
Made lean Lent
Of kitchen slops and, stomaching no constraint,
Proceeded to swill
The seven troughed seas and every earthquaking
continent.
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You have brought back these feelings
Resurfaced those fears
Of the fire inside
that had so many tears
A weak flame that was dying
Alive once again
Has now muddied the line
between lover and friend
That's how it goes for me
I don't know about you
The words passing might be
in that moment were true
They kept traveling on
Possibly a comet
As my feelings grow strong
Expectations not met
Once again feel a fool
Even though it's not true
And my heart gave to you
Time again I will do
But this time not the same
It's because you weren't here
Could not reach out and touch
So our bodies weren't shared
Just the words that were said
And the sound of your voice
Resurrect from the dead
Could not stop; Had no choice
Seems like that's how it is
In your lasso I'm snared
All it takes is one tug
And again I will care
Pilot light to a stove
A slight twist and it strikes
You've invaded my heart
Bursting flame will ignite
But if carelessly handled
It's me who gets burned
Walked all over and trampled
Same dolt who won't learn
I have built up the walls
But we're both trapped inside
The tight space is so small
There's nowhere I can hide
Face-to-face with you now
It begins and it ends
I'll get through it somehow
Are we lovers or friends?
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Dec 3, 2018
Dec 3, 2018 at 8:56 PM UTC
She could not abide a stupid man.
If you could not feed her curious mind
then you would never satisfy her in any manner.
If you looked like a Greek god but were basically a dolt,
she might have a motherly affection to you,
but you never would truly able to pull at her lust.
**No, it was not a man's physical beauty
but his brains that turned her on.**
If, when she was with you,
her mind could stretch deep into a galaxy
or swim in an ocean of philosophy
then you had what it took to open her up.
And when she did,
open up,
well ****
It was like a 3D Georgia O'Keeffe painting.
You were lost in folds, creases, valleys, and fascination.
And then that's it,
you were ruined to all other women.
You would love her until the end of time.
Apr 29, 2014
Apr 29, 2014 at 11:54 PM UTC
The fascination of what's difficult
Has dried the sap out of my veins, and rent
Spontaneous joy and natural content
Out of my heart. There's something ails our colt
That must, as if it had not holy blood
Nor on Olympus leaped from cloud to cloud,
Shiver under the lash, strain, sweat and jolt
As though it dragged road metal. My curse on plays
That have to be set up in fifty ways,
On the day's war with every knave and dolt,
I swear before the dawn comes round again
I'll find the stable and pull out the bolt.
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Lines of life through gene transmission
When handed down through *****
Tho’ rugged, sound or sickly matched,
Are caste about like coins.
Luck ensures a robust chance
Of longevity and health
With intelligence or dolt hood
As a final gauge to wealth.
Traits of blue eyed, fair haired lovelies
Brown eyed, freckled, long of limb,
Temperaments across the spectrum
Placid fat to fiery slim.
Aptitude to run the long race
Good endurance, depth of heart,
Lady luck decrees their worth
Tho' the Priesthood may depart.
Frontal lobes of clear retention
Heightened rationale of thought,
Reasons through the problematic,
Resolutions made as ought.
Capacity to empathise
In tears of joy and sorrow spent,
Capacity for true belief
When wrong is righted with repent.
Goodness and black evil
Are caste about like chaff,
Depends upon the show of cards
Who laughs the final laugh.
Conscience can be virtuous
But then, so can be greed,
Depends upon the circumstance
And if approached at speed.
And finally indulgence
Plays a massive hand in this,
For love and lust determine
If a union is remiss.
And should that union founder,
Should Lady Luck throw in her hand
...You can blame it on the chromosomes
Which confounds the Makers stand!
Marshalg
@theBach
Mangere Bridge
14 June 2011
Jun 13, 2011
Jun 13, 2011 at 8:42 PM UTC
O HEART, be at peace, because
Nor knave nor dolt can break
What's not for their applause,
Being for a woman's sake.
Enough if the work has seemed,
So did she your strength renew,
A dream that a lion had dreamed
Till the wilderness cried aloud,
A secret between you two,
Between the proud and the proud.
What, still you would have their praise!
But here's a haughtier text,
The labyrinth of her days
That her own strangeness perplexed;
And how what her dreaming gave
Earned slander, ingratitude,
From self-same dolt and knave;
Aye, and worse wrong than these.
Yet she, singing upon her road,
Half lion, half child, is at peace.
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WHAT woman hugs her infant there?
Another star has shot an ear.
What made the drapery glisten so?
