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1.9k · Mar 2016
Pea Mar 2016
hold me closer and tighter
like i wouldn't know how to let go
wrap your arms and make me warmer
as the eyes of the night fade, he will let us glow

your fingers on my neck fire sparks against my skin
as our snarled hands dance with every stroke
you pierced at my cold heart, i bleed the light from within
your arms are my fireplace, i fret no more about the snow
1.8k · May 2016
the sky
Pea May 2016
we were
made for the sky
for the beautiful
vastness of it all
the wide stretches
of blues and purples
and pinks
we were made
for it all
1.6k · May 2016
delinquent eyes
Pea May 2016
your pair
of eyes
is like
a thief
to my lips
they steal
my words
and leave
me breathless
1.4k · May 2016
Pea May 2016
spin like a never-ending pinwheel
go forth whatever, wherever direction
don't stop
even when you feel woozy

that's the point
(no pun intended lol)
Pea Mar 2016
i wish you knew
how much i see
galaxies and other beautiful things in you
i wish you see
that these things i know are true
take a closer look within me
im sorry in adv ily
Pea May 2017
there was a time before we fell
into this ravine where we are now,
when i reminded myself to know
my boundaries. to recall that i've been
broken enough before to gamble my heart again.
to think things through before i spit them out
of my mouth. i can still remember that i never
wanted you the way that i do now.
i never intended to.
all i wanted was to ***** your monochromatic heart
and feel you bleed sweet technicolor lies and lullabies.
but now, where are we now?
i chased after you, bleeding yourself dry you told me
without turning your head, that you're through with me.
that you're done trying to make me feel sunshine and
sunflowers within me when i'm unhappy.
so i stopped running.
and i watched you go as you carried with one hand
your heart and its veins drenched in black and white.
1.1k · Apr 2016
Pea Apr 2016
kung hindi lang din naman ikaw,
huwag nalang
931 · Aug 2016
like glue
Pea Aug 2016
I say this to myself
one last time
as I close the front door
behind me:

*"Stop getting yourself
too attached to people.

They leave and it’s sad.

But it’s even sadder
to look at yourself,
peeling off the skin
that once touched and knew
yours so well."
900 · May 2016
haiku ; little stars
Pea May 2016
i saw little stars
lined around your patch of scars
and they were glowing
859 · Apr 2016
vi. six words
Pea Apr 2016
you are
Pea May 2016
My eyes still burn from the tears of gasoline you poured down on me.

How could someone who have given you so much joy every day could suddenly make you want to withdraw them out of your life without any sort of sirens singing around? When our two worlds collided, they were comprised of a confetti of a hundred different things, some were vibrant reds and others atrocious yellows.

From an outrageous exchange of IM’s, being picky with certain kinds of food, talking about weird teachers, sharing an umbrella when the sun’s out and when the skies throw a fit at us, and you being gaga over your bizarre fantasies that I will never understand.

The things that should have been disturbing to me, didn’t even matter. Because it was you. You were the one who mattered.

Do you remember our first conversation?*

You probably don’t. But, I still do. I was the one who approached you first. But then again as time flew by, I’m always the one approaching you first. But I never minded. I never did because I’ve always thought that it was a thing so superficial and minor that it should not have even been a thing. ‘Cause who the ******* hell cares if I talked to you first? All I wanted was to talk with you anyway. I thought it wouldn’t matter to us in the coming years.

There were those days when all I wanted to do was snuggle up close to my laptop screen and talk to you nonstop about anything left on the shelves to pick at. I’d try to tell you things of my own but you’d always manage to twist it around making every thing else about you a little so suddenly. That never failed to leave me feeling all confused and dubious, though. But I forced myself to believe that I just didn’t know how to converse as riveting as you are.

A handful of people around would tell me that I deserved better. That being with you, changed how I spoke and acted in an unpleasant way. But I thought to myself, “Why would I think that? You are so important to me. I would never."

True. Because hey, you mattered to me. But, why did it seem like I never did, even at the faintest bit, to you? What was the matter with me? Was I completely ****** for being just so comfortable with you whenever we’re talking that I even cuss, call you names and point your flaws out? I never meant every offensive thing that got to my head, though. I just crave for your attention all the time. But you still liked me around. You never showed that you even cared about me acting “psychotically”. You probably even liked me being clingy and needy like the girlfriend you never had.

