crystalline eternal facade
forever
clean and bright
radiant
pure

did you not hear the silence as you approached
overcome with reverence and awed by the light?

siren’s call
drier than barren
caustic
deadly

did you not hear the silence as you approached
overcome with reverence and awed by the light?


the crust won’t hold your weight
reality breaks you will be sinking into the mire of
lies and confusion
stink of rot...decay smothering your
life
person
essence
soul

did you not hear the silence as you approached
overcome with reverence and awed by the light?

the mire is real
a salt pan of false purity
created at the cost of the lives
the rot below the surface
there is a reason that nature expires before the void

heed the silence
kneel not to these false gods
they will **** you.

#thisjourneyofdays

light is gentler now
ground soft
allowing
life
to
bloom

@journeyofdays

softly now
your name is called
time is ceasing
it is the order of things
cosmos

@journeyofdays

his cooking was crap
laundry skills
well they were mad

David Hewitt & @journeyofdays

watching
from not quite the shadow
but the phase of light
just inside the rings
radiating out from the candle
here I can see the others
watching
if I time it perfectly
in that phase of light
just inside the rings
they
      cannot
                 see
                        me
                             watching

@journeyofdays

the cost

of holding it together
is the thumping in my head

of trying to be normal
is fake smiling through another day

of forcing calm
is the racing of my heart

of believing in you
was what tore me apart

of trusting again
is seriously ******* me up

say this will end
tell me something good
keep me here with you
hold me close
don’t let me fly away

                                                                ­            ...I won't know the way back

@journeyofdays

my gentle friend is old
she walks quietly
and sees others from across time
situations from alternative views
never bruises the grass
she tames thorns
encourages them to bloom
creates beautiful vistas
of peaceful exotics all humming the same tune

@journeyofdays

I tell you this story
remember
the monsters
are real

@journeyofdays

Trying I promise
Really I am
Understand me please
Symbiotic with anxiety
Trauma ******* everything up

@journeyofdays

can you say when
is it obvious now
the point where we separated heart and head
when the logic of us fell apart
and the differences became stark
now everything we were is dust
and clawing at outrage is sport


@journeyofdays

"we were all asleep in the anaesthetic of the lies that are generations old"

complicit
we now search the floor for the pieces of our soul
the parts that blew apart when we
saw
heard
then knew
the truth of our circumstance
and the course we were on
and we still said yes

"we were all asleep in the anaesthetic of the lies that are generations old"

complicit
we sang the patriot’s hymn
danced with the war machine
followed our orders
lived
nearly died
and saved our brethren
anesthetized to the horror
they knew we would live

"we were all asleep in the anaesthetic of the lies that are generations old"

complicit
no longer
we are now awake to the lies
and drama
not of our making
no longer game pieces
in global board games
faceless men play with
innocent lives

"we were all asleep in the anaesthetic of the lies that are generations old"

complicit
in truth
the reality of our now
we choose life
restoring our heart
to work in the harvest
our generation makes this stand
one life to make His mark
on a century of souls


@journeyofdays

it will be different this time
it will flow and make sense
I will be present
mind and body as one
and the clock restarts now
the cold war is over

@journeyofdays

if you are taking a dagger to my heart
do it quickly
the wait
that is too painful

@journeyofdays

we look the same
common, seeking to find what we have in common
feeling that I should try to see you as friend
we share so much
but is that real
feel there is so much difference
now seek to know there is a difference
lest we sink into relativism
the gulf between our minds so wide
not just generational logic
it is more
tension of belief
it is in the weave
the texture and makeup of thoughts
warp and weft manufactured by stranger forces than we can imagine
and now try to un-imagine
so that we are all normalised into the tapestry
we find ourselves placed
our fibres are made of different stuff
elementally
broken down into constituent parts
we are alien to each other
dare to agree with you
and the masks barely hide the truth
allegory lost

@journeyofdays

with tears
come deltas
impossible colours bloom
across memory landscapes

@journeyofdays

born of blast furnace heat
swirling and shimmering
skies rained blood

earth sodden
enriched with grief
it seeps to transition

passage via roots
of long dead trees
leaching through depths

shredding and stripping
the substance of life
constituents left behind

now neophytes release
into the next phase
in the evolution of tears

@journeyofdays

overanalyse  the
scene
words
body language

inferring meaning from a
look
sigh
expression

seeing something that isn’t there
never was
fabricated from a shadow
... you think you saw.

sitting where you can see the
whole room
exits
main door


It is just a ****** work meeting
in an office
get a grip girl.

