at darkness
we play games
like husband and wife

I give you heaven
you bring me hell
but I won't dare tell

a few seconds of bliss
I no longer want to be touched
I am now sickened by your kiss

you were no gentleman
but when you see me out
please call me MS.

from dirt I come
whipped and cracked from the sun
rain flows and heals my wounds
when my fruit grows
I'll forget my troubles soon
still I love, still I rise,
giving blessings
to the the grass
I dry my own tears
and hide in my own fears.

nature is my mother
the moon is my brother
my father inhabits the sky
and he takes pleasure
in his little flower
that is me...
a brown rosebud
a baby from nothing
more than mud.

I give,
Even when I have not.

I go,
Even when tired
I never stop.

I appear brave,
But I'm afraid alot.

At times I want to end it all
but, I better not.

Love does
appear at first sight,
our eyes met
in the dark
at midnight.
your piercing window
ignited fire in my frozen soul
now your body,
your mind,
I wish to know.

I loved this song by hall and oates long before I knew it's meaning,

then I saw your face and couldn't resist singing.

*Want you smile a mile for me...

Fragile heart inside my chest
Can't find the love
Can't feel the rest.

Fragile heart below my head
Heavy is the soul
Who soils the bed.

Fragile heart, fragmented brain
I'm nobody's victim
But they do have names.

I AM
just a poet.
young
naive
anxious
sensitive
fearful
and beautifully
uneducated.
Yet, eloquent
with words
as art.
Writing is the
red blood
which pumps through
my black heart.
So presumptuous *******,
before you judge me
have mercy
and remember
**"she is only but a ******* poet"

Poets!
People!
Is love the only topic
we know?
.....geez....

Only if love was limitless
Would I cross it's borders
Blurred lines of bliss
Chasing unicorns and rainbows
To taste your kiss.

In reality, it's you I miss
Instead I am a prisoner of fantasy
Enslaved to a restricted affair
If I escaped this world, would you still care?

In the next lifetime will you follow?
Could you want me there?
Because if it was up to me,
I'd Have you Any time. Any place. Anywhere.

Without love I'd die
even when it's bad
even when it makes me cry.

Without ***
I feel undesirable
my body seems useless.

This way of living has caused
my heart, soul, and spirit much pain.
Yet, love is never lost,

*only shame is gained.

will always be in love
with what was...

the memory
of what we could be...

I, wanting you
you needing me....

i can not understand why things won't last
i can not let go of the hold that is my past

because I was young
and beautiful
I thought I was
something;

boys lusted
girls admired
I had fun until
I grew tired

a wise old lady
with a smirk on her wrinkled face
pulled me aside
and put me in my place

she told me I was nothing without love
so I got out of her grandson's bed
to avoid tears;
I titled my head

when I came up there it was;
hoovering above
I realized, everything is nothing
until it finds love.

the darkest depths
and hell lows
we dangerously go
to be noticed
by the one we desire.

Some call it foolish,
or just plain crazy!
I just see it as a route
to the heart of the
one I admire.

as
days
       come to a close.
dreams
       prepare
to
      die.

sometimes......................
I take one too
many
pills

because I don't want to think.

I don't need to feel.

She used to have so much Life is her eyes
but I guess it died, it left with her cries.

She used to fly light as a feather,
but now stormy is her only weather.

She used to play music and dance in the rain,
now she's stiff and numb with pain.

I remember that sweet little face,
please remember her name.

May she rest in peace.
Depression is to blame.

is it bad
that I have more
lovers than
ex boyfriends?

is it bad
that I live right
love wrong
life of sin?

is it bad
that I want to smoother
you until you
can not breathe?

is it bad
if I ask you
to stay with me
and never leave?

is it bad
that I've wrote you this love letter
with the blood
I bleed?

is it bad
that you've judged me?
when it's really
help that I need!

I have not been good at love
or showing emotion
but, I would like to swim with the tears
of your sweet deep ocean.

please do brag
I enjoy boasting
my *** is like a breeze
that will leave  you coasting.

I feel your heat
body roasting
cheers to us;
bodies toasting!

let me clear my throat
you find the lotion
watch me stretch it out
in a familiar motion.

wet dreams are made of you;
a beautiful lie
an imagination
that I wish to make true.

The 23 of the month came
and breath entered my body,
I remembered my name.

Billboards with my face
People cheered me on,
overnight fame.

11 months of living with amnesia,
I'm alive again.
With pride I can chant, **I AM LIBRA!

Addicts aim their entire life

for the highest high

only to never reach it

until they one day die.

I remember you hugging me
as I inhaled the scent of masculine cologne
you didn't want to leave
and I did not want to sleep alone.

I remember you making me laugh
as I held my stomach like a small child
I wanted that moment forever
my cheeks hurt afterwards for a long while.

I remember you calling me 100 times a day
checking on me no matter how close,
no matter how far away,
you pleasured me often, I always wanted to stay.

but adolescent rules I had to obey.
a child I was and what we were doing seemed okay.
Now at night I think of you all,
rain in my heart, in my puddle of memories

I drown in our sorrow, I hopelessly lay.

I let you go,
to only want you back.

I fell in love,
to only break your heart.

But I was the only one broken from the start.

I fed you sweet nothings,
to feel like I was really something.

Now I'm stuck with lonely tears,
from my own stinky onion.

I miss your presence,
but most of all I miss your loving.

