Today you hurt me…
Today your laugh hurts me…
your on side smile of rogue child …
It hurts me to remember your desperate eyes…
That sight hurts…
Our patched love hurts…
It hurts the desire I had to make it work ...
This failure hurts me ...
My broken family hurts ...

Today ... it hurts…
It had been a long time without pain…
I don´t know why…
But today I noticed, you still hurt me...

And today your memory came suddenly
with that song  that we had never heard together,
with a lyric that I can´t understand
and even though… that melody sounded like you…
and what we had
when our love was so beautiful…

And my mouth drew a smile
not a sad one
maybe a nostalgic one for all the time that had passed
and how different is Life of what it used to be then...

And in a deep breath I thought
that I´m glad to coincide with you in this life...
I´m glad that you had been my first love

Era tan improbable que nos separemos amor mío…
Parece que a veces los burros sí vuelan…

Those tinny fractures inside my soul…
they hurt like stepping on small pieces of glass with bare feet
they wont make us die by bleding…
but they hinder our steps
they make your advance painful
Even they are small…
Yes, they know how to hurt.

You have the record of breaking my heart more times…
And I have the guilty of this.
For the faith I put on you…
For beliving on you again and again…
For the expectations I put on you
For letting you do this to me.

I let you win that record.
I was no loving myself...

I leave here this I LOVE YOU...
so you can hug it always
An I love you that remembers that I'm here for you
An I love you that veils your dreams and absorb your tears
and feels your laugh, ruffles your hair and let you dream…

I'm not going to tell you cheesy phrases as
Your eyes are the sun that illuminates my path,
but if you want me to tell the truth…
your eyes are these sun
and when you smile, they are the other stars
and when you look at me,
they are the hug I want to never end…

Neither, I'm going to tell you something like
your kisses make me dream,
but if you want me to be sincere…
Your lips are seeds with dreams.
You had planted more than kisses in my soul
you had left me more than traces on the skin,
I have an entire forest inside,
and those trees whisper your name.

And I'm not going to tell you that you are my great love
I’m even afraid to tell you that…
But… If you want the truth…
Is really probable that I won't want to leave you
Not while I exist…
Who knows that even later…
Maybe we end up as two energies
that can't imagine one without the other
Who knows…

And I'm not going to tell you I love you…
not if I don't feel it…
Be certain
that when I tell you that I love you
I really do.

And of so much don't want to tell you those cheesy phrases
I think I said a lot more…

In this life of so much getting lost,
I came to find me when you meet me

Without understanding the reasons very well
I know I think of you…
And I feel you like a part of me,
maybe a little part
in a hidden corner of my being
in a very personal corner
you are there,
as a diamond I found on the way

Sometimes your death hurts me deeply…
As deafening scream inside me

And is not even that I wanted you back in my life
We changed so much…
Our worlds does not had nothing to do

Is just that it hurts that you don't exist anymore
because even if our lives had never been blended again
knowing that you exist gave me happiness
I wished SO MUCH for you…

Really…
sometimes it hurts so bad that the air I breathe
is not yours anymore…
that the moon I see can no longer be seen by you …
That I was left remembering alone how much I loved you
and the beauteous way you loved me…

It hurts...

Me quedé ahi parada…
sintiendo todo el dolor del mundo…
tanto dolor... de ese que te paraliza…
que te quita el aire, te lo saca desde adentro.
Un golpe profundo,
certero...
que removió mis raíces…

Y sigo caminado por muchos de estos mismos caminos
que caminamos juntos, que construimos con amor…
en los que veo y siento ese amor…

Pienso que sería más fácil sólo huir de esta realidad,
inventarme una nueva vida…
tatuarme la piel para que sea diferente,
cambiar de color de cabello,
cortarlo…
vestir y hacer cosas diferentes…
explorar ser alguien más…

Y para qué?
Para en la noche sentir que no hay lugar al que pueda huir…
para darme de cara contra la almohada
tratando de olvidarme de todo…
agradeciendo por los dolores físicos,
que disimulan un poco el dolor que llevo en mi alma…

When I die, I know my colors will spray away

I want blue to become oceans and sky
green, forests, jungles
red, kisses...
orange, sunsets and birds
brown, earth, sand…
yellow, sunflowers
pink, flamingos and petting
white, foam and peace
black, obsidian

I want violet to become dreams...

And I want turquoise to stay in your eyes...

To stay there... because is my favorite color
the one from where others are born in me...

and I want it to be forever yours...

