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"casualty" poems
Casualty: my interest fading Once waxing moon now seen waning And I did concede your irksome warning And watched as the rest played out So let bygones be gone, fallen out by the side Of this road, worn down, still restless, keeping straight Eyes glinting off token little bits of hospitality Mother nature being so inclined at times The stress so unnerving, I hardly doubt it But tension is eased once it comes to acceptance And I accept in full, finding time to unwind Winding stretch of lonely road, dotted here and there by An occasional landmark Or a lonely tractor pulling behind it Iron bars, old and rusted Found in their hold Bales of hay or A small little pond With a bench beside it Holding initials carved against the grain With a heart surrounding As mine beats slower At last, the sun begins going down And the moon grows brighter Even in its state And my feet move faster Though my body is withering I feel this separation growing As my mind takes flight and leaves me Behind, in the twisting twilight And alone, I walk along
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Jul 21, 2018
Jul 21, 2018 at 6:31 AM UTC
Friday
when the moon has finally succumbed to the flirtatious will of night and even stars grow weary of guarding peaceful slumbers the sneaky temptress twilight makes her move and slithers through my window as she glides into my bed, I can tell she is up to her old tricks my eyes forget to close and my mind forgets to sleep the darkened outlines of my room crumble as each breath escapes my lips and now I remember where I've hidden you, blue eyed boy how strange a sensation to remember your body a rekindled sullen mood your arms are a heavy warmth against my waist and your legs are clumsy giants that wrestle with mine all night yes, this is how it feels when your cheek nuzzles the nape of my neck and even here, your breathing rumbles like a storm rolling out to sea Your heavy exhales compose a sensual melody as each crescendo crashes against my clavicle I'm at the mercy of your lingering shadow I'm the casualty of the pressure in this room I want to stop breathing because I feel that I could make love to you in the blackened air my hands trace out your handsome face and place two gems for your brilliant eyes and caress the sharp angles of your cheek your lips were delicate so I use only my right hand I'd give myself to you so honestly this time but here, loneliness slowly swells your lungs a tar that coats the lining of your throat you are a cruel asphyxiation brought on by the mystic twilight herself but her ruse won't last forever I'll drift off into the sweet solace of sleep and ponder on how you love me more when my bed is empty, blue eyed boy
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Sep 13, 2012
Sep 13, 2012 at 12:50 AM UTC
blue eyed boy
when the moon has finally succumbed to the flirtatious will of night and even stars grow weary of guarding peaceful slumbers the sneaky temptress twilight makes her move and slithers through my window as she glides into my bed, I can tell she is up to her old tricks my eyes forget to close and my mind forgets to sleep the darkened outlines of my room crumble as each breath escapes my lips and now I remember where I've hidden you, blue eyed boy how strange a sensation to remember your body a rekindled sullen mood your arms are a heavy warmth against my waist and your legs are clumsy giants that wrestle with mine all night yes, this is how it feels when your cheek nuzzles the nape of my neck and even here, your breathing rumbles like a storm rolling out to sea Your heavy exhales compose a sensual melody as each crescendo crashes against my clavicle I'm at the mercy of your lingering shadow I'm the casualty of the pressure in this room I want to stop breathing because I feel that I could make love to you in the blackened air my hands trace out your handsome face and place two gems for your brilliant eyes and caress the sharp angles of your cheek your lips were delicate so I use only my right hand I'd give myself to you so honestly this time but here, loneliness slowly swells your lungs a tar that coats the lining of your throat you are a cruel asphyxiation brought on by the mystic twilight herself but her ruse won't last forever I'll drift off into the sweet solace of sleep and ponder on how you love me more when my bed is empty, blue eyed boy
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The teacher stands before her detained class And from behind her authoritative podium She equates abortion to the holocaust A dangerous comparison in an educational garrison But the other children nodded their heads in agreement A benefit of having the ear of youth Is being able to infect it with your own toxic ideology What bacteria did this ear infection consist of? Conservatism? Religiosity? Chastity? The answer was depressingly simple I was the only one there unaware of Fox News I was a casualty of the confusion The confusion engendered By venom thoughts placing politic-colored glasses on the entrenched masses Entertainment Used to convey anger and hate Emotions worth conveying But not living in The intents and desires of their vulnerable receivers become an incongruous disaster What could I have done? Minds as still as the pharaohs heart We live in a society where we're all infantilized by one myth Good and evil Looking back on what I did do I didn't do much But I did do something I didn't nod my head like a ******** sycophant
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May 23, 2017
May 23, 2017 at 12:34 PM UTC
Fox News
A cigarette is pathetic tinder For lighting a revolution In a house were curtains are drawn Against all outside movement And trinkets of an affair Are cast away with casualty Or slipped between the pages Of books no one will read- Dense things With a sense of malice Scratched into their surfaces, Un-dyed by the sun
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Apr 8, 2013
Apr 8, 2013 at 4:26 PM UTC
Tinder
Anxiety, Anxiety, Anxiety How we worry about the safety Of our dreams null and dainty And our wishes of hope and subtlety. Anxiety, Anxiety, Anxiety Maybe a disorder in personality Don’t know my main priority But weary about a certain casualty. Anxiety, Anxiety, Anxiety Forgot all my functionality Living life with absurdity Death with such acceptability. Anxiety, Anxiety, Anxiety Please more of anonymity Dealing with such difficulty Of one having anxiety.
