We used my last name As part of being together So tomorrow we could end it Cash and cheap pen Is all we need To seal the deal With the legal devil But my heart's the ink And my hands are shaking I don't want to leave you I still love you Like early days full of promises The idea of leaving the nest To build a new one I don't want to leave you I still love you
Before you take them away Why don't you ever ask them If there are any unfulfilled duties left Why you never give them a chance To redeem everything that is good balanced and heft
Before they leave for an eternal journey with you Why don't you ask them To keep enough for their to-be-fatherless kids To not just keep running here and there but calmly sit To love their wives before the final farewell bids
Is it too much to ask for? Cause you see after you take them away Families are broken and so torn So Next time Before you take them away Please for a while let them stay Let them stay a little longer Let them make their families a bit stronger
why must it always end this way ? the feeling of being unwanted . unappreciated . unloved . by the ones who are supposed to love the real me the most .
what do you do when you're thrown into a tidal wave of emotions ? a hurricane of thoughts i feel like a tsunami has wrecked the last bits and pieces of my saneness . my sanity . my reason . trying to hold on is just so tiring . especially when it seems as though no one wants to see you achieve your dreams . discouragement is such a tiresome feeling .
exhaustion is also a feeling I know all too well . always on go . doing what I thought would keep you at bay but as always you can't even say it to me . hiding behind what you think would protect you . like a child . oh i wonder how that feels ? to have someone who will fight your battles , for you . instead of being on the opposing team .
i wonder how it feels to have a family . my supposed "first" team .. what's supposed to be my "main" support. my lifelines so what happens when the ones you never thought would make you feel the feeling you always feel the most , make you feel those feelings you hate feeling the most ?
you crumble , even more so than before you collapse and you decay until you're nothing but a fine powder that hopefully no one ingests . pure crazy at it's finest , a drug for sure . but , this one ? It kills.
It’s always a daily battle, always something I’m fighting and I’m always alone.
Today you hurt me… Today your laugh hurts me… your on side smile of rogue child … It hurts me to remember your desperate eyes… That sight hurts… Our patched love hurts… It hurts the desire I had to make it work ... This failure hurts me ... My broken family hurts ...
Today ... it hurts… It had been a long time without pain… I don´t know why… But today I noticed, you still hurt me...
I still healing... Some days are wonderfull, and some brings pain when a memory hits me bad... I´m not sad anymore... Today I just felt sad for a little while...
Tattered ribbons Dented bells Crushed light bulbs A blood-stained star All of that would be better than this Sitting docile as your FAMILY slanders your name Pointing out every flaw Swearing at who you are and your beliefs Then laughing it off as if it was a joke But then again These people haven't been your family for quite a while