With demonic eyes We look to the skies And wait for that day to come We can break free from this curse And free for once But please understand coz this hurts
This curse, it breaks us it separates it burns I don't know how long i can hold on, this may not work Aa will and my way keep colliding our fate Our love is now anger and it's turning to hate Let's end this while we can and reverse this goodbye now, our fate
We've built a wall that i know we can't break Together it's time to cut these chains we've made our fate Tonight is the night, let's end this no time now to wait Together we part hands my leaving you our fate
And if you think that i wanted this to end, Before i leave i'll write this with tears that i spend About my feelings for you that you know will never change my heart is now drowning with anger and rage
So before i go please tell me one thing, Was our love once true, passionateley i sing To death with forever let's go now i soar on my wing Our promises of yesterday make me ***** my ears closing they ring Tonight is the night to end this *****, So ******* i sing...
We've built a wall that i know we can't break Together it's time to cut these chains we've made our fate Tonight is the night lets end this no time to wait Together we part hands, this ending our fate
Tonight is the night let's end this Tonight is the night lets stop this our hate Lets part ways and finish together we wait Now is the time no stopping no ending is too late
A big clock stood tall in the center of a park With long hands and wood that was carved with much care The carvings so detailed yet adding a spark To the trees that surrounded it's great wood frame there
I noticed and awed at the effort at work For it's hands seemed to reach out to the skies as they search And i noticed that the hands were all lined in thick gold The beauty mesmerizing although it was old
As i came up closer to view the great clock I noticed a problem which came as a shock The hands were not moving as they lay still and bear What a shame as this clock was a beauty standing there
But when i looked down to the base of the clock I could see a gold glimmer as if writing were there So with curiosity springing in me i immediately flocked To it's base were i then read aloud with much flair
"Time is but a moment in the span of a life And a second only the beginning of a minutes ending strike And forever only the equal to an eternity's one night So with care every second use wisely for might As a second is as precious as a minute of time"
As i read out the words more than once in my mind, And still trying to grasp what intentions did write A footstep so faint yet my ears could not lie Approaching me softly ever slowly behind
And turning around an old man met my eye A man full of years many a season he did mark His hair white as snow and his face worn and dry A worried and troubled reflection from his empty glassy eyes
He then said "The big clock's tick Many a day i privileged saw The chime of that bell thick When a child i would awe Those days were my young years My body then strong A lad who with honest fear Was taught right and the wrong
My parents had raised me As best as they could Love, respect and show kindness Were the things that were good
Back then i despised men who i'd see in our town How they ruined their lives so freely It made me shiver, made me frown
I would then tell myself That i'd never drink or smoke Vices would not be on my shelf That my life was no joke
The years went by and i was eighteen A boy fresh out of school The excitement of college awaiting Freedom from home seemed so cool
So i packed my bags and clothes And bade my parents goodbye I was now alone to roam the roads So excited i felt i could fly
So i then got settled in the big city And studied my wanted degree First year passed yet oh so quickly Time passed with the feeling "im free"
I headed straight home on vacation My family i now longed to see And spent those days in anticipation What could next year have in store for me
Vacation ended even more quickly I almost couldn't leave But determined to push through this so sickly My degree ever my goal to achieve
I then met one lad jason A schoolmate of the same age Although he from the city's inner mason Was someone i readily engaged
He then became my room mate And that is when it began Jason was different a drinker My sleep oft disturbed i did hate
Although he tried to lure me To try even just one Yet i so promptly rejected As my conscience no evil had done
I was taught that evil be feared But then doubtfull thoughts filled my small mind Had my parents been too strict and weird? Was there danger i curiously whined
So i thought and i thought and decided It won't hurt it's just once i confided
So i drank my first beer And i puffed my first smoke Then i tried my first stronger drink This is great though i thought Not too bad i revoked As my conscience now beginning to shrink
So i added another exemption Saying just a little more's fine Till the alcohol turned into drugs and addiction I was now pushing it to the line
I would mock at the holy scriptures And curse God when drunken or high I would sometimes try and picture How cruel my family's lies
A year passing by i still loved it I free and now unrefined But my vices eventually my health hit I was forced then to pause and recline