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Aug 30, 2018
Aug 30, 2018 at 10:28 AM UTC
a poem about anxiety
Make your Next move Two. paces. forward. three. paces. left. New position protection of the weak inferior to the mightier. One. pace. forward. disposable casualty of the battle slice me open take me into the other with your strong hand. Zero. paces. Stay seated and think ahed, safe, behind the wall of marble bodies. DO NOT let them in. None left. Battle won. Take me away to remind me, that at the end of the game the king and the pawn are still put away in the same box.
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Nov 13, 2014
Nov 13, 2014 at 2:26 AM UTC
Chess
Sometimes the flashbacks Can be picture perfect like a gallery Every once in a while I struggle with what life's like actually As the memories resonate Depression eventually catches me It always baffled me and still rattles me Why did my best friend have to be a casualty I'm setting my GPS as I pull down the street For Arlington Cemetery in Washington D.C. Whenever I feel the need I just sit there with him No reason to speak I let the ground beneath me relieve some of the grief Then just before I leave I about face and say You'll always be with me Semper Fi my brother Rest in peace Marine
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Jan 16, 2016
Jan 16, 2016 at 11:03 PM UTC
Till Valhalla
You dream of love And fantasy I cannot any longer Because of reality My face is shadowed By a memory While yours glows From your insanity The insanity of passion And the sexuality Imbedded in a promise Of fidelity And a lifetime Of matrimony Yes I am past that But I speak honestly About life As a casualty Of love And adultery But I need to believe In love for me only But if you cannot Then let me be lonely
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Jan 12, 2015
Jan 12, 2015 at 2:14 PM UTC
Your Dreams My Reality
He belches verses of prayer from the acidity of his gut, staggering upright on two toddler feet, he trails drunkenly to the fridge, scarce with only a few dented beers, a bucketful of ice to feed him, till the next scroungers pay-check is due. Cracking open a frozen one, it hisses a warrior's cry, loud in the stillness then dies swiftly, as he raises the carcass to his split lip swilling alcoholic entrails round him gums. Wincing slightly, the beer half-empty in his hand, he twitches a pink eye in pain as something rolls around his jaw, the made-of-man pinball stage has begun a game without him. Gathering his saliva into a hard bullet, he spits the foreign object onto splintered floorboards, where his last tooth lands, a final casualty of his handsome youth.
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May 9, 2012
May 9, 2012 at 4:18 PM UTC
Handsome Youth
Zeus, your predilection for banishing Titans to Hades... anathema of them--revolt was theirs of you...Titanomachy. Enter Prometheus, second generational Titan, brother to Atlas--Prometheus of whom Titan revolt at first ran no fire through his veins. Thus, Zeus was well pleased and employed Prometheus to put earth to water, water to earth...as to yield man. As so man was, and was unto Prometheus...a fondness entered him of them. And in of passion Prometheus' veins were run through with fire...fire fought fire--thus Prometheus reached out taking hold Zeus' lightning. Hid in a hollowed fennel stalk, to be bequeathed unto man. Torrents of fire now ran Prometheus' veins, and in a fit of infamous mockery presented Zeus with two packets of slaughtered animal parts. A hubris was born in Prometheus that being so halved God-man gave itself fully to that polarity...he gawked at Zeus and bade him choose between the two packets. One of ox meat and innards coated in stomach lining, the other of ox-bones coated in its own abundant fat. Thus Zeus chose, the wretched lesser of the two... inconsumable ox-bones coated by fat. A charged and terrible air cut and heavied all direction, pointing assuredly that Zeus was one given over to the surface of things, a psychological casualty of his own vanity. Zeus overcome with Prometheus' disaffection for the God of him struck at Prometheus' family. At length, this assault could not, would not put asunder Prometheus from the ground he stood. A certain Haphaestus was summoned by Zeus...whose directive was writ in torment. Chain Prometheus to Mount Caucasus...where from on high a sackcloth cloud shall shake loose an eagle, whose homing hunger shall have only a taste for Prometheus' liver. Day in, and day out, that accursed ***** shall be the bounty of itself!
