How
A simple sound
That is yet to be found
I can see what he will do
But I never get the clue
How
I'll never know
How did he ever met her
How did he never love me
How could he leave
How is he

My love
the only one
I was deceived
because I'm a nobody
and I liked it when you treated me as a somebody
so I fell for a 3 year war
what's the body count of all the heart's you've killed
what was the score of the game you were playing
The puppeteer I should of seen
I became another one on a string  
I shouldn't of said it was all in my head
maybe I would have realized he was walking ahead
and I was the one hanging on by a thread
why did it have be
that I was just a hobby to fill
the time you had to waste
the side dish if you will
why was she was the main course
plus the dessert
how is it fair that I'm the one having withdrawl
when it was me who was suppose to be the drug
but at least my heart will heal
As for you though
Don't you know
Even if take you 100 hearts
you'll never even have 1

Time is gone
It's not that simple when you simply visit
There's not much thought when you think of them again
A glimpse is a look but only momentarily
And it's only a days time when they come to see you once more
Gone
You know they'll be tomorrow
And for days after that full of sorrow
You'll never even be happy the time came back
For you know soon it will be gone just as she was before

How can you be so infatuated on a single substance
A single thing that can ruin any connection that may try to sprout
To make what is already grown
fragile enough untill they all have been shattered

As it is a wall blocking those who choose it
from the real world
and yet you choose the foreign substance
but do you consider how dangerous that something is
That you can loose your own body
your own mind
your own life

People talk about aliens
or if mind control really exists
but the undeniable is already reeping the nation  
with the acceptance age being 21

you have given over your mind and body
The contract signed
A signature with your name finished in a lithal red
It might as well of been your will
For the only life you will live
won't even be lived as as you

you choose to be isolated
accompanied by something you've only know for a couple of years
and leave behind the people whom you have known all your life
or worse all of theirs

The life where you have choices
to not be bounded
To be in control
Is gone with a simple existence
a baneful prison
A fate which you solidified
with setting a reminder in the back of your head
A nag that is eating away any sanity  
Deteriorating each sip that goes by

The mind so weak
though so always frail
easy to be controlled by a simple substance

yet It is only though that
when your body looses way
and the pain from with in seeps through
with the physical limitations having been met
For then you finally say
I shouldn't of started
Yet how come you still won't stop?

Eyes a blur
The clear liquid falls some more
A sticky feeling upon the skin
not a feeling within
nor no thought calls
as the clear liquid falls
why do I feel warmth
when it's suppose to heal
comfort in the coldest of times
but how is it now I can't stop the red going through my head
and the fire that reaches my veins
and inspires my heart to reach new heights
I can't breath
my eyes collapsed
everything has stopped
except the warmth
that is keeping me frozen
my face is a blaze
as the clear liquid falls
The tears of warmth
was all I could recall

Thoughts or actions with no care ahead
you speak simply without worry about what you said
you can laugh without getting upset
or stand up without heat rushing to your head
eyes you know are there
yet how are they no where to be seen
I don't make a sound
for the fear of feeling drowned
that comes anyhow
but not for not making a sound
instead for not being allowed
why am I casted the spell on
when I see everyone around me free
yet I can't even plea
and you can't see me
If I could only make a wish
so that you could see
This isn't me

Muffled buzzes surrounding your ears
Ringing bells come through your head
you heard the danger
you knew the risk
yet still you went
I watched you walk away
farther and farther
until only the thought was left
The night was ablaze
a fire from within drowning in a burn
it was a night to remember
and a night I can't forget
it's replying in my head
a scratch in a tape
I should of stopped you
I shouldn't of let you go
yet you were gone when mornings wind blew.

1 2 3

hush little baby
it will be alright

4 5 6

shh its okay
nothing to fear

7 8 9

Don't worry
you're okay

10 11 12

You have learned your lesson
mistakes happen

13 14 15

Don't do that again
You're getting too old

16 17 18

You're not a child anymore
That is not okay

19 20 21

You're on your own

It's okay
a customary reaction
A familiar routine
to a question always asking
On a face always masking

Day by day the days are the same
with us all insane
the word holds no value
and means nothing compared to what it seems
To what it is are supposed to mean
it has lost all value
and lost all fight
the convictions once held
Isn't bounding the truth
It is covering up a call for help
the system has failed
what are they suppose to say
help

Not in a society that reacts disproportionately
where things are taken to new heights
when the fear of falling
leads them to fail
They can't go that route
for the predators are out to hunt
show no signs
And don't show what's inside
and perhaps they will believe that side
that perhaps you are one of them
so as of now
You say you are okay

It is damaged
yet the strings still play when plucked
the fingers strum
all sprouting from a twisted hand
The music is troubled as it tries to form words
her Insides become out
yet it doesn't sum up the half
It was more than it was meant to be
More than what we were used to hearing
The sound contacted instantly
Something brimming of powerful moments
Those of true knowledge
which we cover with daily life
The terror of which one has lived through
wanting never again to arise and repeat
Shredded imaging, unadmitted longings, and high intensity fear
We can't live at that pitch
So every so often something shatters like ice
we fall into a river of our own existence
We are aware
because the realization is in the sound

Velvet secrets linger away
angels decay in poison joy
soft fever sky's
in a early mornings dew
icy words placed on the ghostly smile
The incident placed in a file
as the hearts color never knew hue
the baby's born blue

There I lay
bleeding eternity
We remember the broken memories
In the morning that lingers near
Surronded by decaying flowers
fragile as I may be
then why only me
  was I trapped in a glass society
As a vast heart desires
It can only isolate those she once embraced for her spirt was left to lay

My wings are clipped
My feet stay gripped
I screech and scream
Once a week I allow a dream
Where I can fly
I still know its a lie
But oh what I would see
I would finally be free
Oh where I would go
All that I could know
When I awake
My will it takes
My hope it fades
The feeling of sadness invades
When it takes its place
It's quicker than anybody's embrace
Foolish I am
Still, I’m ******
I am here to stay
Every single day