The choices you make,
between hating and forgiving,
can become the story of your life*.

Taking control of life
that is meant to be mine
a life full of happiness and joy
but caught in the middle of a raging war.
Years of fighting has taken its toll
as I sit and watch my life
fight with every tool and nail,
a glimmer of hope surfaces
a little bundle of joy
kicking and screaming
ready to take its place.

For too many years,
I watched as life tossed me
here and there,
up and down.
It is all a game,
I told myself
one minute I would seem to be a winner,
and the next finish as the runner-up.

But a life without a reason
now has a meaning
a battle without a plan
now has a purpose,
to live and fight another day.

It's a throwaway age for one and for all.
Nobody wants to hear the heart's call
Society around us is falling apart,
Things just go wrong right from the start.
Friendships appear to be a disdain,
Instead we use others for personal gain.
Running for cover, from  storm rain,
Feelings for others slaughtered and slain.
Already the price is being  paid.
Society gone and relationships frayed.
It will only get worse as standards downgrade.
Are we numb to the slide, or really afraid?
We can change it all, its not too late.
Bring on the love instead of the hate.
All is not lost if we'd communicate.
Destruction should never be our final fate.

Sometimes the bad times seems to over weigh the good,

because we don't remember the so much better times as much as we should.

Many shadows of good times are buried in the mountain we call time,

memories of the bad times seem to stay right at the front of our mind.

Goodtimes we have were not appreciated and ultimately taken for granted,

the bad we nurture and cultivate in our hearts like weeds we have planted.

Now as the years go on,

the bad forever on our mind,

and we don't seem to remember or realize,

just how much we have wasted our precious time.

So now lets have sometime , a break, from all bad

let go the negative and recapture the good we ones had

Spending more time dwelling on things that are good

And, how to respect one another as much as we should.

Through day I move with fear
that my heart will someday disappear
Heart's so hard like stone,
close and quiet and also alone.
Machine I've become,
no heart but steel
for love or pain I hardly feel.
It takes two halves to make a whole
My heart and yours,
we make a soul.
Feeling that brings me home
enfolds me and warms me
with an eternal embrace and palpable.
I hold on to these feelings
and keep them safe within.
Until they are needed
and true love could begin.
Love! be the sun and offer life to my day
and be the moon that throws darkness away.

Memories drift in and out like tides
I see them so clear,
despite the dust added over the years.
Felt the sunshine and felt the rain,
Even conquered storms
but scars remain.
Every tear that falls down here
is to wish you could hear...
What you did was a blunder
I feel devastated.
Dreams turned into nightmares,
And love like this wasn't meant for me.
My feelings for you was a sin,
slipping through my hands like my fate
Washing over me like I've failed every moment.

Some stories are frozen in time,
           not even the strongest of flames can melt them*.

Knowing that it'll always be a part of me.....comforting,
but it's enough to ruffle up the present.

Night has lost it's charm
This longing doesn't speak
to heart of mine,
Maybe the wait for some
hope has finally gone.
              Do you know!
                The lost birds
                 of my town,
                 wander around
                 searching for you...
                Tell me pal!
                When hope dies
                 Don't you feel dead?
But I'm Surviving on every single
detail that went through my heart
just to rapture,
all pleasant emotions
that once made me.... &
will never change.

"Didn't find anything,
to be as peaceful and satisfying as
raging war against the thoughts
in my head
that pester me to adore my past." *
             Huh!!
With every passing hour that you let
yourself dream,
you stab your own heart
with your very hand &
relish the thought of bleeding
at your own convenience.
Then Gradually, I knew
the words I wrote
to make you everlasting,
imprint of my love...
will be my burial ground
dug by your very hands.

Someone who feels everything in their life has led them to you.
Someone who loves your flaws, sarcasm, giggles, stupidity and at times immaturity.
Someone who would find answers in your hesitation.
Someone who falls in love with you despite the differences.
Someone who finds love of their life , the closest and truest friend in you.

"Never say someone to leave, specially when you know... they don't want to."

I'll read  your words irrespective of everything
                    They tend to calm the storm within

I feel different again
I think of keeping it to myself  ,
That my emotions seem to be on a different plane
And it’s something that can’t be explained
So, hopefully this doesn’t drive me insane.
I change and so do people…
Their bliss , their pain
Is this the change for loss or gain?
People keep floating through life,
And fate blows them away
In every which direction, the wind may.
Negative enough said, now let me explain…
A butterfly of a very rare design
Flying freely on its own
Each time I looked at its rarity
I see new colors.
You will not recognize;
Blink once- look back,
It changes again!
Changing like the wind.
It changes at a NEED
Known only by the spirit
Held within.
Likewise, You change - I change and
We all know our reasons.

Basically I keep my feelings a secret
I'm not the type to say what I feel
With you it's no different
I want to tell you, believe me I've tried
but, there's  part of me that just can't take any chances.
So, I doubt that you'll ever know,
which may be fine with you, but it hurts me,
I won't tell you though.
May be it's the way you say my name
or the way you smile
or may be just everything,
getting to know you seems worth my while.
Sometimes I think, what's there to hide?
Then,slowly my heart takes brains side.
I guess I'll never say it.
I would never reveal my feelings to you,
I'll just love you from distance,
as I'm not sure what else there is to do.

The person that I have grown into today
Did not get there by chance, no way
I am who I am partly because of you
And you are You because of me, too.

The changes I see
and what I have learned about me
are a response to how we affected our lives
and what we discover in each others eyes.

Our feelings might be different a year from now
But you are part of me forever somehow.
A part of me will always be you
and a part of you will always be me.

I will never forget you
For my love is honest and true....