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Jan 17, 2012
Jan 17, 2012 at 6:06 PM UTC
Prometheus, That Accursed ***** Shall Be The Bounty Of Itself
Zeus, your predilection for banishing Titans to Hades... anathema of them--revolt was theirs of you...Titanomachy. Enter Prometheus, second generational Titan, brother to Atlas--Prometheus of whom Titan revolt at first ran no fire through his veins. Thus, Zeus was well pleased and employed Prometheus to put earth to water, water to earth...as to yield man. As so man was, and was unto Prometheus...a fondness entered him of them. And in of passion Prometheus' veins were run through with fire...fire fought fire--thus Prometheus reached out taking hold Zeus' lightning. Hid in a hollowed fennel stalk, to be bequeathed unto man. Torrents of fire now ran Prometheus' veins, and in a fit of infamous mockery presented Zeus with two packets of slaughtered animal parts. A hubris was born in Prometheus that being so halved God-man gave itself fully to that polarity...he gawked at Zeus and bade him choose between the two packets. One of ox meat and innards coated in stomach lining, the other of ox-bones coated in its own abundant fat. Thus Zeus chose, the wretched lesser of the two... inconsumable ox-bones coated by fat. A charged and terrible air cut and heavied all direction, pointing assuredly that Zeus was one given over to the surface of things, a psychological casualty of his own vanity. Zeus overcome with Prometheus' disaffection for the God of him struck at Prometheus' family. At length, this assault could not, would not put asunder Prometheus from the ground he stood. A certain Haphaestus was summoned by Zeus...whose directive was writ in torment. Chain Prometheus to Mount Caucasus...where from on high a sackcloth cloud shall shake loose an eagle, whose homing hunger shall have only a taste for Prometheus' liver. Day in, and day out, that accursed ***** shall be the bounty of itself!
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Leaves crumble under unwashed trainers; silence He walks along the avenue with hands in pockets, As street lamps pave the way along the lonely avenue A Hen Party is sighted; their noisy presence noticed Out of nowhere a taxi rolls up, a casualty is claimed He gazes at the midnight stars and smiles Like a fantasy; a big bubble that hasn’t yet burst Conversing and gentle laughter picks up at the street corner, Whilst crowds of hipsters and young people dance and discuss As Friday nights go; rules are meant to be broken As this quaint little place provides an escape from it all With its neon signs and hippy vibes, Its bonsai trees and chandeliers Bikes hang from the walls and flower pots roam free He is greeted by an Ola! and a welcoming smile A piano sounds from within, a cold breeze chills his neck He rolls up his collar and enters; silence
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Dec 24, 2018
Dec 24, 2018 at 9:33 AM UTC
A Stroll in Barcelona
People diein' on the streets. ****** puddles at our feets. But we could be a family. We could be a whole. We could be together. But no one could be cold. If we could live on an island, no hate, no guns, no war. We'd look back and wonder, what was it all for? People diein' on the streets. ****** puddles at our feets. Gangs, tempts, nudes, exempts. We sit at desk, eating or eaten. we laughed at or laughing. beating or bleedin'. We know the truth, but call it cruel. The cruel one is we, the blind fool. People diein' on the streets ****** puddles at our feets. Who shot the most guns? Who then killed them all? Who didn't mind a casualty? Who could be responsible? "Not me!" we cry, "I'm a good soul." But even if we declined, can I be told where they go?
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May 2, 2014
May 2, 2014 at 10:52 PM UTC
We could be (a family)
Direct, Physically dominant. Unargueably aggressive, Yet, So unnoticed. Recognisable colours, Hidden behind, Covering deceit. Deceptive courage, Fake smile, Grimacing strength. Cowering, Submission is granted. Obvious circumstances, So misunderstood, Retreat, Access denied. Apologies don't exist, Escape artist, Mascuerading as the helpless, Only the strong, Survive in, Shadows. Sudden movement, Hard, cold floor. Casualty, More questions, More lies, No truth, Is ever uttered.
