I want you
She won you

I'm writing this letter,
I'm writing it because I'm sad,
I'm writing it because I'm going mad,
I'm writing it because I want to get better,

Do you remember when we met,
My dad was in huge dept,
I couldn't eat at home anymore,
So I went to the radio and we met right next to that door,

Do you remember falling for me,
Because I remember falling for you,
I remember thinking that I should flee,
Before we'd start sticking together like glue,

Do you remember eating pizza,
Because you failed to cook a frozen meal,
That night I remember your shirt was teal,
And the way you called slowly my name: 'Alexia'

Do you remember our first kiss,
That moment full of bliss,
Do you remember feeling the spark,
When the sky became more and more dark,

Do you remember when you woke up next to me one morning,
Without even a single warning,
The first thing you told me was that I was beautiful,
In that moment I felt doubtful,

Do you remember telling me that I shouldn't doubt what you say,
But the very next day,
We started to lose touch,
You should know I miss you very much,  

I tried speaking to you since,
But you never reply,
Maybe I should see the evidence,
But how can I?

How can I when I miss you terribly?
How can I when you always occupy my thoughts?
How can I when I desire so badly a reply?
How can I when I always see our common friends?
How can I when I don't want to see the end?
How can I when I still love you?

How can I when I keep wondering about the answer to the question,
'What do you think of me'
Even if I know the answer is
'I don't'

I know I wasn't allowed to fall in love with you,
But how could I not,
When your charm,
Was constantly operating on me?

Please reply to this letter,
It's the least you could do,
Please reply to this letter,
Even if you don't want to,
Please reply to this letter,
Since you won't reply to anything else.

Someone just said something about me,
It’s starting to drive me crazy,
Oh please don’t make it start again,
This isn’t a feeling that can be supported by any men,

My thoughts are beginning to race,
At much too fast of a pace,
I keep trying to make it stop,
I can already feel myself drop,

It’s called anxiety,
Oh there goes gravity,
Here comes insanity,
And everyone’s pity,

I’m starting to lose control,
I can’t feel myself as a whole,
I need help,
I need help,

Here we go again,
I can’t wait for,
The moment when,
My head stops its own war,

It’s called anxiety,
It’s not ending anytime now,
It’s being juged in our society,
It’s not something we should allow,

It’s called anxiety,
Oh there goes gravity,
Here comes insanity,
And everyone’s pity

As I walk into my classroom,
And sit down to wait for my copy of the exam,
I turn to look at Pam,
And notice she didn’t eat this morning,
But nobody seems to find this alarming,

As I take out my pencil case,
And sit down to wait to write down my answers,
I look at Sophie,
She suffers from anxiety,
And the stress is making her feel like this is a disaster,

As I sharpen my pencil,
To write more clearly,
I look at Henry,
He’s been thinking of suicide,
And nobody seems to be at his side,

As I take deep breaths,
And sit down to feel no emotion,
I notice Tim,
He is suffering of depression,
And nobody is there to listen to him,

As I get my copy of the exam,
I hear someone burst into tears,
Nobody is looking at Adam,
Who has been keeping in all his fears,
And is not ready to face them,  

As I exit the classroom,
My exam given to my teacher,
I realise life is not an animated feature,
I realise all of these students have something killing them inside,
I realise all of these students have someone because of who they cried,

I realise one of them is I

My name is Craig,
For a while now,
All I do is beg,
For your attention,

I am the fly on the wall,
Ever since that first day in fall,
Has anybody noticed me,
In this gigantic sea?

I don't even have magical powers,
That hide me away this well,
It feels like it's been forever,
Since someone has noticed my body made of cells,

My name is Craig,
For a while now,
All I do is beg,
For your attention.

Monday,
The first time of the week,
Where I start to feel weak,
People pass by,
Without looking at me in the eye,

Tuesday,
I feel better now,
I wish I knew how,
So I could do it once more,
When I start to feel like a bore,

Wenesday,
The pain is back,
I would’ve stayed in bed this morning,
Today I lack,
Of the thirst to be learning,

Thursday,
I’m almost done with this series of seven days,
But everything in my mind is like a maze,
I can’t find the end of it,
Just like I can’t seem to fit,

Friday,
I’m almost out of school,
I’ll get rid of these fools,
I’ll feel better once I’m home,
I won’t be in the corridors I usually roam,

Saturday,
I forgot about my problems at home,
I forgot my dad likes to hit my mom when she’s alone,
I feel my world tumbling down,
With nobody to help me around,

Sunday,
Soon I’ll be back to school,
Surrounded by the same fools,
I don’t have any control,
Of my heart or my soul

Yesterday,
I felt like my troubles were so far away,
Like I had a chance at feeling better for a day,
My past keeps haunting me,
It probably will be like this for an eternity,

Today,
I can’t seem to enjoy anything,
It’s really annoying,
I wish I could just smile,
For a while,

Tomorrow,
I’ll continue to procrastinate,
And hope for something better,
And hate my fate,
When it’ll think “whatever”,

My days seem to pass me by,
And I’m a day closer,
To the day I die.

