Theres allot of things that I wanted to be lie. And theres allot of things I wanted to be the truth.
Like the day you told me. "I wont leave you" I wanted that to be true. Or When they said "everything gonna be fine" Even when they told me about the toothfairy, the easterbunny, santa or even the grinch. I wanted them to be all true.
Yet they always tell lies To somehow make us feel okay. But in the end we will realized that everything was a lie.
But I wanted allot of things to be a lie.
•Anxiety •Depression •prejudice •sadness
I wanted them to be a lie because Im tired of lying and hiding the truth.
Im tired of saying "I'm Okay" Im tired of saying "Good Morning , Day, or Night" Im tired of showing a smile that only hides whats inside.
I want a time Where my lies will be seen as lies and the truth may be seen.
Turning point of my life. A care free lazy person. Thats who I was. I didnt really cared what would be the consequences of my action, im too lazy to even bother to think about it. All I know that everything that would happen in the future is the conclusion of your present actions. May it be bad or good. I would always say "NO REGRETS". Yes there were none for my actions but it always the opposite for the action that I didnt made. These "REGRETS" have hunted me for a while now because I realize that not all things in the future is the result of the action you made but it could be also the result of the ones you didnt. The future which is the result of the actions you didnt made, ***** because no matter how I will try to face it, I will eventually lose because no matter how strong I think I am then. It doesnt change the fact that I was afraid of making those actions. No matter how much I drown myself in alcohol or tears. Nothing will change, believe me I really tried. Now the only thing I can do is make peace with my past accept that I was weak. Accept that I was once afraid. Acknowledge that I made a mistake. And now I will try to be a little braver because now I know my mistake. And I urge everyone I know to take the risk be brave to take action. Take flight and do good.
There's was a time that 3 am is the best time brain is all functioning imagination is at its max body is tired but not burnt out writing became simple enough that words are plenty and unlimited everything I write is beautiful yet simple and there was you and me talking about life laughing on how we ******* up and telling each other the people we lost now it became a curse cause every time its three all it reminded me is you and me but don't get me wrong though its a curse its not the worst that's why i'm here at 3 am once again cause I miss you sorry I didn't see the spark. it was 3 am when I started writing this cause when its 3 am it you who I see.
1ST STEP is to tell her you "LOVE" her Take her to the SEA and understand her depth don't be afraid of the 1st step don't worry for love is cheap its also a big leap for love is priceless and its also timeless
2ND is to take it slow enjoy every moment cherish it all the time climb every MOUNTAIN that both of you & her will face and "TRUST" that you both will see the summit Together.
3RD is to have "FAITH" and to remain faithful with each other its time to take flight and to stay in the SKIES you and her deserves the feeling of cloud nine.
The recipe of a happy relationship , this might be true for others, or this might not be but I truly believe its for me.
When you find someone who is thankful to have you, is concerned for your well-being, accepts you as you are, cheers you up whenever you’re down, motivates and supports you in your endeavors, cares for you deeply, and loves you unconditionally,
treasure and keep that person. Make him/her feel important in return. Care for him/her the way he/she does for you. Love him/her with no reservations. You may not know it, but you have found a friend for life in him/her. God has given you that person for a purpose, so keep him/her in your heart and prayers.
Face me I will ask you is it okay? Not to smile not to laugh not to play my part cause I'm tired and I don't want to say I'm okay cause I'm not Is it okay? that I'm not okay! so that I can stop pretending to be someone i'm not again I ask is it okay?
cause for now I'm not but soon I will be so wait for me will tell you to ask me again the question "are you okay?" by then I will be.
#10 poem, thank you for being honest and its always okay not to be okay
There I lay in the middle of a room with 4 walls and a light staring straight right at me. Glaring like it want to say something but there was no sound. Then I laugh, its funny because even for a second there I really thought that , the light would tell me something. After a while I can hear a familiar sound, It was rain hitting the roof. Again it felt like it was saying something and yet again I started to laugh for there was no voice and i'm fooling myself how could rain tell me something. For hours I never stop staring at the ceiling with a blank thought, not even thinking of anything. Then I realized its dark, I'm pretty sure the light was on a little while back and no one had entered the room to turn it off. In my mind i'm sure its a blackout but i'm comfortable to where I lay. I didn't bothered to check. Now I'm staring at ceiling again but there was no light. The light that has been glaring at me earlier. It was pitch black. The darkness seemed to be telling me something yet in my head. Is still blank state. Then there was silence the rain have stop. It was so silent that I can hear my heart beating and even my breathing. The silence was absolutely deafening. I was scared I don't know why, as I feel the room getting and getting smaller in the darkness. The silence starts to hurt. I'm getting flash backs of my past, all of those memories sink in, in a flash. Now i'm truly scared. I tried to move but my body wont. I tried to scream but theres only whispers coming out my lips. The silence I was experiencing was truly different and the darkness was a new. Then I heard it. Loud and clear. It struck me and then I realized. What was the message. Then a lighting flashed, then the lights turned on. Thunders roared then it broke the silence. I just immediately stood up. Look at the clock, it was already 3 am, Then I said to myself what a good day to LIVE.
sometimes it takes only the thunder and lighting to remind you that you are alive.
