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May 2017 · 571
Mystery Girl
ADS May 2017
Started off with a bad joke
Then I kept playing my cards
She was eating it up
Loving every word I said
Laughing at everything I said

I was talking to her just to pass the time
She has a though exterior
She has a heart of gold
A body composed by an angel

The way she opened up was so exhilarating
Then she started hitting on me
Telling me about how bold and brave I was
She loved how open I was with her
Although we were at work

Then she added me on Facebook
I would've never guessed
She Is a model with a massive following
Everyone wants her attention
Creepy guys have wrote her love poems
Just trying to grab her attention
Still awe struck by the fact she has a massive following on facebook
May 2017 · 317
My Masterpiece
ADS May 2017
I had a perfect picture of it in my mind
Then i went to work
One stroke here and then another there
Some days I painted to put my mind at ease
There were days I would paint with anger
Others I would paint so carefree
Before I knew it I was finished

I hated it
It wasn't what I pictured in my head
So I kept adding onto it
Until it became a beautiful collage
It wasn't what I pictured in my head
But now it's perfect
My life is going so great at this very moment. All my friends want my attention. I feel like wherever I go I know someone or someone recognizes me which is sort of weird. I have been invited to a wedding. I am going camping with a lot of my friends. My job is getting a lot easier. 5 months ago was the complete opposite of what my life is now.
May 2017 · 596
Deer In the Headlights
ADS May 2017
I don't want this
I am standing here looking clueless
Clueless to what is happening
I have accepted it won't end well
Still here I am
Standing here hoping it will be okay
I am terrified because today he looked at me
Looked at me with a fire that I have never seen
A fire that spoke with passion and love
A look that pierced my soul
I have bullet proof armor but his shot
Nearly killed me....
Why.... I didn't ask for this
May 2017 · 793
Happiness (Haiku)
ADS May 2017
Not searching for it
Just living what you believe
Breathing with such ease
Keeping life simple is the key to happiness in my opinion.
May 2017 · 827
Breathe
ADS May 2017
Seeing is believing
You can live without seeing
Breathing keeps a person running
Running to till that next deep breath
That next breath can be so full filling
It may be suffocating if you can't catch it
It may hurt while you are screaming
Screaming about something you believe
Some screams are silent and some cant be ignored
You may hold your breath in fear of losing
Losing what your last breath had
Just keep breathing....Just keep breathing....Just keep breathing
May 2017 · 345
Missing Person
ADS May 2017
I hate watching your life through this screen
I want to talk to you in person
I want to text you asking how everything is going
I want to call you and talk about life all night
I miss you
I just hate how much I miss you
There I said it. Not taking it back. I miss you
May 2017 · 437
Black Dream Catcher
ADS May 2017
Hey I bought you something....
Well I just wanted to say
I am tired of chasing you in my dreams
So I bought you this dream catcher
Because no matter how bad my dreams got
When you were in them they were always great
Now I want to stop dreaming and catch you in reality
Will you go out with me.....
Unspoken words....
May 2017 · 394
Just Another Date?
ADS May 2017
Well this wasn't expected
How did I end up here with her
Is this a sad story or a great beginning
She has always hated me
All I ever was was nice to her

We shared a few drinks
She got drunk then started talking to me
Like I was her best friend
I was just sitting there laughing
Laughing about how she completely lost
her tough exterior

She was melting into the palm of my hand
Telling me to open up more
Talk about whatever I wanted
What a weird position I was in
I could have easily taken it to the next level
I was just enjoying the moment
We laughed for about an hour straight
Then we called it a night
Weird date where I spent $80 on our meal. We had quite a few drinks. She told me she had a amazing time. So I guess I did something right.
May 2017 · 1.0k
How to Win Her Heart
ADS May 2017
Dear new guy,

Tomorrow is a big day
Not because it's Mother's Day
It's also her day
Today might be a emotional marathon
She might text you back immediately
She might text you back hours later
There will be no in between

Whatever you do don't play this game
I don't care how tired you are
Get up and surprise her with a breakfast date
When you get there she may be stubborn
She might tell you that she needs to put on some makeup
Don't let her
Lie if you have to and tell her that you have a reservation
Tell her she doesn't have time to get all dressed up

