cuddles for
sale im
ugly but
need one
person to
love me,
listen to me,
know me,
hug me,
cuddle me
until my tears
vaporize in
the midst of
your perfect
love

they say love
comes from the
heart

but the heart isn't
the catalyst of
love

it is the heart
who suffers the most
pain

but gets all
the recognition of
joy

glisten and scream for
something now
lost, curving
over imperfections
a lone river
without any place
to empty its
pain

you won't find
her in any
reality

she lives, feeds
inside the minds
of the imperfect.

but the lips of hers
have no color
her eyes no
gleeful sparkle
her heart pumping
out only cold dreams.

her host, however
is of much greater
worth;

her eyes are
rays of sunlight
amidst gray clouds;
her smile, like
an ocean breeze,
calms and lifts the soul.

it is she who is
perfect.
Ly.
Imperfect.

two smiles framed
by the glorious moonlight
two sets of eyes
glitter within the darkness
two lips, each one
entwined in the other
a makeshift dress, as white
as the surrounding billows
of snow
a single ring to be presented, a
shining symbol to express ones love
for the other
and as the wind howls through the
darkened trees, etched into the sky,
and as the snow falls with more vigor
every second,
two words are repeated
from two people,
two lovers,
i do.

simply
jarring; my breath
comes in anguished bursts as
the knife's cut penetrates my body
or soul...

i
i am
i am an
i am an unusual
i am an unusual human
i am an unusual human specimen

maybe
but more like
burdened

buy this
and that
all new
low price
clearance
blow-out sale.
but you
can't buy
what i
want most;
love, life
happiness, joy
time, family
you. ♡

one more piece
or maybe two

***** it, i'll finish
the bag

what the heck
did i just do

i'm sick,
full of my
tangible, edible
emotions

my fault is another's
laughter.
my soul begins
to sink as my red face
inks in my
embarrassment.
the smile i've put
there is convincing,
but it's a show.
under the apathy
i'm blinking
back hot tears.
they burn, but not
as much as the
cold slap of their
laughs

thump thump thump
my heart goes
thump thump thump
as it grips the rose
thump thump thump
blood runs thick
thump thump thu
my sobs escape quick
thump thump th
screaming from my soul
thump thump
within the lonely hole
thump thum
dug by
thump
the knife
...thump
and
.....th*
you

soft but
passionate
are our
movements
are our
thoughts
is our
love
♡

my hands
are tingling
my eyelids
are fluttering
my heart
is pounding
my head
is swimming
when i
think of you

calm and
fast-flowing but
unsuspecting of the
sudden drop, where it tumbles--
with its glorious white
droplets of pure
life, soon to be immersed
in darkness,
uniformity,
among the others
who've broken,
fallen,
before it.
and they all mend as one--
as the river,
still moving speedily along
but faster, with the memory
of free fall

the deafening silence
this painful love
your lifeless soul
with the bittersweet
news perched on your
awfully beautiful,
cold hearted
lips

its an
oxymoron;
lovingly hate

i sorta-kinda
might-possibly
maybe-am
just-almost
hands-down
totally
in love

with *you

kept inside my broken heart
i struggle every day to mend, but
sewing away the loose threads
softly and passionately are your lips

red
rubies rubbed
with rays of the
rushing roulette
ridiculously ruined
by running to
reason requited
for riches wronged
but rare

darkness
overpowering, enveloping
staunch, wicked, heavy
unforgiving, shrouding, blinding, absorbing
bright, fine, glorious,
loving, overcoming
light

any other day
no, it'll be okay
don't worry; just pray.

does the blissful
impact hurt?

D** usting the placid sky,
A ll of God's muted hues
W hisper the morn--
N ever to miss a day

R** oses bite
O nce the lover's
S oul grips too hard,
E mbracing a waiting nightmare

G** iven so little
R ight when i love you most
A nd it'll all be gone
N ot in my memory or yours
T ake my hand and live out
E very second until the thought
D rags behind us forever

H** eaven must be coming nearer, but
O h how small the little light is,
P laced so far above my head (still bruised from the free fall), when
E verything plunged earthward, along with my sweet dreams

so small,
fragile.
but firm,
sure.
a cheer,
smile.
those feet,
precious.
soon to be
big,
but the path
is narrow.

W** hen i look into those eyes i adore
H ow bright and delicately they fill with sentiment before
Y ou jilt me

H** ow breathtaking the view of
I ntimate simplicity
G rab on to the fleeting emotion;
H old me close and let's fall, together.

H** e has it
E very second
A lways, until,
R ight at its fullest,
T he break.

i can't
you can't either
but swing me around when
no one is near; let's dance closely
all night.

L** ilies start to wither, worn by the hope
O f waiting for rain, droplets full and cool
N ever to touch the dying petal, with its fading color
G one with its last ounce of life, all tangled up
I n the dream of sustenance; it's soul ever optimistic,
N ever failing to reach, to cry up to the scorching sun, begging for what is
G one.
❀

L** iving like this is a nightmare; all ******* in you,

O ver the high and here comes the free fall, how

V ery loudly the wind chimes in my ears, while

E verything falls apart between my silent tears

music
ebbs and flows;
within my small frame
comes great power
inside my fragile body
emotion is overbearing
into my soul
the listener peers
ever so delicately

death is inevitable;
merely God's way
of letting his
children know
he is there.
♡

human
minds seem to think
only when the darkness
stifles the running, heaving world
with stars

sunlight
escaping the
gray, dismal curtain of
under which we hide, but the sun
reveals.