Not a man but Delacroix.
What made the ceiling waterproof?
Landor's tarpaulin on the roof
What brushes fly and moth aside?
Irving and his plume of pride.
What hurries out the knaye and dolt?
Talma and his thunderbolt.
Why is the woman terror-struck?
Can there be mercy in that look?
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Gentle ladies, take a while
And choose your mate with lesser style.
Beware the charismatic charm
Of the misogynistic arm.
He’ll ply with love charms, charmingly,
Until he has you all at sea
With this imagined love you’ve found.
He’s swept your feet right off the ground
And carried you away with stars
That twinkle in your laughing eyes.
Yes he can play this game for years
If need be. But slowly he tears
You right away from those you love,
For you to him your love must prove
In every tiny detail now.
And if you can’t then face this row
He’ll find your weakness, badger you
Until your broken health ensue.
His buffets then you can’t oppose
Yet constantly inflicted those
Abuses in the verbal might
Turn physical, and then the fright
Brings on its shame. You will not tell.
Results of that you know full well
Amount to just some more abuse
And then some, coming so obtuse
From left and right. It’s your own fault.
Well so he tells it. You’re the dolt
Who so upset him, made him fire
Assaults at you. Not his desire.
And you believe him. P’rhaps if you
Had not done this or did eschew
That other thing.
You cannot win.
You finally will see this thing
For what it is, and pack and leave.
That’s if there’s some-one who’ll receive
Your brokenness, and take you in
To give you time to heal again.
‘But he’s so nice’, they say in town.
“We can’t imagine him knocking you down.”
He tells them how you selfishly
Took off with children. You must be
The meanest woman round this place.
He’ll find someone to take your place.
He must have someone on his arm
Whose looks are sweet and full of charm,
Who’ll do the work he needs her to.
What else is there for him to do?
Feb 3, 2014
Feb 3, 2014 at 7:41 AM UTC
. You do not know my name, or maybe you do. Either way, I do not know yours, too. I may have met you already. Maybe our shadows have already crossed. Maybe I know you so well, yet I have not a hint that it is you. You may be the person that sat beside me on the long, long 'couch' of a jeepney or that girl that dropped her hanky inside the bus on its aisle. You may be my classmate; my neighbor, perhaps. My friend. My friend's friend. Or the cousin of my friend's friend that once set my heart a galloping horse but I then realized - laughed at myself, even - that I was such a foolish dolt to feel that way and utterly air-headed to believe it, so I 'ended everything between us'.
I may have seen you already, taken a good look at your face - your eyes having no sparkles and the fireflies in my stomach asleep being the only difference. You may have liked me or even 'fell' for my stupid smile and I had no idea at all. So I apologize if my apathy made your heart numb or my blindness shattered you.
Away from these hundreds or maybe even thousands of possibilities and ineluctabilities; the chances of me already meeting you and not knowing that it was you; all I ask is your love abided by the love from the skies. Love, not affection nor attraction, nor any of the temporal abstracts. A four-letter piece-of-cake-to-spell word, yet too involuted to be brought to living definition. Love, my dear, and fidelity is what I ask.
I long to see you, know you. To be stifled by the fragrance of your hair, know the color of your eyes; to be deafened by your voice in its saccharinity, watch how those delicate eyelashes of yours lay gently on your cheeks as you close your eyes upon sleeping.
Life is a book wherein the plot depends on how the protagonist writes it. Tell me how many more pages would it take for me to get to our chapter 'cause darling, I swear I would skip even a hundred or two. If only I can, and if only you can. But apparently, I'm stuck in this chapter called 'present'.
**Sincerely,
Your present Future**
Jan 30, 2014
Jan 30, 2014 at 6:11 AM UTC
You're a botfly in the snot of something
way bigger than you. A nuisance.
If it had hands it'd **** you.
You're hopeless.
You little **** stain,
you driveling dolt,
less than pathetic;
You're gorgeous
and I love you.
Apr 28, 2014
Apr 28, 2014 at 11:12 PM UTC
In ancient times the joker
buffoon, **** or dolt
Town fool, and choker
****** dunderhead, and dope
In every time and place
named, reviled and/or revered
Humor to the masses
Smiles, laughs, grins, and jeers
Where would I be
and how would I know
the fool that's fooling here
with wits not fast, but slow
lets have another
beer
Apr 20, 2017
Apr 20, 2017 at 10:56 AM UTC
One day I was happily sitting and looking around.
And
With quiescence my heart said
To whom you are making dolt.
