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1.4k · Nov 2018
Your Tears Are Beautiful
Christina S Nov 2018
I stood there, posed at a photo shoot
The sun was shining in my eyes
not knowing why all eyes were on me
The photographer caught me by surprise

"Your tears are beautiful," he said
I quickly patted them away
The sun made my eyes fill with tears
I'll never forget that summer day

It was my first time being the sole focus
And having my hair and makeup done
There was pride and accomplishment
In knowing what I had become

But in those days my deep brown eyes
Could not deny the camera the pain
So naive and young I felt that I just
had to force the dimpled smile and feign

For the people who would see those images
The pictures are a stark reminder of a lost place
But a picture really does speak a thousand words
If I only knew what they could see written on my face

But better times were ahead
I let go of some baggage first thing
The modeling career didn't last but a year
And I met the man who would make my heart sing.
True story of a younger, lost, more naive me.
1.2k · Oct 2018
Daddy
Christina S Oct 2018
You didn't have the capacity
to be the father I needed you to
You didn't have the eyes to see
How my heart bled for you

Doesn't blood run thicker than water?
Why did you up and run away?
Did you know how you hurt your daughter?
It's probably best you didn't stay

The liquor was more of a priority
as it always has been and still is,
than you taking time out for me
I guess the best we'll ever have is this.
A cloudi inspired write.
1.1k · Oct 2018
With You
Christina S Oct 2018
With you, I want to dance in the dark
Rekindle that special spark
Remember when we first met
Watch a breathtaking sunset

With you, I want you to know my love
To tell you what I dream of
To let you know what you mean to me
And then let you love me eagerly

With you, I wanna watch the stars
Down here, from afar
Watch the clear night sky
In your arms I feel I could fly

With you, anywhere is home
Whether right here or in Rome
But I just need you to know
I'll follow you wherever you go
898 · Oct 2018
Haiku (Tears)
Christina S Oct 2018
The years first snowfall
An outcry in October
Tears on painted leaves

10-20-2018
It is insane to be having snow so soon!!
895 · Aug 2019
Cherished
Christina S Aug 2019
I love you and unlike Shakespeare
I cannot count the ways....
Being in your arms, it's like heaven
with the passing of the days

Cherished are these moments
spent lying next to you
Without you by my side
I don't know what I'd do

Because no one can compare
to the sweetness of your soul
And no one could ever fill
that void and make me whole
Lets just hope we have many years together :)
647 · Oct 2019
Beauty Surrounds
Christina S Oct 2019
As the autumn leaves whirl around
I sit quietly listening to the sound
And look outside, struck by what I've found
The beauty that surrounds

Now fall is not my favorite time of year
Christmas is, and for good cheer
I get to spoil my kids, and my dear
And love abounds

I love my husband and he loves me
There's no arguing, we live happily
I'm awestruck everyday by what I feel and see
Like his queen, I was crowned

So as I'm faced with autumn, and the cold
I'll surround myself with love and beauty untold
I have my love and he has me to hold
As the leaves fall all around
For my love
638 · Oct 2019
Crying Earth
Christina S Oct 2019
Rainy days, they are the worst
Gloomy skies, disheartened sighs
I know the trees, they have a thirst
And to summers end we'll say goodbye

Thunder in a lightning storm
There are no birds melodies today
Outside it is too **** warm
A sign of our societies decay
637 · Jul 2019
Untamed
Christina S Jul 2019
How much of you can I forget?
Can I erase you from memory?
The heart isn't as easily tamed
In there you will forever be
524 · Jul 2019
Greatest Love
Christina S Jul 2019
My greatest love of all is
right here sitting next to me
I feel like I owe him everything
Without him I don't know where I'd be

My love for him is like trying
to capture the ocean's tide
I feel full to bursting when I think
of him-only in him can I confide

And no matter what I tell him
He won't judge me in any way
True to his loving nature
I can count on him to stay

People said our love wouldn't
ever stand the test of time
Well, it has, and through my struggles,
he still makes my life sublime.
496 · Sep 2019
Thank You
Christina S Sep 2019
Thank you for reminding me of my beauty
Thank you for doing what you do to me
Thank you for being there at just the right time
Thank you for setting my soul free!

I wanted to write this poem
Not that it had to be done
But rather that I appreciate you
And to let you know that I have fun
485 · Jul 2019
Broken Heart
Christina S Jul 2019
Didn't mean to break your heart
Didn't mean to make you cry
Wasn't prepared for the look on your face
When you turned to me and asked "why?"