Now you guys are at breakfast
Keep the conversation light and fun
Try your hardest to push the conversation away from negativity
Make her laugh
She may not laugh but don't worry
You are making her day
All you have to do is stare into her eyes
Stare into her eyes and make her feel like she
Is the only girl in the world

Then take a trip to the park
Let her hair flow in the wind
While you dance with her heart
Hold her hand
Just talk about life with an excitement that cant be matched

Then invite her over and have a few drinks with your mom
She may surprise your mom with a gift
She's just that type of person

Whatever you do don't try anything crazy
Just be there for her
That's how you will win her heart



                                                         Sincerely your biggest fan,
                                                                    Alexander Leino
A date that I planned our a long time ago too bad it won't happen.
May 2017 · 1.3k
Hooks and Daggers
ADS May 2017
He set his hooks deep into her soul
She took the daggers from her past to **** him
Some how they both survived
In the end they tried saving one another
The closer they got to one another
The more the hooks pulled her apart
The more he bled
Now they have truly met their end
Not strong enough to save what they had
Now they are both dead
I hate seeing my friends jump from being in a relationship with someone to have it end. Then a few weeks past and they find themselves in the same situation with the same person.
May 2017 · 620
Wake Up!
ADS May 2017
Hey young man get up
Stop laying in bed doing nothing
You have a lot of work to do
You have to become a true man
Laying in bed is doing nothing for you
You think you have it all
You don't even have a dollar to your name
Where is your fire and passion
You need to get up and get whats yours
I promise you the world will someday be yours
You just have to believe in yourself
You need to learn to cook for yourself
You need to learn how to provide for yourself
You need to move out although I love you
I love to see you succeed
Instead of succeeding back to this **** bed
Some days I feel like a child. I just need to wake up with the same fire and passion everyday and get what is mine.
May 2017 · 385
Leap of Faith
ADS May 2017
Standing at the highest peak
Looking down at the beautiful land below him
Feeling a little light
Ready to jump and just let go
Let go of everything he has ever built
He has built castles
He has built a family he would die for
He has built everything he's ever dreamed of
He still feels like there's something missing
Missing something he can't find the blueprint for
A blueprint that would complete his ultimate project
A project that feels like it will never be finished
Just reminder those that look like they have everything together probably feel as incomplete as you do at this very moment. Its not a sprint its a marathon. (I honestly just hopped on here and just started writing. I have been doing it a lot lately and it kind of surprises me what comes out.)
May 2017 · 339
Childish Hunter
ADS May 2017
Nothing makes him stand out in particular
He's such a child pretending to be a man
Chasing a fallacy of societal norms
Setting traps trying to find his next victim
Traps filled with a false sense of security and warmth
Traps of which don't physically **** his prey
A trap that always takes the most important part
A victims heart

He's such a charming young boy
Sliver tongued with a side of mystery
Eyes filled with passion and fire
Always in pursuit of having ***
*** to feel like a man
*** to get another mental high
*** to fill a void that he can't satisfy

This poor boy fell into his own trap
He thought he had her trapped
Then she left him in his own trap

