You realize this was planned out from the very start.
We were meant to come together just so we could fall apart.

The pain of losing you was unbearable, I was so sure I couldn't survive, but from the ashes like a Phoenix I managed to rise.

I realize now that this was the only way I would be forced to look inside, and face the demons I was running from my entire life.

Where there once was heartbreak, now only gratitude resides. Your bittersweet sacrifice helped me find my way back to who I really am inside.

Thank you.

Caged inside
Seeking beauty on the outside
Lost time
Wasted on the color blind

Inspiration is hard to find
With
         Your
                  Eyes
                           Shut
Open them up and break free of your depressive rut and see!
                                              Truly see...

I'm alone in my head
Left for dead by all the things I never said creeping up and feeding on me like a zombie.
The regret is gnawing at what remains of my soul ripping apart dreams and goals that I once held close.

This darkness surrounds me.  
It's inside of you too. It's plotting your demise and there is nothing you can do, but to face your inner demons to overcome you must defeat them, but the journey into hell isn't for the weak of heart, with lack of reasons.

They'll chew you up, spit you out, and put you back at the Beginning.

Mind full of confusion
Color blind delusions
Am I wrong? Am I right?
Is this even worth the fight?

I don't know which way is up
I'm descending into hell
You think you own me but your wrong
You can try, but you will fail

You project self hatred
On anyone you can
Never took responsibility
And you call yourself a man?

You think you're God twisting reality
Manipulating all my memories
Yet you believe that you're the victim
You take what's right and make it wrong

I've caught on to your tricks
I've mastered all your little games
I'm much stronger than you now
You're the only one to blame

I'm coming to take back what's mine
Reclaim my thoughts and my mind
My soul will not be caged
You will never control me

I am not afraid of you anymore
Never again will I live in fear
You are dead to me now
And I hope that's very clear

Icy electricity, fiery desire
Melting, dripping, let's get higher
Take me, make me feel your heat
Bend me over, make me scream!
You bring to life my wildest dreams
Gripping tighter, feel my release
My body shakes, increasing speed
No longer a want, fulfilling animalistic needs

Baby, do you want it?  
You have me begging, baby please!
Moving my hips to meet your thrusts
You give it all to me!

>>Your hot sticky lust~>

I see the way you look at her.
You can't deny the attraction.
Why don't you do the honors?
Subtract me from that fraction!

Cause our relationship is only half of what
it was.
You had me drunk on love but now I'm just
slightly buzzed.

Simple perfection is what I see in
your mesmerizing eyes, pulling me in, connecting ties to a lost insight on
life.

     It's not the first time; I knew we
     would meet again.

You  & I are the same you see. Two
living parts of one beautiful masterpiece.

     Complimentary colors & vibrant
     hues. Intertwining auras and
     ever-changing views.

We are the purest form of art. Painted and crafted in a way so divine, we're growing more beautiful, aging like fine wine...

The storms are rolling through again
Unleashing darkness and fear
Just keep holding me tight, love
Soon the skies will clear

They can beat us down and break us
But we will pick eachother back up
We will gather the scattered pieces
And sew them back together with love♡

You can jump start a heart
But, can you save a dying soul?
Once it's been shattered into pieces, Can it ever be made whole?

What a miracle life can be!
Even the trees all come from tiny
seeds. To find greater meaning in
  our state of being, you must see the
      beauty in the simple things...

    Yet simple they aren't if you break
them apart. Our entire world is a big
piece of art. Skillfully crafted by
  higher existence. It's such a shame  
    that so many have missed it.  

        Overlooking
  all we have for what we don't need.      
   Stop and appreciate life, and
          Let your soul be freed.

Picking apart the pieces of my broken dreams
Unsure if everything is really what it seems
Afraid my life will always be this way
Letting go of hurt is so much harder than you say

I never wanted you to see the darkness that lives inside of me
I wish my mind would rest a night and for once just let me be
It twists inside and burrows deep. It's growing stronger. It doesn't sleep.
It growls a warning and bares its teeth
And then it lashes out at me

It's hard to breathe, I'm suffocating now
I'm trapped inside. I can't find a way out
Eyes filled with tears, heart filled with doubt
I accept my fate as my hope bleeds out

Barley conscious laying broken on the floor
I hear a noise in the distance
I fear it's coming back for more.
I close my eyes and brace myself, too weak to handle anymore.

I expect to feel pain, but to my surprise, your warm embrace signals that we've won the war
I open my eyes to see you staring back at me.
You tell me everything's alright and remind me to breathe.
Your kisses heal my heart and taste of sweet relief.
My knight of light has slayed the darkness that once lived inside of me.

The emptyness is overwhelming, holding my heart in my hand. It beats with a different rhythm than your's and you'll never understand.

I just can't seem to reach you.
The darkness is holding me back.
I feel hopeless and lost here without you.
My lifeless heart fades to black.

I need you so much more than you know now.
You are my only hope left in this hell.
But, how can you bring me back to life,
when you can't even save yourself?

It will be okay
You'll have another one some day
It seems that's all they have to say
Like you can be replaced

But, I will never forget the day
I learned that you were on your way
Tears of joy streamed down my face
Everything fell into place

I dreamed of all you'd grow to be
beautiful and sweet
I couldn't wait to kiss your adorable face
And tickle your little feet

Your daddy was so proud
And just as happy when he found out
He was so excited to be your father
We'll always love you without a doubt

We are so sad to be without you
But In our hearts you'll always stay
You will never be forgotten
And we will meet again one day.

I Promise♡

Most people think I'm crazy. I can see it in their eyes. They think I'm dumb for holding on, but they fail to realize, what we have is something special. You can't just lump this in a box, it goes so much deeper than all they know of human love and loss.

They have never felt a love like this, and they probably never will. It takes an ancient soul to comprehend that what we have is real. They say there are others out there, and while it might be true, I've never met another soul that gets me like you do...

No matter where this life takes us, whether near or far
You'll always hold this special place embedded in my heart
No matter how much time may pass, even when we don't speak
I am with you always and I love you endlessly

Drip, drop
Until my heart stops
Bleeding with a meaning
I know they've been deceiving me

Don't stop
Fueling my addiction
I feed on all the tension and pain that I've been given.

My life
Caught up in a daydream
Pretending that I'm mainstream
Until they found the blood stains.

That knife
I don't know how it got there
Its sharp; my feeling: unclear
I just know I can't stay here

Inside me
There's so much that I've hidden
Constantly stumbling on decisions
Regret knows something's missing

Tick tock**
Time is leaving me behind
The clock is laughing at me
Im stuck on pause and can't rewind

Today I fell down the rabbit hole
And I'm not coming back
All the thoughts inside my head
Were just too tightly packed

I hit the bottom and heard a Crack
Knocked loose all sanity left intact
Now I stand here looking back
And, all I can do is laugh

I live for these mornings
Waking up,  tangled up with you.
Its so surreal knowing that all my dreams have come true.

There is no way to describe the way you make me feel inside.
So much bliss I could have died and went to heaven,
Yet, I've never felt so alive!

It kills me to pull away,  when I must leave you for the day. 
I wish that I could stay forever in the warmth of your embrace.

I count the seconds when I'm away, yearning to be back where I belong, dreaming about kissing your face and hearing your heartbeat like a song.