Sometimes things aren't meant to be
And I wasn't trying to be cruel
Seems like we were more friendly
I wasn't taking you for a fool
Sometimes it's just best to be honest even when it hurts. This seems like a lifetime ago.
481 · Sep 2019
Promise
Christina S Sep 2019
The autumn winds roar like
my inner goddess does for you.
Although the leaves change, love,
I promise that I never do!


C.S.
409 · Oct 2018
I've never told
Christina S Oct 2018
A memory suppressed by thirty years
A face stained with biting tears
A life so full of irrational fears
I need you by my side

Like a pinata, I was a toy
Only to be broken, not to show joy
As quiet as a mouse, I was coy
I need you by my side

This all happened in my youth
As no one around me knew my truth
Like a fox "they" thought they were smooth
I need you by my side

They say I have a heart of gold
Despite the story I've never told
Forget all the drama that would unfold
I now can stand alone.
Thanks for reading my poem
401 · Oct 2018
Paradise Is Here
Christina S Oct 2018
A vacation paradise would be great
Of course you must come with me too
But my idea of paradise is
right here, right now, with you!

The music playing in the background
gives way to sweet romantic kiss
I never thought in a million years
That I'd end up with a love like this

Fireworks explode in the night
As I whisper to him, "Paradise is here"
"It's anywhere you are," I say
And it all becomes so clear

Whether we travel or not really
does not change how I feel
I just need to be in your arms
to know that this is real
383 · Sep 2019
Perpetual
Christina S Sep 2019
like the oceans tide
vast cerulean blue
my love goes on forever

c.s.
365 · Aug 2019
Facade
Christina S Aug 2019
Today I wear a facade
so you can't see my pain,
you won't know my loneliness
but my tears will still fall like rain


CS
363 · Aug 2019
Haiku (Broken)
Christina S Aug 2019
promises and hearts
frail and fragile they are just
made to be broken


cs
355 · Aug 2019
Nocturnal Love
Christina S Aug 2019
Please embrace me tighter
as we kiss madly and deeply
Lets allow the jealous moon to watch
while I give you the best of me

CS
354 · Aug 2019
Seasons Change
Christina S Aug 2019
Cool autumn breezes blow
Soon cascades of colors will be upon us
Once blooming fields are now faded
Winters kiss we'll soon know
It's that time of year again, leaves are just starting to turn
353 · Jul 2019
Untarnished
Christina S Jul 2019
In a field of wildflowers
I feel touched by God
As if heaven descended
upon this forgotten earth

The sky is a perfect blue
Well, you know the kind
This place untarnished
Awarded to no person

Time crawls by here
As I take in the aroma
And the bounty of color
I leave them, wild and free
Trying my hand at writing free style. I think it would have been easier to rhyme....LOL
352 · Oct 2018
Lake Michigan
Christina S Oct 2018
Lake Michigan looks like an ocean
Mad autumn waves crash on the shore
You get so close to God, in this sacred place
Especially in the warm months, you want more

Young love is best savored here
Pure innocence found walking on the pier
Behind the lighthouse is best to steal a kiss
Happiest place ever with the one you love near

The sand on the beach is perfect
It's the only heaven on earth I know
Perfect for lovers to walk hand in hand
If you saw it, you'd want to go

As sun sets, purple and red hues
light up the heavens above
And birds overhead fly by
As people below fall in love

The stars are out tonight
I wonder if you see them too
They hang in darkened sky
I could reach and get one for you
315 · Aug 2019
When I Think Of You
Christina S Aug 2019
hearts entwined
in passion
and chemistry
the verbs
just on relay
but my heart
skips a beat
every time I
think of you
284 · Aug 2019
Steamy
Christina S Aug 2019
Your mocha skin against mine
such a contrast if there ever were
love songs on the radio heats up the
room and passion begins to stir

Visions of time long past, blended
with feelings of loving you more each day
It's a mix of desire I so much enjoy
And far away from everyone, we play

Wrapped up in bed sheets, but not for long
You transport me to a place that's timeless
You know the combination to my body
And I am lost in you, I confess

When the steam dissipates, I see you
with a wild grin upon your face
You know what I'm thinking
That no one could ever take your place
283 · Jul 2019
Need
Christina S Jul 2019
Need for you is a primal desire
Bodies in the dark finding their way
Mine is so hot in your fire
Until the ******* sun turns to day