But, this time… I’ll have to do something for myself. I’d have to stop thinking about what is good for you or for the both of us. I have to let go. I have to give up on the future that we picture ourselves embracing together. You have to let yourself be, and in order to do that, you have to leave me out of it. You wouldn’t want me sticking around. I couldn't stand it too, trust me.

You care about yourself more than anyone. I’m not regarding this in a standalone paragraph because it is the perceivable truth. It is in fact a sad truth but, it isn’t sad for you. You should be happy that you are being well-taken cared of. By yourself. I’ll give you a pat on the back for that.

Giving up on someone does not solely entitle the fact that you are letting go of him or her—or for the best of times, in that matter. Giving up on someone also means that you are untying the chains that sulked the bond between the two of you, and finally, becoming free.
838 · Mar 2017
nine-word story
Pea Mar 2017
one-night stand conversations
are probably
we'll ever
754 · Mar 2016
empty streets
Pea Mar 2016
let us walk these empty streets
fill it with our presence
let's spill secrets in the dark
spread laughter all around
let's leave a mark
with our colors imprinted
at each step that we take
let's fill in the lonely
forget that it was once empty
****** tho
746 · May 2016
Pea May 2016
so beautiful
yet out of shape
one's longer than the other
a little dented to the side
thumb's thick and fleshy
pinkie's a little bony
but beautiful hands
hands that i love to hold
when mine inevitably
start to shake
they calm me down
the warmth it seeps
greatly into my skin
the long and winding lines
where my fingers start
to flow and brush down
so tender
740 · Jul 2017
You are yours
Pea Jul 2017
You rain with glitter
You are made of gold
You are far too precious
To exist in this world
Only to be sold*

You touch everything
The way your mom had taught you to:
With delicate hands and a mouth made
For soundness

You are yours
And yours only
Do not let them touch you
And pull your soul out
Of its porcelain cage

You are yours,
You will always be
you are not anyone's. don't ever make anyone try to put up a flag on you and declare they're yours
712 · Mar 2016
when you're around
Pea Mar 2016
my mouth
it never runs out of words
to say
always spilling, reaping attention

but why
does it run dry
like a wishing well
no words at all leaking out

at the sight
of your face?
671 · Mar 2016
seven-word sorrow
Pea Mar 2016
i broke

fix you
short hm
627 · May 2016
make me stay
Pea May 2016
don't untangle yourself
from me

don't stop to breathe
while you're kissing me

don't wish me luck
or send me a goodbye note

don't drive me off
to the airport

don't wave at me
with sad eyes

make me stay,
but don't say it

don't let go
of me instead
612 · Apr 2016
Pea Apr 2016
you are all that i think about
you are the first thing that comes to my mind
when i wake up and the last thing left before
i fall into slumber

you stole my heart away
and replaced my thoughts with the memory
of your face and your voice and your lips
when it cracks open into a smile made for war

you stole my heart and i let you
because i trust to you the only beating thing i have
it beats solely for one thing anyway
its captor, its thief
y o u
y  o  u
y   o   u
599 · Apr 2016
Pea Apr 2016
the longer i wait,
the amount of questions
about why i have come
to love you triples
and i don't have
the answers anymore

the longer i wait,
the more i question myself
if waiting for you
is still the only
worthwhile thing
that's ever mattered
to me

the longer i wait,
i learn about myself more
and that the ticking clock
behind me would
eventually speed up
to the time
i will be able to hear
from you

and i no longer have to wait
for the meantime
590 · Apr 2016
if time permits
Pea Apr 2016
someday, you will see me
the way I see you
someday, all the things in my head
will leave and grow in yours
someday, you will care for me
like I have for you all this time
someday, it's all gonna make sense to you
just as I'm starting to fade from the view
573 · Jul 2016
i am pain (10w)
Pea Jul 2016
i'm just a conflation
of swollen lips
and drunken midnights
550 · Mar 2016
joaquin phoenix
Pea Mar 2016
with every move you make,
you remind me of a swaying kite
gracefully letting yourself be
as you get carried away by the currents of the wind

with every beat of the music,
you're not dancing with your feet
you are moving with your heart
the rhythm and melody loud and clear in your ears

