another second ticks by, then a minute, then an hour, and hours turn to days into months,
at some point all these seconds started blending into just one,
A cold embrace of the sea,
The warm nest of a raging fire,
flying through the air while my heart beats rapidly, my mind tells me not to but I can’t stop, and I’m running tears streaming down my face,
one..! two..! three..!
my feet take off and I’m soaring through the air, the sky is blue and it reminds me of summer in second grade, but the wind nips at my skin and i realize I’m falling not soaring, I’m falling head first into the abyss of my own mind
I’m falling down the rabbit holes hidden underneath the messy leaves and papers that cover that floors of my mind
The paint is chipped and the artwork is destroyed, I’ve torn it all apart in a rage so thick it could smother you in seconds, I’ve played it over in my head a thousand times yet I can’t seem to find where I went wrong
And then the rage hits full force, now my minds on fire and the walls are crumbling, the air is suffocating and there’s blood dripping from my hands yet I relentless rip and tear at the walls screaming about those who have hurt me
Screaming at those who gave me their rage without warning
And once I’ve finally tore everything down and set it ablaze I stand in the center of my mind looking at the destruction I’ve created
But it’s okay
because in the distance the sky is still blue and I’m still standing on the ground