Picking up shattered pieces
Of her fragile heart,
Hurting her fingers,
Still falling apart.

                                                   Caught in a dark world
                                                   Of fantasy and lies,
                                                   A foolish girl,
                                                   Only tears and goodbyes.

A soul full of sorrow
A mind full of pain,
For a better tomorrow,
Her broken heart aches.

                                                  A cry goes out
                                                  But in vain.
                                                  All is lost
                                                  Nothing to gain.

Misery no more
Her heart yearns,
Glory and gore,
Her soul burns.
  
                                                 Every tear
                                                 Down her cheek,
                                                 Left a mark,
                                                 Left her bleak.

Catch her now
She's falling down,
A blood stained gown,
Trying not to drown.

                                                She was used
                                                Used and abused,
                                                The emotions within,
                                                A mere misuse.

A cry of pain
But also relief,
Standing in the rain,
A life mundane.

"Heaven is my baby
Suicide's her father
Opulence is the end"

By the window
Under a purple sky,
I thought I saw a shadow,
But then the lightning
Cracked across so bright.

Music in my ears
Singing about stars and death,
Maybe the rains are my tears
And thunder is the sound
Of my heart break.

Another white flash
I look at it lash,
The song now is
About a lonely heart,
I feel myself cringing,
Maybe falling apart.

An uneven poem
Piling up my emotions,
I'd really rather throw them
But I'm not yet insane.

Maybe the rain stopped,
I pause the music;
I was wrong,
The rain falls on.

If the rains are my tears,
Then the lightning
Is the brightness,
That only leads me into
Darkness.

The storm on its own-
My deepest, darkest fears;
If rain does not stop
Neither will my tears.

She cried herself
To sleep at night,
Trying so hard
To find the light.

Her sister went to parties
Rarely feeling lonely,
Leaving a hurting Isabelle
Quietly hiding in her shell.

A fire raged within her
But afraid of going unheard,
She kept away,
Ran far away.

Her daddy went to strip clubs
And always came home drunk,
Her skin bore bruises
Only thorns, no roses.

Her mama went to church
For, she was also hurt;
The man she loved
Beat her up.

Her friends were all so pretty
They caught everyone's eye;
But she was so lonely
Caught in a web of lies.

The ones who said
They loved her,
Only built her walls
Up higher.

She felt betrayed,
Unwanted waste;
Tears in her eyes,
She was asking "Why?"

I found a crouching Isabelle,
She was going through hell.
I picked her up
And gave her hope.

Now she's strong,
She was wrong;
She's not worthless
She's not a mess.

Somewhere in there,
In love I fell;
Now she is my Isabelle.

I'm falling down
I can't catch my crown,
Help me please
I don't want to give up.

I'm crawling on the floor
Don't close the door,
Hold my hand
And help me stand.

Life is cruel
I was just a tool,
Used and abused
I was such a fool.

Do you see me?
Or am I invisible?
I'm crying out for you
Lift me up,
Clear the view.
I'm losing control
Show me the light,
Help me win
My inner fight.

I'm reaching out to you
I'm losing all the trust now
Keep my faith alive
And become my guiding light.

People are always leaving
But to you I'm pleading,
I don't want to be alone
Take me home.

I try so hard,
Yet the shards
They force right
Through me
Why can't you see?
Day and night
Of sweat and blood,
Wrong or right
My tears they flood.
Mortal as ever
**** me now or never
If peace is what you want
Then peace is what I grant.

I see you didn't
Hear the screams.
So I stopped
Yelling in vain
And seeing you
In my dreams.
I'm dying
But you don't
Even care.
That's okay
Because neither do I.
I see now
You were lying,
But it was my fault
Believing your words
Not seeing that,
It was just
Verbal assault.
I was a robot
In your trap
I was caught.
**** was what
I went through,
Now it's your turn
To feel the burn.
On me you grew
I thought this was true
That you would never
Leave my side
That you would never
Run and hide,
Hide from the
Monster that I am.
You see
That I'm breathing
But I won't be
Anymore.
Welcome to my world
Now your monster
Has been born.

Ghosts of her past
Haunting her.
Day and night
She lives in fear.
Fearing the return of the demons
For, they are the ones
Who know her weakness.
In distress she screams
But in vain,
No one to listen
No one to care.
Hanging by a fragile thread
On the verge of getting lost
Inside her very head.
Nights she spends
Immersed in tears,
Painful screams
Only she can hear.
"Stop!" she yells
Inside herself,
They pause for a moment
But start again.
She longs to be free,
She's drenched in the rain.
Cries of agony
No loss of pain.

