The damage has been done,
the curse from the sun,
fear replaces fun,
nothing chases her
but still she runs.

The damage has set in,
the curse of sin
running from the places she's been,
unsure of new friends
tired but there for her daunting kin.

The damage has infected the body,
and she can't tell anybody
won't trust nobody,
who can help? nobody
knock, knock!
whose there? just me.

forever on the run,

so many places to escape to under the sun.

forever on the run,

Heaven awaits me

I'm dying to come.

I went looking for the devil
and found me.

I went looking for freedom
and found captivity.

I went looking for love
and found misery.

I stopped searching,
and found everything!

You said I never hug you,

You claim I never care,

but you never kiss me,

still, my affections I wanted to share.

I took the heart off my sleeve

and gave it to you to wear.

Because, since day one,

I've loved you *teddy bear

I want to quit,
Sick and tired
I ain’t never satisfied!

I said I was okay,
I think I lied.
I was never satisfied.

Born with an open heart
Vulnerability stretched far and wide
Highs and lows; never satisfied

Too much confusion in her mind
Too much pride, humility died
Rest              in                    Peace

To she, who was never satisfied!

Quiet people have the most amazing stories to tell
for they have mastered the art of observing very well
While others seem ready & reckless
patient ones pay great attention to detail!

Live fast, die young!
Oh cautious one, steady but slow as a snail
the peace in your soul shall take you high
floating to heaven, flying over hell!

Never believed

in love at first sight,

then you appeared in my dreams

night after night.

Revolving doors
drugs and drank
the combination of it all began to stank.

***** beds
body heat and ashe covered sheets
greasy take out, we usally eat.

Strange rooms
bic lighters, smoke, and incense
last check in with my innocence.

And the days have become long
Fast world
Fast talkers
A girl has become grown.

And the days have become long
Fragile body
Fragile mind
Soul has become strong.

And the days have become long
Need of a friend
Need of a savoir
Good people are gone.

And the days have become long
Please return brother
I’ve grown weary in doing right
This route called life has proven to be a turn wrong.

I knew I could never be,
           as much woman as she
so from that day forth,
           I never again tried to be.

Stiff as steel

          but I must be real!

Cold as metal

        my reaction is mellow.

I act in ways that have not been taught

      it must be true, I am a robot!

She never feels apart
until her legs are far apart.

she never belongs
until her body is strecthed out long.

she never wants company
until it is gone.

heart is where the home...
strangers break in with sticks and stones.

she never feels all there
until her love has has it's fair share.

unconsciously *** and love has become a chore
reckless routine of a foolish little *****.

There's war inside her head.

Somebody lost,

because she's dead.

black ice

cold,

slick,

danger in disguise.


pained,

sick from the rain

clear cries

black eyes

I've
created so
many alter egos
the real me, nobody no
longer knows...

deeper than the skies
is the mystery of her eyes

deeper than the ocean
is the dance of her walk in motion

deeper than the wild
is her voice so powerful but tenderly mild

deeper than the depths of the universe, falling in love
with such a girl is yet, but a blessing and a curse...

Love is patient
Love is kind

boys are precious
but I admire time

Love is patient
Love is kind

I aways wait  too long
for wonders and signs

Love is patient
Love is kind*

between my thighs is a slow burn
with a impulsive mind

I need love, but I lack patience
and I want to get mine...

During the day I try to act as if it's not true

Night comes, my mind wanders, and it always finds you

My insides burn with passion, hot flashes of things we should do

be patient with my skills, this task is still new

but soon, my worries will become few

Once you fall in my arms, caught up in love *too

Killing                                                    softly
                                  you

  We will always           be unfinished business

  You will always          be one of my wishes

     I will always      seek your forgiveness

         For not giving you all my heart

                  even after vowing

                       until death
      
                          do us
                      
                           part

To he whose will is strong and might,*

No vision is brighter
than the one
found in the darkness of night!

No longer shall you be blind
unable to see your life
but your eyes shall open
to see his precious gift of light!

Demons come out to dance at night
All eyes on them, as they enter the spotlight

Darkness inhabits every space
Only two dull eyes shine on my black face

I’m forced to witness what they call entertainment
Waste of focus, energy poorly spent

I’m tired of the fights and the arguments
I close my eyes, I can no longer handle it!

last night she cried black tears
reality was no longer clear
it had come true,
her biggest fear

He no longer loved her
he no longer cared
I told her to move on,
*but she wouldn't dare

you are well experienced
it's written on your face.

you've been here before
it's my first time in this place.

