Like a fool you make me a grin,
Engulfed in a warmth I cant imagine being free of sin.

Catch my heart aflame,
Then light your arrows in its fire.
Through my soul a barrage beats down,
My shelter now turned to pyre.

And I, too fearful to fight,
Succumb to it all,
Wishing I could not burn,
Or to feel its warmth alone...
Yet all I've known is the searing.

Fledgling hearts,
Torn from nests of clouds.
Soon you'll find,
What lies through these misty plains.

Flightless souls,
That have never flown,
Close enough to fire,
To burn in heaven.

Fall or fly,
Hearts will raze or rise.
Pray you'll glide among the winds,
And hold a heart between your wings

"Folie à deux,"
I'll take it to mean,
"The madness of two."

With you I'll be crazy,
You make me let go of the fear.
I know we're not normal,
If only they could fathom the happiness of the insane.

I cherish every moment.
Every smile, every joke,
Every dumb tale or story we've ever told.
I'll let go of my mind,
But onto those moments I'll keep my hold,
And I promise I will never let go.

I don't want to miss a moment of insanity with you.
So I'll give you my heart,
And then we'll have two,
And till the end of our days we'll have
Folie à deux.

I see my footprints in the sand,
But you're not there to hold my hand.
These tracks look lonely,
When it's only me.

The sand beneath my feet,
The tide comes in and pulls me deep.
Wash away our prints,
But leave behind my sins.

The cold clings to me,
Nobody to hold me close
And keep me cozy.
I guess this is now where I stand,
Watching our footprints fade into the sand.

Forever and always,
You'll be my first love.
My first thought in the morning,
my last thought at night.

Forever and always,
You'll be able to make me smile.
You could bring me down with a word,
And make me rise with another.

Forever and always,
I'll talk of you to the world.
Forever and always,
Will you mean the world to me.
Forever
And always.

Take pity on those with fragile hearts,
Whose wounds don't heal,
But bear scars.

Open hearts bleed dry,
When open eyes set sight on the vast sky.

Immortal hearts but mortal bodies,
Soul and heart hold tight as mind and body let go.

Pity the fool who seeks love undying,
But praise those foolish enough to find it.

I'm fragile.

I don't like the worry in your eyes,
So I put on a smile and tell a lie.
I care more for you than I do myself,
So I'll hide my thoughts, and never ask for help.

Most of you never noticed the cracks at the edge of my smile.
Those who did saw only what I consider mild.

But for those who know,
Next time pull me in close.
Hold me in your arms so that it tugs too tight at my heart...
And I can let myself break.

I'm fragile.

Tread lightly on those with fragile hearts,
Broken before and bare the scars.

Slowly their heads do lower from the stars,
As shattered hearts make love feel barred.

These playful souls will still play your game,
And willingly fall all the same,
Hoping someday their heart is seen,
And someone takes claim.

I have held in my heart a longing for so long.
Pushed down out of fear,
That someday I would speak
And then you would be gone.

But this spark yearns for fire,
And my heart wishes to beat to the crackle of the flames.
Now I succumb to desire.
Burn against the dying of the light.

I am ******* hurt.

I am in ******* pain.

I am trying not to be ******* angry.
I am trying not to feel it all.
I am trying and failing.
I am trying not to detest,
I am trying not forget my soul.

I am always trying to be happy.
I am always failing to be.
I am always teased with light
I am always tricked into darkness.
I am always wishing.

I wish I could be better.
I wish I wasn't scared.
I wish I didn't feel this pain.
I wish this doesn't last the forever it already has.
I wish some day.
I wish I get to be happy.

The world is not a safe place,
It warrants a heart of stone,
Yet there remains the gentle hearted.

Too foolish in their faith,
Letting their hearts bleed for others.
They posess a love so rare to find,
That most will never notice their strength.

We are those too foolish to give up on people,
Too foolish to lose faith in love,
Too caring to be selfish,
Too hurt, to hurt.

Held to my heart,
A secret tearing me apart.
Words kept silent,
To prevent all of the violence.

