don’t just love me
kiss me right
you make me feel so shy
terrains ablaze
everything is so beautiful when we take a bite
boiling under my skin
the love i keep
we won’t be alone
free of sin
sometimes it’s hard to not play the martyr
sorry if it makes you cry
each time it’s out
we realize

pick me apart
dissect the person who ive grown to become
i do it for everyone
in order to satisfy the thought of me
share of me with others
so that i can avert my true fears

smoking makes me happy
the pain in my lungs reminds me
i am merely man
suffocating myself
just to feel something
not of self deprecation
you keep me safe up here
above the smoke
beyond the barriers of this world
a simple touch
takes me places i could never go
without blackening my insides

i beg pain to breed my pleasure
the thoughts moving around my head
seem to bring out
the inner peace i seek

like the creator’s discovery of jacob’s ladder
my afflictions expose to me
chaos consummating it’s presence
no sense can be made of this

like god
they aggregate my fears
separating each by fallacy

nothing feels better
than feeding each like my pets
like the unconditional love i’ve never had
i promise them i won’t abandon them

in the dead of night
it always feels like
exhilaration
self hate leaves doubtful residue within me
it’s led me to deny god
how could he do such a thing to me
feelings equate the inferno of my past
to the blaze of my home
often thinking about how i did this
it’s my acceptance of less than love
that has created the deadly persona
practiced divination
to find the answers
of my self doubt
the stars say they shine for me
something in me doesn’t believe them
in me
the liar resides
happiness isn’t allowed
he’s dying though
i might be free soon

i wonder if the demons that follow me
trail behind your thoughts like they do mine
do they pierce the wounds
or do they create new tears upon the flesh
of your beautiful carcass

it hurts when i touch you
i’ll comeback for more
because the inclination to pain
is all i know

what can you do when the tides begin to strengthen
and your arms begin to weaken
your lungs begin to tighten
the light within me used to shine bright
these days the flame dwindles low
i can’t get far away
you can’t escape yourself
it seems like i won’t ever get help
like the predestined choice of failure
how can i succeed
living around so much indignation
everything I lack
is my humiliation

scarlet bruises on my neck
id burn my knees just to make you smile
nothing sweeter than the pain in your eyes
and our time slowly chips away
as our bodies shed their mortality
even momentarily
nothing but you
all of my love now lives inside
each dying as we lay


did you get to finish too?

your lips so soft
limp for mine
to lead us into the intentions of hope
hope for love
for forever
and the day after that
kiss in sync
and slide against me
with your being
body of a goddess
a lot of living tonight
love isn’t my only shared desire
it’s everything you long for
i want to be the comfort at night
the warm feeling in your eyes
glowing for your heart
accept the beauty of our souls
the concept of together

the touch of the midnight hour
gifts me your soul
you make me feel real
all to question what is
this seems undiscovered
the thoughts of the unequivocal reality
how can it be
am I worthy
of you for you to be
present entropy
the
breath out our lungs
our bodies pour
bloods bursting throughout
the world sleeps
while we barter affection with each other
spent just below the ether
will thy beloved end me
if you don’t need me

sad dude
with no value
im glad i found you
but it’s too much to handle
i get it
i wouldn’t blame you
if you had to go

what scares me
is that
even scars disappear eventually
please
just don’t get tired of me

no more do i want to be cold
your warmth creates a barrier
from the world and us
nothing comes before it
our path laid out
hopeful and sweet
your kisses are true for what’s known to me  our feelings are growing
into what i once thought couldn’t be
truly clean
every time you feel my grace
come inside
you become one with me
one day we’ll meld together
til then i’d hope to stay by your side
warm and true

Im in my head again
I feel sick
overtaken with tar
Time is not relative here
long and continuous
I feel ashamed
of the damage
the damage of blood spilled for wrath
misguided words
cut deep
cruelly numbing your nerves
a shock to our nervous systems
i want to cut me away for you
starve my old self
restrain his limbs
make him limp
That’s over never again
shut your eyes
please forgive
I want to see your grin
not to lose you once more
please believe the words of the *****
his honesty is Frank
But refreshing
a lashing is needed
But don’t depart again
refresh the system

waking up leaves me exhausted
i don’t even have the energy
to want to finish this
what do i have energy for

nothing.

