He was my happiness also my pain,
He was the hell in my heaven,
He was the demon in my sanity,
But I'd lie if I'll tell you I didn't like it.

He was the nightmare I want to have every night.
He was the darkness I will always choose over the light.
He was the devil I want to hug so tight.
Loving him was wrong? No, it feels so right.

Miracle and fate *****,
If I can't have you I'll make our own miracle.
I don't care about the possibilities,
I chose you and only you.

Why can't I have you?
You're my wish that can't come true .
Why can't it be you?
You're the future I want but I can't have.

If the door's open,
I'll lock it up and throw away the key.
I don't want to leave nor take a rest,
I refuse to move on.

You are the art,
I'm not the artist.
You are the protagonist,
I'm just an extra.

Your words were like a dagger.
I'm jealous but I'm not your lover.
You love her more than me,
But I don't want to set you free.

This wasn't the first time,
But I missed you real bad.
My heart beat was out of rhyme,
You were the guy that I will never had

Still growing
My feelings for you are still growing
When will it stop?
No one knows.

You weren't a saint
But it's okay
I love you and I like you
With flaws and imperfection

I miss our sweetnes,
I miss the feeling of moment that we first met.
I miss your sweetness,
I miss you and you only.

My words wasn't enough.
You still need someone else.
I'm still not enough.
You still need different words I guess.

You were my silhouette.
But you were also my favorite rendezvous.
You were the home I wanted,
But I wasn't the one you needed

Have your serene smile,
And your night will be fine.
The sky will look surreal,
Full of star for you to see and feel.

Moonbeam makes your dream so sweet.
Stars will read you a right story,
And time slowly making you fall asleep.
A good night won't let you fall too deep.

The shooting star falls,
Have one wish for you to speak
Good night and sweet dreams.

A gaze from Moonlight,
Sweet smile gushing from starlight,
Wishing you goodnight.

As time gets older,
Things change and adapts.
It's no need to change yourself.

Wolves stay with their packs.
Penguins travel together.
Humans give their love.

Inhale the blue sky,
Exhale lot of star.
Continue reaching high top.

Dreams will make us fly.
It's nice we could reach the sky
We will soar so high.

The day is so sweet.
The birds sings their tweets.
You and God's blessings may meet.

Breathe the fresh air breeze.
Don't let the cold morning make you freeze.
Smiling will always be your way,
To make your great and peaceful day.

Your talents and intelligent was a treasure.
You were a great artist even if you weren't sure.
You are a beautiful gift given by the heaven,
So put a smile that will struck a maiden.

You twinkle when you're being you.
Be unique and different it will be a great view.
Don't start your day without your smile,
Because wearing it is like having your own style.

Miracle happened not only once but twice,
He let us meet again after so many tries.
Meeting you again brought me into tears,
Thoughts of losing you make me shiver in fear.

I am moved by your sweetness.
I am mesmerized by your kindness.
Do I deserve someone like you?
Am I worthy of having you?

I want to be better,
But you said me being weak doesn't really matter.
Unintentionally you became my knight,
You came and you lessen my fright.

If my words is your energy,
I'll give it to you wholeheartedly.
If my words are enough for you,
Then it's all yours, it will always be true.

You're the guy who deserve every praises.
You are worthy of all those respectful gazes.
You were the gift not me,
You were created perfectly.

How can you hit my heart so effortless?
How can you do nothing and still look your best?
How can you put a smile in my face that easy?
How can your words makes me feel so free?

Boy, unintended you fixed my heart.
My pieces were empty until you became my art.
It may sound crazy and lame,
But you inspired me the moment that you came.

I don't care about their compliments,
Your compliment is enough to leave it permanent.
You're nice, sweet, hardworking and a workaholic guy,
And so I wish never lose your smile.

Can I take your words seriously?
I will never let you go free.
I don't want to see you feeling blue,
So yes, I'm willing and I'll be happy to take you.

You promised to stay,
Woke up not feeling okay.
You left far away.

Dreams I have seen in my head,
What a useful bed-
Making me undead.

Eyes that reflected all the colors of blue,
And lips that never utters the truth.
Ears that is tired of listening with all of the request and lies,
and a million pieces of heart because of heartbreaks and cries.

