One day, you'll see me and wish you didn't say those things that you did.
You will feel sick because you look at me and feel jealousy, inspiration and awe - all at once.
The words that you threw at me in the dark,
behind your bedroom door, will become all you have left...

Your lies will eat you.
You now die inside knowing what you really are:
A pile of ****.

The truth is that you don't need to stay there,
you could bring yourself and your dirt.

You could learn to encourage,
change your narrative,
target your goal towards feeding Life...
Instead of opening a can of old ways and calling it
a meal for your family,
when it reality, what you put out has no salt.

My prayer for you is that you grow.
Even if all you did was tear me to the ground.
You showed me how the dark felt,
so I faced towards the Sun completely.

I became stronger...
I watered myself with my tears...
I called out to the Sun.
He gave me Life,
but you taught me how seeds can rot.

Listen, this is not a "thank you."
What I'm saying is that I love myself more now.
I know you didn't mean for me to find out.
I'm not saying that you're evil,
you're just more awful than I had thought.

Conversations only happen in my mind,
my thoughts don't reach the surface to even
hit the air.

Bubbles only sitting and bouncing,
behind my eyes.

I want to ask you what you think,
but it wouldn't matter to me anyway.

So, I don't speak.

I'm wondering why
do you still keep talking to me?

I'd rather be alone than be around people who only talk about how hard life is.

These people make cereal stale,
toast too toasted,
and make the rain seem like it wasn't invited in the first place.

I wish they would learn that the rain invites us,
and we should say "Thank you".

I'm finally learning how to be the very person I dreamed of being.
I'm learning that I am worthy of holding the stars,
and that breathing in the sky was exactly what God designed it for.

I lost myself a lot in the past year, but I'm back.
I am more confident in my purpose than ever before.
I am mentally and emotionally stronger.
I will not do anything less than the purpose I was created for.

You all may not be ready, but I am.

Lies make you sick.
Laziness is a disease.

We said I love you so many times
that I thought leaving and
forgetting wasn't an option
for us.

It took longer to separate ourselves because
every time I wanted to untie my heart from yours,
you held on.
And every time you were ready to loosen the knot,
I came back around...

We did this for a while.

You see, soul ties aren't two heart strings in a loop knot
You can't pull away and it'll. just. come undone.

We had to fuss. We had to cry. We had to go through what we went through to finally
Untie ourselves
from each other.

You have nothing to say,
but you're always talking.

With you, it all came too easily.
I thought you were too good to be true

I wouldn't want to do life with anyone else.

I'm in love with you.
In every way I thought I'd ever love someone
And in every way I never thought I ever could.

You brought a light into everything I hated,
And showed me that the darkness behind my eyes didn't scare you.

I didn't try to wipe you clean and make you perfect,
And you didn't try to do that to me either.
Thank you for that.
Thank you for loving me.

I want to share my story too.

I wanna see the lights, and I want people to know that that is where you can find me.

I wish I could've loved you from the beginning; before they touched you.

I know you belong to God,
But you're mine.

!

I just want a real love.
But I've been called a dreamer.

I just want to be the only ******* one. Is that bad?
Am I asking for something I can never have?

C'mon,
don't **** with me.

Feels like love,
Tastes like everything you said you hated.

I've never loved anyone the way I love you.
And I never wanted to admit to this,
But
You are my everything,
My every day.
The only one I need.

And I am still me.
And I am still here.

My heart physically hurts because all I want is for you to love me.

I'm trying not to hate myself.

And I'm trying not to tear everyone down with me.

We lay down together in silence almost every night when all I want is to talk with you.

You didn't forget how to write poetry.
You ran out of words
That describes the moment as more
than it is.

We created a new light between the both of us.
A life we talked about but never imagined would come so soon.

Everything will never be like the past again,
This is our first steps as people we've never been before...

And it's so **** scary,
And I've never been happier.

You move me chemically more than any other person

We kiss like we invented it.

We were not created for rejection,

So it's okay to cry.

You introduced me to myself in the midst of everything I never wanted to be.

Your skin was born to know mine.

I am not nice because I want everyone to like me.

I am nice because I know there are people out there that are like me.

Don't be so foolish to think you even belong anywhere.