Hey its a beautiful day There's a strong breeze and the buzzing bees everything is at sway the leaves, the trees, the very mint green grass that's always perfect on a canvass as you can see just above the thin line of the sea or above the tall mountains there's a picture perfect sight that always amazes me the perfect curves the soft fluffs the pillow for a thousand hugs and squishy cuddles
Sadness echoes throughout my body. Vibrates deep into my shallow soul Radiating outside in form of tears I guess my heart never learned that you're already gone and it really hurts The time you whispered goodbye. BUT ME I ALL OF ME WILL ALWAYS WAIT FOR YOU
I'm Nyctophilia Don't get me wrong its not what you think. Darkness is one those thing that people tend to avoid. Yes its easy to be scared when you don't know what lies ahead. I'm afraid of the dark when I was young simply because I couldn't see anything but when I tried to focus my eyes I saw the silhouette of whats in it. It might night be as clear as what light can bring but it the same thing. The trees, houses, and the other things. Then I realize how good darkness is. In a dark night you could see far greater things than what you could see in the light of the morning. Though Darkness is always portrayed as the worst time of our lives, Lets not forget that in those times we learned the best lesson life can bring. Its like our future we don't know what it brings or what could happen. What we are in control is the current time the Present. Yet like darkness its the same we are in control if are going to be scared to not. Face darkness until it becomes your friend. Remember in the morning you can only see the sun but in the night you can see countless stars with the bonus view of the moon and if your lucky there is also a shooting star in store for you.
To those who are afraid in the dark don't be its a beautiful sight to see also,!
The demons within me is far from scary. Those demons are locked up so deep that no man can dig them out. Shackled, *******.
I’m not afraid of death. I stared death through the eyes of the reaper. The demons that I hide is something no one should meet. Those demons might be bound by chain. but I still hold the key. It might be wrong to release my demons but Its not right to cross me.
Hi Im new to this So let me start by breathing in and breathing out
Hi! I'm afraid oh no! I mean I'm scared No I mean I'm OKAY I'm actually HAPPY but the same time scared and afraid for I'm in doubt without a doubt or its also a doubt that the future is uncertain certainly that's certain Double words doubling the doubled for my mind is in a split. with double thoughts.
Its not real it all made up in our mind, even in our heart but for only this day take a step take risk for all of us may have a dreamt something impossible man always dreamed of something we thought impossible to be achieved yet today we are flying and have set foot on the moon and we are not stopping there.
Dreams are only illusions if we dont take steps. if we dont risk it. if we forget about it.
Yes I have fallen in Love now I'm too deep a little more and I'm 6 feet deep cause I have forgotten how to value myself I only loved you and only you not knowing that I needed that too cause I gave you all my love but you didn't give yours now there's no love I just fall.
#12 for a friend , pls value yourself. I'm always here to hear you out pls dont forget you dont deserve to be just a 2nd choice
Yes Fight on no matter what I know its hard cause I'm walking everyday thinking I'm okay but I always feel like something is missing Its like the feeling of knowing but forgetting but I wont let my turn just past by will stay will fight cause tonight I'm ready don't need anybody don't need reasons will scream I will be strong I will fight on
My mind is clouded And I'm dumbfounded My hearts in doubt My soul is in blue My body still works Cause the world didn't cared Dont have no clue
The world didn't Stop when I was sad Nor it slowed down When I was Glad
Life continued, It always will Even if you're not well Or what emotion You're going to sell It will carry on Thats the truth
Its the reason of this mask To carry on Even if I'm like a robot Busted and full of rust.
I have Allot of writings when I'm sad practically most of my writings are written when I was in blue. But it didnt stop me. I always need to get out there and join the world, cause I know I can't stop the world nor it will stop for me. A harsh reality.
Positive vibes as I ride to tomorrow with so much pride will give my all I swear I will not fall I'm motivated I'm heading to the horizon to break the dawn yes I feel like the sun all shiny and bright will show everyone the light cause today Is not just another day today is the day that I will make the past go away cause I will ride tomorrow with a smile and forever be the sun who shared its shine.