Apr 23, 2019
Apr 23, 2019 at 11:43 AM UTC
I ironed my fingers
To my blouse this morning
They make a fine accessory
Nov 28, 2011
Nov 28, 2011 at 9:00 PM UTC
My thoughts have been making me struggle...
I don't know what I want.
But I know what I shouldn't say...
I shouldn't say anything I can't live up to...
I shouldn't say anything about how I feel
because how I feel changes everyday...
my truth changes everyday...
which one prevails? yesterday's?
today's? the following day's?
I don't know.
I want to get out..
Forget about the truth - the truth is crazy.
What's right is what matters.
The right thing to do is to pretend
you haven't done anything to me.
..pretend that you don't matter..
I wish my brain would skip
every little thing that comes down to you
whenever it thinks.....
You may be my impossible dream...
But you' re not my unthinkable thought...
though you should be..
as much as I need you to be...
I can still picture you with me..
It's not an unimaginable scene...
You should be history to me.
Today is a new day...
But there's nothing new...
I wake up and you're here again...
I'm stuck again,
with your more than perfect image...
like you're right before my eyes..
It's obvious enough that these four walls
didn't crush my head...
They didn't..
But I'm thinking of you..I'm seeing you...
I'm not totally fine, after all.
Fact is I'm not fine, after all.
But I have to be.
But I don't know when.
Dec 11, 2009
Dec 11, 2009 at 6:48 AM UTC
a stitch,
tingle, tingling
twinge -
oh my, my choler,
my choler
don’t let me be the last to know,
I beg;
livid in its nature,
discolored by the bruising -
in the beasts of things;
wrath.
such a heavy tone for this indignation
or
your denseness; dolt
neverthelesser,
I’ll vent my spleen
‘til you’ve vanished back
into that bathroom I found you in
Dec 12, 2011
Dec 12, 2011 at 1:29 PM UTC
What a gullible twit I was
To ever believe for a second
That those world from your mouth
Ever held any meaning at all
What an idiotic imbecile I was
To think you had chosen me
That no longer were you hers
Ever did you see me
What a moronic simpleton I was
To think all you wanted was me
That nothing else mattered
Ever was I yours
What a blockheaded buffoon I was
To give myself wholly to you
That I gave you my all
Ever waiting for you to give back
What a dimwitted sucker I was
To show you my deepest secrets
That no one else ever saw
Ever was I trusting you
What a foolish dolt I was
To grasp onto the past
That I should have let go of
Ever do I make this mistake
What a beautiful liar you were
To ensnare me with your wiles
That I could never resist
Ever were you scheming
Nov 9, 2013
Nov 9, 2013 at 11:18 PM UTC
Little sir, LONELY SIR
Why are you so alone?
SPEAK UP DON'T MURMUR
No flowers litter my gravestone
BECAUSE PEOPLE WALK AWAY
I just want to blend in
THEY TREAT YOU LIKE AN ASHTRAY
My problems lie within
I JUST WANT YO PLAY
I need to close my self off
IT ALWAYS RAINS ON A DARK DAY
So there is no trade-off
THEY DON'T SEE YOU ANYWAY
She's always there for me
PEOPLE CHANGE ON DOOMSDAY
She protects me from myself who is beastly
RAISE YOUR CUP
I refuse to listen
THEN BURN UP
You won't darken my mind, it glistens!
LISTEN TO MY WHISPERS
Leave me alone
SUFFER MY BLISTERS
You won't break my capstone
ALL I WANT IS A SMILE OR TWO
This is a beautiful day
NOT IN YOUR FIELD OF VIEW
You won't have your way
WE ALL RUN OUT OF TIME
What if they look for me?
THE BLACKNESS IS ONLY SUBLIME
They can always see
THEY ARE BLIND LIKE ALWAYS
This is my happy life
YOUR TRUTH IS JUST A LIE IN HAZE
Just me and my wife
SO WHY ARE YOU LONELY
You aren't really there
YOUR OPINION ONLY
We GrEw Up OnLy To FaLl AnD TeAr
YOU JUST LOVE THE PAIN
All I seek is happiness
NOT IN MY DOMAIN
Why are you fueled by my sadness?
