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Jul 2022 · 974
Paralysed
Birdy Jul 2022
My father hid himself
within the smoke
underneath my ribcage

Sometimes he rattles his fingers
underneath my bones
and squirms his hands
around my ticker

He taught the monster under my bed
to crawl under my skin
and stick his filthy fingers
in the cracks of my brain
and break it in half

His name echoes the canals of my ears
and his shadow haunts every step
I wish I could’ve made
The day you blew smoke in my face I knew I'd be gone forever.
Apr 2017 · 524
Touch
Birdy Apr 2017
Don’t be scared
that 
I’ll ever forget you
.
Believe me:

I remember every

touch

and every

breath

as if it happened

yesterday.
Believe me, I wouldn't forget you if I wanted to.
Nov 2016 · 787
Passion
Birdy Nov 2016
passion wasn’t in your dictionary
even though
you tried to show me
time and time again
that it was

and thats fine
because at least you tried
to show me
the blank space
where passion
was supposed to be
After a while I had enough of staring at blank pages and filled it in myself. I dislike admitting it, but I have never been so wrong.
Aug 2016 · 2.6k
Diary Entry I: Self Respect
Birdy Aug 2016
day 1 (uno) that we talked you tried to whisper the clothes off my body and told me you wanted to see the folds of your fingers inside of me (as if it was nothing) and while I rejected he formulated and cracked a new plan — to tell me thats all he wanted to hear, and demanded self respect while pushing for lack of self respect.
His eyes couldn’t lie but when I tried to locate them, he carried me away in his personal blue seas (this is a cliche) and made me taste the waters (I got addicted as a result) and I guess that even my logic obsessed self couldn’t make out what was right and wrong anymore, so I drowned myself and floated in his rivers

Proceed to day 34 (teintra y cuatro) where you admitted under a drunken spell that you loved me all along and wanted a future. Phase 1: Terrified. Phase 2: Relief. Relieved that my love was not only mine, but ours. Relieved that I could drink from those waters forever. But terrified, so, so terrified of the mess I made from the man who only wanted to have my naked body and infect it. I had only shown a glimpse of my skin around my lower back, and you could only demand more while judging my self respect (or lack thereof). My logical self had decided that this behavior was him at his finest he was just setting me up and wanted to invade my skin. My loving self was convinced that he was acting out on his newly found addiction. Since I had just fed him the same venom he poisoned my body with.

In the end, it was all just a test of my self respect.
Or lack thereof.
"When you came along I had my oasis. I didn't need to keep on searching"
Jul 2016 · 747
pain
Birdy Jul 2016
no pain could
compare to
the pain i felt
when you looked at me
May 2016 · 798
Fuse
Birdy May 2016
You took the innocence from my lips
Whilst carrying explosives at your hips
Tied my bomb and took a piece of my chest
Just to frame it
In a picture in the papers

I was watching the fuse to be lit
And you gambling that I would make it
Out of that lane
So I could do it all over again
I told you I'd give my life for you but I had no idea I would do it twice
Apr 2016 · 1.3k
Purity
Birdy Apr 2016
I knew a ******
Who sold her soul to the devil
Because she wanted to know
What love looked like
Even he saw her purity.
Mar 2016 · 694
To Jäger.
Birdy Mar 2016
I prefer to lose the grip of me
and my being would traverse
to the brain I made my home in
my little universe

But to lose the touch of this
which I hold so dear
and the only thing which promised me
that would be permanently here

My memory is lacking
and my system is rewriting
my thoughts are the one
which I really should be fighting

I know I know,
You are my friend, dear *****
But I really want to put a stop

A stop to this abuse.
you damaged me more than this alcohol ever could
Birdy Feb 2016
If discovering the planetary body
Where you found your home
Would mean that I get to see you again

Then I would
March through stars
Dance on asteroids and
Befriend moons
Until I'd find you
Until we see again.
Feb 2016 · 497
Aftermath
Birdy Feb 2016
I longed for death
But that I could not do
I was not scared of death, no
I was afraid of dying without you.
I will live until the day we will be together again
Feb 2016 · 901
Zach
Birdy Feb 2016
He was just an arrangement of 1s and 0s
which manifested itself into a body
on the other side of the planet

There were a three times
that he was right beside me
despite him not being there at all

First, he sat on the side of my bed
struck by a drunken haze
when he told me he loved me

Second, he came out of my closet
to keep me from crying
when I thought I lost him

And third, appeared right beside me
when I was walking back home
while the sun was wiping my tears.

I touched him on his shoulder
then he whispered
"I don't know who you are
We have never known each other."
I am going to cry and then I’m going to stop and then cry some more, but I won't tell you thats your fault.
Feb 2016 · 643
Bouquet
Birdy Feb 2016
I never regretted anything more  in my life
than that night you asked me to go on a date
two days before you decided
that your love was meant for someone else.
I wish I could hate you I really do
Feb 2016 · 877
Untitled
Birdy Feb 2016
I don't know who you think I am
But because of you I'll never be the person I thought I once was
I just want you to be happy but unfortunately we have this nice codependency thing going on which I'll never understand.
Feb 2016 · 1.1k
Opium
Birdy Feb 2016
we were living in a haze
and killing each other slowly
with soft spoken words
creating our own kind of poetry
I send you messages every day and I know that this is obvious but I still wan't to say I miss you
Feb 2016 · 5.2k
Seperation Anxiety
Birdy Feb 2016
Its sad to say that my only inspiration
is anxiety caused by seperation
which is basically admitting
that you are my only inspiration
My poems **** but so do you
Feb 2016 · 518
Play Pretend
Birdy Feb 2016
Our love was all about
The romantic meaning of
******* ****
and composing moans
from the back of our throats
the fondling of *******
and
whispering each other
that we were in love
under our breaths

I will never understand
how it was merely
play pretend
I cried twice. Then I simply died.
Feb 2016 · 5.7k
Maths
Birdy Feb 2016
I love maths
it proves that we were
just another mish mash
of geometric nonsense
refusing to accept
that you were a square
and that I was a circle
and that organic movements
do not match
with corners
and straight lines
Unlike you I **** at maths so I'll never understand
Feb 2016 · 3.4k
For Daisy
Birdy Feb 2016
I forgot to water you
lied and betrayed you
you shriveled,
shrunk
and wrinkled

Yet you were
the most beautiful flower
who ever crossed my eyes

and your death
left me disassembled
They promised me that they'd stay but they didn't
Feb 2016 · 1.3k
Constellations
Birdy Feb 2016
I'd love to point you out
In the constellation of a crowd
As someone I used to know
A lover of long ago
And nothing more

Yet you were the biggest star
The sun at least
So how would I forget you

— The End —