it is as clear as crystals will ever be in your grace,
the way you move so true and sure of yourself
the beads of sweat sprouting on your face
define soaring grace and the purest flair
this is not actually about the actor Joaquin Phoenix. this is for someone with the same name joaquin. i love the actor as much though <3
546 · Mar 2016
in my dream
Pea Mar 2016
in my dream,*
we lay in a field of daisies
talking like we weren't strangers
we were two souls laughing like crazy
and this was our moment to savor

in my dream,
you recited about the moon and her lustrous tales
like it was your mouth's native language
i stare at your moving lips and wondered about its taste
fond details that my mind could never damage

in my dream,
we were happy, we were full of light
as the daisies around us swayed in the breeze
i stayed wrapped under your arms, fearing no flight
wanting this all to last like how it's supposed to be
the reality, though.
542 · Aug 2016
deep-set brown
Pea Aug 2016
i saw him in the hallway this morning,
his head was bowed down.
though i don't know what he's looking at
or why his eyes were glued to the ground,
i know from before that they were deep-set brown.
530 · Apr 2016
one day
Pea Apr 2016
and then
one day,
i just stopped
the way
hoping against hope that, yes. someday. i'm just so tired already.
496 · Mar 2016
coffee breaths
Pea Mar 2016
the sun is out, babe
it's spread out on our bed sheets
the streaks of daybreak
blazed up on our skin

your freckled face in daylight
a burst of stardust around your eyes
i count them to make me feel alright
you look away to give up a fight

you lift your coffee mug to your lips
gulping down the morning brew
i leave kiss marks down your fingertips
and catch a whiff of fresh coffee, too
493 · May 2016
thinking about you hurts
Pea May 2016
i could care less
about you
about how you are doing
about how your day went
about how you are feeling
i could easily
try not
to care about you

but i still do

and it hurts
i don't think
i even
cross your mind
for you, will.
so-much-feels-poured-out-on-the-floor moments
483 · May 2016
like a song
Pea May 2016
how did
the universe
come up
with someone
like you?

i question
i've never
seen anyone
or anything
as riveting
as the way
you say
like a
or a prayer

and i,
i've never
hearing it
as much
i do
462 · May 2016
i hate you, i love you
Pea May 2016
you hate every thing
you hate the birds flying and the sunrise,
the afterglow and things that shine,
the butterflies and my silly haircuts,
the jazz playing and the flower pots
you hate the movies, the ones with Julia Roberts,
my favorite cereal and Gobstoppers,
the way i move away when you try to pinch my cheeks,
the way i undress your buttondown and taste your lips

you hate it, you hate every thing i love
but what's worse is that,
i can never hate you
i will always love you, even for that
454 · May 2016
gunpowder and stardust ☆
Pea May 2016
you were made
of gunpowder

and ****
it when
i touched you
my hands

but my fingers
dusted off
specks of
Pea Jul 2017
you keep on saying
you'll get back
to the way things were
when i'm finally done with you

and even though
i still want nothing but to take those
midnight phone calls that lasted til
the early morning hours back

i finally,


let you go

because i know
that this time
it's better than
holding onto something
that would only end up
*       r                         i  
b                a       k            
           e                                 g



in the end

i've drained out
all the hope
that was left

*when you
451 · Mar 2016
my heart in your hands
Pea Mar 2016
i tore
my heart
for you
come in

but you
it more,
and never
came back
you decided my heart just wasn't good enough for you.
431 · Mar 2016
Pea Mar 2016
i was the blue sky
contented with the sun
the rays around felt nice
until the fiery aura was gone

you were the tangerine sky
smeared with other different shades
i liked that you were there for a while
even more when you let me stay

then came the day of a downpour
it washed all the vibrance that was left
oh, like a midnight's stupor
you were convicted of theft

a shade of blue from my body disappeared
a part of me that made me whole
my thoughts swim back into the clear
the new color in your sky, was mine all along
424 · Mar 2016
more than good enough
Pea Mar 2016
don't look down on yourself
there's nothing to see but your
precious, little heart in there
where you keep on aiming rocks at
you hate that it's feeling,
when you don't want to anymore

it's okay, darling

look into the vast cerulean up above you instead
it is mirroring the radiance you don't know
you have been giving off
you are worthy of being loved, darling
you are more than good enough
just remember this
420 · Mar 2016
When You Talk About Her
Pea Mar 2016
You talk about her
like she’s the beautiful, inky night sky,
and you stand there waiting, wanting
to be the boy to hold the stars for her.

