and when she smiled
the sun cried.

and when she walks
the angels talk.

and I wish I could see her soon
at night we could watch the stars and paint the moon.

and I pray that someone will love her
like she deserves one day.

She's amazing in every way
I love her more with each word I say.

at night
it's the worse.

you're my vice
a religious curse.

I was born sick
and you're my nurse.

release me Satan
take me to church!!!

It was the closest thing to love
I ever knew.
It's funny how this tiny
feeling grew.
I said I had felt it all
I had not, it was not true.
What we had was something new
warmth you gave,
soul kisses you blew
so, no matter who I'm with
I'll forever love and thank you!

I use to be his baby
now he has a baby.

I use to be his lady
now he has a lady.

He use to call me baby,
when I was his lady.

now he has a new set
and I'm just a single ex.

he didn't treat me the best
it's hard not be bitter, when he's blessed.

whose girl is she?*

anger was my father.

sadness was my mother.

depressed, has become me.

A little black and blue baby.

he who sheds the first tears
cared the most
she who feels no remorse
may as well be a ghost
two wrongs,
two broken hearts
I blame them both
a lustful love affair
unequally yoked.

the eyes tell the story,
that nobody wants to tell.

smiles lie,
the truth they hide well.

the eyes never go empty,
there is no dry spell.

smiles never pass tests,
they always fail.

Loving you is wrong
So I won't tell you I do
But I will sing
You this love song.

Loving you
Would make my life better
But I can't do it,
So I'll cry you this wet letter.

Loving you
Is not right,
So I will love you through each poem
I desperately write.

I write poetry about people
For whom I've become obsessed.

Only to obsess about poetry
Now, I have no rest.

when the poetry stops
so does my life clock

when poetry ends
thats where death begins

poetry is my purpose
I do believe...

when I'm gone,
poetic gifts of love I'll leave.

I desire a love so deep that
even cupid becomes jealous!

Love can only exists in those
whose hearts have space.

you see, I was born empty
so love can reside in me.

but I have a hole and it always spills
so only for a second can I feel.

Life is that crazy girlfriend
who you'll never trust
She's never satisfied,
and you're not always up for a rush.

Life is that insecure boyfriend
who wants you to stay by his side to the very end
but you've got places to see
he doesn't understand where you've been.

Life is a that mother,
who'll you always want to please
only to realize you have to be you
and meet your own needs.

Life is that dad, that many of us never had
confused emotions, happy and sad
life was a female dog, cute
but deadly when mad.

I have wasted so much time
on lovers I'll never love

and who will never love me
because this is reality

and my kind of love only exists in fantasy.

today I read a depressing poem
and became depressed.

And I was in a good mood.

Midwestern girl
with the slow slang
come a little closer
watch her do thangs
she'll usually have
two first names
fried chicken is probably her favorite;
that child loves a ****,
don't forget a big old l o o o o n g danga lang
**** those country girls sho' a make ya head swang!!

My heart was so vain
it fell for beauty despite disdaine
it fell for faces, it needed no names.

My heart was so ill
addicted to pleasures
lust was its favorite feel.

My heart is now in danger
last seen with
dark pretty strangers.

I have a blue rose tattoo on my breast
one day, I hope your head lay here on my chest
it will give me joy, it will give you rest.

when you are weary and on the run
it will be there for you night and day
like the moon or the sun.

it will be there to wipe the tears
to comfort you over your deepest fears
it will be here sweetheart, wherever you go...

My heart, our love, this ink, your head, this pillow.

All pretty girls fall victim
to beautiful lies
from handsome men
who make them cry.
I always wonder why...
they steal the sparke in her eye
they **** her hopes, her dreams die
she used to laugh, now she sighs
she's still breathtaking
but now her heart is aching
her love, the thieves have finally taking.

winter reminds me that the world is cold,

and sometimes I despise white, because of the snow

it gets dark early, so places I dread to go

winter *****, a **** it can blow!

I hate you winter... this you should know.

what is the strongest human emotion?