He's tired of having meaningless ***
*** that once made him feel like a man
He continually moves forward
Searching for *** that feels genuine
He feels like such a child begging for something
That he cant find or have
Recently I was hanging out with a beautiful woman that I really didn't know all that well. Some how the topic turned to ***. She asked me,"whats the best *** you ever had?" Kind of thrown off by the question I was surprised with which words came out of my mouth. In the past I would've of said without hesitation, "*** in which the woman finds the most pleasure." (Something along those lines) Last night all I said, "well the *** doesn't have to be great. What makes *** great is having *** with someone you truly care about. Someone you would be willing to risk it all for."
May 2017 · 201
Tired
ADS May 2017
Its barely works
Bright vivid colors becoming colorless
Its wide up is more of a cry for help
It clicks forward
Then comes to a halt
Just to be winded up and push forward again
Everyone has that friend that that don't talk to that often but when you do they give you a renewed hope. A renew hope of finding what you need. Whether that be a peace of mind, renewing your drive to finish a difficult task and or just finding happiness from all the small things life has to offer.
May 2017 · 1.3k
Money
ADS May 2017
I have it
I have what I've always wanted
I've starved for it
I've cried about it
I've pushed people away for it
I've convinced myself I will be better with it
I've realized it doesn't mean ****
Now I am more broke than I have ever been
I am doing well financially. I have always been taught that as long as you have your finances in line then everything well fall in place. This is furthest from the truth. Yes I am happy that I am doing well but I was happier when I was broke.
May 2017 · 348
Naive Grandchild
ADS May 2017
I'm sorry grandma
I was just told about what you are going through
You are in so much pain
You are literally dying right now
Dying of cancer is what they told me
Apparently you don't have long to live
I wish I could take back all those years
All those years I took you for granted
All those years where I wish we could talk
Talk about how you met my mom's dad
He really sounded like a great man
My parents tell me he was just like me
He died just a year before I was brought into this world
Oh how I wish we could talk about your life
Talk about your struggles
Talk about your greatest accomplishments

I am so thankful for you taking care of me
Taking care of my family
Being there for every struggle and every tear
That I never saw or heard
I was just an infant then
I was barely holding onto dear life
But I didn't know you were the one holding me
Holding my family together in our time of need

Then I got older and so did my sister
I feel like we didn't have those deep talks
Because I was still an infant and a little naive
I always felt like my sister overshadowed me
She always had something going on to talk about
Just because she was a bit older than me
I am not asking for forgiveness
I just want you to understand I love you
I just don't know how to rebuild this bridge
Because you live so far away from me
My grandma was diagnosed with cancer and shes in a lot of pain. She has lost her will to live and I dont know what I should do.
May 2017 · 1.0k
Locked out
ADS May 2017
I have the keys
The keys to every door
All of them have labels
Love
Life
Friendships
Relationships
Money
***
Success
I'm convinced someone keeps changing the locks
Everyone goes through life searching for all these things. Sometimes you open one door and another closes.
May 2017 · 262
Dead Soul
ADS May 2017
Shes paper thin
She wants the wind to take her away
Away from all this pain
She wears it all over ghostly white face
Her skin is colder than ice
Flames burning her internally
She is silently screaming out in pain
Shedding tears no one can see
She tries to push out words to sound okay
While her lungs keep collapsing with every breath she takes
She keeps telling herself everything will be okay
But she keeps falling into pits filled with demons
Demons that make her feel comfortable
Demons that tell her everything she wants to hear
Although see knows they all just want one thing
To give her a false sense of security
Just so they can dance with her heart
When all they plan to do is tear it apart
Its just such a hard thing to see
When all you want to do is tell her everything is okay
ADS May 2017
Most people don't go on traditional dates
They are too afraid to go on blind dates
Too afraid to go on multiple dates
Potential couples fear rejection
So they text each other how they feel
Being spontaneous has lost a lot of meaning
At least it will be a Facebook post
A Facebook post to show status
A Facebook post to brag about seeing someone
Texting can ruin relationships
Texting leads to miscommunications
People rush to put labels on their thing
Because most people are too insecure to not have
some form of security saying that he's mine

I wish I could go back in time
Where dating wasn't a constant battle
A constant battle of showing your interest
While remaining distant enough to avoid suffocating the spark
Where you didn't have to worry about a good morning text
Where if you wanted to talk to someone you would call them
Where it was just you and them and not all your Facebook friends
Whom always put their two cents into where you two should be at
Where relationships weren't built over text and then destroyed in person
Oh how I wish I could go back in time
Kind of a ranty "poem." Today I came to the realization that I have never gone on a blind date or a traditional date where I know very little about the person before going out with them. So today i tried messaging someone on tinder and told them that I want to go on a traditional date instead of learning about one another through text. I told them they could pick the restaruant and I would pay. Then they told me that would be moving too fast for them...... I laughed so hard when she sent me that. It wasn't like I was inviting her over to my house for dinner. Dating has become such a **** show nowadays.
May 2017 · 350
Bleeding Insecurities
ADS May 2017
Wow my world feels whole when she’s around
She carries herself in such a light-heated manner
I want to ask her out because her Facebook status says she's single
I wonder if she would ever go out with a guy like me
There are so many guys that are more intelligent than me
Better looking than me
More accomplished than me
Actually never mind I will just avoid getting hurt
Because I can tell that she is out of my league

