dinner done and plates are scraped
now sitting around
laughing at our stories
crazy nothing stuff
this makes it all worthwhile
God, I love my family

@journeyofdays

you need to let me go
there is no redemption now
too many strings to play
notes are all tangled
and the tune does not suit my ear
queue crashing cymbals
I’m out

@journeyofdays

small steps
small wins
thank you

@journeyofdays

too long hiding from truths
floating  in quiet water
drift

@journeyofdays

breathe and hold


no ...sound ...clicks….roar
eye of storm
cool of dawn
moonless night
deep quiet
eternity in a moment
savouring this space between thoughts

release and reengage

#thisjourneyofdays

you think this night is dark
there are darker places
within the hearts of men
in the locker of secrets
those that are never told
and not forgotten
even if the manifest was lost



@journeyofdays

faeries are beautiful
but wicked creatures
their craft and skill
beguiles and deceives
much like your hand and tongue
well practiced with lies
wrapped in the finest silk and embroidered with gold thread
ethereal in this  poorly lit world
where identity is fluid
and man bargains for his soul
trading it for winged creatures
that offer nothing but sparkling dust
and an immortal hangover
we have lost the plot
sold it to the highest bidder
and gambled our souls
in a land of faeries

@journeyofdays

window to your mind
this art that you make
journey across ordinary life
and scarred and ancient landscapes.

warrior falls
righteous rage cut short
his cause now falters
Evil dances on his demise
blighting the memory, continuing falsehoods
a chattering class of worms

truth exposed
this art that you make
document this extraordinary life
of battles fought and Evil vanquished

@journeyofdays

to be the other side of trauma is  unusual
loneliness is extreme
forever friends have gone
there are empty seats at the table
telephone numbers have changed
even family has moved on

time has evaporated
my clock and calendar are set at six years ago
time  stolen from me and my life
recreating a history from social media posts
the time lived by those who were close once
they look so happy and have lived

can I make up for time lost
do the living not done
reverse the injury cover over the scars
circle back at points and take that time back
put in a claim for what life owes me
does insurance cover that sort of loss  

finding a way back
is putting together a puzzle where the pieces don’t fit
by using a knife and mallet
more often now in a rush
to make sense of the past and put the missing history
back together, I have wasted too much time lost out here



@journeyofdays

knocked down
rolled in dust
left bloodied and beaten
I stopped breathing
metamorphosis
now there is steel

@journeyofdays

speak of one good thing that happened
tell  something bright
let me hear your face shine
say things are right
chase the mist of sadness
and the dullness from my mind
tell me something gentle
     we all deserve something beautiful, before we face the night

@journeyofdays

held down
beneath the water
no fight left
I let it take me
metamorphosis
now there are gills

@journeyofdays

cut off
plunged into dark
unable to move
I lost my voice
metamorphosis
now there are words

@journeyofdays

to live this moment over what would I do differently?
would it make a difference to the outcome
would you be less ******
would I have kept my mind
would we be bounced along a slightly different path but would up here anyway?

can I do this moment over again?
say it differently and emphasised more ...or less
not reacted ...or perhaps exploded
would the outcome have been different?

if we lived this moment over.....
would you be less ******
would I have kept my mind
would we be bounced along a slightly different path but would up here anyway?

can I do this moment over again?
if I had never said ....or said I something more
been numb. ...or felt something more
would the outcome have been different?

is the trap of fate real
we can't really escape
the alternate path would bring us to this point because....
that's the point
there is only one moment in time
it was always going to happen this way.

#thisjourneyofdays

listened for long enough
the story
you tell
is old

@journeyofdays

perhaps
when we stop chasing our tails
we can sit

sit*
be present with each other
again
find the beginning

beginning
yet another age of being
a gift of time

@journeyofdays

this starting over
new routine
new each day...planning to keep level
to function
weigh up
making choices that are life giving ....not soul sapping ...everyday
self care …to live
to function
beyond breathing
this new reality


@journeyofdays

spinning wheels and pointless conversations
resorting priorities with coloured tags
“to do" list that got trashed before coffee
and the general feeling of frazzled cat

@journeyofdays

this is what peace feels like
God I missed it

@journeyofdays

overachieving at overthinking
an award  I really don’t want
working through a multiplicity of  scenarios
seeing futures that
may never
will never
like my own minority report
jumping at my own shadows
they creep around the fuzzy bits
where the light and dark parry
sparing over territory
for a claim on sanity
or at least where it should reside
and the winner is….


