great love is not the only love.

What's another sleepless night on the path to infinity? Here's to the pills to make me chill but still don't do anything. So I'm just staring at the inside of my eye lids watching the scenes of my life play out on my internal movie screen.

I see in vivid colors the memories that I thought I had let go, but were continuously burning from within me. Like the time I spoke venom and rhetoric at the loss of my notebooks and it was probably then and there that you fell out of love with me.

Or the moment you got too close so I shut down and refused to speak. Those times got more frequent and fraught with the fear to be open and honest but a liar I'd never be. So we sat in silence in the car like a sad film scene where it would rain, but we wouldn't cry, and so you fell out of love with me.

And if there's a demon in me, he's learned to speak in silver lined tongue and in prose and in rhyme and to paint pictures with words so he can pretend he's free. But I'm still haunted by the actions and the fears of a scared and tired little heart housed in chain and ice and it's when these fears came to life: I learned I'll never be free and so I fell out of love with me.

I knew I have to cut this strings to save myself.
But I never realized I was already drowned.
He left me in depths of my love and despair.
He removed the air in space and dugged me down to the pit of sorrow.
I saw him down here, his arms that could save me held another.
I cried so much for the first time.
I cant decipher this was this great love? was this loss love? was this love at all?
Tell me, if he ever love me even once because there were never days I wasnt inlove with him.

Blessed is she who comes across,
A man so pure and full of love.
Who devoutly reveres his beloved,
To miss out would be  a vast loss.


A man like mine,
Perfection in human form.
Oh how he is flawless,
A personality which endearingly shines.

He posses a touch to admirable to be factual,
A voice that makes you feel at home,
A smile that says you’re not alone,
A body so desirable, so ****, so practical.

A love like the finest of wine,
Each day it gets better,
Nothing but better,
A love so sensibly divine.


When you have a love like ours,
You’ll learn there is fate,
None of this is fake,
Days seem only hours.


Blessed is she who comes across,
a man such as mine,
A love so divine,
to miss out would be a vast loss.

Ugh
I fall in love
With everyone
And I mean EVERYONE
My heart can
Only hold so much.
Can only beat
So many be
Ats at a time
Fast slow
It doesn't matter
It's both
Keep up
I will
We
W ill
V ie
I love you
I may not
Know you
But I do
And I know
You could
Love
Me
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