another second ticks by, then a minute, then an hour, and hours turn to days into months,
at some point all these seconds started blending into just one,

A cold embrace of the sea,
The warm nest of a raging fire,

flying through the air while my heart beats rapidly, my mind tells me not to but I can’t stop, and I’m running tears streaming down my face,

one..! two..! three..!

my feet take off and I’m soaring through the air, the sky is blue and it reminds me of summer in second grade, but the wind nips at my skin and i realize I’m falling not soaring, I’m falling head first into the abyss of my own mind

I’m falling down the rabbit holes hidden underneath the messy leaves and papers that cover that floors of my mind

The paint is chipped and the artwork is destroyed, I’ve torn it all apart in a rage so thick it could smother you in seconds, I’ve played it over in my head a thousand times yet I can’t seem to find where I went wrong

And then the rage hits full force, now my minds on fire and the walls are crumbling, the air is suffocating and there’s blood dripping from my hands yet I relentless rip and tear at the walls screaming about those who have hurt me

Screaming at those who gave me their rage without warning
And once I’ve finally tore everything down and set it ablaze I stand in the center of my mind looking at the destruction I’ve created
But it’s okay

because in the distance the sky is still blue and I’m still standing on the ground

My eyes watch
as the sky
is painted with colors of
soft blues & white fluffs
to
vivid pinks & dazzling oranges.

Soon to be
pitch blacks & deep violets
with tiny bright lights
speckled on with flicks of His brush.

Soon to be tomorrow,
strokes of
happy yellows & stunning golds.

The Bright baby blue sky
Covered with pastel pink clouds
Painting the dark blue lake
While green trees loom over it's side
Sounds of children playfully yelling is heard
Over the gentle music playing in my ears
It's so calming I could stay here forever
I could stay here forever
I wish I could stay here
I'll miss this when I leave

I want to be outside in that sky

Summertime, so free, so high

Four walls are my captivity

This roof overhead contains me

I have so much to release, to give,
To share, to sing, to dance, to live!

So let me outside in that sky

Summertime, so free, so high

Delicious hues of blue
Behind linen clouds
Stampeding
Slowly
From horizon
To horizon
As swirling calls of birds
Cheer them on.