Our bodies fit together like lock and key
I wonder who likes it more, you or me?
And you continue this assault on me daily
I love crumbling under the weight of your body
275 · Sep 2019
The One
Christina S Sep 2019
A smile that matches my own
The look in my loves eyes
it is enchanting to say the least
this comes as no surprise

A heart unbridled with passion
The knowing that we belong
Being held in his arms
Listening to our song

A gentle touch between lovers
that brings his dimples out, you know
the beautiful smile that touches my soul
The one that brings me up when I feel low

A hand to hold when times are hard
Someone to listen and wipe away my tears
The person that lights my fire
The one that takes away all my fears
273 · Aug 2019
A Gift
Christina S Aug 2019
The past is the past
I just want to grow
The present is a gift
I want to take it and know

That I've lived fully and that
I've loved with all my heart
I think in the end that's what matters
Is the love you gave from the start

For years I felt stuck
In my pains and sorrows
I'm not a victim, never was
I look forward to my tomorrows

I've come to terms with some
things that have happened to me
I am a very persistant person, so
I will live happy, unburdened and free!
Never take today for granted
264 · Sep 2019
Finding Moments
Christina S Sep 2019
I savor our moments
And long for your touch
It's me you enrapture
I need you so much!

Can't tell you just how
I quiver when you're near
Just need to hold you
And have you with me here

I know I'm missing a
descriptive metaphor or noun
But you just read the words of
this poem where my love can be found.
255 · Aug 2019
Bated Breath
Christina S Aug 2019
She melted like a scoop of ice cream
soft in his capable strong arms
thoughts danced in her head like a dream
while he grazed his hand against her *****

Faster and faster went her bated breath
as her heart almost leapt out of her chest
he came and gave her a little death
simply by giving her loves stolen kiss
250 · Oct 2018
It's Almost Halloween
Christina S Oct 2018
There is a concert outside-muted and mellow
The leaves circling around-red and yellow
Flowing through the wind, dancing and bright
Neighbors decorating, Oh what a sight!

Soon we'll hear all the children and their laughter
But we know it's the treats and candy they're after
Don't forget about the princesses and vampires too
A very big Happy Halloween from me to you!
I'm usually writing about Christmas after our first snowfall. I know, I restrained myself! LOL
250 · Jul 2019
In Your Arms
Christina S Jul 2019
In your arms I know everything
is as the way it should be
When times are uncertain,
your strength consoles me

In your arms I find love
The kind that doesn't run away
In you I have found faithfulness
What I can count on from day to day

In your arms I find forgiveness
instead of judgement or fear
From you I get what I need
For that I love you so much, dear

In your arms I've found my soulmate
The man I crave night and day
I'll forever be yours 'till the end of time
And when that is, who's to say?
235 · Aug 2019
Twins
Christina S Aug 2019
Twins lost several years ago
still on my mind
my nightmares remind me
there's no solace to find

To never hear those giggles
To never hear one cry
I must've asked a thousand times
"God, why'd you take them, why?"

They were only in my womb a while
But I think about them still
I have to believe there's an afterlife
Because I will hold them. I will!

Some people say "It was for the best!"
I would like to know how they know
because to me that comment
hits lower than the low

I know my angel babies
have wiped the tears where I lay
And they are playing with the Almighty
In the Awesome Kingdom where they stay
Lost twins in utero several years ago but never forget
226 · Jul 2019
Sweet Rendezvous
Christina S Jul 2019
I recall our sweet rendezvous
When love was so blind
Passions erupted under moonlight
With our bodies entwined

My flesh against yours
Adrenaline pumping like crazy
Your lips foreign but intoxicating
This pleasure was so new to me

Meetings would take place here and there
Mostly in places so exciting and new
Those times I'd wait for you were torture
I'd like to think it was torture for you too
I was trying to write a free verse and yet it rhymes!
219 · Aug 2019
You Saw Me
Christina S Aug 2019
You looked in my soul and saw
who I really was and could be,
So much potential and love to give
You were the one with eyes to see

-that there was strength in my soul
you took what was broken and made it whole
my love amplifies because of you everyday
the beginning of my life didn't take it's toll

-that there was pain in my soul
and you carefully mended and cared
it's been so long since I've been hurt
it's because of you that I've been spared

