You are as transparent as cement.

...

You were not supposed to be here,
But you stayed,
And now you're the most beautiful thing I can say that's mine.

I just want to go everywhere. One place at a time.

Not be everywhere all at once.

I feel like I only know how to bring out the crazy in everyone I care about.

Don't be so foolish to think you even belong anywhere.

If you were born to stay in one place, God would've made you a tree.

We said I love you so many times
that I thought leaving and
forgetting wasn't an option
for us.

It took longer to separate ourselves because
every time I wanted to untie my heart from yours,
you held on.
And every time you were ready to loosen the knot,
I came back around...

We did this for a while.

You see, soul ties aren't two heart strings in a loop knot
You can't pull away and it'll. just. come undone.

We had to fuss. We had to cry. We had to go through what we went through to finally
Untie ourselves
from each other.

You are the start of something new and the end of the scars on my heart that I no longer feel the need to revisit.
Because tomorrow is coming and I know you will be there.

You know in those moments when the sun and the moon share the sky?

That's the way I feel about you.

Sometimes the photos with the least detail, come with the best stories.

I want to have someone who will tell me when I'm not myself.
When I start saying things that I don't believe in, stop me.
When I scream about how I don't give a **** about anyone, quiet me.
Because you know that I love everyone way too much.
Don't scold me when I'm drunk, ask me why I got here.

Please don't drown me in sweet words, kiss me with truth, and remind me of who I am when I forget.

I love you.
I love the way the morning air feels inside my lungs and how cool the breeze is.
Morning air smells like a new start.

I love you.
I love the way water tastes after a long day on the beach. It's like drinking life after the sun demanded to hold whatever you could offer him without keeling over.

I love you.
I love the way the sky makes me feel. It reminds me that I am beautiful and something amazing. How blessed am I to witness something so vast and grand as the sky?!
I want to be everything the sky is.
But I cannot.

I can love you.
So I will and I will keep loving you.
I won't close any window in your life to try and perserve a sense of morning air.
Because the sun will only rise higher in your life, and I will have to choose to either be your water or to demand more from you than you are able to give.
And even if you stop loving me, I will show you a love as vast and as grand
as the sky.

I love you.
"I love you."

I have never flowed with anyone else the way we did today.

Even though I've never spoken to you before,

I felt like we were just catching up.

I will choose you,
No matter what's going on.
If I'm cursing the world,
Or falling in love with everyone,
You're still it.

Everything about me chooses you.
Everything I do chooses you.
I know this because even though it's obvious that my happy chooses you,
So does my sad.

Every part of me chooses you.
I know this because no matter where I am,
My eyes will always be looking for you.
My ears will always turn to your voice.

My heart is affected by everything you say to me.

I could be offered the crowd;
A flood of people choosing me.

And I will always choose you.

I am not nice because I want everyone to like me.

I am nice because I know there are people out there that are like me.

You move me chemically more than any other person

Remember to breathe and don't
give up.
Make it to me, please
keep your chin up.

There are times where I feel like I am worshiped by the sun and the stars,
And then there the times where I only feel their fire torching down everything I am.

I know I am nothing special,
But ****,
I'm the ****.

Stop looking for someone to settle you down.

No.

Meet someone to stay wild with

And *run.

You introduced me to myself in the midst of everything I never wanted to be.

Your skin was born to know mine.

We kiss like we invented it.

If I am only a chapter in your story book...

I am the height of the adventure.
I may not be the light at the end of the tunnel,
But I am rising tension with the quotes that you wish you wrote,
And the kind of love that you'll find on the lips and fingertips of every character,
but won't be able to find in the real world.

Perhaps you're in love with fiction.

Perhaps that's what I am.

The way the world expresses love isn't the way I feel about you.

You're more than a rush through my veins,
more than a kissy face emoji next to a red shape,
more than a cute picture,
more than a lover of my body...
You are more than "babe",
And we are more than a bunch of "I love you's."

You are more,
You are more,
You are more than that.
We are more than they give us credit for.

Remember that I was the one from day one.
Maybe not in a romantic way, but
In a way that made you feel something.

What if I was just an idea, or
Some sort of daydream you tried to make real?
It's okay.
However I am not a daydream.
There's nothing poetic about me.

I am uncertain of where I am, and
I walk like my steps are secrets; on my toes.
Although don't get that confused with "lost".
I may not be trustful of the dirt I am in, but
I know where I'm going. Just like how
I may not know the exact coordinates of
A helium balloon, however,
I do know that it can only go up.

So, my dear, as you spend your time with her and
As you write about how she will leave you eventually,
Remember that people can bring comfort but
They are not medicine.
She cannot give you back anything that was taken away from you.
So that piece that I have?
You can't get it back.

She is not the answer, or the problem, or the reason.
She is a human with feelings, and as you wonder why she can't
Understand you...
Consider that there may be parts of her that are no longer there, too.

She is not your miracle, or your dream, or your most desired wish.
She is a girl. A human being.

Remember this, because
This is what you forgot when you held me.

You were the one from the beginning. 
I knew of you.
You caught my eye.
I wondered about you and what you were like, what you thought about, if you knew me.
I wanted to know you.

