in loving memory of me
to the person who I use to be
getting lost with you
made me who I am now
you may not like the person I’ve become
but I promise
from now until my next life
i will walk with you until the end.
the end
the end of time.
the end of life.
the end of forever
every step, every Breath.
BREATHE
my love I am not leaving.
so hold my hand
squeeze it tightly,
gently.
left. you left.
you’re gone not coming back  
this love of ours didn’t last  
but I’m here.
stay.
one finale breath
one last tear,
drop  
falling to the kitchen floor
trying to keep it all together
i promised my life who I was
everything I am to you. you are gone
you’ve taken the old me
and held that against me
for I am not who I was when I was with you
I was naive and madly in love with you
love is truely blind.
An ode to me, the person who I use to be.

there are galaxies inside my eyes
universes of us
let me write us into existence
let us be forever
let me feel our souls collide

Hearing his name destroys me
He doesn’t think about me
The sound of my voice
The kiss of my lips
He said my eyes were the most beautiful thing
He probably forgot the colour
Or the way they sparkle when I look at him
He use to send paragraphs about how much he loved me
Now the only thing he says is that he hates me and that I’ve changed
I’ve changed because I gave all of me to you, and now that you’re gone
I don’t know who I am.
Hearing his name destroys me

i felt your presense again last night
i felt it in the dim light

our hands were carved for eachothers fit
like two stars colliding, meant to be

universes came to being with the touch of our lips
and the way you held my hips

your celestial smile and deep green eyes
hold a place in my heart
under this dim, lifeless light

this cold morning
I woke up this morning in a panic,
still half asleep I felt your presence and reached for your hand to then realise I was still dreaming,
when my hand touched nothing but the empty cold space on my bed,
my heart tore into a million pieces, there is no warmth left in me,
nothing but emptiness and coldness from the shallow pit of this body
that will never feel a flame again

ego is one hell of a drug
but so is love  


losing my home, my safe place
made me strong, made me think
...
if home was a person
was i ever safe?

for you are my favorite face
but no longer my safe place

Ego is one hell of a drug
...

but so was your love

dancing on my tippy toes,
staying silent
never smiling
crystal tears
broken hearts

dancing on my tippy toes
i can not speak, my voice is lost
i can not smile, its wiped away
i always cry, why do i always cry?
this love broke my heart

dancing on my tippy toes
because the shatterd glass all spead out
on the cold, tiled floor

dancing on my tippy toes
who knows?

getting pricked, poked and impaled by the glass,
downing whats in my flask
its just my way to mask
whats left of my broken heart

You are my everything...

he filled my life with excitement,
he was wonderful.
sensational.
breathtaking.
But he is a wonderful fire in my lungs, and he won't stop burning until he's killed me
I swore forever with him
he is my sweetest pain, I am addicted to the pain, to the thought of loving him

have you ever been burned? the type of burn that make you lay awake at night making you feel everything and nothing all at once, the burn that makes you love and hate yourself

He is perfection to me, but he will burn me away until I am nothing but pieces of ash floating in the air waiting to be put back together
but I never will if I keep turing back to the flame
i need to let go of the dead rose, for his thorns will only cut me deeper.
I need to let go of my sweetest addiction, my sweet pain,
You.

I am the girl who dreams of disappearing
I am the one who loves without being loved in return
I’m the girl with eyes as dark as coffee
I’m the one who’s lips are sweet and heart so torn
Let me hold you and tell you that everything will be ok,
for if love truely exists,
tell me you’ll never leave my side,
tell me I mean something to you
tell me I’m going to have forever with you
If not
Let me disappear,
Forget any trace of me from your mind
Forget the feel of my skin against yours,
the taste that our kisses so softly gave
My voice... my existence
for if I’m am not yours,
I am no ones
when I disappear
Promise you’ll forget me.

can I disappear?
if I left would you remember me
the memories we share
the taste of my kisses
the touch of my skin
would you remember the love we have... let me disappear into oblivion
let me forget the pain I caused
let me cause no more pain
let me go out of this world and on to the next

Forget my existence
For I am not me
Not who I use to be
Forget who I was
For that person is lost
Forget my existence
As I’m not who you want me to be
Forget my existence
As it’s no longer me

Now her eyes are sad
and so is his heart
that two lovers depart, oh why is this so hard
both left scarred
by the impact they had on eachother
so fatal, yet so in love
as they are connected, quite possibly by the same star
that losing each other felt like the universe just tore
it left a hole in their hearts
and a universe of forever destroyed

Slowly falling down,
down
down
down
into madness.
For my mind is not my own.
captivating but twisted.
to think i was once sane
just proves my insanity
i'm completely worthless,
my mind destroyed and my heart now cold...

What use am I to this world anyway?

I feel like a burden on you
the person i love most
the ones heart i broke
the ones soul i shattered
I feel like a burden on you
because you can barley smile
yet i can barley breathe
breaking you; killed me
killed any sign of good left in me
you created the goodness
now that is gone, my heart is cold
my body still numb and my heart never at peace
me leaving broke you
but killed the goodness left in me

with eyes so deep,
a heart so pure

i long to keep,
my only cure

lips so soft,
soul too kind

i wish i had never lost,
but now the only thing that's gone is my mind

i'm so entwined,
at the thought of you

lets run away,
just us two?