Can you think too much?

#thisjourneyofdays

grasping at these emotions
emotions only partially formed
formed in clouds
clouds of smoke left behind
behind my eyes
eyes that now
now see more
more than the clouds thought
thought the outcome would be different
different from this
this moving through clouds

@journeyofdays

dinner
tonight
guest list
hmmm
I will be wearing combat boots
oh and the pearl drop earrings
topics of conversation
awe don’t worry about me
I’ll be fine
filter
not sure where that is
that ok with you

@journeyofdays

I could get lost in this
missing  
nobody would know

@journeyofdays

at surrender
will I finally understand
the why
will you

@journeyofdays

hold my heart
trust you
implicitly

@journeyofdays

when great effort is made
keeping you from
people who know
places with memory
stories of discovery
truth
you find a way
that story is never finished

@journeyofdays

cuppa in bed
I love you a little bit more

@journeyofdays

that ocean
yeah
cried that one
land reclamation now underway

@journeyofdays

facing the day
with joy in my heart
knowing I can
not falling apart

walking in strength
feeling alive
living the truth
fearless...not quite


@journeyofdays

when it is quiet
deep quiet
what do you hear?

deluge of tears
floods wounds
soaks to sodden
igniting
mercy


@journeyofdays

to feel more than know
that as I swim
through dark waters
you are there
with me
just beyond the darker deep
keeping watch
holding me
safe

@journeyofdays

what happened  
no longer matters
no
I am not finished

@journeyofdays

keeps me here
slows my mind, my heart
settles me in the present
holding me firm
keeping me standing

as I face down hell

sense
not seen
shadow waves
breaking across me
                   still missing

@journeyofdays

well it has been nice having a break from your scintillating company
the endless chatter of angst and anguish that you dish up with monotonous regularity
those barbs of no consequence and idle blithering
picking, picking, so annoying
rather enjoying this absence of negative self talk

@journeyofdays

it presses
hard against
chest
squeezing
heart
and
the breath
from lungs
sending
brain spinning
clawing
at the ropes
on the suspension bridge
walked everyday
swaying above
fall

@journeyofdays

the die cast
path walked
steep
new vistas
now
bloom

@journeyofdays

no words
just feel
no confusion there
touch is real
through fingertips
I hear your heart
and know
you understand


@journeyofdays

there is more
new lights
they are on
now bloom

@journeyofdays

and then he explained
his story
his journey to this point
and wisdom poured

and as he spoke
he held
the tears of his soul
and offered to take mine

and then he laid
my head
next to his heart
and the healing began

and then he told me
get up
fight back
and your story starts now


@journeyofdays

collapsing on itself
I lost time sleeping
but travelled miles

@journeyofdays

do the storms end at the coast
will these wounds travel with me as I walk up the beach
do they heal in the gentle sun
can you read and rest in the muted light
I never chose the fight
this cannot be my reward
but I will be expected to fight again …. is victory assured

in a replay loop, an eternal trap
capricious gods this is your ultimate joke
I never chose these elysian fields
this cannot be my reward
fight again …. choose another end, not this medicated swamp

@journeyofdays

in surrender
must I lose my heart
and my mind

@journeyofdays

choosing to be present
submitting to time
breathing in this humility
it will not prejudice the truth
longanimity
revealing  the path to healing

@journeyofdays

pushed into contested spaces
thoughts voided
made voiceless
become missing

@journeyofdays

it is all connected
in all things
nothing stands alone

@journeyofdays

sacred world
the world of the river
you are being watched
enter quietly aware you are just a visitor
cool green swirls gently
you are being tasted
deep magic in the water
listens to stories
along the chattering shore
deposits secrets with the mangroves
to keep safe
until the next tide

@journeyofdays

see you
no, you died
when you killed my soul

@journeyofdays

entering surrender
you take this heavy mantle
embroidered with pain


@journeyofdays

unseen
there is distance now
new paths
but not missing

@journeyofdays