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Jan 16, 2012
Jan 16, 2012 at 4:05 AM UTC
Dominance
the barker in charge is sniffing markers & the dog's the one in the shock collar. good god. I'll come back tomorrow. galapagos, I'm sorry. rocketship jalopy wrote a handbook on banana boat cutthroat reconnaissance exotica, abominable beast of tropic atrophy broke folk casualty engulfed in telescopes & TV shows being monitored thru a monocle the theatrical apathy & topical misanthropy can anybody understand me?
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May 26, 2015
May 26, 2015 at 8:47 PM UTC
Shock Collar
Two faced Many minds Shifter of shapes Dr. Jekyll Mr. Hyde Past lives Intertwined Most mean Few kind All vie for equal time All determine to shine The writer The fighter Drama king *** machine The revolution ignite-r The brave slave One with Passion and fire The singer Dead ringer One who points the finger Conspiracy theorist Lyricist Soulful swagger Hip Hop demeanor The teacher and student The dude with attitude And no one can refute it A brother and a son The one that has been shunned One who leaves them stunned With the selfish things I’ve done The secret me The enemy The one whose heart is numb There are a lot of us No stopping us And yes there’s more to come I’ll never alter My alter selves Incarcerate them In individual cells Even when they scream and yell All are a part of me And they refuse to be veiled You ask me Is there a pill? A remedy…? Because this has to be Insanity Did you disrespect My dissociative identities? Do you really want to make all of us your #1 enemy? We’re laughing Its killing me We flip the script easily Me- and all of my inner entities Chillingly You’re triggering A very sad memory Oh, what a tragedy You’re just another casualty Unfortunate fatality Of my Multiple Personalities…
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Oct 1, 2012
Oct 1, 2012 at 12:49 AM UTC
Multiple Personalities
I was born a mermaid. Half divine fish, Half human female. My thoughts swam far and wide taking no prisoners. I did not know I was myself until the age of six. My life had seemed like an extraordinary dream up to that point. I wasn't a girl bound by a name. I was the queen of a world of sea-kings and sea-nymphs. The day I glimpsed myself in the mirror, I rose from the waves, and caught a whiff of reality. It hit me so hard I couldn't breathe anymore amongst the fish I called friends. I had to surface but I couldn't leave the sea. Land is too harsh for a mermaid's glistening scales. It roughs them up, takes away their shine. But the sea was also inhospitable to those who only halfway belonged. I drifted between the two worlds always keeping my head upright above the waves. My skin grew sunburnt, My wrists grew thinner, My eyes grew dimmer, with every appearance of the moon's wistful face. The two sides of me were at war and I was slated to be the sole casualty. I did the only thing I could held my breath sank under the waves. I made a deal with the sea-witch, tore my tail apart til it made two legs. Shed every single scale til the skin underneath wept red tears. I made a deal with the sea-witch I gave her what was left of my tail. I made a deal with the sea-witch, I didn't realize that my rebirth from the waves onto the gritty shore would be the last time I tasted the salt on my tongue and the wind in my mermaid-hair. I made a deal with the sea-witch I gave her my soul.
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Apr 6, 2015
Apr 6, 2015 at 12:23 AM UTC
A Mermaid's Tale
I was born a mermaid. Half divine fish, Half human female. My thoughts swam far and wide taking no prisoners. I did not know I was myself until the age of six. My life had seemed like an extraordinary dream up to that point. I wasn't a girl bound by a name. I was the queen of a world of sea-kings and sea-nymphs. The day I glimpsed myself in the mirror, I rose from the waves, and caught a whiff of reality. It hit me so hard I couldn't breathe anymore amongst the fish I called friends. I had to surface but I couldn't leave the sea. Land is too harsh for a mermaid's glistening scales. It roughs them up, takes away their shine. But the sea was also inhospitable to those who only halfway belonged. I drifted between the two worlds always keeping my head upright above the waves. My skin grew sunburnt, My wrists grew thinner, My eyes grew dimmer, with every appearance of the moon's wistful face. The two sides of me were at war and I was slated to be the sole casualty. I did the only thing I could held my breath sank under the waves. I made a deal with the sea-witch, tore my tail apart til it made two legs. Shed every single scale til the skin underneath wept red tears. I made a deal with the sea-witch I gave her what was left of my tail. I made a deal with the sea-witch, I didn't realize that my rebirth from the waves onto the gritty shore would be the last time I tasted the salt on my tongue and the wind in my mermaid-hair. I made a deal with the sea-witch I gave her my soul.