Here es my scape from the world
because it never stops…
Neither for you or anyone else
it does not matter the pain,
the injustice,
it doesn't matter the lost
the crime
the scream
no tears can stop this…

So just here I can find a place to reconnect with myself
and keep going
Here is my healing place…

Soon I become again in the human I love to be
the human that believes in love, life, happiness,
solidarity, loyalty…
And I can keep being different in a world
where so much people is worried about badness
about awful things…
And I can be one of those that brings hope to the rest
that helps healing, that maybe is just a grain of sand
but this grain of sand is doing something.

And I don´t want to be the alarm you always postpone...

And I told you to don't waste your time with me…
trying to pull you apart from me
trying to “stay safe”
Just because I was too afraid of loving again

I'm glad you stayed…
I'm glad you never gave up
I´m maravelloused with your amazing way to love me
you took me out from that cave I was hidden

Sometimes we're admiring those love stories at the movies
But is just our desision become the protagonist
of our own love story.

Ours is being writting with so much love,
with admiration and friendship
with comprehension
with intelligence and antics
with laughs and healing tears
with support
with a vibrant passion
Ours is being writting with the best of us!

He played of losing me so many times
that finally he lost me definitely…
and his pain was not a game.

Sometimes I notice
that you are more than my lover
you are that hope I have in life
in people
in pure feelings…

You are that light
that turned on in me
when everything was so dark
and finally I could see…

You are not just my lover…
You are the man that lights my universe

And he told me:
Burn the soup with you
It is a privilege that no one else has ...

Maybe I like so much those Indie road trip music

because my soul just want to fly like wind

through those chords that sound

like a soul flying by the wind...

It´s hurting me so bad…
It´s hurting me today…
It´s hurting me our yesterday
It´s hurting me that my hopes are thrown in the trash
It´s hurting me my daughter's sadness
The loneliness that some days takes possession of me
is hurting…
my life is hurting today …

My lovely Valeria
it doesn't matter how much world changes,
if many stars are born and other more die…

It doesn't matter if injustices increase or decrease.

It doesn't matter if our world falls apart
and how much you and I change

Do you know why it doesn't matter?
Because even if this world that we know turns different
my love for you is immutable, unbreakable and eternal
And that won't change ever.
That is a certainty.

I’m very proud of being your mom
You are the way life rewards me every day
And I want to tell you that I will support you
in everything you want to achieve
in what fills you, and makes you happy to do
even if I can't understand…
I will support you because that is one
of my ways to love you.

And if I scream your name to the wind,
maybe it will stop resonating inside...
And then you will stop hurting me...

I was driving and thinking
I'm a deep thinker when I'm driving…
Sometimes when I'm eating, or taking a shower...

but without ramble
I was thinking…
No, thinking no…
I was feeling
Feeling so connected to this life
So much words got accumulated in my head
in my chest
I would love to have a piece of paper to write
but I think even I had one I could not do that
because they were so fast inside
as neuronal transmissions
like constellations forming, so beautiful inside me…

I just decided to enjoy them
Tried to catch some

And I swear I got ones until yesterday’s night
And today…
Today they escaped from me…

I was thinking maybe that it is what real beauty is
A vibrant and powerful touch of inspiration

Most of the time we want to capture beauty,
to capture it until we have life…
But beauty does not want to be a prisoner
Beauty just wants to be…
it is ephemeral

So, enjoy it while it lasts

And that beautiful feeling of enjoying…
That feeling is what lasts forever.

I won’t die without you…
Because stop fighting would be not loving you…
Not a little…
You had given me so much life,
that I can't give you death...

This love is worth to fight
Nobody says it will be perfect…
We didn’t't thought it will hurt like this...

But here we are…
Fighting with love…
Building us again…
Loving our dark sides..

Sometimes even though I think I've healed
those scars still hurt.

Even all the happy days I have
some memory sticks its poison
and I die a little again

Even now I´m in love, with all my heart
and this love is wonderful!
Although I feel loved in body and soul
this pain manages to reach me
and plucks my wings a little.

Is part of healing, right?
Die from time to time
agonize with some anguish
that… an old wish, one very rooted in our soul
take away our peace, erase our smile

Is part of healing, right?
And it takes time…
it really takes time…

And I think that from now on
my life is going to be the most similar as I had dreamed.
I woke up and that there's no reason to be blind again

But… even all...
and as happy as I can be
there are some things that always will hurt…

I think there's not enough time to them to stop hurting,
because is not possible to erase in the map of our soul,
something that we wished from our core

Lets see…