when he passes by
your heart skips a beat
i can hear it
and i don't know why
i still stand there
just...watching

you pretend a little
to be me
i pretend a little
to be you
we both play these roles
until we are hurt
so deeply hurt
that we can't
detect who is who

you left me with
few cuts and bruises
i do not blame you.
in fact,it is all
self inflicted.
it makes me happy
it makes all the pretty
pictures of your laughter
flicker in my head.
i'm giving a part
of my flesh
to see you smile,
seems like a
really good deal.

I have never been a human in my life.
That is because from the day i was born
i decided to be a bird.
And that is how i became what humans
call a "poet".

today i watched her play with her hair
i watched her cute little fingers while
she raveled it, she made braids, a ponnytail
i was charmed , i was lost in the time.

.....completey taken by that innocent smile

she tells me that i lack a little something
to be her perfect man.
it's such a pretty way to tell me that i
will never be him.

she stood in a hallway
arguing with me
she said yes i said no
she asked me if she
should stay
i told her to go
her soft palms were shaking
i didn't dare to break
but still
if she'd let a tear
it woud be all that it takes.
i didn't tell her my feelings
because she would have strayed
i knew this wasn't place for her
and i couldn't stay in her way.
it was a monday,it was cloudy
i tried to look away
it's so hard to remember
(it was middle of a may)
i wanted her to think of me
i couldn't dare to say...
i tried to look aside
but i still remember the dress
she wore that day.

She doesn't know she hurts me,
because she doesn't see my pain,
she never bothers to eaven  look at me
her gaze towards him always stays the same.

in the darkness i sit and cry,
i weep quietly into my sheets
until a child in me has drowned
while everyone that knows me sleeps.

the dawn is stuck in the rain,
the sky got bruised by the storm,
the hollow wind lulls my pain,
makes my torment feel so warm.

the rain patters on the dry ground
it sings its soft lullaby into my ear
and all my screms won't make a sound
your whispers in a storm make my tears all disapear.

he is sitting still
a pen in his hand
a paper on the desk
he wants to write
he can't think of anything
he searches trough his pockets
he takes a cigaret
he lights it
he watches smoke
make circles:

seeing the new universe
of unsaid and untold
the drop of ink
falls on the paper
now,the story can unfold.

the ink spreads on a sheet
starts to form a spider
with thiny legs with
six white eyes
made of smeared blue ink
it inlarges it dances
it does what ever
he wants it to do..
then it dies,
with a movement of his pen
it reincarnates with the other one
it's so fun when you can
play with life and death.
he disperse the smoke circle,
with no trouble or regret.

all the time i stood watching
the way the story was made
of a spider from disperse
he puts a dot to end the thought
what a strange mind he has

and you come to me running
you dance in your messy dress
with your cheeks all flushed
with your boots for walking on air
and you leave me with a shimmeting dawn
gleaming with the stars that revolve around you

a smile
a kiss
a promisse
and few thing you say:
three words wrapped in smile
seems i'll be happy today

it's been a while since we played
you left long time ago,
do you remember what you said
when we played in the snow?

it's been a while since we talked,
i couldn't bring my self to come ,
but today i decided to take a walk,
i hope the place where you are is fun ..

i've been beating my self until today,
i've lost my pride and grace,
i came again to cry on your grave,
i miss your laughing face.

What are poets made of?
is it luck and charm?
or dreadful heartache
that causes them self harm?

What are poets made of?
is it love and dance?
or a soul that withers
from one lost love romance?

What are poets made of?
is it tweenkly feeling from inside of chests?
or a hurtful silence that reeks of deamons
those dark,lowlife pests?

what are poets made of
i'll leave that puzzle unsolved
i'll just say it's a feeling
that make their words revolt

a lovely a song deserved the heart
but then i lost my rest
then i had put my guard
cuz it sounds like my past
so i clicked unlike .

seems like we all come here to let go of something
to let go of of broken heart,unreturned love,of hate,of fears,
of people around pushing you,of injured heart,of your worst sins


seems like we have all been facing our deamons for to long
couldn't stay in silence forever and just keep it all inside like we used to
looks like we all look for a way to become someone fixed and new


we all have chased,and cried and pleaded,we all were out of place
feeling useless feeling weak,wished we could be erased..

we had gentle hearts uneasy minds and feelings that went wrong
so we tried to find a way out and it was to release them into a song

the man who lost the fight
must endure the laws of the winner.

