Perfection would be nice
But Perfect I am not
I OFTEN make bad decisions
Even when I have Good Intentions

If I measured myself next to you
Would you say that I'm bad?
But since I measure myself next to God
I've quite aware of the mistakes that I've had

But I'm not covered in "mistakes,"
I'm covered in His Grace
So when you ask me about my "sins,"
I already know they've been washed away

Take it easy there
Why do we condemn others, puff up our chest
Do we forget that we've all made a mess?
***? Check.
Drunk you bet
Lied? Why yes.
You have a list? What's next?
I've never tried to hide that I'm a mess
And even in my worst days, I'm still incredibly blessed

Isn't it so easy to measure the "sin" of those who show it so well
But the ones covered in pride, greed, envy, deceit (etc) are those you can't tell
Shall we judge those that sin differently than me and you
Or let He or She cast the first stone if making no mistakes is what you do

I've wrestled with bitterness from the pain that needed my validation
But what can a hard heart fix, but admit it needs help,
crying out in desperation

If my sins are forgiven, past, present and future
Why am I still so slow to repent?
Maybe my "spiritual walk," has made me this content
Maybe this spiritual walk has made me rather distant
Am I searching for God
Or just not listening

Meaning, sometimes I can be overly consumed with rules
Like I'm not doing it right
When God says its simple
Just move to the light

I'm free so if I feel locked in chains
What will remain?
A Slave to my man-made traditions instead of committed to God

And even in trying to do the "right things,"
I still make mistakes
But I'm not covered in Mistakes
I'm covered in Grace

See Perfection would be nice
But perfect I am not
I often make bad decisions
Even when I have good intentions
Traded in my contacts
To see God's vision

Because, I live in my flesh
Every battle comes with a new test
Some I win, some don't end
And I've been hit with the curse called, "I'm Human."
C.2014 Lady Ju

I thought I knew God
But all I know is religion

Concluding God only lived in a book
From my man made traditions

I've been wishing, no crying, God I need to find
"Keep Searching, He said, I've told you time and time"

My fear to change for People, Someone tell me is it twisted up?
Or am I not a good "Christian" because I keep messing up?

Ignoring my God given talents
For a robotic routine
Is that what living for God really means?

We're so quick to take credit where our credit isn't due
We take these scriptures out of context and tell these people this is really true

Man I'm so scared for you
Because I'm so scared for me

For so long, this is what I believed
Over consumption of my "Sins,"
Depressed wondering if they'd ever end?

But If God forgives why can't we
God created every bone in my body
So why is it so hard to accept me for me?

If defending your faith means degrading another human being
You're wrong and I won't do it

I choose God over religion
And that's what I've concluded
#MyFreedomWithGod - Lady Ju

Every new day is a mystery
Yesterday becomes history
Wondering are you still missing me
I close my eyes
And feel your heart's still whispering
..."I do" -Lady Ju

I close my eyelids hoping to remove this pain
But the off beat of my heart
Tells me these feelings haven't changed
Every memory of you makes me feel nauseous
How can I give my heart again when I'm feeling this cautious
Flowing in the river of these tears you've created
Facebook status changed but my hearts not updated
I hate it
-Lady Ju

Let me whisper to you gently with the rays of my heart
Two interconnected souls that will never depart

The way you touch me without the sense of touch
No one would believe the power of this rush

That drives deep into my body
Like shock waves of a sting gun
Miles apart but your heart's rays still stung

I'm caught
Like a fish after bait
I tried to swim back but i'll admit it's too late

Oh the language of love
And I'm fluent when it comes to you
-Lady Ju

What if we started over?
Or are these mistakes valued more than a range rover?
****...
There we go again
Trying to find the middle ground but wound up at the end
Fine, I’m diving in  
Or maybe it’s just too late
You told me to move on
But my heart insists to wait
Great. Now what am I to do?
When everything I’ve ever wanted I found in only you.

She longs to fly
But her wings are broken
She cracks a smile but her joys been stolen...
She just wants to be free but freedom seems so far...
Her loads way too heavy from the weight of these scars...pain
Oh how she has experienced her share
Still mad at life cuz her daddy's not there...still mad at life cuz who **** cares...
The world?
Not at all...it's your job to get up every time that you fall...
And this type of thinking comes with a pretty big wall....
so how does she free herself and let go of the past?
When she's drowning in tears from the things of the past?
A student of life she's still taking its class. She's mad. Her hearts been through it. Trying to find God and religion won't prove it. In our silence we find answers it's the battle within.
Until she battles within she'll never be free again.

Let me run my hands gently through your hair
Staying up all night kissing you everywhere
Gazing at the moon and wondering how it got so bright
Then wrestle like two kittens that like to play fight
Let the innocence of love like kids
Bring us excitement to have fun
Not wondering about tomorrow
Or what's yet to come
As the seasons pass
Let the intimacy of our minds grow in development of each other's hearts
Then we'll be able to detect if we were truly meant to be
Or grow apart - Lady Ju

What If Your Memory Erased
Every past mistake
Your heart wasn’t concerned
How the future would take place
The only thing you knew how to do
was live for today.
Then, would you finally enjoy the moment?

-Lady Ju

I know you still love me
It's kind of easy to tell
When the heart loves someone
There's no way to lock it up in a jail cell
Because it will explode through with emotions
crashing down like waves in an ocean
You can try and deny
But hearts don't lie
Those it has chosen
And I've spent a good deal
Wondering if you still cared
I guess previous conversations with others
Made me question was the love really there
I guess I never knew tears tasted sour
Until the day you said goodbye
Because you were always there
To catch them falling from my eyes
And all I can think about is will it be the same
If I have a problem will I now come to you in vain
Will you catch my tears like in the past
Will you get tired of me and the love not last
Will our hands interlock if I'm frightened or scared
Or will I pretend like it was never there
The fear haunts me daily
I guess I shouldn't be concerned if your love is fading
But tell me if your love for me is changing
I deserve to know. -Lady Ju

I keep searching
No Signs
Where are these broken pieces of mine?
What you took
I could never get back
Tell me exactly how did you do that?
So next time I'll be more careful with my heart.
-Lady Ju

Sick and tired of this pain
Release me of these chains
Crying out for freedom
But locked up is what I remain

It's a shame
To have these feelings that I do
Once thought it was love
Now I'm questioning was it true

No I'm not questioning was it true
Just questioning why it was you
Is love supposed to abuse?
Did my heart really choose?

To give something so intimate
Just for it to lose?...shoot
Maybe it wasn't yours to have in the first place
God I'm sorry for giving away your space

You're the frame to my picture
Perfect
Not painted by Picasso
But your value to me is more than worth it

Am I crazy for the love I have for you?
Or crazy to think I could live my life without you?

I'd clear the roads just for you to enjoy a smooth ride
Swim through the depths of the deep end
Just to be by your side

I'd tackle your giants down with you
Tag team me in
See I let you in
Tore down my walls
As tall as Berlin

So you're sewn in my heart
without a needle or pin
Just the bond that we hold
Is so strongly within

I can't comprehend
Although I know that I'm intelligent
But truth is, I don't have to be a genius
To know that you were Heaven Sent. - Lady Ju

Did you hear that sound?
It's my heart's beat
The bump grows louder
The closer our hearts meet
I'm so in LOVE with the LOVE in you
Stars apart
But you light me up like the moon

If you knew the truth in it all
You’d think differently
Funny how the past repeats itself like History
Hearts don’t change just mentally
Do you even understand the magnitude of
What you meant to me?
Wait a minute there’s no past tense
Still the same
Love looks for nothing to gain
So really nothings *changed