Just know time
                         At night his mind looks at things with a little bit of light
His
       lost soul is pained inside his old body pretending to have purpose
His
       reflection is anything but proud
                                                           ­  just distorted and aged
He
     never knew bliss even at a young age
His
      father never cared to know that he lived
He
     then ended up married to a girl who only knew how to drink
His
      regrets flowed through his veins giving him the energy to forgive
                             but when time finally caught up
                            this meek figure had already fallen

The blue wanted to believe that the truth was trying to turn, run and touch the wronged
but death opened the room which broke the silent ground
It worked slowly I mean it could not speak
                                             could not even touch the ground if it wished
It just grew while reality filled ones feelings
Men stood green instead of trees and the strongest heart was that of an infant

And yet we dream of finding those moments in which we feel lifeless
Away from all distractions
We never do find relief from such a horrid grief
Only those who chose to ease

people left me with a need for a new place
where touching skin no longer felt like a fear

i wanted to stay and get past my broken feelings but there's fear even in happy moments

voices of disapproval followed me
slowly and quickly
day in and day out
on land
and not even the sea could cast away those demons

warmth quickly became a burden
my scars i tried to return but faces came forward to form more

Scared
and
Disoriented
The passion within  is trapped in a vault
Locked and no combination in sight
-Left-
-Right-
-Left-
The tries are in vain
For we will never live to be the same

Outside in the midst of nature and a boundary set by humans
Feelings are caught within our mind but the pain within my chest says otherwise
It leads me to believe that we suffer despite our blessings
and we're never grateful but full of guilt
We'll never find happiness but in fleeting moments where sadness awaits to wish us ill

Earliest memories are the sweetest but once knowledge steps in deception is all that stays
Lies filled with care and limits set by fear
The truth left a bitter taste for those who had to eat their words
All those sad lovers grew into thinking they would never care for the light of a suitor's eyes
True love will be found in time to those who live to see it

Constantemente en guerra con mis pensamientos
Esperando, pero no trabajo por la paz que busco
Por Que
              Por Que
                            No sé

Do you get life?
                                           Do I get life?
               I know the answer to that. It is simple. If I got life, I would understand you. But I dont and I am ok with that. I am ok with the fact that I have to be wondering if you are my so called friend. Life is a mystery and so are you. You don't know what's coming next is it life is it death? You are only what you are because you made yourself, you cannot blame it on any one else. You have faults, everyone does, but yours are of not being understood. You stop communication, you yourself stop understanding. People talk to you, you dont answer. You are lost, with no one who cares enough to find you. If I care enough to find you, you are in to deep too be seen, in too deep to be found. You brought yourself there, you are to blame. Nobody else, not me

"Sorry about your wall."
          "Help me tear it down?"
"I failed to see the true reason behind your actions."
           "I know, I felt ignored and never felt welcomed through any door."
"I was just like them, rejecting you without a cause and without a thought."
           "Although there were many, you were the most significant. It damaged my heart to see you act so carelessly."
"Why was I noteworthy? You said it yourself, I was only one of many fools."
            "You were the only one I ever cared about and when you left, I felt like I lived in complete darkness."
"I've come back to restore hope in your life and take you into the light."
            "It has become too late, my breath has grown shallow and my memory weak. I am no longer the person I seem."
"The future can still be created and strength can be built......"*
His words were lost forever and so was she.

To rid the fears from your mind
You must forget the source
from which they came
Escape your fears
Because it always seems
Like you hold back tears
Conquer your fears
And you will rise above them
Do not let them ruin your life
Or soon you will be running for your life
Learn to fight them
Or learn to hide them
Find a way to have a smile on your face
So you cannot tell
That you have put them away
Lost them in the path that I have walked
Never cared to look in reverse
For fear that they might return
I kept my face hidden from the dark
Because I knew that fear lurked not so far
My mind was suddenly at ease  
When I realized at what was lost
The fear that had enveloped my mind
Was suddenly gone

it's wrong to linger in hope of a beautiful reality
where mother's live forever
and there's joy in coming home and feeling like a child

in a home where walls are painted the color of happiness
meanwhile memories run short
three years feel like thirty
and
we lose every step of the way

