...and this rain has become my recent enemy
...intoxicating my mood
...torturing me
...doing no good
...oh how much I miss you,
...this rain
...brings in the longing and pain
           my arms, await a hug from you
           my lips, await a kiss from you
           my heart, awaits a satisfaction from you
           my body, awaits a touch from you
...this rain
...brings in the longing and pain,
                                                   ....of you!


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My head throbs like my heartbeat
Such pain, is this painful migraine
Neck, shoulder, right to my spine
I hope it goes away, this horrible swine
Temperature increases, so does my temper
I need to cool down, I need to pamper
Perhaps a nap after a long cold shower
I shouldn't have smelt that Jasmine flower
Now I am all down with this terrible headache
Why do I even make such a silly mistake?
Knowing the consequences at the end
I'll still kiss these flowers before I send...


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The pains gone
Tho my heart is torn
Tears have dried
Feelings have died
My eyes shut
Yet you haunt my mind
I will forgive you, but
You're not a deserving kind
Deleted your memories from my phone
Faults were not equally my own
The insanity has creeped up my sleeve
When you called up on new years eve
Same old lies repeating everytime
Like a vivid poem forced to rhyme
Life without you -- I can live on
It's better you stay where you are -- be gone
Wasted enough of my precious moments
See now, am suffering from a prone torment
I will be fine once my mind calms down
A good therapy -- ears blast with sound...


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The number thirteen
On the day Friday
The murdered twins
A coincidence I may say

The lucky the number
Or unlucky a member
A dark day of sorrow
It's today not tomorrow

Friday the thirteenth
A superstitious belief
Crawling from beneath
It's no grief but a relief

The more the believers
Of this unlucky day
The more life shivers
In the dark anyway

A positive thought
To a positive mind
Sets lose if caught
From such negative blind

A number it is, for sure
Lucky or unlucky could be any
Being rich or be poor
Believers I believe would be many...


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Along
Busy
Ciao
Days
Every
Feeling
Gets
Hurt
In
Just
Known
Lost
M­ellow
Nights
On
Peace
Quite
Rough
Solitude
Torturous
Unloved
Vent­ed
Why
Xen
Your
Zenith



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On a quite night
On my tomb stone
Scribbling a write
All alone

His buried next to me
As how it's supposed to be
Just the engrave on my tomb stone
Does not match with his own

I am his Mrs. yet engraved is a Miss
This seems not right
Coz our vows were sealed with a kiss
In a broad daylight

Thus, each night I try to change the letters
But nothing happens when I try
As for him nothing matters
Not even, when I breakdown and cry

Memories of our death flashes by
That evilful night how can I forget
Hit by a carriage, we flew in the sky
Each day out of tomb, I sit to regret

Thus, each night I try to change the letters
But nothing happens when I try
As for him nothing matters
Not even, when I breakdown and cry

AGAIN AND AGAIN...


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Why this love
Causes so much pain
Why this love
Makes me lose, what I gained

Why you shut me off
In such a way
Why you shut me off
Just cause of today

Why are you running away
From me like this
Why are you running away
You know how much I miss

Why hurt me and hurt yourself
With a promise and a lie
Why hurt me and hurt yourself
And wave me a final goodbye

Why have you come back
In search of me today
Why have you come back
When you finally went away

Can you answer my WHYS?
Without your dramatic LIES!

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In this world of madness
Where sunken eyes pour in sadness
Mothers wail for their malnutritioned child
While firing of guns and bombing protruding wild

In this world of madness
Where programs are set as awareness
People have become racist ****** other religion
Taking over places, claiming their own region

In this world of madness
Where mind conspires, no rest no calmness
As lies are polished to shine like truth
Youngest abolish their education during youth

In this world of madness
Where you and I just sit back and witness
The extinction of animals from our radial planet
Humans on the otherhand,
fight to become a leader or atleast a senate

In this world of madness...*


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Right now, I feel at ease
While sitting in the breeze
With the smell of fresh ground spice
I am getting this irritating sneeze

Right now, I wonder what's mum cooking
A set menu or making a lunch booking
Peeping through the kitchen window
Mum's busy kneading the dough

Right now, you entered my mind
My heart dazzle and my eyes roam to find
You hiding around, as I've seen
My beautiful sister, my identical twin...


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I wish my wish would come true
After what I've been through
As my heart you took and tore
Yet you are the one I crave for

My heart still beats in rhythm
As my mind beats on like drum
Your love hypes up my feelings
Coz my dreams you are stealing

Here I am, there you are staring
Your favorite color, I am wearing
A blaze in your eyes, I've seen ignite
In your arms, you did invite

A dance on a full moon night
Holding onto me, your grips were tight
A lot said through your dreamy eyes
My torn heart blushing, unexplained cries

More determination you showed
Fixed all broken promises you owed
My wishes finally fulfilling
As all my fears you kept killing...

