Lately keeping my desire at bay. Reminding myself on and off to accept what reality has to offer. Do not try to seek out the unknowns. Please keep the minds off the wild Stay where you are Here's beautiful as well.
Seeking for next thrill Quietly, calmly, patiently Am obedient as the the description goes
Yet thoughts mercilessly tilting toward the windows Just like old days, being ignorant of classroom boards
What's wrong? Hello.
The sun is hurting, couldn't worship for long So bright, eyes barely follow the views That's alright. Not wanting to be moon just waiting for the shines
Well fed with greed, to be onboard in repeat cycle Most willing to settle with current flows Even though slightly insane, I thought.
Emptiness has built a home I inhabit trapped inside my shell If I remain here at least I'll make it look a little less like **** My thoughts form with cohesive structure Dancing with clumsy pictures that slice and puncture Do the words I am saying make any sense? Or are they just ramblings of a mind depressed? Closing in towards the end of strength and will The finish line seems further still No one near cheering me on As I stumble this one-man marathon
A solo holiday season It's not that Bad I have freedom to sing my own versions of Christmas Carols Have my own dinner party Watch some movies And feel the Happiness of Self Company. Five years rolling. Who's counting? At least people think of me. At least I know that my lost loved ones' spirits are with me So I raise a toast, to yet another solo holiday.... Where I can cherish their memories Reach out to those who care Enjoy another winter day..... And write new futures which shall out do the Rocky Roads I've traveled In my life's history.
Wish i didn’t have to Pay someone fifty to let taps run dry Wish i didn’t need to Chase my highs Across the way Under the fly Wish i asked for directions Still stuck in the tunnel Wishing as the lights go by