Dear future daughter,
I’m writing to you a letter,
Because one day you’ll need this advice,
And it’s worth a certain price,

It’s worth the price of lessons,
The ones that make you think,
You’ve been running in the wrong directions,
And stop making you see life in pink,

First thing you need to know,
Is that sometimes you need to let go,
Even if it doesn’t feel right,
It just as well might,

Most of the time the things that feel good,
Aren’t the things that should,
That’s why you should never harm your wrist,
‘Cause then I’ll just be ******,

Second thing to keep in mind,
Is to always be kind,
Because the girl you laugh at with much glory,
May have lived a terrible story,  

Ask her what her day was like,
The strangest people have the greatest things to tell,
Even if their stories seem like they came straight from hell,
Trust me it won’t be an experience you will dislike,

Third thing I want to tell you,
Is that one day you’ll meet a boy,
And the idea of you two,
Will be one that brings joy,

And one day he might leave,
And it will make you believe,
That nobody will stay,
But trust me it won’t always be that way,

Fourth thing I want to say,
Is that it’s okay,
To give yourself pleasure,
And to give youself some leisure,

Sometimes it’s a necessity,
Because you schoolwork is driving you crazy,
And in that moment you’re panicking,
But your schoolwork isn’t more important than your own being,

Last thing I want to say,
Is that life does not count itself it breaths,
It counts itself in the moments that take it away,
People with short life enjoy it this way before their deaths,

So go on and make your life worth living,
And make it worth sharing,
Because you never know when,
It might end,

Dear future daughter,
Please consider everything I have written in this letter,
Trust me when I say without a doubt,
That your future mother knows what she’s talking about.

Alice has
Been broken up with
Constantly on the first
Date because the
Elligible bachelors make her
Fail to
Give a good first impression
Heaven knows
In time she’ll learn how to

Jonas wants to live a
Keynote moment with a special
Lady even if she’s
Mad because to him
Nothing is working
Out the way it should
Presently the universe is producing
Quietly Alice and Jonas’
Relationship

Sunday morning
They met
Under the pouring rain sourrounded by animals
Vows
Were soon exchanged
Xanax was needed to calm down Alice that day
You should know that today they are taking their kid to a
Zoo where they first met

Why are you looking at me,
With such despair in your eyes,
I’m not the one you despise,
That’s not what I want to be,

You speak of the day you would flee,
That would be like killing me in the first degree,
Am I not enough anymore,
If so that doesn’t mean you should walk out that door,

But if you leave,
I won’t cry,
It’s what I want to believe,
Please don’t ask why,

If you go,
I hope you know,
It won’t be easy,
For me to not go crazy,

But if you stay,
I’ll make it worth every day,
I won’t ever complain,
I’ll try to stay sane,

If you’re by my side,
We’ll live one heck of a ride,
I’ll try to make you glad,
And we’ll always live the most fun we’ve had,

My words don’t seem to have an impact,
That’s okay,
It’s always been a well-known fact,
I’m just going to have to look away,

Oh no please don’t go,
Don’t leave me,
Don’t do,
Like everyone,

Else.

I’ve dreamt about you so much,
I’ve dreamt about your touch,
I’ve dreamt about your eyes,
I’ve dreamt about your smile,

I’ve dreamt about you so often,
I think you’re becoming a phantom,
You’re losing your reality,
You’re becoming much more of a fantasy,

Maybe I’ve been thinking,
That I’m living this dream,
When in fact I’ve been living,
Your abscence,

And it’s time I wake up,
From this nightmare

Listen you all,
Big or small,
To the words of a fellow human,
To whom my thoughts are only blooming,

With my eyes I see,
People smile with glee,
With my eyes I observe,
People who constantly live on nerve,

With my ears I listen to,
Some speak of affection that grew,
With my ears I hear,
Words that make me shead a tear,

With my nose I find the scent,
Of every love letter I've sent,
With my nose I smell,
The odors of hell,

With my tongue I speak,
Of all the good times that happened this week,
With my tongue I talk,
Of things that I mock,

With my hands I touch,
Everything that I like so much,
With my hands I feel,
All the pain I can't heal,  

On being human,
It's living,
As a breathing,
Contradiction.