You talk about her
like she’s the missing fraction in your body.
You can’t breathe, move, eat or sleep.
Like she’s something you cannot live without.

You talk about her
and it shows how much you’re longing
to be with her, wherever that is.
That despite the miles and hours that stop you,
it doesn’t even matter as to how much
you’re craving for her.

You talk about her
the way I see a sunrise.
There’s a glint of hope
in every word spoken.
Hopes filled with vivid imaginations
of her running back to you.

You talk about her nonstop.
She’d had your mind preoccupied
with her dubious self.
Her voice at 2AM echoing around
the corners of your brain.
Her brown eyes clear
and earnest against yours.
Her lips curled up into a smile
at the sight of you.

You talk about her
because you think about her constantly.
Like there aren’t even other things
in the universe that rattle your head
other than the thought of being next to her
and holding her hand and paying attention
to her and just.
And just being with her.

You talk about her
like you’ll never
run out of words to say. . .

You talk about her
the way I wish
you’d talk about me.
412 · May 2016
Someday, You Will Know
Pea May 2016
You will know everything
because I will tell you
every thing
from the first time I knew
I was in love
and how my harboured feelings
tried to eat me alive

You will know how much
I thought about you a lot
how I wondered about
the routines you never missed
and the places you've gone to
on rainy evenings
I let my mind wonder and wander
around the thought of you

You will know
that I missed you often
even at times when we're
only two seats apart
or when our arms
almost touch on accident
I let my skin miss what yours could
potentially feel like on mine
things i've always wanted my past crush to know
379 · May 2016
Pea May 2016
you felt like the sunshine i wake to in the morning
your everlasting warmth and radiance
soothes my heart and soul
i will miss your touch,
the way your fingers brush against my skin
i will miss the way your mouth opens
and closes when it presses against mine
that beautiful force and energy we make
i don't know how i will face the world
now that you're dead and gone
and all that's left of you
is the soap on the shower floor
the last thing that your hands have touched,
and held against your body
the soap, melting, sweating out bubbles,
crackling against the current of waters
crashing down upon it like waterfalls
on the ground,
the cold and solid floor where i held you
for the last time,
where you said the words 'i love you'
for the last time
373 · Jun 2016
To the boy who has my heart
Pea Jun 2016
To the boy who has my heart, if we were any more real.*

If we were, I’ll surprise you more often. So please don’t get ******* if someone knocks on your door at 1AM while you’re still asleep. That would be me standing on your doorway, cradling a tupperware of leftover pizza and a bunch of rented movies. I’d risk an all-nighter just to be with you.

If we were, I will be your number one fan. I’ll sneak out just to watch your football games. I won’t be ashamed of standing on the bleachers just to cheer for you. I won’t hesitate to chant boo’s against your opponents. It’s going to be worthwhile anyway.

If we were, every second will be golden. Even the little stops we’ll make to get ice cream cones from the store. Even the times we’ll forget to bring an umbrella and we’ll have no choice but walk through the puddles and get ourselves rained on. Every little memory will be an important story.

If we were, we’d go on spontaneous road trips together. We’ll sing to the songs playing nonstop on the radio. We’d go places we’ve been to before, we’d visit places we never knew existed. We’d go everywhere together. We’d go on adventures like our parents didn’t warn us about our curfews.

If we were, you won’t ever have to feel inferior to everyone and everything anymore. For the reason that is, you are the sun. Please don’t forget that. You are the sun aglow when everything else is pitch black.

To the boy who has my heart, you’ve long been the pinnacle of my list.
Nothing’s gonna change that. You are irreplaceable. You are worth every thing, little or big. You deserve to know how amazing you are every day.

Someday, someone will own that beating thing inside of you. She will make you feel flowers growing in the pit of your stomach. She will kindle the fireworks in your blank, inky nights. She will make you feel loved. I want to be that person.

And I’ll tell you, that’s all I ever want to be.

After all, you are the boy etched in my insides.