She's always been the se cond choice,
She's tired of being always the bridge, for being always Eros' substitute.
She's been the one call away friend in a one sided friendship,
and now she can't keep the act as happy go lucky girl in front of the public.

She have the rainbow in her smile,
but there's a swelling storm in her eyes.
She have the brightest morning in her laugh,
but there's a depths of despair inside her mind.

She love him for the first time,
She never knew she'd be falling to deep.
She laid her eyes only to him,
She never knew it was hard to look away.

He is the reason of her smiles,
He is the reason why she listened to all the lies.
He is the reason of her every night cries,
He is the reason why she lost without giving a fight.

She have loved her for a short moment of time,
He have made her heart beats out of rhyme.
She made a great mistake of confessing,
He have made a decision that he doesn't have any feelings.

She was summer and she met her storm,
He was the storm and destroyed the summer.
She was the sun and she met her moon,
He was the moon and gave cold response to the sun.

She wanted to scream,
She wanted to tell that her world was so dim.
She wanted to say,
I don't want to be just your friend to call away.

You painted blue in my eyes.
You made a meal of lies,
I've made so many tries,
to make myself clear to your eyes.

Loyal is different from faithful;
Loyal is like saying to every girl that they are beautiful.
Faithful is like saying only to me that I am beautiful.
It's okay if you're loyal, but I want you to be faithful.

I'll accept who you truly are,
but understand that I've been hurt before.
I'll accept if you'll smile to others.
but love me forever.

Be mine,
and I'm all yours forever.
I'll take the risk to fall in line,
Cause' with you I know I'm happier.

I had committed a sin,
But I still look clean.
No one could see me,
So don't be silly I'm still free.

I slit their throat and let the blood flow.
I pierced a knife in the heart and make their beats run slow.
I cut their ears so that they can't hear me roam around.
I burned their tongue so they can't make any sound.

I scoped their eyes so they won't at least cry.
I stitched their lips so that they can't utter a lie.
I torture them with my hand,
and bury them in a land.

It's a crime that I've committed to make them blind,
It's a perfect scene I created in my mind.
You see I'm not really that kind,
Cause I killed people in my mind.

Never be afraid I hate them but I kept it silent,
I'll never utter a word or do a thing.
I just smiled cause I knew I can't do something about it.
I just keep my mouth shut and will keep a secret what's really on my mind.

I'm so happy with our prologue,
that I never thought about our epilogue.
I'm so mesmerized by our first chapter,
that I never thought the possibility of our final chapter.

Prologue:
"Friend request accepted"
"Connected"
"Say hi to your new facebook friend"

First chapter,
You chatted "Hi", I replied "Hello"
Second chapter,
I told my secrets, you shared yours.

Third chapter,
You became my human diary.
Fourth chapter,
I learned about your favorite food

Fifth chapter,
You called, I heard your voice; you heard my laugh.
Sixth chapter,
Your sweet words and chats are dangerous.

Eighth chapter,
I'm trying not to fall.
Ninth chapter,
The cliff cracked and slowly I'm falling

Tenth chapter,
You're falling.
Eleventh chapter,
I thought it was me.

Twelfth chapter,
You disappeared.
Thirteenth chapter,
You stop chatting and calling me.

Fourteenth chapter,
I'm missing you.
Fifteenth chapter,
you're missing her.

Sixteenth chapter,
"I love you"
Final Chapter,
"I love her"

Epilogue:
"Change color"
"Clear Nicknames"
New Message: "Goodbye"

I'm good at writing,
I'm good at story telling,
I'm good at words to divert your feelings,
I'm good at paper and pen holding.

I can turn the pen into a beautiful word,
I can turn the paper into a perfect world,
I can make the ink into a piece,
I can make the rhyme that will never miss.

I can write something about you without any rant,
I can tell your story if that's what  you want,
I can play the words that is hard to pronounce,
I can make you smile if writing will be my chance.

How good can I be if you can't understand why I write?
How good can I be if you're not telling me if my story is right?
How can I flatter you with my words if I can't feel your emotions?
How can I hold a paper and a pen if there's a caution?

You're my pen in my every word,
You're my paper in my perfect little world,
You make the ink so I can make a piece,
You create the rhyme that I always miss.