Wow my world feels so much brighter when he's around
He carries himself with so much confidence and hope
I want to ask him out because his Facebook status says he's single
I wonder if he would ever go out with a girl like me
There are so many girls that are more intelligent than me
Better looking than me
More accomplished than me
Actually never mind I will just avoid getting hurt
Because I can tell that he is out of my league
I feel like a lot of people like each other but are too afraid to admit because they are afraid of rejection. With the new age of technology people are always comparing themselves to others which makes them so insecure that they don't bother trying because they feel like the person they like can do better.
Apr 2017 · 327
Friend zoned!
ADS Apr 2017
So many boys cry about this made up space
So many girls use it as an excuse to call a guy fake
Truth be told some people are best off as friends
If you don't see it everyone else does
Time will show you what you are meant to be
Don't hurt yourself about being in this zone
It hurts a ton more not knowing if you are there are not
It takes a toll on your mind and heart
It can tear the strongest person apart
True strength comes to those that accept this zone
Even more for those that love this zone
You will find people that put you in this zone
But your mind will battle your heart
Your heart will scream please catch me
While your mind says please don't lose this person
For one they make your world seem less dark
If you don't find this zone then leave that person playing
With your heart because they don't appreciate your well being
So if you truly care about this person that put you in this zone
Then let it happen and don't push them way
Because it will just makes you weak and bitter
Real men and woman embrace this zone
They understand this is where you can heal
Heal your mind
Heal your heart
Heal your friendship
Heal yourself so you wont miss that next person
Today I finally made it to the friend zone. I honestly can say I couldn't be happier. I feel so free and my mind isn't clutter with doubt or pain. Just happiness and hope for a new start. If anyone is struggling with this type of situation just ask and embrace whatever answer you get, because its not worth having a false sense of hope.
Apr 2017 · 282
Lost Reality (Haiku)
ADS Apr 2017
Saw you in my dream
We were laughing in pure glee
Woke up so happy
The past few months I've had so many dreams about a girl I use to be close with. All of those previous dreams were either very awkward or just sad and depressing because all we put each other through. This was the first one that was just pure happiness and joy. It was just filled with so much life and the feeling of being free.
Apr 2017 · 213
Dream Catcher
ADS Apr 2017
It was a very long chase
I chased it for far too long
The chase ended when I actually caught it
It wasn't all I dreamed it to be
How could I be so foolish to believe
That my dream would become a reality
Makes me wish I could go back to that dream
Now I am awake wishing I could go back to sleep
Sometimes the things you wish for are actually not what they thought they would be.
Apr 2017 · 212
Who Are You?
ADS Apr 2017
This is kind of scary
We are almost too similar
Places, books, things we do for fun
But we are just texting
Hopefully I will get to meet you soon
Hopefully we will become one
Because I feel like I already know you
Because you are the female version of me
I found someone on tinder of all places and we are so similar it's eerie.
Apr 2017 · 1.0k
Good Days
ADS Apr 2017
Everyone alive has twenty four hours of choices
Everyone has good and bad days
The key is finding the good during bad days
That's when you are truly the happiest
If you can't find the good
If you can only find negatives
Then you must focus on removing the negativity
So you can smile again
Just keep smiling and everything will fall into place. It takes more energy to be sad than it does to be happy. So be happy and grateful for what you have because there's always someone that has it worse than you.
Apr 2017 · 638
Dancing (Haiku)
ADS Apr 2017
Please come dance with me
Come dance with passion and heart
Don't step on my heart
Apr 2017 · 898
Limelight
ADS Apr 2017
Drowning in this bright white light
I’m alone on this stage like every night
Seeing all my fans screaming my name when I walk into the light
All I see every night is a sea of flashing lights
All they see is me hitting these low and high notes with ease
I make it look so easy while I dance to this beat
But when its late at night all I want to do escape
Escape this never-ending dream where I can’t find peace
Peace that would make me feel complete
Because my fans don’t really know me
All they see is me achieving a dream which is turning bittersweet
Bittersweet because they will never see the real me
So here I stand on this street corner all alone
Thinking about running away from this fame
That I once thought would make me feel complete
Just a poem I have been thinking about the past couple of days. I didnt really have a plan about how I was going to put my thoughts into words. Regardless here it is.
Apr 2017 · 661
Puzzles
ADS Apr 2017
I’ve completed hundreds of puzzles
Puzzles with a few pieces
Puzzles with many pieces
I’ve started putting together another puzzle
This puzzle started off like all the others
I started with the border and started working my way inwards
For the first time I became perplexed
I tried my hardest to find the correct piece to fil this blank space
I think I have tried every piece that the puzzle came with
I am almost convinced I am missing a piece
This puzzle has been an infuriating undertaking
I have spent countless hours trying put all the pieces together
Now some of the pieces are starting to become disfigured
Some of the pieces have become discolored
I have spelt my morning coffee on some of these pieces
The damage has been done but I am determined to finish it
For whenever I start a puzzle I always finish it
No matter the amount of time I have spent on it
This one however isn’t going to look like the picture on the box
I have given up on that pipe dream
Now I am creating a beautiful collage
Apr 2017 · 634
Choice (haiku)
ADS Apr 2017
You're given one key
Two doors happy or sadness
It's only your choice
I feel like a lot of people choose to look and dwindle on the negative things in life. Where's other choose to always look at the positives even when they have nothing going for them.
Apr 2017 · 393
Waves
ADS Apr 2017
Feeling free with the warm sand under my feet
A playful warm energy fills the air with a relaxing summer breeze
Waves relentlessly crashing into the shore with a passionate roar
Just to retreat in a peacefully silent murmur
Kids running around in pure glee
Charging into the waves so care free without fear of being dragged out to sea
While others tip toe around while the water grazes their feet
The brave ones jump into the sea just to feel complete
A feeling of being with themselves and the sea
A feeling that terrifies many but those that want to feel complete
Once you jump there’s no way to return without fighting the sea
If you are lucky you will feel complete without a concern of being dragged out to sea

