My mind is a vast universe
With words and rhymes and so diverse
Which galaxy will I traverse
Must go forward not in reverse

I shall find and collaborate
the right words to elaborate
The message I wish to divulge
For hungery minds to indulge

But these words are spread afar
Dancing and gleaming off every star
But some get lost and forgotten
My rhymes misbegotten

But with all the time and space
I must build my base
and slowly weave these words with grace
With a piece of my heart to trace

My poems are the life of me
They are who I choose to be
and if you read them you will find
the keyhole view into my mind

You will be lost in rhymes
hearing the ticking and chimes
of my life translated into word
with nothing obscure or blurred

You will see my imagination
overworked with frustration
It's an art of the mind
Twisting and unraveling refined

If you read enough of them
You will find the gem
That will tie them all you see
At that moment, you will know I better than me.

The darkness my home
It's the place I roam
It's nothing new to me
It's something I always see

The darkness in my mind
to the world I'm blind
I'm in a bind
My life to it I signed

Then she appeared
She the Darkness feared
She knelt down to me
and spoke so softly

'Come out of the Dark'
Her lips on my cheek left a mark
My heart jumped and burned like fire
The light around her grew higher

I shut my eyes to the burning rays
I'm not used to the goodness it portrays
Then I open my eyes after awhile
My world wrapped in light, I see her smile

I blink hard to see if this is reality
then I realize this is where I'm meant to be

I'm cold
I'm weak
I'm alone
I'm sad
You're **perfect

I* am drowning
     my love
                    No frowning
                                I forgive *you

What do you see
when you look at me?
Do you see the fire and demise
or the love and happiness in the skies?

When you look at my eyes
Can you see all the lies
or do you see all the hate?
There is very little good, it's my fate

When you hear my words
Is it beautiful like chirping birds?
Or do you hear the hurt
so much pain, crumpled up in the dirt

When you hold me tight
can you see the light
that you radiate so bright?
It makes my world so right

When you look at me
I hope you see
The love, the birds, the good
and to be your light too,

I would.

There is a war in my heart
When did this start?
I feel like I'm caving in
to myself from within

Such a heavy weight on my chest
Can someone take a little and leave me the rest?
But there is no one in sight
Just me outside and alone on this starry night.

This pain is getting the best of me
fading away of what I used to be
I can feel the raging war
My heart grows fierce even more

I fall to my knees gripping my heart
It throbs about to burst apart
I sqeeze my eyes shut to the pain
Feel the water run down my face from the rain

Then I hear someone close by
I look up and begin to cry
For who I see in front of me
Is the couple we were meant to be

I wander to where I was last
I sit
I read
Your name, the dates on the stone in different contrast

There is a War in my heart
I pray it will be the last

The dusk to darkness
I've seen so much
Nothing good, only bad and such
It has taken me to a place
Hanging my head of much disgrace
I have nowhere to turn
The flame this skin it will burn
The razor's edge dripped in crimson
Bullet from the chamber as it leaps in
The crackling, The slicing, The roar
A knock,
                              At the door

A stranger at this door
for some reason you are drawn to more and more
they incorperate themselves with you
Helping with what you must do
Then you realize that you must not waver
do yourself and family a favor
To keep on living on
From dusk to dawn
The door
                             It shuts

The stranger has gone
There is light, now from Darkness to Dawn.

I can't seem to find who I am meant to be
Who is this inside of me
My mind is torn in two
It can't make up what to do

The real one I do not know
The real one I want to show
I'm lost in this limbo
Of scattered pieces of me falling slow

I need to find the real me
and make that the reality
that I must be
For people to see

But I'm lost in this scattered place
All of me gone, without a trace
What is it I  have become now
I don't think I can ever change, but maybe somehow

I ponder my life
as I sit at my desk
My pen the knife
The paper the bread

To feed my mind
what is needs
but my hand is in a bind
I can't seem to move

I need to write these words
A blank letter
Open window singing of the birds
Paper so bright white

These words I must cut
onto the paper
climb out of this rut
onto the paper

I carve

'I Love You'

But the person it is too
is someone I do not know
for they have changed into someone new

Once more I ponder my life

My pen the knife...

