I waited for the sunset
at the beach
with salt in air
and sand on my feet

I wandered far
and wandered deep
now the tide takes
me off my feet

now I see the lighthouse
at the beach
I yelled , little lighthouse
light my way
when I comeback
but for now let me stay.

Stand strong little flower
       No matter what bothers
             Even if you're different
                   From Others

There's no one better
      Yes love might not
             Last forever

But continue to
   Smile even all of
       The "the ends"
   And "Ever After"

Tic Toc Tic Toc
The clock is always winding up
Waiting for me to make a mistake
Even when I have nothing at stake
For I have gambled  
everything in Love
So when I lose
I only lose myself
In this world
Thats on the mercy
Of a clock.

You are that person I see as light
but now your light seemed fading.
Our journey is still a long one
but your smile is slowly disappearing.


May I raise you up?
May I helped you smile again?.
May I help you stand because I know your knees are weak?.
May I carry you throughout the path.?
All I want is keep you smiling,

To give you all that your heart needs the most.
May I be the shield that would protect your happiness?.
May I be the one to be there always.

All that’s made me is all worth trading
just to have one moment with you,
to make you smile again.

Me and you were the greatest team.
The best duo.
Partners!
That's who we were!
or what we claimed to be.

We were not afraid nor confused
of what we have or what we don't
Everything figured out
Cherishing all the moment
Loving all times

But look where we are now
both far from each other
we seem to be strangers
what have we done?
what did fail to do?
we ask ourselves

I chased you
though you where running away.
I knock on your door
even you slammed it in my face.
I waited
though you have forgotten.
I understood you
yet you don't know.
I reach out
but you just let go.

You inspired me to write
you showed me how.
To express how we feel
but look at me now
Writing this sad story
of Me and You.

My hearts about to explode
my emotions on high
I wanna escape
the pain not gonna lie
Im stressed and tired
theres a thought on the back of my head
saying I want to die

Does the wonderlust
of death
would set me free
from heartaches
and burdens
thats keeping me
awake for weeks.
I know I am weak,
Yes I am
thinking of death
is the only choice
to escape this pain.
I dont want it
and its true

but if I die in the next day
this poem.
Is set
To explain the days
I wont be writing again.

would I go bye
or
I will make it through
The future will answer
the present
it always do.

I'm writing with my screams
     Screams of smiles and anguish
The two sides of the page
    What I write are my screams
Screams that I want someone
           To hear.
Cause I reach the point,
           That I cant bare
No one wants to listen
   To a sad person
But a paper will always
     Be there for a sad poet.
So hear goes my quiet screams
  Screams of pain and sadness
That no one bothered to hear

Anu ba ang pandemya?
ito ba ay parang hawla
na lahat tayo ay naka kubli
naka kulong sa apat na sulok
na wala na magawa
kung hindi naka totok telepono
naka tingin sa telebisyon
na araw araw di nag nagbabago!
nagbabago ang balita
na ang maralita ,
maralita lng ang nabubuhay ng normal?
pero hindi lahat tayo ay tinamaan
ibat ibang kwento
ibat ibang karasanan.

Nawalan ng trabaho
Nalugi ang negosyo
Naiwan ng mga minamahal
at wala namang maayus na tugon
walang kasiguraduhan
kung meron mag babago
sa mga bukas na haharapin
sapagkat tayo ay naging alipin
naging lumpo, tayo dahil sa pademya
lahat bay randam na?
ang pahirap at pasakit

Ramdam ko at ramdam nyu
ang malaking pagbabago
tinatawag nilang bagong normal.
bagong normal na di natin ginusto,
pero wala na tayong magagawa
andito na to.

Kaibigan , kapatid
sana tayo ay di sumuko
alam ko mahirap
pero tayo ay mag sumikap
tayo ay tumulong.
tayo mag kaisa
para ating boses ay umugong
Isigaw ng sabay sabay
na ngayun pandemya tayo
ay pantay pantay
lahat tayo ay may maitutulong
maliit man o malaki.
patuloy sa pagdarasal
na sa huli
tayong Pilipino parin ang magbunyi

I fixed you with a thousand poems
         yet you broke me with only one!