I fear the answer to that question...

some topics poetry itself cannot fathom;
I have writers block,
so this is random.

the more time I spend alone
the more guys seems wrong.

the longer I am single
the less I want to mingle.

the more they degrade women
the more I despise men.

I wait for healing above
to warm my heart, thaw out my love

my friends tell me I need ***
other tell me I need help.

but I say to them,
I love myself!!

the sun will be back soon

til' then I'll watch the stars smile, the sky cry, and the

moody *moon

I counted my freckles today
            I had so many, I lost count.

One for each heartbreak
           some loser brought about!

I'm turning into a person I don't know,
not sure if I should stop
bust a U-turn
or
continue to go.

Our very first heartbreak comes from our parents.

-thanks Mom

Life is confusing,

want to know why?

people only love when you die!

watch her eyes
because they're watching you
her eyes are spies
secrets they know to be true

watch her eyes
creep into her head
watch her closely
before she's dead

I began to drink
no time later,
my heart began to think
dignity began to sink
let me tell you a secret that you already knew
I really, really, really want you
and this feeling is nothing new
trust me, drunkenness knows whats true
you like that? that's funny to you?
I bet the size of the ocean just grew...

I can't love you
because loving you is wrong
it's a sad, beautiful, romantic song.

you tell me not to fight the feeling
but you're sick and kind of contagious
my health you're killing.

you are no Angel of mine
so, I can't love you right now
nope, not during this time.

My God does not approve
you are the sin my heart will never choose
this will always be the right move.

choas was my childhood friend
I would always pray for our toxic relationship to one day end
now it's over, and I wish it could begin again.
teach me different lessons, give me wisdom
to avoid future grown up sins.

Dating many men
Around town
Down for the *****
Denying that *** without love hurts me but,
Y**ou only live once

right dad?

my poker face is quite tight
but it can't hold me close at night.

my values and ethics are quite strong
but girls liking boys isn't wrong

my worth as a woman isn't in ***
but sometimes my feminism needs a rest

I usually pass every test
but the flesh is weak, even at best

in a lonely bed, my mind's racing
orchestrating the acts of sweet TEMPTATION.

my sins taunt my sleep
after dark, late nights
my demons love to creep.

the lies I've told
take my breathe away
choke hold!

the things I've stolen
steals my peace
eyes swollen.

karma has awoken
the haunting draft day
and I'm chosen.

I have so many exes'
I could make a ***** jealous.
I have enough sin in me
to make the devil envy.
I have loved so much
exhausted heart doesn't want to be touched.
I've won experience
but I have loss too;
the abiltiy to feel
and trust you.

I’ve died too many times
And life has no rewind...

I died at birth
I died at church
Died as a girl
Died in the world

I’ve died far too much
Reality is no longer in touch...

My lovers always neglect me
when I need them most.

This is why I'm guarded
dogs bite, when you let them close.

My lovers always reject my love
I now know the meaning behind the tears of a dove.

My lovers were never lovers at all
because lovers are there to catch those they love
when they fall.

be careful what you allow your eyes to see,

you may not never be the same.

be careful what your actions do,

your behavoir becomes your name.

be careful of the path you take,

to attain riches and fame.

And don't get too caught up in winning,

because we all lose at this LIFE game!

I awoke today soaking wet

last night in my dream I drowned

from tears and sweat.

Swimming in life

avoiding the deep end

the waters were ***** too,

I guess from sin.

Thankfully, I found the edge

now I can breathe again.

I once had a friend
whom I loved deeply
I would hide from others
but I'd let him see me.....

but something went wrong
he quit singing me precious songs
he never visits anymore
I always break hearts!
*I should have warned him of this before...

if the good die young,
why am I still here?

Maybe I am dead
just haven't accepted it,
must be fear.

if the good die young,
why do I feel old?
wrinkles in my face made of gold.

I was a queen before
a servant now,
life is one sick chore.

see honey, we are not the same
although we are called by the same name.

see baby, we are not the same
I hate you're here, she's glad you came.

see sweetie, we are not the same
she wants the riches, I am the fame.

see player, we are not the same
I'm the prize, she's just the game!