You're an illusion in my head!
You're just a thought in my brain!
A thought that is mislead!
A mirage in a desert plain!
I am walking towards you!
You are starting to fade away!
Not so fake, not so true!
Listen to what I am tryna say!
You're a fictional character!
You're the shining distraction!
Tempting like a gold glitter!
You're nothing but a reflection!
      -Vivek!

You said meet me on the other side!
But I am walking on this Mobius strip!
You said you'll hang on throughout the ride!
But now you say you're  losing your grip!
You say you gotta go!
You say you have to leave!
Was it all a magic show!
Using the tricks up your sleeve!
All the promises you've broken!
Left me all alone, out in the open!
You left me here, Bathing in my tears!
My eyes dark red, Stranded in my fears!

          -Vivek!

I can smell your perfume on the polaroid!
I can still taste your lips when I lick mine!
I was somewhere lost in the deep void!
Emptiness of your eyes looking just fine!
Surrounded by the full white chaos!
I don't remember where I was!
We made some great memories!
Captured through eyes in our brain!
I have collected all the stories!
I have collected happiness and pain!
I have collected mistakes and crimes!
All we were doing was havin' a good time!
          -Vivek!

You killed 'em all!
You killed my dreams!
You broke my heart!
You killed my screams!
I don't have a voice of my own!
I am like a toy that you're playing today!
I know when you're grown!
You're gonna throw me away!
I am like a gum that you chew!
Took everything from me and threw!
Me out of your life and you moved!
Just like that I'll be removed!
        -Vivek!

It's half past three!
why am i still awake?
You can't even imagine what I see!
Every part of my body aches!
All these demons surrounding me!
They're set free, to feed on me!
As I lay heads up in my bed!
With a sense of deep dread!
I can't even close my eyes!
I am scared to death!
I am giving my alibis!
I can't even feel my breath!
          -Vivek!

Rain falling down on me!
So much water yet I am thirsty!
Paper boat down on street!
Rain falling down on me!
Deep puddles reflecting tree!
It's cold, **** I miss the heat!
Rain falling down on me!
So much water yet I am thirsty!
     -Vivek!

In my old rusty car!
Driving along the beach!
Thinking about the life of our!
Put your head out and reach!
Taste the salty water!
Sun burning hotter!
It makes your skin glow!
Everything is moving slow!
Warm breezes starts to blow!
Sand mixed in air like it's snow!
I was so lost in your perfect face!
Crashed around the curve at high pace!
        -Vivek

If parallel world theory is true!
Then some place!
Around the space!
I belong to you!
If my dreams were true!
You would've know I exist!
You would've loved me too!
We would be playing in the mist!
You would lose your control!
On the floor we'll roll!
I'll handel your love and agression!
Only if we lived in my imagination!
          -Vivek

Yesterday I felt like a free bird!
Flying on top of the world!
But, I feel like human Tonight!
Just the same!
Worried about the same fight!
Like it's a game!
Fight of finding myself!
Fight of a good career!
Fighting for help!
It's so surreal!
I am being tortured mentally!
I am so scared to live!
        -Vivek!

Mushrooms on my tounge!
Smoke in my lungs!
White line up my nose!
Viens got 'em dose!
I am flying on a different height!
I am having a different fight!
With my ownself!
Staring at this old shelf!
Yeah I am high!
Seeing things like sci-fi!
We overdosed on love, on hate!
You served me death on my plate!
           -Vivek!

I can't not see all the suffering animals!
I Can't not see cannibals!
Can't not see people being impolite and rude!
Can't not see people that are starving for food!
I am scared to walk alone at night!
I can't not hear the curses and fights!
I can't not see all the bloodshed!
I am so scared that I can't go to bed!
Humans are now poisonous than snake!
Disgusting how people are being so fake!
Are we really free?
Or just pretending to be!
              -Vivek

I sometimes wander at the night!
Just to see them bright lights!
I sometimes wander between the sky!
To see them various colored kites!
I sometimes wander below the sun!
To feel the warmth and the burn!
I sometimes wander between death and life!
To feel the joy and the grief!
I sometimes wander between milky way!
To hear what planets have to say!
I sometimes wander in my brain!
To feel the happiness and the pain!

        -Vivek!

I am a legend!
Heard about my story?
Heard about my end?
Heard about my Glory?
But honestly,
You don't even know me!
You only see,
What you really wanna see!
There's more to my life than just a lesson!
There's love, pride and obsession!
My misery and pain is what they really took!
To represent me on pages of an old dusty book!