nothing at all

let me decompose
allow me to wipe away the things
that make me want to die

i cannot allow this to eat me alive
today it may win
tomorrow i can try again

is grieving for a stranger unfair?
it feels wrong to follow suit to causal continuation  
the moon awaits
the stars await
god awaits
the reaper sows
no glory will be to those who live without fear
blessed be to the exalted
dawning to the new age

i tried to die a hundred times
and im still here
why can’t i leave

craving sustenance
i stumbled up on the high priestess of my desires
she has bring forth the things
that were dead inside of me
bringing to life
the parts of me i thought were lost
i can only repay her
by ripping away the strings to my heart
in order to tell her everything
i recite to her
it’s all just for you
i pray the things you’ve brought back
through your divination
don’t die
and don’t spoil
but flourish like your trance

you killed my lonely soul
lacerated its neck
with your grip
his last breath was taken
when you said i love you

what keeps you free?
i know you very well
but what makes you feel
as if you’re in hell?

is it the trepidation
of your minds’ own creation
to fuel you further to
your true disposition
of what you want?

the concupiscence for me
beaming throughout the space where you live
inside this biosphere of my heart
where you lie barren

fermenting your own despair
i truly appreciate your time
can you continue to only be mine?

it’s selfish
but this world is too cruel for your beauty
shielding you has become my duty
god cannot take me from you

sigh sinful dreams in my ear
just for me
your body vibrates in ecstasy
it needs a touch so heavenly
to come inside your skin
and see your ***** longings
i want you to bleed
hurt for me
gasping in my ear
ride out the storm here
dear beloved
gather your love here
just a taste of your love can only satisfy
make it clear

take me
break you out tonight
roll around
your eyes are true beauty
midnight hours are to pick away your petals
you’re blooming full of the nectar
as I lick away the insecurities
let me kiss it better
i want to live in your mind

let me inside your head
i want to know
what you think
as you cry
does it sting?
do your eyes see what i see?
like salt entering a wound
detoxifying the spirit
let me consume your anguish

oh my body aches
the longing for peace
i wish i could lock away your eyes
just for me

the necessary
things that you can reveal
beside me
it defiles the moment of the daunting question
pure and well meaning


can’t i be the one who’s taken serious
don’t you think so


what keeps me awake is what keeps me in tact
putting that on you was the worst decision
and im sorry for it
but i won’t let you go

your wrists bruised and blistered
suffocating my love
it’s kind of my thing
i know
i hope you find it sweet


i feel the blow
the adrenaline begins to move throughout
it’s been so long
ive been so scared

you can’t stand me now
and that’s ok
i ******* hate myself sometimes

nothing can get better than this sweetie
all jokes aside nothing will ever feel this intense
and we only have ourselves to thank

my mind is only a void
but in my mind I’m the greatest ****
im also a terrible man
so that’s precisely why

because i am used goods
i don’t know how to feel new
but with you
this can be our truth

a horrible start for the feeling of everything
everything you and I have prayed for
palms holding tight
can we be worthy of heaven
in spite of our sins

breathe
create what’s not
in order to get by

hollow shells of what once was
remanentes of the truth
they lie within the rotting part of me
below the flies
I believe
they’re the closest thing to love I’ve seen
under the worms
below the maggots
you can see me
afraid of the sin
terrified of tomorrow
passive, frightening thoughts of bloodlust
i lie awake
put the bag over my head
to float like a balloon to heaven
no air, just He
where i can see tomorrow with no fear
it’s the ones that love me dear
that I can’t see
im blind but I can still feel

lack of progression within your mind
all show the signs of a broken mental
create self pity to remedy
no one cares secretly
I’m just being nice


it’s just that I like you a lot
please don’t go

Are you happy to be infatuated
or are you eagerly celebrating
the inevitable
decline of stability and hope?

love me like tiffany loved william