DOLT YOU DON'T DESERVE TO LIVE
I shall and nothing will stop me
DEMONS INSIDE ALWAYS MAKE YOU SHRIVE
They all decay eventually
I'm NoT WeLl
BuT No OnE CaN TeLl
As I SiT AnD StAy
TrYiNg To KeEp ThE DaRkNeSs AwAy
Please help me
Before the rest of me is locked away with a skeleton key
HE WON'T LAST LONG
BECAUSE I'M HERE ALL ALONG
My MiNd Is On FiRe
It BuRnS LiKe HeLlFiRe
Nov 23, 2015
Nov 23, 2015 at 3:58 AM UTC
Winter is up to my ears
Water's in my eyes, the dull chanting squeaks of
Frollicking field mice, dark hungry souls eat dark hungry shrubs
They tear apart the grass until the dirt is overturned. The ministry is dead, into the shapes they throw, weapons in the syllables where voices dear to go. The Spring is hazing the moon, and the gallow falls, the Pines of Rome are just a symptom of autumn's calls. The mouse while he saunters in, gives no notice to the gray wolf's evil grin. Panting the tousle takes them both, no insides give, into the night I sit and stare from my window's ledge.
No apothecary seems to work, all the medicines they give like names, until the doctor fools the patient she's well again. Cloaking in the shadowy stirs of the wicked herbs we picked from our garden and yard. Mellow to the taste, cold to the face, and stings like the tantrum does when the pain is just too much too much.
Have you seen the stirring woes of the frogs, stuck to the cement, thrown from the heavens by so many angry gods. Children hated for their voice, their skins and arms and legs dispersed, any dolt can name a common cure. Sicker than the pain it shoves, while the mood settles into to a rain water bath. In a crevice their may be some thought, but it doesn't even help at all, then the cold comes in and shucks awe and feeling where the aches and screams haunt the unhealthy whims.
After Easter and beyond each birth, no one calls and everything's inert, in the desert we call to the stars, but the birds return to us and make us stop asking for cause. Misunderstanding takes its awful view, and the children stop asking too. The events of hatred unfold weirdly, broken glass bottles splinter on the ears, even blood runs warm, we run hot, and shake our chills through the spine until stranger's call us out on our eyes. Even the wanting can't, and no one can. But the help makes the worst of it even more wrong. Until they can't speak or sing to themselves, whispers on the night break the shapes on the shores.
May 2, 2016
May 2, 2016 at 12:44 AM UTC
Can a blind man
Become a poet
How can one write
about the things
they have never seen
Could a deaf man
Write poetry
How could he express
the sounds of things
He has never heard
Would a dolt even think
About writing poetry
and if he COULD put down
on paper what he feels
Who on Earth would ever listen
There's a professor at Harvard
Who teaches poetry
left, write, upside down, and sideways
but, she was never
Write for me
May 5, 2016
May 5, 2016 at 10:09 AM UTC
God you're a dolt
You just blather on about stuff you know nothing about
Think you're the boss, when you're really a tool
Convinced you're a genius, but the world knows you're a fool
You preach from the sewers and think you're supreme
But you're truly just a narcissist who's insecure and mean
So happy you're gone
Hopefully we're not as dumb as before
Cuz I'm pretty certain we'll be seeing you in 2024
Aug 21, 2021
Aug 21, 2021 at 3:58 PM UTC
ere the vapid dolt of lengthy light
we writhed inexorably salacious
as serpents on our bones
in the passive leather
of extrapolating guilt
Jan 17, 2011
Jan 17, 2011 at 12:01 PM UTC
revising revisions fulfilling obligation
the road to a degree is strewn with barriers
mostly living
within
doubt, inadequacy,
languishing in obscurity or worse
class clown/ dolt
cheezburger memes rectify nothing
as is the case with poetry
but they feel better than empirical research
so here I sit
longing to share a moment with all of you
all the while formulating links
drafting expansion
within
postulating presumptions
quantified with statistics
qualified with love and summer breezes
bending grass blades springing back to upright
as kisses from the surrounding air seem to heighten the aura
clacking keyboard brings me to the present
and a small window holds my capstone
mocking my imagination
blocking me from enjoying the birth of springtime that I see all around
but mostly notice
within
Feb 24, 2014
Feb 24, 2014 at 2:46 PM UTC
The Golden Boy on the Tube, from his dolt
Spiked his Presentation in fervent bear
Meaning well, his bold and corned Mouth would bolt
Approximate garments his Tongue did wear
Knowing this, only his choicest words decide
Cautious enough to maintain your Good Grade
Like this Poet - less Skeletons to hide
Yet eager to brush his lively Cats fade
Feign him then. If he capsulates the False
Though firm in my own review I could doubt
Spring mountains, stones...Much anything at all
Reap his Harvest made humbled as about.
Tell him then. His ears should coral up-front
To sip your Tears; His Feathered Friendship wont.
Mar 20, 2013
Mar 20, 2013 at 2:25 AM UTC