Nervous, I feel inadequate
but I'm too anxious to quit.

my naivete you eagerly bought
your skills, I wish to be taught.

I want to no longer feel innocent
so, please make my money well spent!

she was innocent
and pure as snow.

as long as her true self was hidden
real intentention didn't show.

deep depths of secrecy
she would go.

miles to freedom
flying slow.

Not sure if he's really crazy
or dangerously hot.

I crave him sometimes,
most times, not.

I fall in lust often
love? not alot.

I was prepared for the chase,
but nobody warned against the caught.

Last night
in my dream...

I kissed
the sweetest thing...

I fell for the sparkle in your eye
you gave me ambition,
a new thing I was willing to try.


I fell for the life in your eye
I felt alive again,
no longer would I need to die.


I fell for the love in your eye
my heart was no longer leaking,
you soaked it dry.

And she shall be gone for a while.

I hope they miss her,

especially that *smile

2 much

or

2 little

could cost your soul

*love

bags in his hand
a studious man
standing in the doorway
"what do you want from me?"

loss for words,
nothing to say
silence made him leave
but I wanted him to stay

I was taught to ask for nothing
even if I needed something
my thoughts were loud
but my voice was too proud

*Can you love me, please?"

To go unnoticed for so long
makes you think it won't be so wrong,
to disappear, to be gone.

To be alive and feel dead
makes life seem strange
inside your head.

To hear you're loved
but feel the opposite
makes you feel not meant.

Time wasted,
energy spent
people you begin to resent.

they say let it go
but it's difficult
when it's the only life you know.

the sadness of the eyes is always the first sign

the second is an apparent lack of care

thirdly, feelings they no longer share

then, they neglect their health

lastly, they accept their death.

In the darkness without sunlight
In a drought without water
not from soil,
but from hard, cold, filthy concrete.
Many doubted,
but a bud had sprouted.

Despite neglect,
a rose beautifully grew
she never lost hope
faith in him she always knew
the discovery was unexplainable
especially since that rose became you.

They say when you love someone,

you should never treat them bad.

But, I keep messing up,

making Jesus sad.

**Lord have mercy on my sin and please don't get mad!

God brings us into the world
and his wife will take us out.

Not drugs,
not people,
not accidents,
not mistakes,
not weapons,
not disasters,
not anything else!

Nothing kills us more
than life itself!

I never feel closer to Jesus,

than when people mistreat me.

I was made to love
Sometimes I hate
I’m broken

I'm no comedian,
but to see you smile
I become funny.

I'm not rich
but I will hustle
to get you money.

I'm no chef
but your taste, I savor
I desire your flavor.

I'm no freak
but new lovers,
I love to meet.

I'm no hoarder
but admirers
I love to keep.

**I AM A POET
A LIBRA
A PEOPLE PLEASER

The 23 of the month came
and breath entered my body,
I remembered my name.

Billboards with my face
People cheered me on,
overnight fame.

11 months of living with amnesia,
I'm alive again.
With pride I can chant, **I AM LIBRA!

the blood of bulls
runs through my body
anger, sadness,
and confusion,
swim throughout my cells

miles away my friend
cries tears into wishing wells
she too is slowly dying,
her faith has gone astray
strength is slipping away

selfish me
full of life unhappily
dying to get to heaven
living in hell

selfless her
dreading heaven
desiring hell
dying of sickle cell.

pretty when u cry

beautiful when u die

your eyes roll when I sigh

begging and pleading; I try

I fell in love with your hi

but you still broke my heart

with a lovely goodbye

I was drugged by romance
but woke up in reality

I was ***** by lust,
and woke up afraid. Who to trust?

I died the death, many of us dream of
a silly young girl, believing in *real love

In October I turn 24,

I don't want to feel young anymore.

If I enter as a girl

Could I leave a woman?

promise me this, or I'm not coming!

if my purpose was to live
my job has not begun.

if my purpose is to die.
my job here is done.

the world tells me to have fun;
but I feel nothing; I've grown numb.

may death come soon;
MAY KINGDOM COME!

new places she dreads going;

woe to the tired woman.

Love seems so far away.

When lust is available everyday.

I kissed him!
Stole his love from within.

A libras spell,
He turned pale.

His soul had left his body.
this wasn't good, I felt naughty.

I wanted to give him back his life, CPR maybe?
His struggle for air drove me crazy!

But a voice told me not to bother,
cuz this was the normal reaction for a fish out of water.

I loved this song by hall and oates long before I knew it's meaning,

then I saw your face and couldn't resist singing.

*Want you smile a mile for me...