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I am utterly convinced that my spirit is a ten-cent ***** letting any passing nemesis **** it in the mind with almost no tension. It must enjoy the sensation as its host clearly shows in the streams of tears that flow through the eyes, the spirit's *********** It must moisten its knickers at the viewing of torture, as its host sits in an icy stupor, with the times of grotesque spectacle-sobs on tile flooring, nicks on the wrist, what have you- the only times of breathing. My spirit must have stolen all the charm it takes to captivate the enemy into arousal, as the host stumbles awkwardly in public, pushing all potentials away with vehemence and convincing itself of its inferior quality to even the vermin of the sewer. My spirit has made me the loathing host to the parasite of my own being, my mind the main casualty, ridden with **** from villainy both outer and inner, decay from traumas more persuasive than the tongue of Casanova. I hope it's happy.
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Apr 29, 2010
Apr 29, 2010 at 10:46 AM UTC
Cheap Biology
I have a dream! I have a dream, To the racial discriminators, said Martin Luther King, I have a dream! I have a dream! To the evil-creating economists, I warn and ring. Globe witness hunger, inequality poverty and unemployment The world turns out to be bitter, To all of you, I write this letter. To create a world relieved from these and turn better. I am a mad aspiring economist, a fool, Searching for the right tool, You turned the world with full of mess, People are left with nothing less. To the world, you gave theories, Pushed us into a vicious cycle of injuries, About your theories, you boasted, It has created a few ruling and bloated. Most of you worked as economic hitmen, Turned victim laymen to fighting gunmen. To the realities, your theory is distant, Served no solution to the dying peasants, To the few, we remain a psychological slave and servants, Tuned our lives to a depended migrant. With your development lecture, You have killed the entire nature, In the name of ventures, corporates turned vulture, Hunted and looted our generations’ future. We lived a self-reliant community, You killed us with imposed liability, Our lives are now placed in intensive casualty, The word that remains imagination still is equality. We lost our humanity and identity, In your eyes, we are just a market and commodity, Your play with scarcity, was a mere futility, We finally became a society, filled with atrocity. Your useless lectures of development, Put us under frightening & irrecoverable unemployment, For a few, you got us into a deep-rooted enslavement, So, now for you instead, we make a replacement. To my questions, you neglected and ran, In your eyes, I am foolish stupid common man, To you short-sighted range, I say I will bring in a change! Today, I may remain lower and mere viewer, A day will come, where you will stand to answer, Writing a new rule, I would seize your beloved positions, This will be my lifetime mission and ambition. I say with all my limited experience, I will put a test to all your conscience, Are you just a fat-big corporate’s hand? With people will you always stand? I am not an economist, I am neither an egotist, I proclaim! I proclaim! I am a revolutionary economist, I know you will fit me a label, I am sure I will be an economic rebel, A rebellious economist. I dream a world without huge inequalities, I dream a world free from imposed liabilities, I dream a world without poverty and disparities, I finally dream for becoming an economist with no ambiguities.
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Oct 17, 2018
Oct 17, 2018 at 7:43 AM UTC
A letter to the ****** economists- I have a dream
I have a dream! I have a dream, To the racial discriminators, said Martin Luther King, I have a dream! I have a dream! To the evil-creating economists, I warn and ring. Globe witness hunger, inequality poverty and unemployment The world turns out to be bitter, To all of you, I write this letter. To create a world relieved from these and turn better. I am a mad aspiring economist, a fool, Searching for the right tool, You turned the world with full of mess, People are left with nothing less. To the world, you gave theories, Pushed us into a vicious cycle of injuries, About your theories, you boasted, It has created a few ruling and bloated. Most of you worked as economic hitmen, Turned victim laymen to fighting gunmen. To the realities, your theory is distant, Served no solution to the dying peasants, To the few, we remain a psychological slave and servants, Tuned our lives to a depended migrant. With your development lecture, You have killed the entire nature, In the name of ventures, corporates turned vulture, Hunted and looted our generations’ future. We lived a self-reliant community, You killed us with imposed liability, Our lives are now placed in intensive casualty, The word that remains imagination still is equality. We lost our humanity and identity, In your eyes, we are just a market and commodity, Your play with scarcity, was a mere futility, We finally became a society, filled with atrocity. Your useless lectures of development, Put us under frightening & irrecoverable unemployment, For a few, you got us into a deep-rooted enslavement, So, now for you instead, we make a replacement. To my questions, you neglected and ran, In your eyes, I am foolish stupid common man, To you short-sighted range, I say I will bring in a change! Today, I may remain lower and mere viewer, A day will come, where you will stand to answer, Writing a new rule, I would seize your beloved positions, This will be my lifetime mission and ambition. I say with all my limited experience, I will put a test to all your conscience, Are you just a fat-big corporate’s hand? With people will you always stand? I am not an economist, I am neither an egotist, I proclaim! I proclaim! I am a revolutionary economist, I know you will fit me a label, I am sure I will be an economic rebel, A rebellious economist. I dream a world without huge inequalities, I dream a world free from imposed liabilities, I dream a world without poverty and disparities, I finally dream for becoming an economist with no ambiguities.
