resigned from personality, I live gone from such a scathed place, unable to blend or stand out but to be indivisible. Flowing through, Living a life akin to A silver stream, out of your own unprovoked inclinations, grasping the fibrous contents from my soul, filaments momentarily sustain you but not enough for you to permanently reside here beside me. remaining unseen, lost under shrubbery, fanned out trees covering me, ‘unfounded’, casual movements nevertheless, demobilized. By “silver”, Not that I see my significance as anything higher just forgotten, maybe I’ve made it out to be that way because consciously The brittleness of such a being wouldn’t be able to survive in such a conditioned life, austerity gleaning from every corner to such a center. Gleamed on by the effervescent presentation of sun and moon, providing me sustenance, showing me comfort, blissful distraction from this inescapable lonesomeness, so indescribably tortuous, but all the while, such a “beautiful” poison to the common outsider. Wind can only carry that which has lost its will to live, becoming light, Full of iron I stay, not entirely certain if I’m convinced of that myself to completely let go, to continuously be led a-fray, maybe there is a task that remains undone. Maybe I’m not ready to go just yet. Maybe the call urgently repeating needs no response but acceptance to whatever fate I might fall into, a disposition of tolerance to the external parts that I keep apart from myself for no exact reason to but only because it might just hurt, it might break the way time points to the soul to respond, to repair, to repeat, to mobilize once more.
The happenstance of it being late of four, the moon directly beaming against my window, so aligned with how I feel isn’t isolated nor miraculous just anticipated.
‘while we lay lamenting to the same old tune we seem to have forgotten that tomorrow is along the way. That all is to come certainly for “time” never ceases to stop.’
unedited. I like to think of it as organized chaos unfairly transcribed.
To whomever this might refer to.