Turning point of my life. A care free lazy person. Thats who I was. I didnt really cared what would be the consequences of my action, im too lazy to even bother to think about it. All I know that everything that would happen in the future is the conclusion of your present actions. May it be bad or good. I would always say "NO REGRETS". Yes there were none for my actions but it always the opposite for the action that I didnt made. These "REGRETS" have hunted me for a while now because I realize that not all things in the future is the result of the action you made but it could be also the result of the ones you didnt. The future which is the result of the actions you didnt made, ***** because no matter how I will try to face it, I will eventually lose because no matter how strong I think I am  then. It doesnt change the fact that I was afraid of making those actions. No matter how much I drown myself in alcohol or tears. Nothing will change, believe me I really tried. Now the only thing I can do is make peace with my past accept that I was weak. Accept that I was once afraid. Acknowledge that I made a mistake. And now I will try to be a little braver because now I know my mistake. And I urge everyone I know to take the risk be brave to take action. Take flight and do good.

Every moment of Silence
     is a pent up scream of
              anguish and pain.

Within us, is a                                                          voice
that no one ever heard off.
A sound wanted to go                                          out
Yet its forbidden
and not allowed


For we are always ask                                         don't
Don't speak your mind.
It's what they always say
now you're silent
and you cant                                                                 be
someone you are destined to become

Still we continued to be silent
For we are                                                                     afraid,
Scared of what it can do
that's what on our mind

The little voice inside us
only wanted to be heard
Now we want  it to                                                       drown
into the abyss of nothingness
and stay in that void
for we are afraid of what others think.


Not knowing  its potential
it stayed there
stuck with all the other                                                    noises
Noises that always rendered
and deemed it as useless
Those noises kept you chained                                   with
the guilt of voicing it out.
Dragging you further down.


Creativity and all of                                                  your
wonderful imaginations
cant come out for its locked up
for you are                                                                   SILENT
and always afraid of what others think,
always waits for the approval of others.

Now you kept it all in
You will never learn to fly
because you wrapped your                                              VOICE
with fear and guilt.

Was I afraid
when I was young
or I just followed
the whispers in the wind

those whispers
didn't disappear
even when time
has past

they keep telling me
stand back
don't go,
just stay.

but my heart
screams
take flight
and do what you must
ignore the whispers
in the wind.

So I listened to my heart
and took flight
I did what I must
and spread my wings

I'm still hearing whispers
to stand back
don't go,
just stay

So I listened well
to the silent whispers
Now I realized I was
missing something

it said
Stand (OUT! never go) back
don't (wait, just) go
just stay ( and let the wind carry you).

The thing about life is
that we shouldn’t not pursue anything with bad attitude,
Never say I don’t like to do this
and that’s why I wont do good.
That I would messed this up.
Always have a positive view about it,
even though, its not really your passion
once you do that you win over it.

But its necessary to do that what you like
because its what makes you really happy.
Doing things that makes us happy is one of the privileges
that we can claim.
Never think that something is stopping you,
never think for a second that you couldn’t do it.
That you would not try it
because in reality those who never tried are the once who really lost. Its not those who tried and failed.
Never quit in trying even if you have only a small chance
if you put your heart
and put all of your effort into it eventually you could do it.
No matter how rough the road is.

Step
        

                         by

                                                    Step



We
              

                             are



                                                             ­                                 Drifting away,

  


Like

          
                 walking

                  

                          without
  ­  

                                 a

  

destination.

                              

                 ­         Floating

                                          


Adrift




               like



                            your


in

    

      

      space.




I'm


                          ­Sorry



                             I



didn't


              

                  came



with


                   you




in



               your





Spaceship




                                because

­

you  

                                  took


a


         step



                                       without


          me






KNOWING!

