i'm different
unique
i'm not like everyone else
which is a very important thing to remember
no one else is like me
most girls want roses
and milk chocolates
on first dates
but if you really want to please me
bring me sunflowers
and mint chocolate
and if you know that
then you have the key to my heart

would you be so kind as to fall in love with me?

i have no words
to describe the way i feel
at this very moment
but all i know is
no one loves me
no one wants me
try to convince me
but i won't believe you
i'm unlovable
worthless
not enough
and everything in between
i'm not really heartbroken
over the fact that you don't want me
but the fact that no one wants me
it's just how my life is
i love with my whole heart
but no one loves me back
and now i'm just going to accept that fact
no one really wants me

every little thing is scaring me
shadows of darkness
lurking around every corner
deafening sounds ring in my ears
i jump because of every noise i hear
i'm scared
i told him i was afraid of the dark
he holds me close and whispers
"i'll protect you from the monsters"
i didn't know he was talking about the ones in my head

i feel like a beer bottle
that's been thrown against a concrete wall
in a fit of anger
shattering as it hits
the pieces fall to the ground
i fall
broken
shattered
fractured
cracked
splinters of glass are embedded in my skin now
blood trickling down my arms
and from my heart
every breath feels like a war
gasping
panting
choking
blood falls to the floor
red paint on a ***** canvas
until it spells out "help"
sweat runs down the side of my face
onto my bedsheets
from wrestling the demons
fighting
brawling
sparring
i'm worn out
broken down
dilapidated
i just want the agony to end
i don't want to fight anymore
i smell of war
and blood
and pain
there are stab wounds
and bullet holes all through me
it all hurts so very much
i just want to be completely tranquil
and at ease for once