              -Vivek!

How does it feel?
To have a  real friend!
How does it feel?
When it doesn't end!
How does it feel?
when they stick around!
How does it feel?
Being lifted when you're down!
How does it feel?
To share you talks!
How does it feel?
On the long walks!
Yeah I know that I have grown!
But the feeling I've never known!
        -Vivek!

Don't walk away!
Will you just stay?
I am too far away!
Finding the way!
I am in the middle of the sea!
Looking for the shore but I can't see!
Will you be my light-house?
And Take me to my house?
In this thunderstorm!
I can't find a landform!
Please, will you take me through?
Like the wind that just flew!

              -Vivek!

Dependent on caffeine!
When I was sixteen!
It's mixed with my blood!
Over the top like it's flood!
Through the sleepless nights!
In the ***** fights!
On small rides!
****! time flies!
Missing those days!
Finding the ways!
Can I go again?
Or will I just go insane?

The way she moves around,
flipping her hair!
I guess I have found,
someone to stare!
My chin dropped down,
My heart is out of my chest!
Looks like I've found,
The only place I can rest!
She's smart like a queen!
She's pretty like an actress!
Remember all the time we've been!
On your foam mattress!

                 -Vivek

Please get me outta this maze!
I am stuck deep inside of my brain!
Is this another one of those bad days!
Or is it from overthinking and pain!
It's like a paradox!
There's no escaping!
All this random talks!
Inside my head, I am just scraping!
I am suffocated in my own breath!
Stuck here just waiting for death!
Only you can save me, we'll escape just fine!
All I need Is long walks and yours hand on mine!

It's the end of me!
The role-plays over!
All the things that I can't see!
My eyes are covered in clover!
Memories flashing in front of my eyes!
All these strangers and their goodbyes!
Good things about me now I hear!
Guess life was just changing gear!
I was so fast and lost control!
Crashed so hard, but I did my role!

           -Vivek!

As I was looking in this guys eyes!
Something's that I realized!
I saw he's lost in the darkness!
Alone in the hollow!
Fallen deep into the emptiness!
No one's trying to follow!
Life's such a vain!
Every heartbeat feels like pain!
Wanna get out of the quicksand of mind!
But it's just complicated things that I find!
I was tensed like I just watched thriller!
When I realized I was standing in front of a mirror!

       -Vivek!

Lying on the marble floor!
Under the ceiling fan!
Devil knocked on my door!
Got up quickly and ran!
Into the darkness inside!
Peeping through the big white curtain!
Little did I know I cannot hide!
Saw myself laying on the ground, still uncertain!
Don't know how to react!
Is this is a myth or a fact?
Watching them as they take me away!
Guess I have to go, that's the only way!

          -Vivek!

Drizzling in the sun!
Everything is shining!
Everyone's on the run!
Birds are hyming!
Then I looked right across the street!
I can't feel my heart, can't feel the heat!
It felt like either I am dead!
Felt like you're an angel in heaven!!
Or am I just dreaming in my bed!
Then you boarded bus no. Seven!
Never saw your face ever again!
I am still waiting in the sunny rain!

            -Vivek!

In the boiling summer heat!
You're still more hot to me!
I've seen fire street!
You're still too hot to see!
When I look at you my eyes shine bright!
It's feels like you are a source of light!
You keep me warm!
You keep me dry!
You do no harm!
Never made me cry!
You're too good to be true!
Will you let me burn inside of you?

      -Vivek!

In the summer heat!
These lazy afternoon we're free!
You said you wanna meet!
Beneath the mango tree!
In the monsoon rain!
With these hot tea!
You're remedy to all my pain!
In your arms is where I'd rather be!
In the winter cold!
Playing in the breeze!
You're out and bold!
Whenever I see you, I freeze!
I'll be around you through the season!
I'll Never leave no matter what's the reason!

            -Vivek!

I know we can't be a thing!
That's why I haven't asked you out yet!
I know you can't wear my ring!
After all these time what do I get?
Was it all a waste?
Dancing with you holding your waist!
Making you food!
Treating you good!
Taking you to your fav place!
This is what I have to face?
Little did I know you're gonna leave!
But I still can't believe!

        -Vivek!

As the white lines disappeared!
The tunnel started to get stuffed!
All the old thoughts reappeared!
Memories and decisions that were tough!
Imagination is on a different pace!
Finding weirds things interesting like ants race!
I am not in my right mind!
This powder is making me blind!
Lips are now turned dried!
Face is starting to turn pale!
Eyes turned red like you cried!
Gold fish in the tank seems like a big whale!

