She was chained by the FURORE of knowing far too little and feeling far too much
Her lungs crushed by chaos her words stolen by shame her hands flooded by fear her thoughts filled with pain her eyes blinded by tears that leave her palms with stains her skin as pale as snow so white that one sees veins
"Help I cannot BREATHE!" she cries in muted **** "My mind it cannot SPEAK..
all it does is YELL"
Thought i'd try to describe as best as i can how i feel during a panic attack. and as you can see, its not all emotional, a lot of it is physical. I would say I hope some of you can relate but honestly, I wish for no one to ever have to go through this.. Stay strong, Love, Asia
my heart is a warzone, and you invaded just so you could attack. you were never careful about how you treated me, you just wanted to cause as much destruction as you could and then retreat. but i will soldier on, pretending everything is okay, although the scorched earth around me is crumbling and burning. but everything is okay, its okay.
in these moments, the world seemed to shake instead of spin. i forgot to breathe and i kept realizing that i've been holding my breathe without me even realizing it. i wanted to come down from whatever this was. i didn't know what i could've grasped onto, for my arms were flailing everywhere. my heart raced and i could hear my heartbeat radiate through my bones, shaking them and making them feel like clanging spoons. in these moments, i felt the the urge to run and keep running until my lungs hurt from the wind. i wanted to run and escape these feelings.
I want someone to relate to. Please don't look at me. Do you know what I'm thinking? I'm sorry my eyes are so loud. Please tell them to be quiet. You probably aren't comforted by my silence. What should I talk about? Do you ever feel something so deeply you feel like you are not feeling anything? Is that why I never feel anything? Some things hurt. When someone pulls you in closer they are going to break your heart. I never pull away. I don't have a heart. But it is broken.