When you are here :
the world stops spinning
gravitatins is out of system
Ainsteins seems stupid
equasions are boring
nobody seems to listen.

when you are here:
you shrink universe
you create different kind of space
you change laws of physics
you put Newton to discrase

when you are here:
my heart goes crazy
big bang starts to occur
amplitude of my pulse seems to change
feels like dying,but this kind of love i prefer.

in wild west there was a tribe,
of men fast as mountain river,
they believed in nature,they had vibe
and gaze that makes you shiver

Suddenly it's been deciced
that they that they become a prey
a white man came to take their land
but they stood in their way

indian only had a bow and an arrow
to fight for his own life
but white man brought some weapons
every one of them died

if you stood on red mountain
you could hear the wind hum a song
soft melody of indian flutes
that are gone for too long

why did you leave me in silence,for so ******* long
why did you leave my mind all scattered,now i dont know where i belong
why did you lock me in this room of memories
why when you didn't mean to return my call,
i'm sick of this,of your stories,
this time i won't take the fall...

why you bother to come back now,how long has it been?
i forgot to feel love i forgot the sun, the wind
why come now..oh god,you are so mean

why do i fall for you so easy,the moment i see your tears
all of this time,all off your flaws,all of you i've missed...
when will you visit this room of mine,where you let my body to rot
i'll start to hate you until you return...i'm lying..ofcourse i won't..

i haven't told you a thing about the rain
she dent my lips a bit..
she kissed my lips s bit...
and she was gone away..

I heard my bestest buddy
has run away from zoo
i felt really desperate
so i sniffed some glue.
So i became an addict
my buddy didn't come
well i dont care about the monkey
i am having fun

my pride?
i have lost it
can't find it among my stuff
im better off without it
now my words are rough.

I stopped buying blades
i outgrew that phase
now i cut myself mentaly
now i am scared my own face.

she wished she was taller,
her hair was coloured red
if you put the plate up there
you could eat right of her head.
she decicded to be silly
so she made me help her grow
as she couldn't do it physicly
she said she will explore:
She wanted to be smarter
so i gave her some books
but in stead of becoming scientist
she became a cook.
she wanted to be a pilot
i made her a plain
she made hole in a cloud
so it started to rain.
she wanted to be a singer
i gave her a verse
she couldnt sing well
it sounded like curse
she blamed it all on me
for not being taller
excuse me miss,
but just be thankfull
that you're not even smaller

i wanted to commit romantic suicide
by hanging myself with your fake hair
i wanted to commit romanic suicide
by cutting my wrists with your hair clips
i wanted to commit a romantic suicide
by drinking your beauty pills.
but as fake as you are i will just commit a fake siucide.

i feel my nose hitting the ceiling of a coffin,
am i already dead?
i heard her crying and a fer whispers,
sorry,our love was hangng by a thread.

you are a gemston of my heart
beloved lady.
you are the tune and the verses
to my melody.

you are the prettiest of all the women
beloved lady
the grace you bring with your presence
noone can surpass

you put a shade over the whole world,
my lady.

i'll give you a riddle,
but you have to guess:
you can solve your pain with it,
within you can drown your mess.

She hits me,
i fight her until we are  blue and red
our bruised body ache for each other
we have gotten mad

i'll let her be the muse,
i'll let her tongue explore,
who am i to refuse
a girl whom i adore?

i'll tell her she's my weakness,
i'll let my sweet talk run,
she likes my body, more or less,
shes's just having fun

I carry a few specks of love
in a depths of my pockets.
Those are only things she left me with.
Yet i can't find a reson not to love every bit of her

adventure has started
you have to capture my heart,
i will be running ,
so begin the hunt.

adventure has started
be careful to choose the right path,
my forest is enchanted,
you might fall into a trap.

adventure has started
pick a weapon for this fight,
you must be cautios,
don't let me out of your sight.

adventure has started,
i'll be hiding somewhere far,
watch your moves,its dangerous,
i could leave you a scar.

adventure has started,
i think you have a chance to win,
just let your mind run wild
and keep your heart clean.

I have been silent for too long
i have forgotten the language you speak,
i have been left in the dark for too long,
no monster could scare me, you made me become their king.

i can no longer find
                   where do i end
                            and where do you start.
                                  i can no longer separate my thoughts from yours

                                             **when did you take over me?

her skin
oh my
like a porculan doll

her eyes
oh my
green as emeralds soul

her lips
my,oh my,
such a dangerous things they say

she whispers words
my oh my
of which a strongest heart would stray.

i took my scars and carved into her heart,
now she is ill from the same type of desease,
so selfish of a man who said he would protect her.

i took my loneliness and inserted it into her youth,
now we can compare our miseries when we are alone .
so pathetic of a man who should comfort her.

i took my pain and inserted it into her treasured innocence,
now, i wait for her reaction when she finds out im not a man she tought i'll be
i hope she will run away and avoid being trapped with a man like me..