I don't want to see you walk away,
I don't want to hear say,
those words I know you'll say.
So I'll keep my mouth shut,
Keep my heart at bay.
Because I'm afraid that it'll lead us astray.

I'll keep this love to myself,
Not willing to risk this wealth,
You make me feel so rich in love.

I'll keep this love to myself,
Don't want to see you go,
Don't want to lose you so
I'll keep my words in my chest,
And I'll do my best
To be there always.

Lately I dwell on the idea of holding hands.
An act so simple yet so human in it's nature.
An act of love.

When palms interlock,
Two become one.
We abandon the use of an appendage
For the idea of closeness.

Therein lies our humanity,
Seen in such a simple act.
We are always willing to give for love.

Hold me in your arms,
Love me like I've never known.
Take all the static in my head,
And clear it to a picture
Where I'm not on my own.

Take with you my heart,
I don't trust it under my care.
For beneath my head of hair,
Is a mind too fearful to dare.

Hold me on cold nights,
When I'm too scared to admit,
Hold me on dark days,
When I'm blinded by shadows.

I'll tell you why i like being at home.

It's the silence.
Not a sound can be heard.
No footsteps in the hallway,
Or cars driving by.

It's the darkness.
The curtains are just  thicker and darker,
And light ceases to pass through.
Not even light slips beneath the door.

It's the bliss.
When I look up as I lay in bed,
All I see is the darkness.
And in the darkness can be whatever I want it to be.
I dream while awake...
Because when I close my eyes all I see are nightmares.

I guess I fall in love,
Take it too slow.
I'm waiting on you,
So I'm sure that you're sure.

Because I can't risk knocking on that door,
If we can't be friends anymore.
Yeah it's a struggle,
I really want love.
But I don't want to be the guy whose loses too much.
Then you'll say, "we're just friends" and such.
And there goes the rush.
Now I'm hitting that clutch.
And leaning into a spiral,
This heartbreak can make me so wild.
And over and over I do this again,
But my faith doesn't run out,
I don't think it ever ends.

And that feels like a blessing and a curse,
Been trying so long that I'm losing my worth.
I don't even know if it's worth it,
I just have hope and sometimes that's perfect.

Remember when we'd sit together in class?
You'd work and I'd try to make you laugh.
The teacher always hated how distracted I was.

Remember when we'd walk around the school?
Eyes glared but that was never what caught my attention.

Remember those movies we saw?
The tales we told over coffee and ice cream after?
I'd sit there captivated by your smile as the time passed us by.

Remember all the stupid things I did?
All the idiocy you inspired?

I remember it all...
How could I forget?

Hypothetically if I fell in love,
 I'd love you the world over.
Hypothetically if you were mine,
You'd be my moon and my sun,
With a hold on my heart and my mind.

Hypothetically if I could only do one thing a day,
I'd sit at your side,
Laughing all the way.
Hypothetically if I had to chose,
There would not be a thought of any but you.

Hypothetically if you loved me,
Loved me like I love you.


Hypothetically if you could see me ...
The way that I see you.

I hate myself for the things I do.
All of it torments my mind,
And hindsight is but a curse for my overthinking.

I fill with fear,
To many thoughts in my head,
So many unseen outcomes that spiral through my eternity.

Nothing ever goes the way of happiness,
And content is a feeling I have lost recollection of.
I wish to try again,
For looking at what I am now...
I hate myself.

I have a fear
That I'm not good enough for anyone.
It terrifies me.
The thought that I might always be the guy who helps his friends find love,
But can't find it for himself.

I have a fear
That I'm not right for anyone.
That despite all the love stories I've seen
And all the songs I've sung as prayer,
I'll still be the one without someone in their arms.

I have a fear of loneliness.
I have a fear that I'm all I have in this.
I have a fear that the world will continue to pass me by...
And all I can do is watch from the sidelines.

I'm awestruck in your presence,
So aware of my words,
Trying to craft the perfect sentence.
It works in theory,
But in practice it fails.