Mother nature,
Creator of beauty.
Destructive mortals
Beasts of the city.
An equal share
Of good and bad,
Only a past
That used to be.
A present dilemma
A crux for all,
Piling the burden
On sinless souls.
Creatures of the wild
Never the harmful brute,
Unlike the beastly mortals
Who aim aimlessly
And shoot.
Daunting innocent fauna
Depriving them of flora.
That's not all
Us barbarians do,
Pulling apart kin
And slaying them too,
For the avarice
Of paper and its power.
Embracing beauty
Is what we miss,
Falling into a dark abyss.
Why can't we see?
The future will hold
None of this.
None of this to give us power,
Carcasses over which we'll hover.
Nothing left to destroy,
No more dark joy.
Vandals like us
We want to live,
Living in peace
Is what we desire.
Little do we notice
The world is our empire,
And us its unjust rulers.
Amongst ourselves
We spark two fights,
One for humanity
And one for pride.
Of bloodshed and peace
A puzzling paradox,
Never seeming to cease.
Tranquility
Or no harmony?
This is not equality.
I foresee a future dry,
As we utter
Lie after lie,
Making the world
Increasingly bitter.
Since truth alone triumphs
In the end we all succumb,
To pain and desperate cries.
The darkness within the mortals
Reflecting in her eyes.

Love*- a new word it was,
Unaware of the misery it draws.
It seemed in love we were
My toes in excitement
Would curl.
"You're my princess" said he
"Apart we will never be."
I chose heart over head
Not knowing the darkness
To which I was led.
Perfection was what I called us
Pushing away was not an option.
The more I fell
The more I felt
Like you were falling too.
Little did I know the misery
That would lead to.
It appeared as a smooth road
But then a pit unseen.
It was an emotion overload
Trying hard not to scream.
I fell in deep
But over the pit you leaped.
Slyly smiling as you saw me struggle
With my feelings you had juggled.
Oh that pit was deep
But I finally touched the ground.
A few broken bones
And a torn, tattered heart.
I struggled to find my way out
Finally feeling light,
Winning my own fight.
Only to see
That you had really fallen for me,
After pushing me so deep in
And my heart almost breaking.
I laughed the way you did,
Smiled at you and said
*"You need me,
But I don't need you."

Facing the horizon
She walks barefoot
On the golden sand
Into the blue.
A clear sky reflecting
Upon the glass surface.
Using pain
To suppress pain,
She wades into the shards.
Piercing through her
Agony takes over,
Yet she feels alive.
Icy waters of the ocean
She's neck deep in,
She can't feel the ground anymore.
Her head just above the water
She takes one final breath,
And heads toward heaven or hell.
A moment of panic,
As she breathes in, but
They are now one.
Her pain washed away
Sorrow drowned.
One soul, born from
*A poisoned mind
Of the girl who felt alive
Breathing her last breath.
She lived awaiting death.

A stranger she was
Was it fate or
Was it destiny
That made us meet?
Although never face to face
I see in her amazing grace.
Swiftly she moves
To the rhythm of life.
People trying to bring her down
But she won't bow
To the undeserving.
She is strong
She is beautiful.
Ready to fight the world,
In she will come
Like a whirl.
Assurance is what she needs
And assurance I will give.
"Love, don't be sorry"
Said I to her,
And poured my heart out
Through these words.
I hope she realizes
The strength within,
The power to face the world
And not beat herself up.
Cruelty never dies
It's omnipresent.
But she can conquer the galaxies
If she wants.
I believe in her with all my heart,
Nothing comes above
I will forever be with her
*She is my love
She is my soul sister.

Pushing away the clouding negativity
Because they belong to
The "minority".
He loves his partner
And he loves him back
Family and friends taken aback.
Suddenly being in love is a crime
Heart's content is criticised.
They're against them holding hands
Branding them names
And a disgusted glance.
Emotions they are unable to curb,
Contemplating if they should leave
And bring everyone peace.
By and by the days drag on,
Hiding inside, left alone
Alone but one
One love
One heart,
Beating together
Creating art.
They show the world
They need not provide
An apology for loving.
Amidst cruelty and hate
They shan't give up.
Take pride in loving each other
*Heart's content is all that matters.