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an old familiar, an adversary of the first degree, when we wrestle, me and this god disguised as an angel disguised as man, the door to where we tangle, clicks shut with a perceptible oval sounding, a trumpet announcing commencement of the festivities, that we are Occupado no stray observers permitted in, the room entrances locked, someone's two hands upon each temple, (cannot be mine, for) inside we combat literally, "mano-a-mano" hand to hand, word to word, gradually, continuously, up close and personally, one on One over the course of a lifetime, each battle named, famously borrowed and thus recorded, Agincourt, Waterloo, Gettysburg, Leningrad, Ðiên Biên Phú, for the record keeping purposes of our unforgiving ****** historian the rules of engagement somewhat flexible, biting, choking, eye gouging, kicking when down, not just legal, encouraged, no holds barred, when we wrestle, the dirtier the better take turns declaring a victor, for that matters little, truly, just a record keeping notation, the battle and its aftermath, the waves of pain inflicted, the casualty count engorged, is the greatest glory, dans une manière de parler though sent away the children, our earthly goods, designating them purportedly, non-combatants observers, yet 'no rules' meant they could be accidentally drawn in, non-combatant status does not prevent them from being freely captured or killed the conflict ongoing, no one ever calls for a truce, for both unequal adversaries know, no quarter will ere be given, and though the tide shifts, each individual battle produces as always, a winner and a loser noisy affairs, long after the battle, the slain yet scream, perhaps I am confused, perhaps it is the day's survivors, announcing that sadly, they are still alive it must be the latter, for here I am writing and recording, and though alone, I hear an ever growing louder, gouging sine wave scream piercing, daring my soul to leave my wracked body for though mortal wounded, I am therefore both dead and alive, but which more so, none can surely say this conflict remains unconcluded the pain in my hip, now everywhere, my Jacob, now, Israel, marker so visible even if itself, unseen 3:59am
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May 17, 2014
May 17, 2014 at 4:03 AM UTC
Wrestling With God
an old familiar, an adversary of the first degree, when we wrestle, me and this god disguised as an angel disguised as man, the door to where we tangle, clicks shut with a perceptible oval sounding, a trumpet announcing commencement of the festivities, that we are Occupado no stray observers permitted in, the room entrances locked, someone's two hands upon each temple, (cannot be mine, for) inside we combat literally, "mano-a-mano" hand to hand, word to word, gradually, continuously, up close and personally, one on One over the course of a lifetime, each battle named, famously borrowed and thus recorded, Agincourt, Waterloo, Gettysburg, Leningrad, Ðiên Biên Phú, for the record keeping purposes of our unforgiving ****** historian the rules of engagement somewhat flexible, biting, choking, eye gouging, kicking when down, not just legal, encouraged, no holds barred, when we wrestle, the dirtier the better take turns declaring a victor, for that matters little, truly, just a record keeping notation, the battle and its aftermath, the waves of pain inflicted, the casualty count engorged, is the greatest glory, dans une manière de parler though sent away the children, our earthly goods, designating them purportedly, non-combatants observers, yet 'no rules' meant they could be accidentally drawn in, non-combatant status does not prevent them from being freely captured or killed the conflict ongoing, no one ever calls for a truce, for both unequal adversaries know, no quarter will ere be given, and though the tide shifts, each individual battle produces as always, a winner and a loser noisy affairs, long after the battle, the slain yet scream, perhaps I am confused, perhaps it is the day's survivors, announcing that sadly, they are still alive it must be the latter, for here I am writing and recording, and though alone, I hear an ever growing louder, gouging sine wave scream piercing, daring my soul to leave my wracked body for though mortal wounded, I am therefore both dead and alive, but which more so, none can surely say this conflict remains unconcluded the pain in my hip, now everywhere, my Jacob, now, Israel, marker so visible even if itself, unseen 3:59am
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You aren’t broken, I am I am flawed I am malfunctioning I am defective, ugly, wrong I am mean, beyond repair Disgustingly bitter, like licking the outside of an orange, Disguised as a tempting delicious throbbing fruit of life. But in reality, I am insufficient, innutritious, A casualty no one wants to carry But I am so afraid that one day you will see This unfixable imperfection that is me And you will leave.
