Excuse me while I make love to you with the lights on
we slow dance to your favorite song
I admire your perfume that I inhale in my nose
as I melt from your body heat
as I pull you close.

You inch closer for a kiss
I try to relax, body tense
This is merely imagination,
but the thought alone
had my heart racing.

daughters need hugs
Or they’ll grow up
To love thugs!

At lust's feet
I have fallen

hormones need help
your body it's calling

I've waited too long
so now you're stalling

but hear my plea
come rescue thee

teach me my lesson
come punish me

I wish I could purge my flesh
from all ungodliness.

leaving no sign of life,
death is a mess.

Love is patient
Love is kind

boys are precious
but I admire time

Love is patient
Love is kind

I aways wait  too long
for wonders and signs

Love is patient
Love is kind*

between my thighs is a slow burn
with a impulsive mind

I need love, but I lack patience
and I want to get mine...

If only the rain
could cleanse
my pain.

Wash away
the tears from
my face and heart.

The bruises
and blood
that stained me from the start.

passed by a mirror, caught a glance
the devil is beautiful when he dance

dark shadows walk slowly
I'm not her, you don't know me

my brain goes insane
this illness is no game

voices kidnap my head
held hostage till' I'm dead

the old ladies told me
I can't rush love
just sit and wait
little do they know,
my love has a expiration date.

the more I wait, the more
my heart grows overweight
with bitterness and hate
for God's sake!

I won't be young and pretty forever
the time is now!
--------or never
stupid cupid
thinking he's so freaking clever.

I want to stare into your eyes
Until I go blind...

Blinded by the light
That is love.

A love so deep
I can never reach the end with my feet...

Atlas, I want to kiss your lips
Everywhere you go, you take my scent...

Feel these words to see what my heart meant...

when the poetry stops
so does my life clock

when poetry ends
thats where death begins

poetry is my purpose
I do believe...

when I'm gone,
poetic gifts of love I'll leave.

I have wasted so much time
on lovers I'll never love

and who will never love me
because this is reality

and my kind of love only exists in fantasy.

he used me everyday
his favorite electric soul
power he did know
distance I did go...
abuse always did follow

one day he found me
drained, rusted,
& out of juice
our magnetic force
had finally come loose

he cried frantically
desperately fixing me up
with man made tools
It was simply to late
a dead lover was his fate

lucky he
able to revive me
with little life left
I vibrated with long pauses
I had to return with proper causes

told my boy, I'm no toy
now kiss my achy breaky heart
only then will I begin again,
only then will our love restart!

Multiple personalities
were created by me
to compensate the absense of
those I needed
ones I desired
but
could not see.

he told me to relax
and he spread my legs
and caressed my back.

he said chill
as he tasted my *******
and copped a feel.

with time it was over,
only then was relaxation real.

I gave you a reason to love me
but I'm a indian giver
so I took it back.

I stole your heart
leaving you near death
panic attack.

As a woman.
As an African American.
As a poet.
I can only hope to be,
As close as a
phenomenal
woman as she!

I've known hate,
more than I've known love.
When I die,
I will take your breath away
wearing a black glove.
I bled with shame,
Ate up pain.
When I die,
I'll forever curse your name.
Your rejection murdered my innocent soul...
When I die,
What's left of you shall also ... go

I have this sick feeling
in the darkness of my soul
something so tempting
yet something so wrong.

I've tried to run, but nowhere I've gone
in years my body has grown
yet I'm still a confused little girl
alone in a big empty home.

Lust I have sown
my flesh is weak
but my will is strong
evil is all I have known.

One day it may win,
or at least for a while.
For now I plead the fifth
until my due trial...

the sun will always shine after the rain
as pleasure will appear after the pain
for I am the calm before the storm
seems as if I was doomed before I was even born
they say how can you be so sad with your type of charm?
I tell them my heart is dislocated and my soul is torn.

exhausted with crying
obsessive thoughts of dying
these tears
will eventually
run my soul dry
in this drought called life
I am destined to die

Stiff as steel

          but I must be real!

Cold as metal

        my reaction is mellow.

I act in ways that have not been taught

      it must be true, I am a robot!

I kissed a girl.
and it was something I did not enjoy.
It felt off,
like playing with my brothers toy....
because I was a girl,
and she was no boy.

Life is a indescribable genre
like fiction which is full of lies
Or nonfiction which is true
As a poet, I understand this too
Still my eloquent heart refuses
To write about any topic
Other than you...

In the darkness without sunlight
In a drought without water
not from soil,
but from hard, cold, filthy concrete.
Many doubted,
but a bud had sprouted.

Despite neglect,
a rose beautifully grew
she never lost hope
faith in him she always knew
the discovery was unexplainable
especially since that rose became you.

Is there a heaven
for someone as messed up as me

I hope pass my sins,
worries, and excuses

God will recognize the angel
that dwells within me

because hell is much to harsh
for such a delicate soul

I would not survive,

this I know.

I am forever on the run...

After who I want to be...

and from who I've become...

sunset til' sunrise,

dusk til' dawn,

I run. I run and then some.

You never quit on me
Though I threw in the towel
Over and again
I washed my filth
Took an arrogant bow
You drew near me
Though I reeked of sin
not used to being loved
Intimate woman
I’ve never been...

the more he saves me
      with his help
the more I feel
          indebted.

I sing along to sad songs
Because another lover have left me alone.
I cry in silence
Because I lack the balance ----
Between  love | hate
The scales always tip, when the Heartbreaker heart breaks.

I know magic, wanna see?

undress, come closer to me.

She thought she was something

until she met a person

who made her something,

feel like nothing.

I hate you.
For not protecting me
Yes, you *******!

women and girls,
boys nor men
could bring me such glory in such filthy sin.

breathe in
tears out
only freaks know what I'm talking about.

I had no choice
due to my lovers abandonment,
so I found a guilty pleasure that was heaven sent.

Sometimes I escape to a magical place.
A mirror of myself, a beautiful face
A high like a drug that has been laced
sensation out of this world,
into deeper space.
My eyes water as my heart pace.
A sigh of relief,
as my mind tells my body
"you're okay ...
I laugh and admit,
*I am a great lay!

Can you
act out every word
you ever
promised
me?

it's hard in times like this
when I'm away, that face I miss
when you talk, I watch your lips
fantasizing about our first kiss

not sure if you're taken
or if you go this way
but **** baby,
you make my day!

I've been here before
and yes I am afraid
but I won't let you go
until I get laid

I've always only been somebody's maybe,

never anyone's baby.

To others I've always been a mysterious lady,

they don't know I'm really cRaZy.

I've always been good at masking my sadness,

Now I seem really angry.

Once little miss sunshine,

Now I'm cold, they call me Shady.

your face has become a flame
burning my lips when I speak your name.

your touch was no longer nice
choking me like spice.

your scent is no longer missed
like your salty kiss.

I'm done being your little freak,
now I'll spite you like a poetry creep.

your ocean wasn't even that deep
although I enjoyed riding that wave.

you, my love.... I no longer crave
in fact I've taught temptation how to behave.

He seemed so big and bad
but I knew better
I recognized this
one emotion he had
it was familiar,
it was sad.

At that moment,
I lay on his chest
and for once he was quiet,
for once I was at rest,
In each others arms we lay,
a young vulnerable mess.

the blood of bulls
runs through my body
anger, sadness,
and confusion,
swim throughout my cells

miles away my friend
cries tears into wishing wells
she too is slowly dying,
her faith has gone astray
strength is slipping away

selfish me
full of life unhappily
dying to get to heaven
living in hell

selfless her
dreading heaven
desiring hell
dying of sickle cell.