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Mirror Mirror** on the wall
For the real me, I call upon
Show thy true self on the shattered pieces
Scattered on the ground, like broken wishes

Mirror Mirror you are all I see
Inside you, my innocence screams to be free
Stepping on broken pieces, aches a pain from my past
It's dreadful, how much longer will I last

Mirror Mirror you speak the truth but show a lie
Yes I am prettier inside, but not outside, why?
A scared scary face covered in the scarf, hidden
To enter my own house, now I am forbidden

Mirror Mirror take me in
Let me bleed, to cleanse my sin
The shattered pieces has cut me deep
With my last breath, I hand my soul for you to keep...


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My anger is not like a bed of snakes
I do my best as what it takes
To calm myself and not to poison your mind
For you took me wrong, I am not of those kind
Who break glasses, plates and vandalise the place
Tho you have offended me by my race
I forgive you, as you apologized on my face
It's alright, I have learnt alot the hard way
I am not ashamed the way I am today
You rushed into a pretty face to get away
From your dark sins to repel and sway
I have noticed everything on and about you
Knowing the end of this relationship was near
Passing over a few hundred days almost a year
Am holding back on my tears, consumed with fear
You are not worth my time nor my tear
No longer you call me to sit by your side
Instead you ignore me and tend to hide
I am more understanding then you ever knew
Everything for you was infatuation that grew
Nonetheless, its a matter of choice
In this crowded world today,
                 ...you even failed to recognize my voice!


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Waiting for you on the wet muddy trail
Each day you promise to meet, yet you fail
With my umbrella, standing on this pouring day
Looking hard, looking for you to come my way
It gets dark, so I just return sadly to my house
Seeing lovers on my way some with their spouse
Together with each other, seeing them makes me sad
Internally my heart burns and my mind turns mad
How could you do this to me?
Why are you making me suffer?
Or am I too crazy to walk on any path you desire
I guess you are too busy or just a typical liar
Just by the thought of a liar makes me vehement
Each day you ask me out, has now become a torment
I will no longer walk on this muddy trails
I will no longer wait for you like a forgotten mail
I will just grab my feelings and bottle it up in my heart
I wish I knew this game from the start
But as I hung my head down and walk away
My tears submerge with the rain along the way
I wasted and gave my time that you took for granted
You could have just told me, that am no longer wanted...


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Every song I sing
Every tune I make
Every note I write
I think of loving you
As I sit and stare down
The water ripples and
My true self shown
A stone hearted being
Yet in my mind I sing
Every breath I take
In every beat of my heart
Every day the same story
As my mind worries,
My heart feels sorry
I may be going crazy
As the atmos turns hazy
For every moment of the day
I keep missing you,
..........................even today

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All my pain will slip away
The gloomy days will pass away
...if you are with me
Our dreams will bloom again
Without this suffering and pain
...if you are with me
I will walk on any path you choose
Hold my hand, please don't cut me lose
...if you are with me
All my haunting fears will drown
I will smile and my tears will not come around
...if you are with me
Our love will grow stronger each day
In your arms I shall rest everyday
...if you are with me
I promise to cherish our lives till the end
Every deep scar or hurt you have, I will mend
If ONLY you are with Me!!
If ONLY you accept Me!!
The way I Am!!

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I plucked a bud
It emerged into a flower
I poked it in the mud
Watered it every hour

Beautiful petals,
greeted with fragrance
Soft stem and leaves,
smiled with elegance

Upon sunset, the same day
The flower hung low
As I moved away
It withered and took a bow

Next day, no fragrance
No cheerful bloom
It looked obvious on the entrance
So I plucked out to its doom

I cried,
as I shouldn't have plucked the bud
I cried,
coz it seemed unhappy so it kissed the mud

I left the flowers to be
As they bloom beautifully how it used to be
So I just visit the shrub bushes to see
The blossoms, the butterflies and the bees...

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Once I flashed like a cosmic star
Shone like a diamond from afar
An introvert with a class
My dreams transparent like a glass
While many challenges toss me in a corner
Picking myself up has become an honor
However, dreams shattered like thunder
Disappearing the gravity from down under
Let alone on a lone path of misery
Living through, has become a necessity
There is no complain of life that I am in
Yet negative auras surround me from within
As I smile and push myself forward
The bad energies lag itself backwards
Such life is a matter of living
Consuming positive auras and giving
To the unfortunate who are grieving
I am sure,
              love makes their soul light up when receiving...

