Did you
figure out how to feel
I've bled
Into all the colors here

Destined
To somehow die alone
I still
Don't understand the throne

Reverence
The summit's height
To capture
Finally fading light

It's all over
Before its begun
It's all over

Wonder why I can't give a ****
Something in the air's got me ******
I don't know, I just woke up
What can I say?
Saint Audrey Nov 26
***, I shouldn't have put it on
Can't hear that ****** song right now

Vile feeling, revitalized right now
Should'a let it lie, for a while now
What's the timescale
I'm ready for this to die out
I been ready

Got too many questions already
Asking too much of someone lately
Heard that song again in that car I hate
Should'a kept it off my playlist

What's a melody between friends?
What's that type of **** that don't end?
Hard as I try, can't find the light
Oh ****, If I'm being honest

Swear to ***, left hand on a bible I
Ripped apart to roll up this cigarette
Compliant in my admissions, best I can do
Cause I can't help but despise the truth

Addict's mindset hard enough to see
Addicted to what they call misery
And they call this a lot of ****
And I call this my last bit of everything

What happened to that guess I made
What happened my televangelist face
I don't know how much longer I can fake
Not sure what happened to this fate

And I keep hitting play again
I guess I'm addicted to the pain
Or whatever it is
Nostalgia, I guess
Made em synonyms
Made it integral

Still don't know about anything

I don't think I can hear those four chords again
Saint Audrey Nov 19
I can't see the bright side
Why'd you look me in the eyes
This time

But let's
Go
Out or something
Lately
I've been feeling
Like its Sunday

So let's
Head
Down to the lake house
Lately
I've been feeling
Like its Sunday
All the time
Saint Audrey Nov 18
Break apart another thing
Another ****** part of me
I still won't be taking anything from you

Exacting prices of my needs
I don't need a ****** thing
I won't be taking any more from you

Find the center of desire, til it all turns south
the bitterness still carried, clinging to your mouth
Another open flame, crumbling to dust
Leave me choking on the ashes, final remnants of this trust

When it all goes down
Will you still be right here waiting
For another chance
At this final undertaking
Down
It falls
Saint Audrey Nov 13
Dignified
A generic question
You're all right
Stop this misdirection

So defined
Now that the past is over
The simplest mistakes
About to ******* over

Nothing's real
What's the strength of reason
You aren't real
There's nothing left to ground you

So ill defined in your heinous head start
Ill fitting precedence, tear me apart
Providence save me, i need your autonomy
I need your everything, what will you save for me

Take what is mine, a good enough start
Betting it all on this myopic part
I don't need your foresight
Don't need your "told you so"
All I can hope for
In this, just my clarity
Saint Audrey Nov 9
I can't seem to understand
What could be done to soothe this ache
Ripped from a broken rib cage
Measure up all my mistakes

Coloring the glass
Staining all my liquor red
Leave me buried in the past
Spent every last second

Draining the last drops
Strained through broken teeth
Working for the sound of
Something that's worth healing

Finally myself if
Only for the moment
My truth is that I'm lost
In this current, vacant motion

How'd I lose my way
Saint Audrey Nov 7
Conflicting me
How you can't sleep
Despite the way
I hold the shape of you

In restless dreams
Should we be
Together now
Or is it overdue?

It's hopeless, true
Somehow we find
Despite our luck
The tables refuse to move

To sever us
From the past mistakes
We might've made

But time is falling again
And we're falling along side
The sun is burning again
For the first time, in a long time

We're better off
Can't you see
Our lights are dead and gone

Without the light of the world
We can take to the sea

And without a trace, we'll disappear
Beyond the tallest waves
That separate
And in the night

Maybe you'll be complete
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