Sprinkled in the sky
Like sugar on the pie,
They twinkle right at me
What a sight to see.
In awe and enchantment
I stand amidst the stars
I am now part of the insanity.
A rush of amusement
A sudden indulgence
Upon me it heaves.
Shooting through the galaxies,
A time warp, so it seems.
No time to weep
Like the darker days
I feel upon me a golden ray.
A touch divine
I've crossed the line.
Turbulence ensues
What is this I'm going through?
A world of surprise
Seen through my eyes
Amazement within.
I've caught a glimpse
That will recur,
The land I call *Isther.

I don't like love songs
Or any of the sort.
But when I look at you
I know that this is true.
Dark and icy nights
Were my only friends.
Now all I see is light
Yet I don't know
How this ends.
Spending days alone
Was a common sight,
With you I feel not forlorn
But like all is right.
Forgotten by everyone
I care not
Since you're the one.
The one to take me home,
*Beyond the stars
And dream once more.

Inside her live the demons
Blood-******* demons.
Forcing life out of her
Sending agony throughout.
She lies awake at night
As the occupants devour
Her glory and gore.
But soon they will be gone
When there's nothing left to feed on.
The beauty perished by the beast
Will be the scavenger's feast.

Walking through a busy street
The sound of hurried feet
Nearly drowned out
By fast cars and their rush.
Walking for a while,
The zipping slows down
Hurried footsteps calm.
Reaching a dark alley
With piles of rubble high
Leftovers of the incomplete
And youngsters so angry.
A place that reeks of hunger,
The hunger of freedom
The hunger of love.
Lungs exhausted
Of the blackness
That dwells within.
Eyes red from the false ecstasy
That lurks inside the unhappy.
They play with lightning
Giving no care
As they risk their lives.
Only light can destroy darkness,
They have a soul
But hiding in their shells
Illumination is captured within.
Consumed by demons
They don't fight back
Surrendering themselves
Trapped in the devil's lair.
Content with faux joy,
Or at least they exhibit
All they need
Is to believe in
Lost trust and lost love.
Their lungs may be black
Eyes red,
But their soul is always pure
Ready for a new life
Accepting of cure.
Momentary pleasure
Is the head's high, but
"Love and freedom" says the heart
"is mine."

Sitting by myself
In a room
Illuminated by
Fairy lights.
Sipping on some
Green tea
And treating myself
To chocolate therapy.
Thinking back to the days
When you were my first thought,
The last, and
Every thought in between.
My eyes wander into a haze
As my mind watches glimpses
Of happy days
Where we hovered inches
From each other
Breathing nervously
Before our lips touched.
The spark that ignited
Something called love,
A distant memory now
But please, take a bow.
Take a bow for the amazing feat
That shattered all my dreams,
My belief in love ruined
I hid my screams
I didn't want you to come back.
Giving out chances
Is a weakness long gone.
Playing games is your high
Shutting you out is mine.

A different dimension
A strengthening awake.
He realized
His life isn't at stake.
The betrayals are gone.
Someone to depend on.
Opening his eyes
Is no longer a pain,
No more lies
To darken the stain.
He found meaning in trust
Love has value
Not just lust.
His heart has healed
Lips not sealed,
Freedom of thought
No longer caught.
No more traps
No more falls
No more mishaps
No more walls.
Amidst the apparent paradise,
He feels a sting
Upon his hand.
The light diminishes
Everything's going bad.
Agony shooting through
As he looks down at the pool
Of blackish red, feeling blue.
Returning to the darkness
No more happiness.

Deep in her hazel eyes,
There are truths and lies
Lies to cover the pain
Truths of a permanent stain.
She loves the summer shower
She loves the winter snow.
But she doesn't embrace them,
Just keeping to herself.
Striving to hide the tears
And block away the fears.
She has just one heart
Almost falling apart,
But there is a ray of hope
That keeps it together
Like beautiful art.
Spreading smiles
And going the extra mile,
Is how she keeps herself
From the ropes.
Someday,
She hopes
Through the sky she can glide.
Someday, she wonders
If she'll live a better life
Than the one she lives *inside.

