No matter how many lies you said
You can't lie to your heart
For lying to your heart
Leads to pain and destruction

No matter how many people you care
You must never think of something in return
For when you look for something in return
You will gain betrayal and distrust

"Do you understand?"

He woke up from his trance while silently looking at the foreign place he is in.
He does no know what he is doing there but he remember how she left him when they are still happily having their date on the other day.
He felt being hopeless in the dark when she is gone.

He ask to God why?
He feels that he is cheated
He is angry!
He hates her!
He hates her!
He really hates her!

"Can you prove that she does not love you even if she left you in the dust?"

He stared at the person asking the question.
He thought it is a foolish question
Is leaving him behind not an solid proof that she does not love me? He is dumbstruck
The question that he don't know what to feel.

"Betrayal can also mean that you are love by her you know? Do you now understand?"

And at that moment he remembered that he is in the classroom listening to his professor.

"Yes Bishop I understand everything"

I lost someone dear to me

It happened so fast that I can't react
My mind can't process it
I can't feel anything
And then..

Reality hits me hard

I can't breathe
I want to go home
I want to die
My world stop spinning
I want to quit
I can't move on

But I don't want to give up
I struggled hard
I fight to live every day
I am healing
I want to be strong
So that when the time comes
When I face that person once again
I can say it pride

I am a survivor
Thank you for your guidance
Mom

As I reached out to you.
I spilled the words of my heart
Frustrations, anger, disappointments
And then  I felt pain.

A Desperation of a hopeless struggle

And then I feel disgusted.
Emptiness, helplessness, despair
I drank the words of my heart
As I stare at the empty wall

"I won't give up on you"

The words I sincerely said to her
A man's promise I solemnly abide

Yet I receive distrust

From the woman whom I trust
The same woman who gave me
The pain of reality

They said silent means yes
But why it is deafening
When I ask her
Do you love me?

My mind blanked at that very moment
We've been in this journey for 6 years
And I know someday it's going to end

But your sudden departure made me realised
That it is never easy to let go
Of the things you love the most

On that rainy midnight
I left with a deep sigh
Putting my phone away as I silently said
Such a nice book, thank you for everything