But lately, I keep on messing up,
I keep on thinking to give up.
Lately I stop on dreaming,
and started to wish about something

Is it wrong for me to wish something?
Like can I be the subject to inspire you in writing?
or can you try to write me a story?
or can you create a piece about me?

One of my dreams is to see you;
Try, to make me smile by creating a piece full of words.
Try to make me smile by writing a rhyme saying I'm your world.
and try to make me smile by telling our story by breaking my words' record.

I'm laying in bed,
But I felt the thread.
It's leading me instead,
in the way of my death.

Jealousy strikes again,
It give shivers and pain.
Yet, I don't have the rights,
cause you're not mine from the start.

Your laugh is like a melody,
and it was sang beautifully.
Again, it was made not for me,
but for your beautiful lady.

Your smile was vibrant,
it looks so elegant.
but babe, it was made for your lover ---
and it was not me I'm just a player.

I wish for a lot of things;
Like your name will appear always when my phone rings,
That I can hold your hand in public,
I can show my love without any hint of guilt.

I dream for a lot of things;
Like you will call me from night till morning,
That you'll be sweet in me in public,
You can show your love without any hint of fear.

You made an awesome creation,
I never asked but I felt your rejection.
So here's my best decision,
I love you but goodbye my happy station.

The chilly wind that whines over the roof.
Break down the heavy rain that no one can create a spoof.
A pile of water rolling down the mountain.
Loads of thunders and Lightnings thread by chain.

Another wild storm is here to disturb the night,
Another wave of death is here to take a bite.
The rattling and flapping sound of the leaves,
bring shivers to each pair of sleeves.

Time has been ticking,
Hearts kept on beating.
People can't stop loving,
with Cupid's arrow they are falling.

Cupid is up to something,
He's making the pieces of our feelings.
Collecting the jar of heart from every human being,
pairs of heart that completes the red string.

Cupid wont let us down,
He will never take a shot that will make us frown.
Take the crown,
and love till dawn.

Umbra were my acquaintance.
Rehabilitating was never been on my plan.
Daftness was there to give me a chance,
Iciness was the best attitude that I’ve done.

Elysian was ready to hug me, yet;
Lucifer got one of my feet.
Acting that I never been felt any sick,
Catching my breath, I’m waiting for someone to save me by their trick.

Aching heart has been pushing and calling me,
Beckon me to end everything in order to be free.
Aspiring to turn myself as a beautiful literary piece in deep blue sea,
Notifying that I’ll never see how badly was reality.

In the end I’m all alone,
Listening when will I ever fall and be thrown.
Lachrymose face is my perfect pattern,
And no one seems to bother how they left my heart broken.

Here I am breaking the words I cannot say,
Standing here smiling like an idiot.
Scrolling my phone to choose the best song for today,
a song that would definitely go straight to your heart.

We met unexpectedly,
it was the right timing but we're in the wrong place.
We met when my heart got broken and yours that felt loneliness,
but we met behind the world of screen.

We got close impressively,
For starters I showed the real me that quick.
I told you what I can't, want, need and wishes to do.
I asked myself, why do I need to be me for you?

Surprisingly we bond a little longer,
I didn't stop same with you.
You begun to tell your secrets, you begun trusting me.
And I begun to be afraid.

That night when you decided to trust me I cried, a lot.
Knowing your secret I thought it would hurt me a lot
That your secret would left me so bad.
And your secret is the reason why I cried.

You didn't know that my sobs were meant for you.
You didn't know because you never had the chance.
So I kept it as a secret, I wrote down a piece because of it.
I wrote down with my hands 'cause I can't take the pain away.

Is this even possible?
Loving you and I can keep it as a secret.
Is this even true?
I love you and I kept it in silence.

What is love?
Love is something you must risk it all.
Love is something that will push you to give your all.
Love is something scary to feel.

I'm scared that I felt it for the first time,
I'm even terrified to know that I felt it for you.
Isn't scary? I love you yet I can't take the risk.
Isn't terrifying? I accepted the fact that I fell for you yet I must not give my all

This is suppose to be a love letter,
but in different version.
This is a computerize love letter,
in different form and can't be sent directly to the owner.

Do you know who's the owner of this love letter?
To be precise do you know who's the person I love?
Do you know to whom I will send this?
You can't take a guess, because this letter can't be shared secretly.