My body was racked with a fever And i bound to the bed where i lay I was sick and now not a believer I'd forgotten how to pray
My life continued on this way For years with no restraint My friends all left but didn't say Their reason or complaint
I went into depression My pain and guilt remorse I needed intervention Twas time i changed my course
And as i in my darkest hour Was sinking in despair My heart's once fresh and lively flowers Now crushed down burnt and bear
And as i lay in bed that night For the first time in 3 years I prayed dear lord please save my life This pushed me into tears
And while i now was sleeping I dreamt about that clock And God as i was still there weeping Approached me and we talked
He said that life is fragile That time is not a joke And day by day time's counting down Convicted i awoke
And then God said to me what if he For one day made time still And on that day i would be free To clean my life and will
Right then the clock stopped ticking Long hands eleven lay I shocked jumped up heart beating But i just didn't know what to say
Then HE said my child this is your chance now To redo the wrongs you've done And the chance now to change as you have vowed Will soon be late my son
Live your life while imparting life giving Love to all the poor one's who need love With your hands now undo evil's giving And remind of their Father's great love
Feed the poor and be eyes to the blind one Give your strength to the crippled and the old Bring the dying man good news of salvation, my son For in heaven he shall walk streets of gold
As the time will soon end now forever And your chance for redemption no more It's the time now for sins to be severed As heaven's gates soon open their door Once the clock is at twelve you will know that, Tis the end and we're now going home
As his words hit my heart i then waited I would check how much time i had now But as i fixed my eyes it all slowly faded And my bed was what pressed on my brow
I awoke realising that i was sleeping And the dream was my life counting down And the more that my sins i'm committing All the more my head won't wear that crown
See the clock was not there just to tell time But to also guide ones on their way Like the man who was lost and ran out of line The clock was placed there as a sign
Today is the day that we must choose If today is the day that we will start To change our life and become true And learn from our mistakes but move on and do our part
And you keep saying to yourself "ah yes tomorrow" But again you commit the same wrong We never know how many more days can be borrowed As the clock keeps its ticking all along
This poem was inspired by my own life experience...
The pages in the diary are beaten and worn Some entries are happy others are forlorn Some pages are torn The lock broke a long time ago The entries are an echo of the past It is amazing that it would last all these years Some pages are soaked with tears It appears to have held up pretty well It seems to have a tale to tell It is enclosed in a hard shell It has survived through many moves I guess you could say I have too I hope it can hold another entry or two or perhaps I should leave some pages unwritten
I send my hopes and universal powers above hoping you feel nothing but the eternal forces of love.
That your tired soul may rest, for its eternal age letting all past pain of long gone days fade away.
For every soul that met yours, and looked eye to eye opened their souls and spilled their guts when they found out you died.
And I, distant as I seem hope that somewhere, somehow you are following your dreams.
May his young soul rest in peace
One of my childhood elementary friends (a boy who used to tease me over my curly hair actually) just died today of a drug overdose. It just so happens, that I saw him by mere coincidence yesterday walking down the street. Mere hours later he would be dead. Never to ever accidentally encounter that soul again life is so very very fragile
To your song, I dance Winds so soft and free To your tune, I sing a song Mezzo-soprano voice To your sunshine, I awake Upon a bed of pine needles To your melody, I am free To your voice, I will smile To your words, I say Thank you Even though it seems trivial And for all you do I take out my cello And gently place the bow Against its trembling strings 'Tis all I can do in return And softly like the falling rain I whisper "This is for you"
For All Of You Who Have Encouraged Me In This Time Of Deeply Felt Sorrow Especially The Following: Of Course, My Mom & Dad... You Two Are The Sweetest Sweets Ever!! :) ~~~~<3 CA Guilfoyle...Your Messages & Words Never Cease To Inspire Me!! :) Thank You, Cyd!! Andrew Durst Whose Messages And Poems Encourage Me!! :) Thank You!! ~~~<3 Xavier Paolo Josh Mandreza Whose Words Are Very Comforting!! :) ~~~<3 Thank You!! Zoe Who Posted Bible Verses On My Page Yesterday & Tried To Be Of Support!! :) ~~~<3 Thanks, Sweetie!! ~~~<3 Gautham Kandula Who Tried To Suggest Things To Get My Mind Off Of The Sorrow I Have Been Feeling... What Can I Say? Thanks A Bunch!! And Last But Not Least Sirs Richard Riddle & Atul Kaushal!!! :) ~~~<3 Thanks So Much For Encouraging/Supporting Me...Y'all Have Been So Kind To Me!! :) Thank You!! :) ~~~<3 And To Everyone Else Who Has Encouraged Me In Times Past About The Death Of My Aunt, I Say "Thank You Bunches"!!! :) ~~~~<3