Now I sit here staring out into the sea
Occasionally dancing around the edge of the sea
Sometimes I will walk waist deep into the sea
But always return to the safety of this beach
Feeling free after I fought to get back to this sandy beach
Afraid to jump in so care free because I don’t think I got another fight left in me to get back to this beach
I just hope when I get the courage to jump back into the sea
That I will get swept off my feet and taken with ease
Apr 2017 · 1.2k
My Favorite Part
ADS Apr 2017
You're so beautiful and you don't even know it that's my favorite part
Your laugh is so cute and innocent that's my favorite part
Your smile makes me melt and that's my favorite part
Your wall you put up falls apart when I'm around that's my favorite part
Your will to be honest about your insecurities that's favorite part
Your will to talk about anything that bothers you that's my favorite part
Your eyes make me lose track of time that's my favorite part
You feeling like you can be yourself around me is my favorite part
I could keep going on and on but I just wanted to make your day.
Apr 2017 · 259
Stars
ADS Apr 2017
They both saw the brightest stars in one another eyes
But their stars never aligned
Because the light in their eyes
Were from the past which they could never revive
Apr 2017 · 917
Dreaming
ADS Apr 2017
Everyone was out being jolly and happy
I sat there in living my biggest fear
Being completely alone with no one willing to lend an ear
Feeling like I have lost everything
All I had were my thoughts and my own ears
Telling myself I let down my family and peers
Letting her get away was my biggest mistake I ever made
She was with a guy that didn't deserve to see her tears
Seeing her everyday was a living nightmare
Because I couldn't take away her hidden tears
Everyday I tried my hardest to shovel my feelings into a shallow grave
Just to have them resurface by the water from my own tears

Everyday was a nightmare
I was bleeding internally while being kick down by people
That I thought actually cared
I tried my hardest to hold back my tears
But that night I cried for the first time out of feeling completely alone
Asking myself what could've I done
Why am I the one crying these tears I never deserved
Why am I so alone when all I try to do is bring joy to the world