Everyone claims they are watching out for me
What I become if all goes wrong
                                                      Will be my own fault

She would love to know the time of night that the life in her heart walked away
Remember the old tears that left thoughts on her skin and hoped upon the dark cold sky
True beautiful dreams that stopped the girl from going forever into the moment
She better open the years and walk through the sweet truths that felt close to death
Regret finally lunges towards the existence of a smile
The missing bitter questions pose themselves and change secrets
Age changes the lovers and the universe whispers sins
And the mad distant screams build eternal steps of loss

I want to run to the place that engulfed my dreams
feel the cold pavement beneath my feet
never have I wished that I was not there because I am the happiest standing there
the wind lashing against my skin
make my heart pound against the barrier of my chest
to be able to never leave this place
leaving suddenly
wander and wish that you could stay for a little while
but life never fails to go on
and you are forced to move along
You go to other places
Though they are never the same
Those places will never make you as happy as this
It is such a shame...

Trying to impress the people all around me but forgetting what is acting and reality
Feeling lost in my pretending world and having trouble finding myself
Who could not say when sorrow arrived I did not run the other way?
When happiness arrived I came to greet it but where was I when sorrow occupied the space where happiness now stands?
I was nowhere
I could not be found
Lost in my pretending world safe and sound
I came about when sorrow fled and happiness came instead
The place that I had escaped to, distant
The safety it provided, missed
The child of imagination, gone

Oceans sweep over burnt land
-clears away so
men can walk the simple path
forgetting where their desires had previously led them
to a promise of tomorrow
when yesterday was filled with worry

Laying
            d
            o
            w
            n
wi­th a fright
                  p
                  u
Waking          with a sight
I see the stars and the moon
Making me feel sane despite the delusions of my life
I feel loved as though the stars were hugging me
but yet the moon was tugging me
I cannot chose which p
                                       a
                                           t
                                               h  
                                                    to take for
                                                                ­       I am
                                                               caught between
                                                     t w o                                f a t e s

Written upon a receipt
From the store you visited long ago
You've been gone since yesterday
Upon it lays your fine handwriting
Stating why and how
Little did I know
Could have gone all along
It is just a note
but it holds my world in it's ink

Nothing could have prepared me
Laughter received me
The shock
The pain
Laughter receded

expect evenings laced with longing
youth buried underneath experience
desperate greed
and
foregin efforts to conserve the lives we lead

Two world collide in the quietest way
It is not a not a notion that surprises even the faintest of heart
It's a collaboration of two people who don't know where to start
It's movement in the place of stillness
Life in the place of death
It's you and I baby
Will we ever accept?

reality grows afraid
-awake
of the lives men lead
nights go quiet
and memories are met with greed
children ask for endless summers
losing the chance to sleep
while voices whisper drunk poetry

vivid exhaustion
waiting anxiously for a miracle
to embark on a journey through a spiritual realm
where everything is caressed by a hand that cares

Sometimes I see myself as alright and am glad to think that a future is in sight
Sometimes I see myself as so awful I began to regret the thought of another day
Sometimes I see what remains of the past because in my mind it never healed
And at times I just shut out what anyone ever says about me because what I think of myself is far worse

Be vigilant
There is always danger lurking around
the sudden sound can wake
and hold you prisoner to be taken away

It's a cool October morning
on campus
across the way children play
you see college students make their way from one class to another
living out these lives that vary from
one existence into another

meanwhile, children play
and all the way these adults
to some and not others
make their way
some pretending
some barely surviving
some ridicule the experience
some express gratitude
because it's all some of us really have
this chance
that one day a future worth living may arise

and then all the while, children play
see,
we all wish we could turn back this clock that
lays both in our existence and our imagination
this clock
that holds these memories
that tells us we're far
and then so near
in the blink of an eye
tells us there may be something to fear
because by chance
one in a few
may not make it

all the while children play
we reminisce about our time
we tell ourselves we wish to turn back to the simple moments
but the truth is
this clock lays partially into existence
so that we may think back
and grasp what we didn't at the time
so that we may act
in accordance
when it comes time

its a cool October morning
on campus
across the way children play
as I make my way