God sent me an Angel and it is you
After all these years you still hypnotize
I'm so happy to wake up next to you each morn'
And you still look at me with love in your eyes
207 · Aug 2019
Poetry Is...
Christina S Aug 2019
Poetry is a part of my heart
I dare say a part of my being
Without the release of emotion
there is nothing else so freeing

It's not just words arranged
No, its more than that I say
It's emotion and experience together
In a mesmerizing mental display

I've always written so personally
about my life and details, that's true
but I think that for me, poetry is
a culmination of feelings I can't undo

Words are born on a blank page
and my pen dances to the song of my soul
Unleashed and exposed, each word
forming stanzas until I feel whole
204 · Jul 2019
Holding My Breath
Christina S Jul 2019
Sometimes I can't find the rhyme
Feels like I'm running out of time
Trying to find the source of my anxiety
Wondering what the hell is wrong with me

Feeling like I'm drowning alone in a lake
No one to help me but me for my sake
I like to write of love and though true
It's hard to do when you're down and blue

I'm scared to death, I don't know why
Just holding my breath, I can't even cry
Scarier than any horror flick you've seen
That is what panic disorder for me has been
Panic Disorder is widely suffered and hardly talked about
202 · Jul 2019
Calla Lily
Christina S Jul 2019
In my sacred place I spy you
How dare you flaunt like you do?
I watch you grow from seeds I've sown
Your curves superior to my own

Your *** is plain to see
Drawing the humble honeybee
in with your succulence
watching as you dance,

freely with the wind and rain
I stand by like a hideous bane
Jealous of something I'll never be
Fertile, purple, strong and free

Dare I pluck you here and now?
Keep your splendors to me somehow?
Put you in a vase and imprison thee
Flaunt your beauty only to me
I make myself sound quite unappealing but I was trying to capture the beauty of the flower.
184 · Jul 2019
Manic Monday
Christina S Jul 2019
I have to get up very soon
Why am I still writing poetry?
Tonight the thoughts keep flowing
from that creative side of me

I think about life and love
and everything in between
I marvel at all the wonderful
things that I have seen

But deep down I
wonder if I'm manic
And gonna be up all night
"I should sleep" I say and panic

I think of all the things
I could be doing but I need to get to bed
It's crazy how I fight sleep
and how fast ideas go through my head
It's amazing the stigma that is still attached to those that are bipolar, etc.
181 · Nov 2018
The Hurt
Christina S Nov 2018
It's not as easy to talk about the
love for some reason, as it is the hurt
It's not as easy to remember all the
kind and beautiful things said, than the curt

It does get easier as time passes by
But some days are just so hard to get through
For me, I choose to forgive and forget
all the bad things because I need to

It's taken me many years to get this far
And many tears, I've crossed a deluge of them
But I'm not immune to new pains
Or sadness from which this poem stems

As always, I will be fine, I will be okay
I must press on in the usual way
Maybe the snow left me with the blues
But it won't keep me down one more day
174 · Mar 2019
Daddy's Gone
Christina S Mar 2019
Day in and day out I pretend
that when you left it was the end
of hurt feelings and your lies
Wipe the pain from my eyes

You never were my Daddy
You didn't even try to be
No matter how old I get
Your words and deeds I can't forget

There were always things that were
more important, like drinking, for sure
So I thought the pain of you wouldn't last
When you moved away and became my past

Though my future is full of positivity
I can't help but ask what is wrong with me
Everything that Dad said is so wrong
My love, my life, proves that I am strong.
No one call fill the void a Dad leaves behind
173 · Oct 2018
The Dream
Christina S Oct 2018
We may not be perfect
But I'm so glad I have you
You are everything I need
With a love that is so true

We have life's ups and downs
But I recently realized
how much more I fall each day
because I see it in your eyes

You are my soulmate, my rock
everything that I admire
And for the rest of our lives
I'll be everything you desire

I feel that with our love
and passion it would seem
that with you I've found
the one to live the dream
171 · Aug 2019
I Thought I Knew
Christina S Aug 2019
With careless and wild eyes
you unleashed a big surprise
you didn't love me anymore,
I thought I knew what love was
but surely I didn't 'cause
I wasn't the one that you adored.
My mom cried more than i did
as I was the one that you got rid
leaving permanent emotional burns,
you used me for my looks
grasped in with your hooks
and yet for you I yearned.
You were just a bump in the road
to catch my prince I kissed a toad
I'm so grateful you set me free,
I know you're still alone now
karma works that way somehow
And now I have my own family
A breakup from forever ago. See? Breakups hurt but sometimes they really are for the best!!
170 · Oct 2018
His Prowess
Christina S Oct 2018
I acquiesced to your prowess
There was not much I could do
Gave myself to you before the sun rise
All I can do is think of you