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Lost my touch
From a far you watch
My tears, like a stranger
As I let go of my anger
Standing in the rain
Draining away my pain
In the silence of this night
Am gonna be fine,
  Yes!!! I am going to be alright...


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You deliberately splashed red wine on my white blouse
So I can stay back and clean it at your house
What a hectic day I had, and you just had to make it bad
Stop treating me like your mistress, as I am not your cup of tea
I am happy with my life, are you so blind to see!
Just coz your little princess is fond of me, doesn't mean you have a right to walk over me
You've treated me, like a nobody in the last two years
What has got into you? Why you shed tears?
Yes, I've seen you cry when I fell sick
You treated me like a person, now my brain ticks
Your little princess is too attached to me, I know
Some days I had to spend nights as she wouldn't let me go
But now things are steady, as I've seen you with another lady
Your little princess needs a mom, and you know that
I cannot be with her all the time, I am leaving
I wish you luck and thank you for believing
That I was (am) a better nanny than the other lady
I hope she gives enormous love to my beloved child
And you, Dear Sir...a good man at last, a tamed beast of the wild,
Whom, I shall never forget...


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I gather bird feathers
And strap them into thin leathers
To make hand fans
And sell them in bunch of tens

The money I earn
Goes in my little savings can
I have improved my living
And given up on life's grieving

Work hard, is what I do now
Sometimes I wonder, how
I landed, twisted on a muddy road
Drifting in all direction with my heavy load

It takes time to heal the given pains
But mine slips away slowly when it rains
Now, I am light as a feather
Swaying along with the weather...


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With closed eyes
I travel the world
With closed eyes
My flight is called

In deep sleep - unaware
My body floats without care
To a place unknown - too rare
Perhaps another world with no air

In abyss I see many unknown
Witnessing this divinity as shown
Transcending in various diverse portal
Am I still human or become an immortal

Wake me up as my breath is running low
In this darkness, there is no light nor glow
Bring me back before its too late
Don't let this wicked abyss decide my fate

My head feels light
My eyes open wide
I am back from my transcend flight
I hate this sleep, I hate this night...


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Now, I'll just tear the pages,
Rip every bit apart
Lock my thoughts in cages
And exile my own heart

I'll savage my feelings  
And blindfold my visions
Coz, I am done with the killings,
Of my naive emotions

I am not the crazy one here
Neither was my love
You wouldn't mind counting my tear
As the sky shatters from above

The state of my mind
Is not, even near to insanity
I have put everything behind
Coz, I am not greedy for eternity

Letting ooze out the filth
That's clogging my entire body
So I don't feel the guilts
And put blame on somebody

Inking with bright red
For every mistake I've made
Never shall I be sad
For I'll soon be laid

In the soft mud, hugging the ground
The underground creatures my friend
With whom I shall surround
As my breath has come to an end

Be happy, unlike my depression
Killing me rather softly
But don't kneel to this depression
Coz, you'll also die slowly...




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The roots are nearly dead
The stems are weak
The tree that stands
Now has fallen sick

The leaves are wilting
Changing its entire look
There's no chance of feeding
As the frame has shook

The buds have already fallen
As dews made them heavy
No bloom, nor scent of pollen
Nones intention to chevy

We losing plants everyday
We all know how
Plant a tree, they always say
I hope it's not just another show...


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There is no Us nor We
Divided us, was she
There is no You nor I
Just my tears seem to spy
Don't you wonder why I cry?
Why these tears won't dry?
Helplessly tired whenever I try
Do you even care?
Or busy with your new pair
Life's never been fair
All I do now is just sit and stare
At the pictures we share
It's becoming too much to bear
Hovering chest pain seems to tear,
My heart out from its layer
You've been a great player
Not my prince but a slayer
This beating heart will soon slow
As I close my eyes and end the show
Don't beg at my feet then, O' No!
Life is beautiful
And,
You are free to go...


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My distance
Your resistance
My words *****
Your words creep
Your distance
My resistance
Unworthy tears
Over the years
A formal ending
Goodbye,
               that's all I am sending,
GOODBYE...


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You smile
For a while
Then start
To break apart
Walked away
Without a say
My deeds
You decided
To pay
You forgot
My feelings
For you
Everything seemed
Too new
My visions blurred
From my life
You just fled
But I am glad
You're no longer mad
Just my life seems
Miserable and sad
May be, just may be
One day, you would
Appreciate me
For my love is true
Each moment with you
It grew
But today my feelings
You threw
Saying all girls are the same
And there's nothing new...


