I find it strange
This eerie feeling
It is too quiet to move
The demons might wake up
And then I would too

It find it strange
I dyed my hair blue
But when I turned the lights out
Nothing has changed
I still feel blue

I find it strange
This morepork no longer calls
It used to call for hours
Maybe it died
Or left for other views

I find it strange
Did you see the moon and the stars?
This night feels off
This bed does not feel right
The covers feel too close

I find it strange
Nothing has changed
But everything feels wrong
I think I will just write
Till the sweet dreams come

Shadows do not discriminate
They stay and change
Sometimes they go away
Hide in the darkest nights
And live in the brightest days

If I took your shadow
I could not tell
If you were black or white
Had scars
Tattoos
Or hair that was blue
Our form is more or less the same

If I saw your shadow again
I wonder
Could I tell you apart?

Red moon
The sky bleeds too
Maybe this is hell
I guess that's up to you

These trees could only stand still
And as the fire grows
So we will too
And watch as the world turns red
While we all feel blue

It is hard
The days
They number on
Life feels long
Until the years number on
And then you wonder
'Where has the time gone?'
Soon ten will be gone
And then another
Or maybe not
It might be all over before you know it

Until then I will write and wonder
Cry and suffer
And in time
I will learn how to be happy

I wonder what they think
A quiet boy
A pink jumper
I just like the colour
But I still wonder
what do they think
Am I not masculine enough?
Are my emotions showing too much?
Maybe I am just overthinking it
It hurts to know that I will never quite understand it
You have your reasons
I have my own
I just want to be me
But it seems to risky to push it
Don't get me wrong
I love wearing black too
But sometimes I just feel blue
And want to wear the brightest colours in my room

Pretty people get jobs easier
I wonder if they get accepted into heaven easier as well

Depression is numbness
Anxiety is pain
When they are mixed
It is like fire and rain
Except the fire never goes out
And the rain only becomes heavier

It rains inside
When you lie
My body fills
Pass the lungs
And pass the heart
I start to drown and attempt to cry
But tears do not form
They stay inside
Maybe I will drown tonight
Not for real
But just inside
And I will ask myself tommorow
If I am still alive

I am not zoning out
My mind is going places
From somewhere to nowhere
Through Greatness and nothingness
I can travel to places you will not believe

Life is stressful
Sometimes we have to leave
And travel through our minds till we reach our needs

Life is chaotic
Sometimes we have to leave
To avoid the silence
And the noise

Life is a nightmare
And sometimes we need to dream

He wore benevolence
She wore a black dress

His smile met her frown
And he wiped away her tears

Use me
Abuse me
And throw me away
For one night we were lovers
The next day we were straight
Questions you asked me
At first I said no
But just like depression
coercion is slow
You told me things that I wanted to hear
How we could be more
It's sad that you couldn't care less
You took me for granted
Now you pretend
That nothing happened that wild night
And that I'm just upset

I messaged her 'hi'
She didn't reply
I guess to her
I'm just another guy

**** I hate commentary's
They ruin every show
That **** in real life too
They just make me want to be alone

I'm messy
My hair
My room
My mind
My writing goes where it wants
And takes me deep inside

Dreams are my escape
Writing is my death wish
My walls are always listening
I scream when they leave
And get lost in my head
I don't wish I was dead
I wish I was away
The background knows me best

Overwhelmed by silence
I'll fall asleep soon
Until then I will think
About why I feel blue

It was so utterly calm outside today
The weather was lacking
And the sky was grey
No rain or sun
Maybe the sky was feeling numb
Although sleep will come
Flickering lights
The TV knows night
Eyes seduced by its temperament
Out goes my light

She lay with roses and daffodils
With hair that grew wild
Each curl made me smile
But every cut made me tear
I did not think this day would be so near

Her wrists bled deep
And were as red as the roses
She was beautiful
But she was gone
Her deathbed was a flower bed
Now she hears all the birds songs

We stood hand in hand by the meadow up the hill.
It was almost as if time stood still.
I wish this dream would never end.
So our love could flourish with our flower bed.
I said ‘please don’t leave, I love you so.’
She replied ‘I love you too, but now I must go’

Pitter patter
Nothing matters
Each raindrop sounds the same
Pitter patter
You will not remember
In time everything will fade

A meadow made for lovers
Between nowhere and forever
Beneath the fragile stars
We spot fireflies and share our most inner thoughts
Silence is the greatest sympathy the earth gives
I can only wonder what we will dream about
Tonight this flower bed will be ours

Its not my scene
But it will be tonight
The vibe is buzzing
And the lights are alive
Yet everybody seems dead
Like zombies in the spotlight

Black boots
Black dress
Black eyes
Black hair
But you bleed forever red

I dream of living
And daydream of death
Obsess about nothing
And get lost in my head
Sometimes I think I feel nothing
But these tears do not lie
How much longer will it take me to die

Truth lies where life ends

They say that happy people don't have dead grass
But it feels like there is always a rain cloud over my head
The grass is still green
But I feel dead

Addicted to breathing
Each day goes the same
My heart is fading
And my soul is turning grey
Somebody save me
Before my mind goes astray
I am tired of hiding
Will you lend me your faith?

She cut onions
As her wrists bled deep
Because the tears only came in her dreams

It's not that I am uninterested
I just have other things on my mind
Thinking clearly is harder than you know
My emotions go further than these words
I cry when i'm alone
But when i'm with you
I can't think at all
You make me feel at home
You are my drug
You are my love
You aren't real
Oh no

Left to decay
Poisoned by man
Dirt turns to mud
And mud disrupts land
Hummingbirds chirp
But their wings will not last
Beautiful sadness
Will become part of the past
No trees will be standing
Oxygen will be scarce
Life will be fading
And no one will care

Stuck by its roots
The grass could not fleet from the wind

It's a shame that I can't go to the moon

Distorted reflections of each other
Broken glass shows our true colors

As subtle as a sun shower
My tears become one with rain
Loosely connected dreams hold my love letters are bay
All I ever wanted
Was to know your name
I guess I'll have to ask you on another day

Each day someone collapses
And becomes one with their shadow
Everything collapses in time
Buildings
Societies
People
One day the Earth will collapse too

There are no good or bad people
Rather there are people who have done good or bad things

The stars are forgotten
Because of our ignorance and 'progression'
We have lost the will to look up

Love doesn't help with the pain
It has just kept me sane enough to know I need drugs

I don't want to be in the afterlife thinking
'The biggest mistake I made in life was when I killed myself'
That's why I hope there is no afterlife

There are flowers on my duvet covers
I guess you could say that I sleep in a flower bed

These tears do not know better
They just flow when they think the time is right
It just so happens that they like to show themselves at night