Here’s to teachers who are different,
Teachers who don’t always teach us the same,
Boring old grammar lessons,
Who learn each and every one of our names,
And who are well-respected men,

Here’s to teachers who are different,
Teachers they call crazy or eccentric,
Teachers that people think don’t do the trick,
With their sense of humor they charm,
And they never mean any harm,

Here’s to teachers who are different,
Teachers with a need to tease,
For every kid is an opportunity to seize,
As history has shown,
It’s their difference that has student’s minds blown

I regret to inform you,
That my days on this Earth,
Have borught nothing new,
And are as useless as my birth,

I regret to inform you,
That the people in my surroundings,
Do not interest me with their findings,
And they are not people I can turn to,

I regret to inform you,
That very few people have a clue,
Of what they are doing,
Or what they should be pursuing,

I regret to inform you,
That pain is not beautiful,
It is only moveable,
To those of you who feel blue,

I regret to inform you,
That most of you were aware,
Of the thoughts I'm sharing with you,
But most people don't care,

They want to be oblivious,
To what is obvious,
Stop running away from the truth,
Or it will just come back and haunt you

I hid behind timid smiles,
And soft hellos,
For so long,
For what cause did I do so?

I think it was to protect myself,
And place you up on a higher shelf,
Yet behind my shyness and my softness,
There was a lover,

This lover had her ribs bruised,
From her heart pounding so hard,
Everytime she,
Saw you,

She was empowered by you,
And your touch like fire,
It managed to light the very fuse,
She was trying not to light,

But now this lover,
Is no longer,
A part of your,
Interests,

She is forced to watch you,
Fall for this stranger,
I can't help but wonder,
Was she not good enough for you?

Her blood-red eyes don't feel so good,
What's worse is if they could,
Because she is terrified,
Of the day she'll be brave enough,

The day where she will ask,
"What do you think of me",
And your answer will be,
"I don't"

I crave you in the most innocent way a human being can crave another,
I crave for you to think of me as the one that you want to bother,
I crave to give you a kiss on the forehead,
For you to ask me to give you one the lips instead,

I crave to wish you good night,
That way in the morning you’ll be the first thing in my sight,
I crave to tell you that I adore you when you feel bad,
I crave to make you feel glad,

I crave to hold you in my arms,
I crave to protect you from all forms of harm,
I crave to see you look at me,
To feel like that moment lasted for an infinity,

I crave for you to smile at me,
So that I know that you’re happy,
I crave to watch the stars with you,
Until the sky turns into a light blue,

I crave you,
I don’t want to crave anyone new,
Please promise me that you feel this way too,
Because right now I can’t imagine my life without you

I should have said that I cared about you,
I should have said that I loved you,
Because it was all that I knew,
And it was enough,
But saying it was tough,

I should have said “stop”,
When someone hurt me,
Before,
I hit the floor,
And drop,

I should have said that I was afraid to let go,
Of all I used to know,
I started to feel low,
I didn’t want to accept that’s he gone,
And that there was someone else for him to keep an eye on,

I should have said that I was sad,
And that I felt bad,
When someone asked me what was wrong,
Instead of listening to the same sad song,
All I wanted was to look strong,

I should have said a lot of things,
But now it’s too late,
With life continuing to punish me,
For not saying what’s on my mind,
With fate

The stars shine,
I’m feeling fine,
Maybe I’m alone,
And that’s why I picked up the phone,

Have you ever wanted to kiss someone so bad,
That your lips burn?
If not I’m glad,
That it’s not something you had to learn,

Tonight I want to go outside,
Sit down and look up at the sky,
With you by my side,
It would be such a heavenly way to die

To the reader who is alone right now,
Find comfort in my poetry,
To you I will vow,
That my words will never keep you lonely,

To the reader who is in love with someone,
Don't worry about what it will become,
Love that person with all your heart,
Love that person even if something is keeping you apart,

To the reader who is heartbroken,
Grab a pen,
Write down what you feel,
Write until you start to heal,

To the reader who has depression,
I have a huge compassion,
For you,
Please give yourself the happiness you are due,

To the reader suffering with anxiety,
I know how you're feeling,
Now is not a time to worry,
Nor a time to cling,

To all my readers,
I am not your leader,
But I want to give you all some advice,
Please think about it twice,
Stop worrying,
Start living.

I’m up during the night,
Thinking that someday we might,
End up together,
Maybe even forever,

I can’t stop thinking about him,
It’s so bad,
It may as well be just a tad,
Of a sin,

I’m trying to fall asleep,
It’s very long,
I keep counting sheep,
And it keeps going on,

And he seems to keep me awake,
Way more than caffeine