@journeyofdays

it is no weakness
to surrender to love
wholly surrender


@journeyofdays

in surrender
I can see
fire
and the Phoenix ascends

@journeyofdays

❤️❤️
❤️❤️
--------------❤️

@journeyofdays

how does this work
you get me as a job
did you have someone else
you know
before me
how did that work out

protection, protecting me
is that what you do
protect me from myself
well that is a challenge
I guess
that is a full time gig

how do we do this
not sure
do I need to ask
the question
is this a one way thing
or will I know, feel your voice

@journeyofdays

you leave tracks
schlep through dust
are you still missing


@journeyofdays

it defies logic
handing over
my heart
to your care

@journeyofdays

and so we get to start again
get it right this time?
ignore the past
but learn from it too?
no wonder I am so confused.

#thisjourneyofdays

you will never see your reflection
in my eyes again

@journeyofdays

sorrowful
no
life is just
still

@journeyofdays

we think that we have free will
to do as we please
making decisions on our own

@journeyofdays

moonlight  through gum leaves
balm for my soul
moonlight in  gum leaves
healing my heart

@journeyofdays

birthday initial
what does this day mean
life
have lived
time passed
willed to be
heart beats
I did not die
you did not **** me
but now I am different


birthday changed
mourn
the time stolen
people lost
stillborn opportunities
littering the trail
the what ifs that linger
birthday, yes it is different now
that person no longer lives here
there is someone new
flying before running
running before walking
time is different here

@journeyofdays

I know you were here
the bed is still warm

@journeyofdays

after the storm
when your life path is altered
and you stub your toe
on unexpected gems
you know
you were led there
to find them

@journeyofdays

when it is better left
unsaid
undisturbed
covered in dust
you know, you just have to look
that story is never finished.

@journeyofdays

so how do we talk
now we have been cast
as enemies
forced to speak different languages
stones tumbling in the dust
forced to dig our trenches
why do we have to stand apart
putting up our barricades
of prescribed  scripts and war cries
three word slogans
babel reestablished in multiplicity
divided by
skin
language
thoughts
have we changed that much
absorbed by ancient lands
empires of ideology
what we once saw through the same eyes
now fractured
framed with barbed wire
torn out and trampled
take my hand
I still have hope
this evil is not ours
we can walk away from this apocalypse

@journeyofdays

even when you are not here
you know
always
watching

@journeyofdays

thought about the words
decoded
and discovered the hidden meaning

Jobira & @journeyofdays

how do we do this goodbye
if you are honest
for just this once
admit
face
the truth that you said goodbye
a long time ago
drift is too kind
euphemism for your indifference
my life no longer on hold


@journeyofdays

at least for this day
it calls for a submission
a call to account
be engulfed by the terminal end of the sunlight hours
setting clouds, earth and sea alight
a final fiery anointing


whispers are that you are sorry
reaching some level of self-awareness
I wonder if you are enjoying the same clarity
like this one here
with the sun setting fire to the waters
lapping at my feet


confident here at water’s edge
I see what has happened
and choose not to be part of the psychosis
you continue to spin
stirring up micro storms and wreckage
fueling dark fires to cover your prickled hide

fire on water
is not the end of revelation
there is a pause for the night
I will sleep wiser
knowing that I have taken the right course
you are no longer part of my journey


this day ends
it takes my submission
and examination of conscience performed
subsumed into the terminal end of the sunlight hours
another fiery rebirth
it floods the dark

@journeyofdays

guileless
now you can accept
the pain that you bore

@journeyofdays

steps missed discovered an eroded
masterpiece after damage was done

Jobira and @journeyofdays

process in meaning
opens horizon to new landscapes
explains soul deep memory
meaning so subtle in colours from dreams
walking in footsteps only comes so close
intimate
hear soul’s intention
feel deep culture from  bones
own words fall short
breathe connection of place and time
transcends
speak my works
see life through my eyes

@journeyofdays

sorry
falls easily from your lips
while the rest of you
says
but
           get back to me
                                when you have yourself sorted

@journeyofdays

cunningly wrought
will I be able to escape my thoughts

@journeyofdays

end
has come
read the memo
large print
centred
bold


@journeyofdays

darkness is making me sick
keeping me ill

keeping me tied to ..
shackled to shadow...to anger and injury

smoky tendrils keep me in a half life of tears, regrets, pain

trapping me in memories I cannot flee

darkness is keeping me sick

#thisjourneyofdays


stop
just
stop
the time for trying has passed
evaporated

@journeyofdays

so very close
I can feel you breathe for me

@journeyofdays

pittosporum undulatum
such a beautiful name
it speaks summer and warmer winds
that drift in from my garden

@journeyofdays