*The boy who has my heart.
wrote this when I was 15. and in love. not anymore, though.
356 · Mar 2016
Pea Mar 2016
you are my remedy
to the ill feelings I bear towards myself
you make me feel lovely
like sadness was a foreign thing to my lips

you make the pain go away
like there never was soreness in my limbs
you are the only living thing that I need
to heal and feel truly beautiful again
dear #1
349 · Apr 2016
Pea Apr 2016
speak to me
say all that's bottled up
in your caged heart
write it down
pour it on paper
i want to fathom you, and
e v e r y   t  h  i  n  g
you say
to me
i won't care if the letters
are far apart from each other
for as long as you speak
and say everything that's
in there right now
be free to me, dear
be true to me
345 · Mar 2016
let me count the ways . . .
Pea Mar 2016
how will i prove
the love that
still pines
for you?

a mixtape
filled with
all the songs
we know
by heart
and sing
at the top
of our lungs

you took of me
smiling shyly
at the

that we planted
that grew
in every corner
of my garden

ticket stubs
from when i
remember you
were so scared
of heights so
i never let go
of your hand
in mine

an exhibit
of the things
i collected
from all the
we have gone

unsent letters
that kept
my spilled words
about every
that I
felt about you

with this thing
inside me
too tired and beaten up
to beat
but never
to work
343 · Mar 2016
12:31 AM
Pea Mar 2016
I look back at our late-night conversation,
It was the first time I've heard your voice
I knew I was the slightest bit of anxiety
My fingers were a little cold
And I might have felt it trembling
But when you spoke,
Your voice lit up the fireplace in the room
And my hands began to grow warmer and warmer
As your airy words go fluttering from the speaker to my ear
I slowly felt cozy and the bit of alcohol from a while ago crawled back up
My words were unimpaired and free
The simple exchange of nonsensicality and infinite laughters
When we said good night,
I lay in bed looking at the ceiling
But all I see is pitch black
So I think about the look on your face
As we laughed at your stupid stories
and the pitter-pattering around your house
I wondered about the future events
If I pushed the green button again
But I just stayed there,
And waited
'Til I fell asleep
334 · Jun 2016
8:31 AM thoughts
Pea Jun 2016
how could you
be both
a man of
a few words
a man who has
all the words?
328 · May 2016
Happiness is when. . .
Pea May 2016
happiness is when i look into you and you
hold me with your knowing gaze that i fear
would bring more butterflies in my stomach

it is when you touch me and draw circles
with your palms around my back when i'm

it is when your hands feel warm against
my skin even when it's a cold and stormy
world outside

it is when i absent-mindedly throw my head
back and lose myself in laughters and smiles
from the things that you say

it is when you tell me that i make you happy
even when i feel like that is what i lack
talent at

it is in the simple things we do
in the littleness of it all
that i believe in so much
and even until now, i am happy

because happiness is here even when
you're not around, my mind's always been
about you and i will always feel you around
328 · Oct 2016
the only thing
Pea Oct 2016
i wrote you a letter,
i guess you haven't read.

i wrote you another one,
because what should i do
if you're the only thing
in my head?
306 · May 2016
11:50AM thoughts
Pea May 2016
with a face so angelic
and a mind so beautiful
like yours,
how could you be
so heartless?
296 · Apr 2016
Pea Apr 2016
While I was sitting on
the concrete edge,
I looked up at the sky
and the clouds hovering over.
I thought about you,
yet again.

And even though all I see
were huge masses of white gossamer
and all I feel was the sun's rays
bathing our area,
I still see you
and I still feel you.
this is for you, Will.
288 · May 2016
First Times
Pea May 2016
why are we so obsessed
about our first times?

like the first time
we learned to ride a bike
without the training wheels.
we were so happy when we knew
how to maneuver along the way
without us or anyone getting hurt

and the first time
we got a henna tattoo
it looked permanent and
on the inside skin of our arms
it felt like it could last forever
as long as we looked at it

and the first time
we kissed someone on the lips
we could never forget that memory
it felt like it lasted for years in our minds
every single day we thought about that person
it had all felt softer than of marshmallows
and milk under sunshine,
it tasted better

and the first time
we heard our favorite song
as it played in the background of a movie scene
the lead actors were looking at the horizon
figuring out their feelings for each other
it was a beautiful thing to witness,
and hear at the same time
that somehow in our messed up minds
it managed to seep through
and stay as soon as we searched for the lyrics

first times,
that's just what they are
the times when something good and important
occurs in a timepiece in our lives
worthy to hold on to,
worthy to outlast more glorious memories
far-off better than
the first time

sorry it's a little long
279 · Mar 2016
Pea Mar 2016
behind those
pretty eyes
live your deepest
that would n e v e  r
to the life
you shared
with her
~ * broken soul club * ~
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