You were the one through the middle.
I know this for sure, because you were the last thing on my mind before I fell asleep.
You were my dream no matter what time of the day.
"You mean the world to me."
When my world looked different, you became my first sip of alcohol.
Your name filled my lungs and left them with every hit.
Yet like smoke inhaled, there was always remnants of you on the walls of my lungs.
I wanted to learn how to exhale your name out of my heart,
But I couldn't.
And when I thought I did..

You were the one in the end.

I let myself go insane

I'm in love with you.
In every way I thought I'd ever love someone
And in every way I never thought I ever could.

You brought a light into everything I hated,
And showed me that the darkness behind my eyes didn't scare you.

I didn't try to wipe you clean and make you perfect,
And you didn't try to do that to me either.
Thank you for that.
Thank you for loving me.

I love the way you exist,

Because you're so **** good at it.

I wouldn't want to do life with anyone else.

We created a new light between the both of us.
A life we talked about but never imagined would come so soon.

Everything will never be like the past again,
This is our first steps as people we've never been before...

And it's so **** scary,
And I've never been happier.

How can I get mad over the fact that no one stays,

When all I do is beg to be left alone?

It's always been this way.

I prepare earlier every year, but
I'm never prepared
For the flood
Or the fire
You release or
Ignite
In me.

So while I'm preparing to say "see you later" to you,
I lay with my eyes closed,
My arms laid out like a painted canvas,
And my face covered with this new blanket.

I am not unhappy.
I am excited.
Interested because, you hit me
Differently this time.

I didn't flinch.

Making love was never about you and me being naked together in a bed.

We made love whenever we held hands.

Dear Broken,
Dear most complicated part.
Who holds my misery,
Who holds my love.

Dear Heart,

Why do you let me rise like
Vapor,
Then let me crash down in
Waves?

You're known for giving life,
But you
Drive so many to their Graves.

Why do you let me forgive so easily?
And why do you let me fall
So fast?
Heart,
Next time
Don't melt on me
Unless you know it'll last.

And all of a sudden, there was a rush of a feeling I haven't felt in a while

Being swept up from the caverns of my heart, pushing against my skin.

We lay down together in silence almost every night when all I want is to talk with you.

The instant I am away from you,
I can feel your absence.

Where your hand was on my hand,
When your fingers were laced with mine,
I feel where your hand was supposed to be
And the spaces between my fingers that are now left empty.

I want you with me so I don't have to feel your absence.
I look at you because I know there will be a day where I won't be able to see you anymore.
Whether I must shut my eyes to say goodbye as you love another, or when you have exhaled a breath where inhaling doesn't come next.

So as I lay here without you,
I am missing you.
But I am not sad,

I am simply feeling where you're supposed to be.

When you have those mornings
when you wake up and
you can't
love yourself,

I will love you.

When you have those afternoons where you cannot
hold
yourself
together,

I will hold you.

And when you have those nights where your thoughts take over
and they won't
go
away,
I will stay with you 'till the morning

And I
will
love you
all
over
again.

We met under the night sky.
With bitterness layered in the breeze,
Yet with that came honest intentions and curiosity.
And we played under the stars, tracing out unsaid promises into each other's skin...
Saying things to each other
as if the
morning wasn't going
to come.

But the morning did come,
And you were still there.
The sun rose and shone on my flaws,
And you were still there.

You know in that moment when the moon and the sun share the sky?

That's how I would describe the way I feel about you.

My boss is humming a song,
While I pick at my check mix.
I eat the almonds with the m&m;'s,
And the raisins with the peanuts.

My break is almost over and I stand up
And walk out of the door.
I adjust my clothes, and start with my
Right foot out of the door.
I continue walking.

Earlier today I noticed that my post-it was moved from the window wall to the shelf wall.

I'll let that go without saying anyhting even though it bothers me so much.

Let it go.
Break the routine.
Forget patterns.

You know the feeling you get when you're holding your breath and you need to breathe, but you're still not at your destination where you can take a breath? You get that burning sensation in your lungs when you seem to be gasping with your mouth closed, even though I don't think that's possible.

Is there a word for that?

I cannot express the feeling that I am feeling right now.
I am upset, not surprised, relieved, understanding, ******, ect...
The list goes on.

I feel everything.
It was always like that with you.
Part of me is upset for letting you back in,
But now I'm sure.
I'm done.

You got too involved too fast,
Said too much too soon,
Demanded too much from someone who has
Nothing.

I've been drained of a lot of things,
And so have you.
I looked for a feeling of freedom with you,
I should've known before opening my heart;

You're out.

I feel like I am losing you.

Perhaps you've taken another form of yourself,
Or you have always been this way...

And if you have, I painfully regret not noticing it before.
Unless I did see this, but I ignored the truths in your past's pattern.

Either way, I feel like I am losing you.
And I cannot do anything but
Watch.

I just want a real love.
But I've been called a dreamer.

I just want to be the only ******* one. Is that bad?
Am I asking for something I can never have?

C'mon,
don't **** with me.

You always love what encourages you and everything that rips you apart

I'm trying not to hate myself.

And I'm trying not to tear everyone down with me.

I would break every heart on my way back to you.

with the thought of being gone.

I just woke up in my house,
on my couch,
in your jacket.
I called everyone who called me last night,

and no one answered.

I lay here praying no one died.
Or killed themselves.

"You look like you got ran over by a truck."
Thank you.
I'm getting run over by something.
It kind of feels the same.
But it's not a truck.