      -Vivek!

Sleeping after sunrise!
Living in the night!
I know it's not wise!
But you hate to play in light!
Madness in the head!
Songs playing on low!
Jumping on your bed!
When are we gonna grow!
In the cold night, in the warm fight!
We promise to hold on to each other tight!
We won't drift apart or at least we'll try!
We end in a misery Eventually and we cry!

       -Vivek!

I See flowers unfold!
Growing just to end up into a bouquet!
I See humans been sold!
Just to leave everything behind and lay!
People growing old!
Just to die!
People being bold!
From the shy!
No purpose of life!
Don't know this is which zone!
Worried about children, husband or wife!
That they're gonna leave all alone!

       -Vivek!

Maybe I am just playing it cool!
Maybe I've been a fool!
Maybe I miss you!
Maybe I don't!
Maybe you do too!
Maybe you don't!
You won't text me!
Neither will I!
Maybe you won't see!
How hard I try!
Not calling!
I know you won't receive!
I am falling!
It's the facts you won't believe!

Saw your face in the sky!
It's like you started to fly!
Stars made your eyes!
Eyebrows as the bird flies!
Half-moon made ya smile!
Oh it's been a while!
I am searching you everywhere!
God It's not so Fair!
I am finding you please show up!
playing hide and seek? please grow up!
I am so frustrated looking for you!
It's like the thousandth avenue!

     -Vivek!

In here it's so cold!
And I am all alone!
It's like someone told!
I don't belong in the zone!
Happiness i can't afford!
Dark empty room with whiteboard!
Written everything positive about me!
But there's no one to read!
I am in this big ranch!
All alone sitting on the branch!
Rollercoaster, but no one to ride!
While covered in allegations I cried!
Nobody wanna know my part of the story!
People just pretend that they worry!

        -Vivek!

Who really am I?
I wanna know!
Where really am I?
Where I'll go?
Where's my origin?
Where do my soul belong?
Thoughts that have been!
On my mind for so long!
Wide open are now my eyes!
Vanished the curtains of all the lies!
It's endless, colourless, pure and true!
It's god! Don't you wanna know it too?

          -Vivek!

We are all of one kind!
You only have control on your own mind!
Though the whole world is blind!
I hope that somewhere you'll find!
Kindness, compassion, empathy!
Love, politeness and  sympathy!
We humans we're weird!
Many people here aren't cheered!
Before it's out of range!
We have to change!
I hope we will care!
I hope we will share!

             -Vivek!

Looking straight In your eyes!
Tear drops falling to your chin!
I am burning inside!
Tell me how bad I've been!
I let you down!
I made you cry!
I made you frown!
I yelled the lie!
Like they were fact!
I did some crimes!
I am sorry about that!
About the bad times!
          
          -Vivek!

Fire burning in front of you and I!
Shining so bright those beautiful black eyes!
Colours of our love dispersed in the air!
My hands stuck in your messy hair!
Different shades of yours are out now!
Colours all over still you look so pretty, how?
You are still shining so bright!
The bracelet of your hand reflecting sunlight!
Dancing like idiots, wet and cold!
I just love the way you hold!
Hold my hand tight and close to your heart!
Oh believe me you’re a brilliant work of art!

        -Vivek!

Don't know how to handle the stress!
Don't know how to handle ya dress!
Don't know how to treat you good!
Don't know how to make your mood!
Don't know how we ended up together!
Made promise will stay forever!
I am not as cool as you'd want me to!
Addicted to each other as we grew!
Am not sure if we're gonna last long!
Not sure if I am gonna write a song!
Not so sure if you're the one!
After all this we're still on the run!

           -Vivek!

We see the same kite!
We share the same light!
Every night!
Same flight!
In the same Ray!
As we lay!
Kite made by stars!
Hand reached out far!
Joining Bright dots making shapes!
Collecting moments on video tape!
We dream of playing on the cold moon!
I don't want this night to end anytime soon!

            -Vivek!

Trapped in the virtual reality!
People with no geniality!
Video game seems real world!
Different types of characters unfurled!
Trapped in choosing cool username!
Trapped in tryna get all the fame!
Trapped in cool insta, snap stories!
In real life there's a different story!
Animals are being treated,
more kindly than humans!
Showing off new skins of video game-
Characters and guns!
Get out of the house and go explore!
There's whole fascinating world out this door!

       -Vivek!

