tumase pyaar hone laga hai RD.... jaanam A heart in love sees the other side of life and living with splendor that is blurred by daily living and it's hardships.
Suddenly all appears divine in nature body, heart, limbs re coconnect to soul and realign throbbing secretly.
Its the shy magic mystery of two in love interconnecting wavelength entwined, Same precise moment As their paths loop. ~Jugalbandi~
Love seems infused with it's own good fortune cookie baked surprise in it's midst, closing gaps as yet monotonous dark clouds discipate.
Loving is an antivirus downloading new systems. Cleaning faulty links. Awakening emergent awareness, puting action to the eager vessel soul.
I fell in love before pcrdd I do fall in love again ~Jugalbandi Rd~ Sharing past true love and everything since then greets me With love And so much more. ~~~~~~~~~~ By Karijinbba All right reserved 2021
The healing of being in love at any age we carry in a keepsake called heart and anchors us To loves true Norths And in the right path we find true contentment Joy and the eluding butterfly Of happinesses, STAYS.
Hello again How are you? Thanks for meeting me again It feels like old times Thanks for inviting me back into your life Thanks for showing me your new self I'm glad I was able to show you mine I'm glad we were able to laugh like old times When it was just you making fun of me When it was me sending sarcasm your way When we pushed all the bad demons away To be dumb and young together Before we diverge into the big bad world
i want to say so much and nothing at all i want to say i miss you and just bawl i want to say im sorry and fix it all i want to pick up the phone and call but i know i can't because im afraid.. again... i will fall
I think of you a lot Though not in the way I used to Before I'd be much more be preoccupied with sadness Even about happy memories But now it's a lot of anxiety instead Anxiety about wanting to talk to you But not knowing what to say Deciding on the general idea But getting hung up on the tone And in every text I do send I am rereading every individual word Trying to ensure that I don't Come across as too invested or Overstep some invisible boundary Because I don't trust that I can do that Without hurting you or Making you want to run away And athough someday you wont be in my life I'd rather it not start today
you texted me... i thought you never would i missed you so much of me wanted this but this isnt how i thought it would be
i cant help but feel like you have something else in mind i cant fall for you again , i made a deal i cant keep hurting myself over you i cant apologize
its not that i didn't like you , i did but you never saw it because it wasnt in the way your used to so you had a fit like a little kid
i changed alot and im scared i dont want you to hate the new me that took so long to build because no one else cared
im naturally a sad person i write depressing poems and i changed the way i dress i want to be spontaneous i forced myself to buy a thong it sits in the back of my drawer cause i still hate my body and it just feels wrong but i'm determined to change that to love ever curve and stretchmark even when my stomach isnt flat
i dont know how long this is going to be but im going to be the most authentic me if you dont like the new me then well you can leave again but this time dont come back just let me be
I'm glad you found your closure It feels like it opened a cavity in my chest A billowing hole ******* the air From out of my lungs and Away from my brain Away from the sanity I've created Where I thought I felt secure But instead the infrastructure was so weak That the simple memories you mentioned Left a mark on me yet again As my heavy heart weighs me to my bed And I wish so desperately to be alone I feel as though I'm dying I must accept reality as it is I know that all too well That's why I agreed to meet To see you To see me To see us Now We're different than we once were And while I understand how and why My soul mourns the moment And I know I should just live it fully Because so soon it'll pass And once again We'll be strangers on the street One heart armored with reinforced steel The other a sloppy mess of Broken shards and what ifs Rotting until it turns to ash And new flowers bloom from its death