I will share this to the world,
I love you and they need to know it.
I won't tell to anyone who's the unlucky guy.
I love you and you will never know that it was you.

The Possibilities that kept on popping on my mind;
Possibility that you might love me back,
Possibility that you might hate me instead,
and possibility that I might get my heart broken again.

I need to stop falling.
I must pretend not knowing him.
I shouldn't keep on believing,
I can see clearly that he's just a dream.

I don't write well, but when it comes to you I will write a hundred piece or even thousands of poem just to make you feel that you are loved.
-Sacred Heart

You were there when we laugh,
You were there to make us tough.
We were there to make you smile,
We stayed when you asked us to stay for a while.

You were there through ups and downs,
You were there to save us with a beautiful sound.
We were there when you cried,
We were there to catch you when you fall down from tired.

You will always be there to welcome us,
You will always be there to gave a lot of trust.
We will always be there to back you up,
We will always be there to make you on top.

You will always be there to bring us back with a light,
You will always be there to make everything as a positive sight.
We will be there when you need a call,
We will be there to catch you when you fall.

You will always look the same even if you grew old,
You will always be our sister it will never fold.
We will always look at you with all our love,
We will always be your friend like a flock of white doves.

You may and can change,
but we will never see it as strange.
You may and can forget,
but we will make sure to make another good memories with full set.

You may and can chase all your dreams,
we won't fail to make you firm.
You may and can create a whole new world,
but we will budge in without any words.

You may and can erase us,
but we won't stop to draw us back to your life.
You may and can stop loving us,
sorry to say but we will force to take your heart.

You must never forget who and what you are,
or else you will see our backs very far.
You must never chose us over your family,
or else you will never see us smile freely.

You must choose the right path,
stay at rest we will follow you back.
You must meet and wait us at the end,
we will make a new journey with all of us in trend.

You must choose what's best for you,
we must choose what's best for ourselves.
You must create a beautiful and unique dreams,
we must create a strong and wonderful memories.

This poem was written because of you,
It was created because you exist.
This piece was completed because of your presence,
and was notice because you are known.

However, I can sense that you already met your edge.
You already reach your limit,
You were already falling behind;
at least that what they've said.

I can see how you hide those ****** tears.
I know how to find the scars you kept underneath your longsleeves.
I was informed how you change your own perspective,
and I feel ashamed for I did nothing but to stare.

I was there amuse by your smile but refuse to look in your eyes,
I was there admiring your new outfit but failed to look in your wrist,
I was there talking how you change so much but failed to question why,
I was there watching you like you're a new release and in trend movie.

So Dear J,
I miss how you make everything so positive.
I miss how you would talk about your dreams.
I miss how you live your life.
I miss the unique, pure and full of love kind of you.

I still see you but I know you're not you,
I want to look in your eyes but you always divert it far from my gaze.
I want to hold your scar but you never gave me a chance.
I was stupid to ask you to come back but I know you're already dead inside.

This ****** poem might and will never catch your eye.
This all good for nothing piece may and will never help you.
This piece of garbage will never change and pull you back.
I might never pull you and bring you back to life.

Dear J, can I watch you again ---
How you think of yourself as useless,
How you look yourself unattractive and heart broken?
Surprisingly blood was dripping and I look in the mirror it was broken.

We never put ourselves surrounded by high walls,
We let anyone to come in because they shout a lot of calls.
We mold each other by opening each hearts and throwing away the chains and locks,
We gave all the keys to them so they can pass trough all the blocks.

We love all the people around us.
People like every part of our cast.
We all complement each other's flaws.
We can give our truest side and they will never call us low

We were happy by our situation back then,
Everything changed when we let our emotion drive our brain.
We love them so much to the point we are ready to give our all,
But they all misread us and they let us fall.

We decided to put ourselves surrounded by high walls,
We will never let anyone get inside even if they make so many calls.
We will remake each other by putting each heart with chains and locks.
We will get rid of the key so they will feel our pure blocks.

We will trust no one outside our world,
We will never open up and you guys will never hear a word.
We will never keep our guard down,
cause no one is deserve to set foot in our ground.

They killed us before our 18th birthday,
Now it's our debt to repay them someday.
But we promise it won't take too long,
Please welcome the monsters you made because you judge us wrong.