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Nov 15, 2013
Nov 15, 2013 at 10:54 AM UTC
insecurities
Hope is the morning sun Peering in through my kitchen window As I sip fresh steaming coffee alone. Hope is the last workday before My next day off, when I’m happy For once, to wish away the hours. Hope is awkward like a high school dance, Like two virgins kissing Beneath the gymnasium bleachers. Hope is a grocery list fastened To my refrigerator with a free magnet Advertising a divorce lawyer. Hope is a cracked wine glass, packed away In a moving box that traveled from Kentucky to Illinois – Just another casualty of the long journey.
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Jul 1, 2015
Jul 1, 2015 at 11:24 PM UTC
Divorce Lawyer
Born of a binary, black/white, white/ black. Cultured by silence, a blank slate, but no more tears. Time isn't real. They speak, they say, tell me there's nothing wrong with me; standing in the kitchen with my grandmother telling me there is nothing DIFFERENT about you. Strive to conform. Sameness is a casualty. **I DON'T GIVE A **** about conservatives . "Humanists" avoiding their toxic misogynistic tendencies, old friends enlisted voluntarily perpetuating a system of violence and suffering, others are bluffing, don't say **** walk eggshells, I must be a tiger loose from the cage, and they're waiting to see who becomes the canary in my coal mine. Rhyming by incident, but I hate this **** & I'm not all right. Women can participate in their own oppression, minorities can be racist, we're all raised in a ditch; Patriarchy, capitalism, class values, botched messages, "color blindness", etc. etc. etc. **** everyone, and don't treat me like I'm better or I should know better, or I have to be "perfect" if I want to be "different". Raised in a ditch. Cultured by racism and depression. I think of suicide like a novelty until I don't . . . Everything turns grey and reads like sloganeering. Waiting for the past to manifest as a trauma. Waiting for the past to make sense. Waiting.
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Jun 12, 2014
Jun 12, 2014 at 11:44 AM UTC
"Raised in a Ditch."
As the wet wind hums its way through our two tower six-cylinder apartment complex. Birds fall from their naked winter wept branches, braced by stiff bones, mapped out in Alexandria, carrying notes from El Salvador. The corner market is closed, never opened. A hair salon stands in its place, it wrings out the "R's" from a Philadelphia warshing. And like every night, hot air cakes on an extra layer of indecipherable red dots up the arms and around the neck, minute pustules of hypochondria that steal my finger tips from the keyboard. I scratch and tip them, looking under their fiery scarlet caps for, I-don't-know-what disease. Paul says It's that magic school bus melanoma, typhoid drip, it comes at you from a computer screen and eats at your nervous system until you've got the wambles. Tuesday's used to be the worst, until I OWNED THAT **** I make a pronoun out of aluminum foil and wear it as a hat on a first date. Tinder is not bad for conceptual art projects. I carry it within me like an anodyne complex, out into the frozenness; into my mouth the air comes around my teeth, behind my uvula until winter freezes my voice and I am breathless. I abandon my miniature house to enter the pyramidal pinetum to the North. Wild paradise shrubs gather with songless animal noises watching as I take naked photographs of my father to preserve his body from anything less than his great immortal end. He lives on black moss and water from a nearby pond, he authors the face of Anthony Hopkins, thrown about, another casualty of fervid and blurry dreaming.
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May 2, 2014
May 2, 2014 at 3:30 PM UTC
Hologram Father
As the wet wind hums its way through our two tower six-cylinder apartment complex. Birds fall from their naked winter wept branches, braced by stiff bones, mapped out in Alexandria, carrying notes from El Salvador. The corner market is closed, never opened. A hair salon stands in its place, it wrings out the "R's" from a Philadelphia warshing. And like every night, hot air cakes on an extra layer of indecipherable red dots up the arms and around the neck, minute pustules of hypochondria that steal my finger tips from the keyboard. I scratch and tip them, looking under their fiery scarlet caps for, I-don't-know-what disease. Paul says It's that magic school bus melanoma, typhoid drip, it comes at you from a computer screen and eats at your nervous system until you've got the wambles. Tuesday's used to be the worst, until I OWNED THAT **** I make a pronoun out of aluminum foil and wear it as a hat on a first date. Tinder is not bad for conceptual art projects. I carry it within me like an anodyne complex, out into the frozenness; into my mouth the air comes around my teeth, behind my uvula until winter freezes my voice and I am breathless. I abandon my miniature house to enter the pyramidal pinetum to the North. Wild paradise shrubs gather with songless animal noises watching as I take naked photographs of my father to preserve his body from anything less than his great immortal end. He lives on black moss and water from a nearby pond, he authors the face of Anthony Hopkins, thrown about, another casualty of fervid and blurry dreaming.