I have so many exes'
I could make a ***** jealous.
I have enough sin in me
to make the devil envy.
I have loved so much
exhausted heart doesn't want to be touched.
I've won experience
but I have loss too;
the abiltiy to feel
and trust you.

My heart has broken
a million times before
life has used me up
as it's little *****.

Life has kidnapped my mind
and robbed me of my time
it has silenced my screams
and made me witness ungodly things.

Mother nature has turned me against my neighbor
the father of lies forced me to work, unpaid labor
I laugh now, cry later
my tears and my smile...

*is my offering to my Savoir

Every kiss begins with K
the initial of your first name
I whisper it slowly,
doesn't quite sound the same.

Power plays, *** filled days
A cheap thrill one might say
midnight drives, moonlit eyes
seductive melodies of ******* cries.

Every kiss begins with K
yet nothing from your lips was ever real.
Even if I wanted to say your name,
the sensation will never hold the same feel.

in the beginning was you
a beautiful lie
promising me something true.

in the middle was us
caught in the crossfire of love
All we did was disagree, fight, and fuss.

in the end is now me
realizing with you is where I need to be.
searching for something I once had

*you drive me crazy, you drive me mad

*** teaser
people pleaser

mind reader
secret keeper

man leaper
grim reaper

floor creeper
little sleeper

at work I think of you
and all the nasty things we do

clock in clock out
your body knows what I'm talking about

9 am your desire I awake
minutes to hours it takes

at 12 I'll have you for lunch
I'll heat it up with my warm touch

5 pm and it's time to go
you ask me to stay----but no

wait yes-----
I could use this over-time ***

my heart cries out, telling me it's too late.
I ignore her.
heartbreaks, I can no longer take.

she continues to broadcast my mistakes,
my eyes burn with regret
she know how to make me upset.

punishment is my mind
suffocating me for all the wasted time.
soon, I too am crying.

there after, I am dying
7 minutes of life before me
before I begin flying.

*brighter the sun begins to shine
love and procrastination
was my only crime.

If I have a kid,

I'd prefer a boy.

Periods and childbirth

is not a joy.

I have a blue rose tattoo on my breast
one day, I hope your head lay here on my chest
it will give me joy, it will give you rest.

when you are weary and on the run
it will be there for you night and day
like the moon or the sun.

it will be there to wipe the tears
to comfort you over your deepest fears
it will be here sweetheart, wherever you go...

My heart, our love, this ink, your head, this pillow.

woe to man who created pills
they give me chills
they make me feel
take too many they'll make you ill
they deceive my fantasies
their thrill is real

woe to the man who made **** pills
with every one I take,
a piece of me is killed.

I fell in love
with the way
another girl made me feel.
but I didn't want
a boy Pinocchio
I wanted a man,
something real.

I stood in line
for 23 years
waiting for love
once it was my turn
my palms began to burn.


rolling his eyes, as If I were late
cupid told me I had to wait,
that I would have my chance.
Then he hurried off
doing the ***** dance.

Like love, cupid has sh**ted on me!

I have become a disappointment to my self
filled with pride, afraid to ask for help

my addictions have grown beyond size
I am unsure if I can still rise

obstacles laugh at me
they invite me to a party of pity

I reject the invitation
for enough demons I am already facing

tears begin to swell
as I look at the picture
of an innocent small gal.
sadness of the eyes
life in her smile.

"What an angel. Wow!"

"but she's dead now..."

shake my head  "how?"

little girl
I love you
and you should know
I will follow closely,
wherever you go.

I feel like Taylor Swift
I only fall in love
to break up.

I fell like Adele
broken hearted
damning my exes to hell.

I feel like Sam Smith
**** and alone
even in a relationship I don't belong.

I feel like Katy Perry
sometimes I wanna kiss a girl
or maybe, a man I'll marry!

I feel like a hopeless romantic
it makes me Lana Del Rey sick.

I'm a hot *** mess,
I'm Britney *****!

I looked at you
and fell out of love.
but then you smiled;
and changed my mind.

Lord,
Do you hear me cry
If so, can you tell me why?
why do these tears swim In my soul
Tell me father, tell me you know.

Jesus,
Do you feel my pain?
Do you remember my name?
haven't heard from you in so long,
beginning to think this life thing is a game....

A game I'm losing,
yet it's you I'm choosing
still I suffer the worse
this is all too confusing!

I think
we are all
God's
test dummies,
here for his testimonies only.

My mind tells me I'm fine,                            
my memory gets worse with time.

My body tells me I'm fine                           
my health gets worse with time.

My soul is tired but I'm young                     
I guess I'm fine.

I will one day die,                                            
only to realize I was never fine.

I was never okay,                                            
It was all a lie.

bags in his hand
a studious man
standing in the doorway
"what do you want from me?"

loss for words,
nothing to say
silence made him leave
but I wanted him to stay

I was taught to ask for nothing
even if I needed something
my thoughts were loud
but my voice was too proud

*Can you love me, please?"

I recall a lover once
asking me to dance
I said no words
but I silently agreed.

they hesistated
I waited
lover smiled
I smirked
friends gathered
snickering and making lines
"so can you twerk?" one asked
"no, but I can slow wine"

at the moment I came alive
seducing them all
blowing their minds!

Open wounds never heal
Slaughtered my spirit
Over ****.
Placed hopes in your cup
Overflow of emotions
You spill.
Salt from my eyes
Blood from my cries
Why tell me you wouldn’t do it again?
Broken lies.