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...Ek pal ke andhere mein
Kho jaaon maye.
Ek pal ki khamoshi mein
Sabh kahe jaaon maye.
Ek annkahi baat
Jo dil mei chupi hai,
Is chandani raat mei,
Sabh kuch tere naam
Kar jaaon maye...

°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°

Translated:
In a moment of darkness
Let me be lost within
In a moment of silence
Let me just say it all
Words of my past
Hidden in my heart
In this enchanting moonlight
Let me put everything before you...


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You spy
You lie
You try
But you are not that guy
You wink
You think
You blink
But you are not that guy
I see you!
I SEE YOU,
Everyday
Get out of my way
I knew you
It's over
So back off
And stay away!!!


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Life's hell
Like, I hear the hell's bell
The demons smile and tell
That I would be drowned in a well
Their hissing and yells
Pollutes the atmos with smell
O' I hate being a girl
...In love I fell
Now am doomed to tell
My boyfriend plans to sell
My feelings for a spell
For a greedy one rotting in a cell
O' I hate the demons in my head
Why can't I just go to bed?
Why my face is all red?
Why my eyes rained so bad?
Now am so upset, I feel so dead
.
.
.
Am I dead?
In hell?
In the well?
Or really in my bed?

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You say my writes are crap, then darling you are no less than a running tap. Spilling filthy dirt from a cramped chimed teeth ugly with gaps. Like a piano with missing keys. Crowds move away like you are a queen of fleas. Don't let my temper wave you in the deep sea. Chill out and enjoy your coffee or tea. Mind your own freaky business and keep your nose in your face. Else, I'll grab your ego out and you will not be able to trace. You write rap and you labelled mine crap. Beware am a nasty cat and you are a swampy rat. Shall I continue praising you or are you satisfied, you little brat!!


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I was pretty once
Like my heart
Now its all ugly
I am falling apart

My heart is weak
Out of feelings
My brain is sick
Tired of healings

Skin rough wrinkled
Bones weary cold
My soul seems ******
I am feeling too old

Spikes pinching nerves
Life hanging on fence
Twisted body curves
I am losing all my sense

Dust and dirt covers my face
I am not worried
I am not in a race
Just waiting to be carried
With grace and buried,
......in my lonely grave!


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I am losing my mind in this heat
Can anyone rock on some crazy beat
Let's do a hip hop rain dance
So we all can feel a little less tensed
Rain God, hear us through
We dance from our heart, that's true
O'Cmon, don't be so stubborn
Just shower hard in our urban
I honestly can't think straight
Soon we'll turn into human bait
Baked in this burning sun and heat
O'please can you give us rain as a treat
Things are moving in slow motion
There's salty smell coming from the ocean
It's getting too stuffy, why can't it snow
A little cooler, but I really don't know
Tropical Fiji, why are you getting hot
It's like sitting in an oven or being stirred in a ***
All my energy seems sapped in
I am feeling hot, I am suffocating within...


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When you think your world is crumbling down and all you can do is sit and frown. Be sure to call me, cause I never thought to disown. You were and are my life, my flesh and blood, my own. Am not angry with you, just upset with your choices. You went along listening to foreign voices. Left me in distress with your harsh words. But dear you are my atmost joy out of the odds. I know life cheats on many counts but bad things always haunts. You need to think straight tho it's not too late, but hunny don't get stuck blaming your fate. You are young, pretty, beautiful and bold. Right now, concentrate on your studies, am sure your true love will emerge to mould. You shouldn't rush into anything you would later regret for. Take a cruze drive towards your goal dear and all will be well in the coming year. Few lessons of such I would love to give to my future daughter. While gulpping down a glass of lemon water. Smiling imaging how such life would be, will I even be lucky to live and see. I wish to have my own family someday, I just have to be patient and not cowardly walk away...*


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A forgotten piece
Memories of his
Like honey so sweet
But became a cheat

With his charming voice
Made infinite promises
He left me with no choice
Now he regrets and misses

Another ring, another miss call
Looks like you got cheated
How does it feel to fall?
When same way you get treated

You took for granted
My love and care
Boy...you are so unwanted
Don't you even dare

What you do unto others
Others would do unto you
Karma rocks, as such my dear
I've become deaf, I cannot hear

So stop wasting my time
Fetch for another chick
It's not a vigorous crime
But make sure it's your last pick...


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Dream
         Scream
Wonder
         About.

Feel
      Deal
Lost
      Unbound.

Love
       Hate
Cry
       Try.

What
        Why
Tears
        Dry.

Rain
      Drains
Pain
      Away.

Beated
         Cheated
Treated
          Sway.

You
     Me
Soon
     Alone.

Love
       Again
Both
       Known.

No
   Resistance
No
   Pain.

Heart
         Soul
Together
         Again!



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