I'm too entranced by your laugh,
Warmed by you words,
Infatuated by your tone,
How could I focus when you jest at my heart so.

It's unfamiliar to me,
The thought that someone could care.
Yet you warm me to it,
As if it's my heart you dare.

I feel open for the first time in a while,
With you I feel the 'myself ' I always used to see.

Just...just the way you giggle...
Makes me bite my lip and hold my tongue,
'Cause I'm still too scared to say it feels like love.

I love you
With every strand and fibre of my being,
Every ounce of blood in my veins.
My happiness and pain,
Yet for you I'd suffer the strain
If I could bring your heart to my domain.

Oh the flowers blossom and bloom,
Yet my eyes don't wander from you in this room.
You with a smile so tender and true,
That it hooks my heart,
And forever I'll fall for you.

I love you...
But I cannot pull those words from my throat.
I love you, so much...
But the voice in my head says, "don't."

Imagine a warm sunset,
The orange glow upon the furthest wave,
Or the burning sky,
From a forest glade.

Imagine the breeze against your cheek,
Where all remained silent,
And not even the trees dare creak.

Imagine the stars,
The way they sparkled in the sky,
And when you turned your head,
You saw the same in their eyes.

Imagine ...
If all you could do... was imagine.

"Are you okay?"

                           I'm always hurt,
                          Always in pain,
                          Every inch of my being
                          writhing.
                          An­d if you could fathom the
                         chaos in my head,
                         So monsterous that I pray you
                        never come to understand it.

                        Every moment of every day my
                        soul cries,
                       And if you looked into my eyes
                       you'd see it all...
                       Everything I hide behind a smile.

"Yeah, I'm fine."

I want to live on the high I feel
When I see you.
I want to fall into the skies,
That lay within your eyes.

Feel my heart flutter,
As my words stutter.
I can't help but be humbled by your grace.

Tired of living on a rollercoaster of a high,
Because I know it only lasts when I'm  by your side.
I'd rather lie in this pool of infinity,
Then be swept away by the endless tide.

I'd like to be found.

Lost.

A concept I have befriended.
The lack of knowledge of oneself
Brings forth thoughts to-wit none but I are privy.

I wish I understood these thoughts.

I used to fall in love.
I'd feel every fibre of my being ignited,
Every atom in my body excited,
And in the majesty of happiness I felt purpose.

When I would write,
I wrote.
I felt the words fountain from the tip of my pen,
Like each piece knew what it was meant to be.

Everything made sense on a page.
And I always smiled,
Proud of what I displayed.

I wish I could write on that passion once more...

Oh little one,
You try to stand too soon.
Looking up at the stars,
With not a glance at the moon.

Oh little one,
Trying to run for the finish
To cover the most ground,
But never stopping to looking around.

Oh little one, Oh little one,
You stumble and fall down.
I hear your scream and your call.
Yet the best I can do,
Is let you lift yourself from the fall.

It's the tiniest things,
That match a picture in my mind.
Little pieces of a puzzle,
That complete me.

It's the silliest things,
Things we can't believe we both do.
I love the way we laughed about those
Like the weird ones in the class,
With an inside joke that noone else got.

It's the most relatable things,
You make me feel like I'm not alone.
No matter the madness of the idea
Or the terribleness of it all,
With you I feel like I'm not alone in it.

It's the best things.
The time I spend with you...
It's just the best thing ever.
No matter how long or short,
I'll always crave for a moment of your time
To enjoy a little piece of perfection.

Take me in motherly arms and rock my soul to sleep.
If I keep going through everyday this way,
I'm not gonna keep.

I'm stumbling, fumbling, hurting because you're just out of reach.
So I drown my sorrows in smoke,
Till I dont have to breath.

Give me a hand like your own,
A hand to take hold,
Make me feel like I'm not alone.
If i could give you my all,
For second,
Just know that i would.
If i could say everything,
Then everything,
Is what I'd tell you that you mean to me.
If you could see how I love you
 then maybe
I wouldn't be lonely.