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I'll be your destruction, But you, You will fall in line as another casualty To my cold and cruel ways. I wish to help you escape Before you become trapped In the labyrinth of my mind, But not even I can escape.
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Aug 18, 2016
Aug 18, 2016 at 12:48 AM UTC
Trapped
thoughts are transmitted via translucent dragonfly mosquitos from the angeled mountains of an ancient africa to the plagued fountains of a new chimerica miracles of disease and possibility in this naked play they bear fruitwords juicing gifts of malleable meaning clothes for being or chains, chainings and so you are water and messaging carried all from timelands so distant & vague you are forever a vague and distant stranger to your self. when a man or woman is cut wide, and deep enough they bleed despair and with the desperate drops flows all the thought force of all the riversrunnininthabellyod'earth. in these despedrops the flickerin' reflexions of starbirds turn banal to beauty meaning dangerously alive in them the wombman is mirrored countless countless times each a split second in their life a minute detail in their endless skies. today i made upon leaving home a wish that an image would come to stand frozen across my peepholepupil of what it will not matter; and that some one, whomever, a dancer, a *** would come to stand staring just intentsly enough to have this moist unmatter touch to fill their own eye. this has all happened, just now, a blink before our ending - all of it, together, when you told me ah feigned casualty: it's the sweetness that kills you or was it yr perfect just the way you are. at the last i followed your passing with my gaze as your wake the most intensfool one i could ever make as your backs became horizons i turned tilting to the old borderline it stood as ever sealing the sea - sealing a sea that heeeaved against the plentyfullpollutionoftheshorelinepowerplantplantation inc smoke sky beyond a wind oh my window, ours the wind wowed with that old border time i saw the blue behemeoth spotted four white dots in crescent form and you see, looking through thus windowed i simply could not say were they sailboats, fallenserapheathers or reflexions of those electricpearlights upon waxfloressence from the waning walls of the halls you just walked out of time all around me wail the waking walls of a maze my hazedazedgaze your never.
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Sep 21, 2009
Sep 21, 2009 at 12:39 AM UTC
5 4 nothing
thoughts are transmitted via translucent dragonfly mosquitos from the angeled mountains of an ancient africa to the plagued fountains of a new chimerica miracles of disease and possibility in this naked play they bear fruitwords juicing gifts of malleable meaning clothes for being or chains, chainings and so you are water and messaging carried all from timelands so distant & vague you are forever a vague and distant stranger to your self. when a man or woman is cut wide, and deep enough they bleed despair and with the desperate drops flows all the thought force of all the riversrunnininthabellyod'earth. in these despedrops the flickerin' reflexions of starbirds turn banal to beauty meaning dangerously alive in them the wombman is mirrored countless countless times each a split second in their life a minute detail in their endless skies. today i made upon leaving home a wish that an image would come to stand frozen across my peepholepupil of what it will not matter; and that some one, whomever, a dancer, a *** would come to stand staring just intentsly enough to have this moist unmatter touch to fill their own eye. this has all happened, just now, a blink before our ending - all of it, together, when you told me ah feigned casualty: it's the sweetness that kills you or was it yr perfect just the way you are. at the last i followed your passing with my gaze as your wake the most intensfool one i could ever make as your backs became horizons i turned tilting to the old borderline it stood as ever sealing the sea - sealing a sea that heeeaved against the plentyfullpollutionoftheshorelinepowerplantplantation inc smoke sky beyond a wind oh my window, ours the wind wowed with that old border time i saw the blue behemeoth spotted four white dots in crescent form and you see, looking through thus windowed i simply could not say were they sailboats, fallenserapheathers or reflexions of those electricpearlights upon waxfloressence from the waning walls of the halls you just walked out of time all around me wail the waking walls of a maze my hazedazedgaze your never.
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