You can have a favourite political party
You can support it publicly
You can point out others mistakes.
You can state facts
You can crack a joke on anyone of them.
But you have no rights to use your 'public figure' status to influence someone's mind.
You are playing all wrong.
You can outsmart/ outwit someone's thought here, but only here!
Being a public figure, you have the freedom to speak and write your thoughts and the bheed will follow you.
But from being an important person you have some unsaid responsibilities which clearly, many ignore.
You can state facts without portraying your filthy  brain Divisive Mindset on people who do not know how to counter question you.
So, basically you are being smart to those who aren't actually questioning you!
Which indirectly means you are weak... Very weak indeed.
My advice to you people is, start talking to the people who beg to differ from you and have the write wit and the words to question you.
So that even you can be sure of your lovely choices.
Thanks for reading this!

All that other folks can do,
Why with patience...should not you?
Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a vague man
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victory cup
And he learned too late when the night came down
How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint in the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are,
It might be near when it seems really far
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.
Far too many times we let
unimportant things into our minds
And then it's usually too late
to see what made us blind.

We're lost and yet, we strive to carry on,
to see the sun once more.
But often we  move too fast,
or try to skip ahead.
Even a glance through a book,
can't know what we have read.
Each story cultivates a path,
from beginning to end.
It's a trail true love must follow,
the way that it was penned.
Happy endings are rarely found,
and if no love can then be found,
you'll be alone again.
For if offered love is free,
and it need not be earned,
What merit do you think it has,
when it is not returned?
So if you seek this treasured prize (love),
Here's what you'll have to do.
The love you offer someone else
Must also mean something to you.

If anyone tells you cannot become an astronaut, a travel journalist,
have your own business,
Do not listen! Do not give up! And reply ......."WHY NOT!!!"
  But  consider WHY the person told you you can't.
Chances are that person does not follow their own dreams, is afraid
of judgment or failure, and has no inner strength, confidence or belief in himself.
It does not really matter. It's your life, your heart and your dreams that matter.
                  In todays world, you set the fashion & style. There is freedom
to express yourself beyond imagination. Feeling great and being
who you are is an external visual expression from within.
              If your choices in any way, shape or form cause deliberate hurt
to another, choose again or deal with the consequences and know
that you get back, sooner or later, EXACTLY what you put out!
Allow compassion, truthfulness and honor to guide you.
The person you are today, is not the person you were 10 years ago
or the person you will be 5 years from now.

When she asked a question
“Are you with me out of need, or choice?"
As he looked into her eyes,
He fought with fate and truth and lies,
And seeking answers deep within,
He wondered if he could begin,
And so the moment paused until
He felt his life was standing still.
And when at last the clock moved on,
And eye to eye began to speak,
As a single fear ran down her cheek,
He told her what he thought she knew,
“It’s my choice, to be here, with you.”
He continued ....
"I’m here and I will stand by you,
Each hill you have to climb.
So take my hand lets face the world,
Live one day at a time.
because it's only for a Lifetime
That I'm trapped in Love with you."
  A long pause ...
and nothing was left unanswered.

Take a plunge to the depth of life
that's where the truth lies.
After going against all odds
Living will be worth...
and Wise.

Some say life is easy
but truly living it is not.
Times get hard, people struggle
and constantly get put on the spot.
In some others pretty eyes
There's a great painful disguise
For in every beat of a lonely heart
There is hope that lights the path
I'm going to wear the biggest smile
even though I want to cry.
I'm going to fight to live
even though I'm destined to die.
Hearts breaks
Souls die
I will not be silenced
Hope always remains
and even though it's hard and I may struggle through it all.
You see me struggle
you will never see me fall...Never!

To learn to fly each day
or die?
Death offers no false start.
Not living to retrieve
or multiple what I've gained or lost.
I find myself in the ruins
of new beginnings, uncoiling
my life.
Now, would tie my heart into a knot
around a tree
To ensure something will always
hold me and will
never let me fall.
My dreams twist.
Hope battles with darkness.
Hope defuses into darkness.
To extent my day blue.

I wasn't sure what it was at the time. Unfortunately,  now I know. Time to start healing myself and know that I was never the problem. Sometimes when you are amazing and caring you get taken advantage of.

I was growing content with being alone,
setting for the dark.
Unexpectedly,
you were a breath of something new.
That Silence was eternal
Could only hear the sound of my heart blasting.
Unable to see what is there,
Unable to see all is bare.
I looked for every clue
Unknown, that you could be of another hue.
After all I know about your kind..
Believe me dear,
I wasn't looking for you.

Yes, so many things have changed
did you think they'd stay as arranged?
Don't dare look back
look straight ahead,
calm your fears,
dry your tears.
I know love hurts and broke your heart
but keep your head,
and heart apart.
Crying won't help
the love you had ... atleast you had it
don't be sad.
Time will heal
perhaps a new life
will then reveal.
So, it's all worth it
what's to gain... when you love someone
who brings you pain??
Walk away and stand up tall
count your blessings... one and all

In the past, the future looked too close to hold..
And now the present seems like it's too close and cold
Inside myself looking out, it all seems fake
Whatever motivates, the day puts it away
Used to be apathetic, loved the only one living
I'm speaking to the world, but I'm the only one in it
Your eyes couldn't watch the way the world spins
I'll sit there and watch on the day the world ends
If its burns then, and flows in the wind
Because who knows if your steps are planned out..
I feel lost, and no body's there to stick a hand out
I feel like I lived with my self too long
This isn't the right time or place for these words
We don't have the right kind of space for these birds
If we all could fly, If we all could cry
Everybody would laugh, and we all would die
The sky hangs over my head, I can feel the weight
Conceal my fate, and let me just deal with hate
I don’t even know why I feel this...
Why my existence is one long, endless abyss.
But, I’m still here, no matter what my dreams might say
And I hope that one day I will actually be okay.