It's hard to keep at this game
When day after day
I feel myself slowly drifting away,
Because I prefer different rather than the same.

Maybe it's because i have a different definition of love.
What I want is a rendition the world around me seems unfamiliar with.

I look around me,
Kisses without meaning,
"I love you"s that only exist in the moment,
A surface with no texture.

I keep searching,
My heart breaks
As it keeps yearning.

I haven't found it yet,
I haven't found her yet.
It's hard to keep hoping.

Somewhere along the road I lost my way.
I let the breeze take me through the mists,
And like the clouds I drifted away.

I fell to the mud,
Felt the darkness drench the light of my soul
As the barren trees curled overhead,
And I succumbed to the sorrow down the rabbit hole.

Finding myself in a place most strange,
I stumbled getting up,
Yet soon found it easy walking this way.
Onwards I strode,
And so much further I rode.

As the sun shone down,
I found my way upon this road.

Hurts too much to be hurt,
So I'll just be on my own.
Sorry mom,
Couldn't find a girl to bring home.

I wish I wasn't this scared,
Feeling like Fear has a blade to my throat.
Telling me I'll be hurt,
If I try to let it go.

Cold mornings no longer take me by surprise,
I don't wake expecting the brown in your eyes.
Coffee on my own,
No longer makes me feel alone.
They say it's better to have loved and lost,
I say it's safer when you're on your own.

What even is this?

Why do we hold it to such a standard?
Raised atop a pedestal,
A goal that not all are lucky enough to reach,
A prize that not all are able to claim.

Why must some spend life running around in search,
Chasing a concept yet baring no knowledge of its meaning?
Why do we search for this feeling that we have never known,
As if it were something last lost now found.

Somehow, I guess we just know.
Instinctively, we know.
Happiness lies at the end of a 4 letter word.

But love is stupid,
And I'm stupidly in love with you.

Too many people
Think these silly games can work,
Because you  don't understand your own worth.
Trust me when i say,
"He's not going to stand for you at the end of day,"
But you can't let him slip away.
You hold on too tight,
So when you fall it hurts worse
As you slip into your darkest night.

But I've been standing here warning you,
By your side because im concerned for you.
But  it's hard to see you fall twice
Before you learn the truth.

Trust me, I've seen this play too many times,
Romeo Romeo don't give a **** if Juliet dies.
But I have to stand here trying to catch you when you fall fast.
And you're not the only one getting hit by the backlash.

I know that love is blind because your heart doesn't have eyes,
Yet you're still the only one who can't see past his black lies.
Love with your heart,
But still think with your mind.
Or your heart will keep breaking
Saying,"True love is hard to find."

To tell you the truth,
I  did warn you.
It might sound harsh,
But it's true.
Now all I can do is tell you it'll be alright,
As your tear drops glisten off my shoe.

Loyal to a fault,
I'll be at your side.
Words like salt,
But wounds hurt till they heal.

Help on the rise,
And cushion should you fall.
I'll look into your eyes,
And say, "These steps start small."

Before myself is where you lay,
And when it calls,
At your side I'll stay.
When you're looking for lies,
I'll say what's true,
Even if it tears your eyes.

I'll be there.
With a smile.
I'll be there.
Till the day I die.

I don't know what to think anymore...

How do you hold on to the faith,
When faith has done nothing but laugh in your face?
Tell me if faith knows my pain,
If heart to heart isn't something on my lane.

So many times I fall and recover,
But over and over it's taking it's toll,
And sometimes I feel like I can't keep my hold.

My mind is a mess,
The overthinking and the stress
It's all got me depressed
Then you throw in my heart, now I'm face down in my bed.
I wish someone noticed the tears that I shed...

The mists are beautiful at night.
They hold you in their cool embrace,
And crickets songs keep you trapped in this place.

You must see through these clouds of smoke,
That veil horrors of which you can't cope.
Those who control the vile smoke machines,
Are those with hands all but clean.

Most people don't see it,
Most people don't want see it.
But some people ...
Live to expose it.