6th poem for a friend this one is extremely fun and positive to write
I'm puzzled maybe confused of what I lack or what should I have done cause right now I'm left with none my soul is drained and my mind is tired but my heart still beats and its sings a song where feelings and words meet to make a smile and make everything worthwhile
Tonight I will ask the moon if it still shines even when stars are afar cause I can be okay even when I'm alone cause my heart still beats and its sings a song
One night. One man dared to be free. Free from himself, Free from all, he got tired of the feeling of being controlled by a system that makes him no better than a robot. So he walked miles through the darkness of the path, he murmored. "I Will be free. I will be Free. Im tired at the same time im sick. Sick of being me." He continued to walk as he reached the side of a river and Cold winds blows to his shoulders like the frozen touch of winter. He got shivers throughout his body and said to himself this is it Im free. The day number one. Then he was puzzled and asked himself what does a free man do? Not knowing the answer and he has no one to ask for he is alone. Then he sat at the bank of the river and he contemplated and again ask himself what does a free man do? Who should I ask? I know allot of people but I dont know who among them is free. He was stumped for the deeper he thinks the harder to answer to his own question. After a while he stops thinking and just look around. Then he saw the river just flowing not caring for as long as it flows but in a a distant sight he saw a wall that was redirecting the flow of the river. And got stomped again for he thought he already the answer but he doesnt. Then as he looked at the sky and he laughed so hard. For sunrise is quite close. Then he realized I am free for I can do this. I am free because I am me and no one can do it better than me.
I know this wont make you whole again. I know this cant complete you nor compensate to all the hardships you had with me but I would like to say sorry.
I'm sorry for being me. I didnt know any better. I'm sorry, I was clueless that you like me from the start. I'm sorry that I shared all my hardships and life and didnt heared yours I'm sorry that I was sharing how my days went and didnt had the time to listen to you. Im sorry for always being so sweet and caring. I didnt mean to break your guard. Im sorry for always talking to you constantly even when I dont have anything to tell you. Im sorry for always answering your late night calls and talking to you until dawn. Im sorry for sharing my 1st love and it wasnt you. Im sorry that I always scream to the world how she meant to me and letting you see it. Im sorry for telling you I will court her and ask you for advices Im sorry for having someone as the moon for my tides when I was your moon. Im sorry for talking to you when she broked my heart. Im sorry for the days I was so broken and all I have to talk too is you. Im sorry for failing to see that you where there all the time I was so down Im sorry for telling you I wasnt loveable when you have loved me. Im sorry for going into deppression and pushed you away. Im sorry I was ****** that I started hurting myself. Im sorry for not noticing your late night calls. Im sorry for not answering for chats and text. Im sorry for not caring for your care. Im sorry for calling you when I was slowly becoming okay. Im sorry for being insensitive, I didnt know you were having a hard time. Im sorry for being okay when your not. Im sorry for not giving you a chance. Im sorry for saying thank you, when you said you love me. Im sorry I cant give the love that you gave me. Im sorry for making you wait. Im sorry that you have grown tired. Im sorry for not making that leap. Im sorry that I was afraid. Im sorry for thinking I can make it on my own. Im sorry for the love I cant repay
I just want to say I'm still puzzled and confused allot has been happening so fast and so soon It's a rush my mind and my heart just can't keep up but I want it I want everything that's happening even when I don't understand even when I don't think I deserve this I want to keep it cause even though I'm confused there's an invisible smile that you cant see the happiness and joy inside of me cause I want it I want you I want to keep you and the love. Maybe you cant see this smile but it wont fade away This invisible smile will going to stay.
For those person who you thought thats just a dream but they are not they are real and you have them to hold and to love.
I just sprouted and all I see are tall trees beside me all big and strong bare fruits and all
Now I'm scared cause if I didn't grow like them I will deemed a **** an unwanted **** a plant in a wrong place Now the pressure is on I want to grow tall and strong bare fruits and all but before that let me enjoy the sunshine and air. I promise when the time come I will make them proud with all the fruits I will bare.
#8 poem for a friend, enjoy the countless joys in life, its with joy that you will grow.
Tic Toc Tic Toc The clock is always winding up Waiting for me to make a mistake Even when I have nothing at stake For I have gambled everything in Love So when I lose I only lose myself In this world Thats on the mercy Of a clock.
Me and you were the greatest team. The best duo. Partners! That's who we were! or what we claimed to be.
We were not afraid nor confused of what we have or what we don't Everything figured out Cherishing all the moment Loving all times
But look where we are now both far from each other we seem to be strangers what have we done? what did fail to do? we ask ourselves
I chased you though you where running away. I knock on your door even you slammed it in my face. I waited though you have forgotten. I understood you yet you don't know. I reach out but you just let go.
You inspired me to write you showed me how. To express how we feel but look at me now Writing this sad story of Me and You.
Thank you for everything though, Right now I feel that Im lost but writing did help me to cope.
Its night again its time to say hello to my old friend Hi moon I have been thinking of you since high noon last night was a shame cause I didn't see you cause it rained
You take allot of shapes you maybe half a crescent or full I love them all
You are powerful you take control of the tides and gives light when its a dark night
yes you are bright but not as much that it hurts cause your light is only bright enough to warm up my cold heart your light holds it near and dear keeping it from falling apart with the warmth of your light
I can gaze on you till dawn comes be at awe at your beauty and will remember this night then wait for you to come again tonight.