Desperate to breakthrough,
Emotions all strewn,
A memory here
A memory there.
All a jagged puzzle
Scrambling around to
Put her pieces together.
Surrounded by the hustle and the bustle,
In a place nearly unrecognizable.
Vague flashbacks
Of a little her
A time to which she can go back never.
Blurry vision
Hazy thoughts
Suddenly she's  blinded
By the brightest light.
It appears like magic
Far from how her life wrote itself- tragic.
Something so assuring
A creature so alluring.
Wearing azure
With a heart so pure,
An angel with a halo.
But with herself so shallow
She turned her back
One of her insane imaginations
She thought.
She shrugged it off.
But she felt a divine touch
The beauty had enchanted her
High up in the air
She soared like a bird
No longer did she feel torn.
Alas! In a flash she was back
Back to the darkness,
Back where she used to hide
Where she felt so low.
But amazingly she broke free
From her chains
She didn't know why
She didn't know how.
All she remembered
Was the halo and the thoughts
So crystal clear.
And the touch that she felt
From *the mystery saviour.

I find peace
I find solace
I find comfort
In the arms
Of a cold, icy night.
My face unfolding the crease
That it wears all day long
But cringing underneath
At the thought of sticks and stones
Ringing like a disturbing song.
I find love
In the whispers of the wind.
I find desire
In the darkness of the sky.
The eerie silence
It brings me hope.
I day dream
In the darkest hours
Right before dawn,
Because I know not
What deep sleep means anymore.
I see colours
I see red I see blue
I see black I see truth.
When the moon comes out
And stars, they flicker
Being surrounded by fallen angels
Sending out dreamy gazes
Giving me more might
Than the brightest summer day will ever.
Within myself I shout
I let out my unrest inside, alone.
I don't just love the night,
I connect with it.
I have no inhibitions
The night makes life worth living.

The colour of serenity
The colour of calm beauty
Gurgling of a stream
Amidst land of green
Flowers blooming gracefully
Swaying away aimlessly
The winged little fairies
Buzzing as they forage
Telling their own stories
Causing a pleasant havoc.
But despite all the peace,
She's left with unease.
A peculiar unrest
To decipher it
She tries her best.
Again and again
A recurring nag
Within herself she starts to lag.
Her eyes are dry
All out of tears,
She's at the brim.
The brim of going mad
The brim of insanity.
Her demons relishing,
Parts of her missing.
What's left of her heart mourns,
As her soul has died.
She is herself no more,
But a hollow, numb body
With no place to hide.
She has no memory
Of how she used to be
So happy, so carefree
With not a worry.
With a flood of emotions,
Her neck is choked
With a lifeless rope.
She's turning blue
That's what she called
*The serenity hue.

No!* They screamed
As they saw them plummet.
A tale to tell.
Us on the summit
She told her that day.
As they watched the trees sway,
Hand in hand they fell in love
Together they faced the push and shove.
Day and night they fought the fight
There was no hope of seeing light.
Society tried hard to rip them apart,
But they wouldn't let go of each other's hearts
Because they used to beat together
Resounding within them the love they had
Echoing in their heads the words people said
Freaks  Disgrace  Outlaws
As they held hands and looked
At each other's tear-streaked face,
Standing up on the bridge,
Those people with dropped jaws
I love you* they said together
And vanished into the water
A few bubbles here and there
Those people just stare
A few walk away
A few wonder why
Why did they leave us?
They ask without emotion
They couldn't stop this vicious cycle
Because they knew the question
But chose to push away the solution.
The answer lay in front of their ignorant eyes
They watched blankly as they witnessed the sky turn grey
And grey to black
*Oh how we long for them to come back.

At the stroke of the midnight hour,
When everything is still and silent
Except the eerie whisper of the wind, oh!
Almost like it's trying to tell you Don't go
Sitting in the darkness
With a constant sharp sting on your fingers,
The red juice spilling out drop by drop,
The pain within increasing rapidly
Those memories, they linger
Haunting you every second.
That moment when you saw
Everything crash and burn
Right before your very eyes,
Resembling a time freeze
Feeling numb, despite the icy breeze
That make the leaves rustle and hiss.
That merciless demon
Devouring your happiness.
That soul wrenching grip you felt
When after all the years of blood and sweat
Came to an end and left you with nothing,
But a sorrowful mess.
Glancing down on your stained floor,
Trying to ignore the whispers of the wind,
You hold the metal to your wrist,
Just about to leave,
Emotions suddenly upon you they creep
Your heart feels heavy,
Your stomach growls,
Your thoughts go hazy,
And you let out a violent, but sad scream,
Watching your life flash before you,
You put your killer down,
Close your eyes, and dream.