Knowledgeable fingertips traverse your body
Every muscle memorized carefully
As if playing a fine instrument
tuned and made just for me

We made beautiful music together
Sounds as old as time
Can't wait for the next symphony
You make sleepless nights divine!
166 · Nov 2018
Christmas With You
Christina S Nov 2018
Stockings lined up with care
The garland wrapped up the stairs
No place under the tree is bare
Christmas is heaven with you

Cardinals and bulbs climb the tree
Gorgeous heirlooms out for all to see
Watching this together with me
Christmas is heaven with you

Each Christmas is better than the last
Maybe its just appreciation as time passed
I'm just cognizant of how it goes by so fast
Christmas is heaven with you

My Saviors birth marks the day
When people open gifts and kids play
We all remember Jesus, this I pray
Christmas is heaven with you
165 · Oct 2018
Senryu
Christina S Oct 2018
Promises and hearts
Frail and fragile they are just
Made to be broken
161 · Aug 2019
Blessed
Christina S Aug 2019
Though my path is not always clear
sometimes it takes a hard look in the mirror
I need to know where I've been
to know where I'm going and then
It's up to me to overcome all the strife
That I've been through in my life
and never lose sight of my dreams
For my kids and my family--we're a team
I grew up without hope and so much more
I'm glad my kids can be happy. They are adored!
For them to grow up free of fear
Is something I hold especially dear
I wonder how I avoided the pitfalls of this earth
But as I grew older, people saw me and found worth
Now I am free to live and love as I please
The times of enduring and persisting have ceased
Had a rough start to life..
158 · Oct 2018
Your Fire
Christina S Oct 2018
Your breath against my skin
The events about to transpire
It just got really hot in here
'cause I came too close to your fire

Desperate for your affections
And your midnight desires
Just sitting here close to you
My wanton body perspires

Our bodies fit like a mold
Made only for us two
Lovers that can share this
Are reserved only for a few
157 · Dec 2019
A Christmas Poem
Christina S Dec 2019
That special season is here
With Christmas love and cheer
And the children are full of laughter;
they help decorate the tree
as they're filled with glee
It's the spirit of giving I'm after!
There's lists of things to do
And shopping lists, that's true!
All for the magical month of December;
And for the good girls and boys
we'll buy them clothes and toys
And donate to those in need--we'll remember!
When Christmas finally is here
And our loved ones are near
We'll open our gifts and thank the "One";
Without Christ there would be no special day
So we honor Him in our traditional way
We gather 'round the tree and have so much fun.
Each Christmas is special for old and the young
If family or friends we're among
Then we're truly blessed this joyous day!
My favorite time of year
155 · Oct 2018
Anticipate
Christina S Oct 2018
Love on cloudy moonless nights
Just when everything feels right
It returns to me just as things go dim
My dimples just shadows as I think of him

I get that tingling sensation
All over, now spreads to elation
I wonder what I should do next?
Send him a sizzling hot blooded text?

That will get his attention
No need to sit and wait
I should just get ready
For what I anticipate
154 · Oct 2018
The October Wind
Christina S Oct 2018
The wind is angry today
Whipping violently at the trees
Howling and whistling too
A warning of what is to come

Branches and twigs snap under her speed
Animals will need to snuggle in tonight
Sure to send a shiver down your spine
As the gale knocks on your bedroom window

The whirlwind tries to ****** every last leaf
The remaining ones dance on tree limbs
celebrating victory over might gusts
Mother nature laughs as her children play
A free verse poem
154 · Aug 2019
Alive
Christina S Aug 2019
Honey, you make me feel alive
like all my dreams came true
as if I'm completely electrified
my body screams for you

When I get to thinking
What we are capable of
I get all hot and sweaty
and search for my love

Honey, now I know I'm alive
I'm aware I rush to satisfy
I would slow down but
dear I think I might die!
I took out a stanza that I thought might be 18+, so I hope the last stanza makes sense. :-)
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