I wish I was beautiful

I wish "make-up is just for fun"
Wasn't a lie

I wish I wasn't so anxious
all the ******* time

I wish I didn't think about killing myself
every single night

I wish my husband
wasn't the only thing keeping me alive

I wish I wasn't depressed
I wish I had more drive

I wish that I believed
that I can actually do something in my life

I wish I didn't worry
About what others say

I wish we still had that love
that I miss every single day

I wish I wasn't holding back tears
typing this whole thing out

I wish things were different.
I wish I brought you happiness
I wish I didn't think you were obligated
I wish I made your heart full
I wish I wasn't so down
I wish I didn't have to control everything
I wish I could just let things go

I wish I still had a therapist
that would tell me what to do

I wish I didn't have to hide my tears
So I don't shed them in front of you

I wish I was good at writing
It's something I've always loved to do

I wish I could look in the mirror
and find a much better view

I wish I didn't feel like I was broken

I wish I could pick a style

I wish I didn't hate rhyming

I wish I didn't think you were mad at me all the time

I wish I didn't keep having nightmares

I wish my medication worked

I wish I could get a grip

I wish I could handle what life throws at me

But here I am writing a wish list that I'm anxious will just sound like I'm complaining about life and not show how terribly anxious and depressed I really am.

Hello, Poetry.

I hope today finds you well
and the light of the world has shone on you.
I hope today you save a new soul,
or some new soul saves you.

I hope today you see the world
as beautiful as it sees you.
I hope today someone is moved
enough to embrace you
and your love.

I hope today brings you no sorrow.
I hope today only brings you joy
and smiles.
I hope today you are not taken
for granted.

I hope today
you are shown you are loved.
I hope today you realize that
you are beautiful
and kind.

I hope today you realize why
that special someone has you on their mind.
I hope today you see yourself
as the world sees you.
I hope today you remember your name,
Poetry,
and you wear it proud
with your
head
held
high.

I don't pray often
But when I do, I thank God
For giving me you

Is it worth it to
Hurt the one you love so that
Your hurting can stop?

I read these poems of beauty
of love compared to other things
used in analogies and metaphors
But I can't do that with this love
because it's unlike anything I've ever known.

There's a chasm between us
And with every touch
it grows
It's obvious to me
That we are nowhere near
Where we used to be
The future we planned
Will never be our history
We've just grown apart
Separate in what we want
Separate in matters of the heart
You want to hold on
and all I want
is to

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