I was mourning my own death for so long I forgot how to live
I continued walking forward in this nightmarish state
I was doing everything to make myself proud just to see light
In such a dimly lit place in my mind
What a dreary and dreadful nightmare I was living
But something reached out and caught me

One day my dreams were no longer about loneliness or fear
I looked back at all those nightmares and I saw a different version of me
I climbed mountains without realizing it
I killed many demons that were so much bigger than me
I was started feeling light and cherished
Cherished by my peers
Cherished by my family
Cherished by my friends
Cherished by her
Now I am scared to wake up because everything feels like a dream
This poem starts out about how I felt on January 1st, 2017 and goes through all the days that proceeded it up until now.
Apr 2017 · 1.1k
Words (Haiku)
ADS Apr 2017
Words can **** someone
Shorter the more impactful
Words can save someone
Sometimes the shortest words have the greatest meaning such as love, hate, death, life, health. Then when you combine these short words that's when they can **** a man or save one. For example "I Do" or "I hate you"
Mar 2017 · 635
Haiku
ADS Mar 2017
Dreary cloudy days
Wishing I had someone to
Nap the day away
Wishing I had someone to cuddle the day away.
Mar 2017 · 316
What I Want Part 2
ADS Mar 2017
I want a relationship built on trust
I want to celebrate our accomplishments
I want to listen to you rant about how good or bad your day was
I want to take care of you when your sick
I want to surprise you with breakfast in bed
I want to try weird foods with you
I want to go on spontaneous adventures
I want to have days where we just stay in bed
I want to laugh until I can't breathe with you
I want to fall asleep with you in my arms
I want cheesy dates to the movies
I want to go on long walks on the beach
I want to go shopping and spoil you
I want to share straws in a cup
Because I've never had that.
Just more random thoughts.
Mar 2017 · 1.9k
Heart Of A Lion
ADS Mar 2017
Born in this world as a innocent cub
Born into a world of temptations and desires
I use to be so scared of rejection and chased perfection
I lost my vision of perfection when I was introduced to temptations
I have had countless dances with these temptations
They just made me feel so free from this pursuit of perfection
This chase has led me astray and introduced me to a world of gray

A world of gray filled with nothing but space and me
I have used every fiber in me to paint my world of gray
By drinking just to sleep when I didn't even believe in me
Running miles for people that wouldn't even get out of bed for me
Doing everything to fit in instead of trying to stand out
Pretending that everything is okay while I was internally bleeding
Giving people chances that didn't even deserve a second one
Having *** just to feel something

Now my world is no longer gray
Its turned into a beautiful shade of white
Ready for me to paint a masterpiece
Time to let this little light of mine shine
And get what is mine....
My homework. You are welcome Lilly.
Mar 2017 · 801
Old Shoes
ADS Mar 2017
Tired and worn
Discolored mix of gray whites and blues
Distressed laces that once kept it together
Are Left in thin shambles laying so weakly through each disfigured loop

The stories they have carried me through
Stories of pure joy and happiness
Stories of pure depression and tears
Unfortunately their last story has been completed
For they have tired and can travel no further without falling apart
I have worn the same shoes off and on for four years and today I finally replaced them. Then I got thinking about all the things I have done in those shoes.
Mar 2017 · 351
Happy
ADS Mar 2017
That moment of serenity I've been yearning for
It's been so long that it feels weird
I haven't felt as healthy as I do right now
Mentally and pyschically
Feeling like all the pieces are coming together
There's no better feeling
I praise you for showing me the light
When I was lost in such a dark place
It's been so long since I've felt as confident about life as I do right now. Schools going great. I got my first check from my new job and I got paid more than I expected. I'm hanging out with some high school friends this weekend. Getting myself back out on the dating scene. Or at least sooner than later. So life's good.
Mar 2017 · 471
My Promise (Haiku)
ADS Mar 2017
Don't worry baby
I'll give you the world and more
You're my everything
A promise to whoever I get married to.
Mar 2017 · 378
Haiku
ADS Mar 2017
Be a risk taker
Never be scared of failing
Failing makes you grow
I've been on a motivational tirade lately. Sorry not sorry
Mar 2017 · 695
Time (Haiku)
ADS Mar 2017
I can't reverse time
Always chasing those past times
Time to move forward
Don't live in the past
Mar 2017 · 406
World of Boxes
ADS Mar 2017
Some people live in a box called home
Some people drive around in a box
Some people think inside the box
Some people feel trapped inside a box
Don't get trapped inside your box
You are not a square