Afraid and Anxious of
Being something I'm not
Conscious about everything
Dying to be
Everything I want but wheres the
Fun in that.
Go out and
Have fun.
Its strange how I changed.
Jeers where the sound track of my life.
Knowing that many have been cheering
Lamenting of the days I should have   fought.
Mountains where not made to
Nor overcome. That what I thought I have this
OBSESSION of
Painting my way by asking allot of Questions that I shouldn't have ask.
Race that I shouldn't have joined cause I'm
Sedentary. I'm afraid to move.
Timid and Nervous. Fear is
Ubiquitous for everyone, but its Victory over me is for sure. but
Wait its not the end because I'm the stranger of
Xenization, forever travelling alone
Yearning to be with somebody. This is the end and the start
Zero, yes I started with an A&Z is the end cause I always feel
                   WORTHLESS.

The end is near so they speak. The end is truly near for this year. Everyday we rushed into things. We take a time of one duty to fullfill another . We feel the day is long if we did allot of things but its the opposite. We rushed into things thats isnt its due time we think about the future but barely grasping what is in the present. Living our daily lives like an upgraded robot. Doing things in a rushed manner. We forgot to cherished the present the work we are doing because we are looking into the future the product of our work. How many minutes, hours and days we lost because we are to eager to see the future when the present matters most.

For days now im having allot of flash backs. From every moment of my life from good to bad. Even those memories I kept inside not because they were nightmares but because they were beautiful dreams and Im afraid that it wont happen again.  Its blackout and now its raining hard. I decided to sit near the door just far enough not to get wet. But outside it was like the inside of our house , it was pitch black but the silhouette of the trees are clear. Then comes an airplane rerouting it seemed for it circled away. Then a flash back came . And again it started. I remember all the beautiful things that happened to me in the past years. I smiled then a car cross in front of the house the light was bright then another batch of memories came now it was those memories that you want to be just nightmares but it wasnt, Now im having shivers and tears fall. The past has hunted me down again. For years I tried to fight my way out but for years I failed. Now I decided to run because I think thats the only way to be free from these binds but only to see myself shackled up once again.  As the shackles felt heavy. I felt giving up. Lighting Flashed. Then I saw a face. Then thunders roared then it vanished. Who was that. I ask myself , the heavy shackles  felt a little lighter now. A lightning flashed again then comes another face. Comes the thunders then it fade. The shackles felt lighter and lighter as faces vanishes. Then Again I ask  myself who were those . For minutes lightning flashed and thunders roared. A face shows up and vanishes away. Im still puzzled but then I realized who were they. They where my demons, my past that I was so afraid off. Only then I have realized that those demons are not locked up anymore because I didnt hide them I already conquered them. And I was running away from mere illusions. My past was really behind me now and they are not nightmares but just memories. Then I smiled again.

I'm sorry
I'm selfish
for leaving you
for telling you

I'm here
I won't leave
Yet I did
now I'm here

Drifted away
Why did I even say
that
When I couldn't stay

No excuses
I'm a mess
What I've done to you
Such distress

I hear you
Your screams
Your silence
Your tears

Can't comfort you
Can't save you
The ones who broke you
Can't fix you

This is the end
Won't do it again
I didn't know what I was doing
Now I understand

PAIN!
LOVE?
LONLINESS.
ENLIGHTENMENT...

Still pain.
No words.
No more words
'til we meet again

To the world I didn't made sense


I didn't made sense
when I'm awake and the world was asleep

I didn't made sense
When I wrote endless scribbles

I didn't made sense
When I was standing outside when it was pouring.

I didn't made sense
When I laugh when it hurts the most

I didn't made sense
When I smiled, even when Im sad


Yes I didn't made any sense doing all of those but I dont need the world to understand me. I just need only one.

Words are powerful
.           Truly it is
.       but when I figured it out.
Those words cant help me now
.          cause She left.
.      without knowing
That it screams that I love her
   but it wont reach her now
Because forever it will
be my trapped voice.