I see this bright night!
I see this darkened day!
I see the darkness light!
Which in the morning fades away!
I see the space end!
I see the time append!
I see this beautiful dirt!
I see this infinite Earth!
I see these coal shine!
I have what's not mine!
I see you but you don't see me!
I am in this cage yet i am free!

         -Vivek!

I flew way too high!
My wings are cold and frozen!
It's a last goodbye!
I am about to be broken!
Smoke coming outta my mouth!
Can't say a word but I wanna shout!
Angel's singing by my ears!
Satan reaching through my fears!
I'll have to go there's no choice!....I am free!
In my head mom's voice it rejoice!....me!
I guess i kinda  know!
Where i have to go!

Under the star roof, planes passing by!
Reaching for the stars, planets saying hi!
Only if i could control the time!
Would forever let this darkness shine!
I love this song that stars Sing!
I love to watch this Neptune ring!
Looking deep into the black hole!
Seeing my past, present and future role!
Flying with this creature!
Bright pink light through aperture!
Back at Earth big blue!
Oh! This wonderful imagination that grew!
            -Vivek!

Looking across the river!
A silhouette of you!
Odds aren't in my favor!
Still, In reflection, I am next to you!
Holding hands!
Making plans!
To go eat somewhere!
Still can't decide what to wear!
But are we?
Still what I see!
Reflection fades! You can't be seen!
Was it real or just a dream?

Empty bed feels so cold!
How a shy girl turned so bold!
I see you got a new hand to hold!
A new shoulder to put your head!
All different stories that I read (red)!
Shore's so empty,
without you by my side!
You didn't even consider,
no matter how hard I tried!
And I didn't realize!
I was the journey not your destination!
I was just a train through those stations!

             -Vivek!

She wore a pink dress!
She seems such a mess!
She looks so good even,
Without them filters!
She's so hot even,
Though it's winters!
Those pretty hair highlights!
Her face is so bright!
She steals the light!
She's so wrong yet,
She seems so right!
I am so scared!
What if I try say hi!
And she hits me with a goodbye?

        -Vivek!

New Year, New Me!
I can be who I was or who I wanna be!
I can sit in my comfort zone!
Yeah I can be alone!
I can sit back and waste my life away!
On make my mark on this new way!
Oh another new blank slate!
I can't decide my fate!
But I can work hard and try!
I don't wanna do this? No I can't lie!
Two zero one nine!
This year I will be more than just fine!
I will convert my  imagination  to memories!
I will start on this new page a new story!

          -Vivek!

Looking back now all I see..
Many good times and great memories!
Wish i could relive them! Wanna be there again!
Feel those laughs and feel those pain!
Feel those falls and those climb!
Wish I could go back in time!
To the moment When I was free!
As I look at this freakin’ big Sea!
I don't remember my grade!
Wish all these memories never fade!
These are the memories that'll go with me!
As I travel this life's chaotic sea!

         -Vivek!

This isn't me it's someone else!
Someone waiting ringing the bells!
Someone so shy and insecure!
Someone so harsh and impure!
Someone so tiny and little!
Someone so big and brutal!
Someone is laughing,
Someone's crying!
Someone gave up,
someone still trying!
I don't remember their names!
I don't remember their games!
They're all inside me!
They all wanna be free!

   -Vivek!

I've some scars, it can never be seen!
You can't imagine the places I've been!
All my flaws and insecurities!
Trapped in the big walls of this small city!
I’ve Some big marks! Some small!
Some big wars! Some silly fall!
It’s like My heart isn't beating anymore!
Trying not to imagine how it was before!
I've some stories I can't narrate!
I've some moments none can relate!
I've seen the guy in the mirror cry!
But I still try!
To forget all of it!
But my scars won't let me move a bit!

-Vivek!

Running with the wind!
Flying with the bird!
Walking on the sky!
That's never the same!
All the clouds saying hi!
Shouting my name!
Floating in the sea!
On flower like the bee!
Swimming in the ocean depth!
Living each breath!
Brightness on the sun!
I am on the run!
Wanna do everything one can!
Wanna be my own fan!
Wanna be in each city and nation!
Tryna live my imagination!

-Vivek!

Is this reality or a dream?
I remember I’ve been!
Been here before!
Same sea, same shore!
Is this reality or imagination?
Is it truth or a lesson?
A lesson life is teaching me!
Same birds, same tree!
Is it what I want or what I get?
Same life, same regrets!
Is this actually real or not?
Am I human or a bot!
-@vivek_writes