You are a beautiful circle
A circle full of life
A circle that gives and takes
A circle that loves and receives love
A circle that thinks outside of the box
A circle that sometimes get trapped in a box
A circle that realizes everything eventually comes full circle
Just an interesting idea I thought of. I feel like so many people get trapped inside their emotions that they forget about everything that makes them unique.
Mar 2017 · 545
The Parasite
ADS Mar 2017
It chips away at me
Makes me hungry
Hungry to be successful
Hungry to be the best I can be
Hungry to be the center of attention
A hunger I can never satisfy
A hunger that eats away everything
It starves me when I'm content
It has burrowed deep inside me
I can't rid this being that consumes me
I can't drown it
I can't feed it
I can't see it
Because it's taken over every part that makes me me
There's no lonelier feeling
Its difficult feeling like I am one of the very few that has the desire too do great things.
Mar 2017 · 666
Lonely Summer Nights
ADS Mar 2017
Standing outside on a warm summer night
As the ominous night sky peers through my defenseless soul
Reading my desolated state like a book
Continuously turning the pages trying to find my purpose in life
Reading all the lies I tell myself about how I am doing great or not
Finding a sense of comfort from the dimly moonlight sky
Searching for one star that catches my eye
As I get lost in the night sky
Mar 2017 · 343
Doors
ADS Mar 2017
Why wait...
Why wait for one door to close
Just to have another open
What keeps you waiting
Don't fear change
The past is the past
There is no future in that

Get angry
Throw all your emotions aside
Don't walk through that next door
Kick that next door off of its hinges
If you don't like what you find
Do it again
Then again
And again
Don't stop until you find what you want
Because each door you kick in is only going to make you stronger
Never settle for less than you deserve
One thing I love about myself is that when I start getting down in life I find my next passion and or I change what is happening. Sometimes it hurts at first but you have to make that next move or you are simply just treading water HOPING it will get better. Don"t let faith control you because if you want to live off faith go play slot at the casino and go broke. Then don't ask yourself what went wrong.
Mar 2017 · 975
Juggling (haiku)
ADS Mar 2017
Juggler of my life
I do my best to keep up
But drop the best things
I have every reason to be happy. I am doing very well at school. Been working out since janauary and doing well at my new job but I still sacrifice some of the best things in my life.
Mar 2017 · 1.0k
I'm Sorry
ADS Mar 2017
I am sorry for letting a few bad people tear us apart
I am sorry for talking with so much bitterness
I am sorry for throwing you to the wolf
I am sorry for silently watching him destroy you
I am sorry for leaving you when you needed me
I am sorry for making you cry
I am sorry for being difficult
I am sorry for pushing you away
I am sorry for trying to fix us while I was still trying to fix myself
I am sorry for falling for you so quickly
I am sorry for holding on for so long
I am sorry for not understanding why we are holding onto each other for so long.
I am sorry for still having feelings for you
I am sorry for missing you like crazy
I am sorry for being the jealous type
I am sorry for everything
I am sorry for this since it probably doesn't mean anything to you
I am sorry I'll leave you alone and let you be happy
I am sorry for never saying sorry
So sorry.....
It started so quickly and ended so much quicker and yet we still are trying to put the missing pieces together. Even after going months without talking. Just *****....So like I said I am sorry and just wanted to tell you that.
Mar 2017 · 606
Life (Haiku)
ADS Mar 2017
Enjoy the small things
Because you will yearn for them
When you feel empty
Mar 2017 · 436
Living versus Existing
ADS Mar 2017
I feel like I can look at a
Complete stranger and read
If they are truly living or just existing

Then I wonder if I am just
Looking in a mirror because
I honestly can't answer that about myself
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