I seem to be stuck in a dream where you and me
are together loving for the eterinity
I seem to be stuck in a dream where you and I
are together walking in peace where the angels fly
I seem to be stuck in a dream where I seem to be
looking in your eyes wondering if this is reality
I seem to be stuck in a dream where we
are holding one another to protect from the evil we can't see
I wake
                I roll
                             I see
You beside me

I'm waiting for something
I just don't know what it is
I sit here all day
Just wasting away
I'm waiting for something
I just can't figure it out
I sit here all night
Searching for the light
I'm waiting for something
I think I know
I'm waiting for my moment to thrive
My moment to feel alive

Leave me to the sea. Where I can float effortlessly. Lost in though and weightless. The most free I can be.

Your words make me sad
Your words make me so mad
All you have are lies
Trying to not break the ties
Did you not think I would find out?
That you speak with complete doubt
About where you were
You don't sound very sure
I fell for them once to
Because I had faith in you
That you could stop being fake
but your words are dead at the bottom of the lake
So I walk away
Hoping you will learn to stop the lies someday

My thoughts are stretched and hazy
Driving me absolutely crazy
Without you here I feel so alone
My world is quiet, just a steady tone
The melody we would create
that started on our first date
is slowly going out of tune
Don't be gone too long, come back soon
I have nowhere to go
except the only place I know
That is inside
The only true place anyone can hide

I love you
Oh, so very much I do!
Your beauty is the drug for my eyes
Your laugh is the melody for my ears
Your touch is the ecstatic sensation for my mind
Your sweet loving ebrace is the home for my soul
Oh how much I love you
So, so much I do.
May these things I forever feel
For you my darling I would kneel

Let us walk hand in hand
Leaving footprints in the sand
Let us look in each others eyes
and make sure that neither cries
Let us hold each other tight
Knowing that we are each others light
Let us kiss in the rain
Let the sensation soak away the pain
Let us be together
Let us last forever

The Darkness follows my every step
Making me remember each tear I wept
I can't seem to let it go
It's the only thing I seem to know
It consumes me every passing day
With my life I'll pay
I need you to grasp my palm
Pull me to your calm
Don't let me slip away
In your arms I wish to stay
Whisper to me things will be alright
and maybe this Darkness I can fight
But you are too far to see
I just needed you to save me
The Darkness so black and cold
The only thing my hand can hold
I stay alive with the fire in my heart
That your love got to start
I await your warm touch
Which I long for so much
May you forgive me for what I've done
But I believe the Darkness has won

Can you hear the cry
of my inner self sentenced to die?
I'm shouting your name
I'm was glad you came
Save me from my own hell
It's taking me, can't you tell!
I can't keep doing this
I can no longer swing my fist
I feel weak
a constant losing streak
I need to see you darling
Your love so startling
But you have walked away
Leaving with no words to say
I think it's time to take
The demons hand, and never awake

There is a flower
blooming in my heart
waiting for the one
to pick it so gently
for now they hold
who I am now
their love is it's life.
but mine is still here
withering
shivering
cold and alone
It waits for your warm hands to hold

Help me darling to find who I was
I seemed to have misplaced it just because
Without you here to hold you near
I live in myself bottled with fear
That I may never find another love
The rain dances on me from above

Help me darling to find who I was
I miss being close while our hearts buzz
I sit here waiting in this lonely place
Me and the ground staring face to face
I wait to feel your presence close
The rain dances on me dose by dose

Help me darling find who I am now
I need you here to show me how
I need you here to make me stand
I need you here to take my hand
I need you to be here with me
The rain now dances slowly
I need you to calm my inner seas
But I’m that not real, I’m crumpled to me knees
The rain now dances on your stone
Where your last day with me is shown

I’m alone
In a cold dark room sitting by a unplugged phone
Waiting for your voice to bring me to you
So that you can hold me like you used too
So that I can feel the calm
And your hand in my palm
I’m alone
In a cold dark room wanting to hear your loving tone
Lay down with you and hear your heartbeat
Like a melody, the sounds so neat
I do really need this
It’s you I want to be with
I’m alone
In a cold dark room listening to the moan
Of the person I used to be withering away
Thinking of you every passing day
I need you by my side
I hope we haven’t died
I’m alone
In a cold dark room where I roam
Waiting for you to come back
And fill my heart with what it may lack
I miss your every touch
So, so very much
I’m alone
In a cold dark room which is my only home
I need you to come back and save me
I’m falling to oblivion, can’t you see
These trials I know we can beat
For you are my light and heat,
I’m alone…