If you were born to stay in one place, God would've made you a tree.

There are times where I feel like I am worshiped by the sun and the stars,
And then there the times where I only feel their fire torching down everything I am.

I know I am nothing special,
But ****,
I'm the ****.

Sometimes the photos with the least detail, come with the best stories.

Making love was never about you and me being naked together in a bed.

We made love whenever we held hands.

All my life I've been running away.

Only until now have I discovered the place I was always meaning to run to.

The way the world expresses love isn't the way I feel about you.

You're more than a rush through my veins,
more than a kissy face emoji next to a red shape,
more than a cute picture,
more than a lover of my body...
You are more than "babe",
And we are more than a bunch of "I love you's."

You are more,
You are more,
You are more than that.
We are more than they give us credit for.

You were not supposed to be here,
But you stayed,
And now you're the most beautiful thing I can say that's mine.

Is it insecurity I need to fill,

Or an over abundance of love I have to give?

You're the hope that pulls my lips towards the surface of the ocean when
I am drowning.
You're the relief and peace in that inhale I was reaching for,
And when I am exhausted and cold,
You are the comfort in the heat
of the sun.

You are too far away from me.

If I am only a chapter in your story book...

I am the height of the adventure.
I may not be the light at the end of the tunnel,
But I am rising tension with the quotes that you wish you wrote,
And the kind of love that you'll find on the lips and fingertips of every character,
but won't be able to find in the real world.

Perhaps you're in love with fiction.

Perhaps that's what I am.

"I love you..."
I've heard these words as a reminder of a promise,
A promise that haunts me in the darkest and most innocent part of my soul.
I thought of these words like they were a hand striking my skin,
Leaving red marks and bruises.
"I thought you loved me, too?"
Was the worst.
I lived my life learning how to use these words in the wrong way;
As protection. As a shield that kept me unharmed from the strikes of,
"I love you."
But the strikes still came. And my skin had only gotten more discolored...
"I love you, too."
Shouldn't be said in FEAR.

I'm learning the truth now.
My dear,
You have rewritten the definitions of the words I had, for so long, known as
Pain from my Past.
"Love," is not a hand that steals the stars from the sky,
It is the reason why the galaxies exist.

We met under the night sky.
With bitterness layered in the breeze,
Yet with that came honest intentions and curiosity.
And we played under the stars, tracing out unsaid promises into each other's skin...
Saying things to each other
as if the
morning wasn't going
to come.

But the morning did come,
And you were still there.
The sun rose and shone on my flaws,
And you were still there.

You think you know the way I think, huh?
You think you know me.

If you thought the way I did, you would have killed yourself by now.
And if you knew me,
You'd know that I love life way too much to end it.

I feel like I am losing you.

Perhaps you've taken another form of yourself,
Or you have always been this way...

And if you have, I painfully regret not noticing it before.
Unless I did see this, but I ignored the truths in your past's pattern.

Either way, I feel like I am losing you.
And I cannot do anything but
Watch.

I feel so stupid to be crying over this still.

But ****.
It was you.

When you have those mornings
when you wake up and
you can't
love yourself,

I will love you.

When you have those afternoons where you cannot
hold
yourself
together,

I will hold you.

And when you have those nights where your thoughts take over
and they won't
go
away,
I will stay with you 'till the morning

And I
will
love you
all
over
again.

I feel like I only know how to bring out the crazy in everyone I care about.

with the thought of being gone.

I need the ocean.
I would die without her waves to surround me and hold me.
I need her salty kisses to comfort me when my heart gets cold,
because even though the ocean is always blue she is the warmest thing next to home.

I need the ocean, but
I would leave the ocean for you.

You are as classic and unpredictable as the colors of the sky.

We move in a way that isn't new to the world.
People have heard of it, but hardly get to experience this type of way.

You love me in words, yes, but the way you love isn't like a typed out essay. It is not stagnant. It is not
Contained.
Our love is on the move, it flows
Through the wind that sends your words to my ears
Over and over through the warmth of your lips on mine...
Through the spray of the ocean, I am there with you
As you are there with me under the sky's exchange between the sun and the moon.

This, what we have, isn't new to the world.

But we have it.