Collections of my disorderly thoughts
gathered together with knots
of my ample desire
to make sense of my everyday life.

The old man said:
The key to contentment is to find yourself
deep within yourself until you can learn to drown out the voices of the world.

Love unites us.
Hate poisons us.
And Time carries us.

I want to be cool...
at least, cooler than your demeaning gaze as I walked past you.
And as I sat by the river,
I penned down all the other reasons I want
to be cooler than you.

Cooler than your cold eyes
cooler than your cruel smile
cooler than your calculating mind
cooler than the chill you send
down my spine.
Cooler than your caved eyes
cooler than your crooked smile
cooler than your cautious mind
cooler than the cold water you pour
down my back.

Nothing comes easily to me
except maybe impulsivity
it dawned on me recently
that my time on earth is transitory
I was depressed for a while, but
it is what it is so let it be it
I decided to chase my dreams
only, I didn't have the courage
it's too late to apologize to myself
for not realizing what my dreams were

My mind wanders a few times a day
I let it go wherever it may
I'm positive it will come back again

I wonder why people cry when they're happy
Isn't crying for sadness only?  
I remember when my friend passed
I asked God why it happened
I felt as though we would live forever
until the glass ceiling was shattered
I still do believe life has a purpose
if not, then what's the reason behind it?  

I sometimes pray I pass before he does
I know that's messed up but imagine the sorrow of loss  
I have low tolerance for pain hence why I take aspirin
I didn't understand addiction
until my coffee spilled

Life is a great big mystery
for anyone that lives it
If you're ever feeling alone
remember, we're all in this together
every time somebody tells you no
just get stronger

Honestly, I give advice more than I take
it's probably because I think way too far ahead
when I feel lost, I imagine I'm in this place
it's green and sunny, but kind of chilly
but it's cool, I like sweaters

I love you always
-Sincerely, your Inner voice

Headspace
with a headache
head in the clouds
always in a daze
dazzled by life
until the lights fade

Still in the clouds
still in a daze
however filtered through a darker haze.  

Headspace
I space out
when I come back,
It's past my bedtime
but there's something about
watching clouds roll by
that makes me think,
Life may not be so bad.

There are questions I don't know
on an exam I studied for
the teacher told me,
When in doubt, go with C
but I see no way out
from the nightmare I'm dreaming
until, I wake up in fright
because I failed a test
for a class I never had

Sometimes I think the only way someone can madly love me
is if they're completely crazy.

The greatest thing in life I've ever heard
Is when you said to me it doesn't hurt
to take the chances life throws your way
Now however, I have found my self
surrounded by stones in the city
Life refused to give me the chances I want to keep
so I keep running away to hide from everything

I don't like where I am right here right now
I took the wrong turn on my way up
Please stop telling me this is for me
I didn't even know who I would be

One minute I was there
The next minute I'm here
between here and there
I think I've lost everything.

Correct me if I'm wrong but was this a dream?
I saw a shadow pass up the stream
Her torch was burning bright like the Eternal flame
She said "come this way a better life awaits"
But like all the shadows her words were weightless
And the flames became stone-like and lightless.

I wish I can turn a day into
forever there with you.

When I'm feeling sad
I don't tell you.
You notice anyway that I'm not being myself.
You don't push me to say what's bothering me or where
my head is lately.
Instead, you wait patiently for me to be ready.
And in the meantime,
you bake me cookies.

River banks
beach sands
muddy waters
loud laughs
all the things
I think about
when I'm awake at night

Rhyming words
fairy tales
true stories
laugh lines
all the things
I think about
when I'm daydreaming in class

Once in a while, my thoughts collide
the common thread,
is you by my side

Are you eating anything else besides bubblegum?
Because you matter!

I want to be like Wild Fire
carried by wind, spreading further
enter your thoughts and leave desire
until the heat takes your body over.

I want to be like Wild Fire,
changing my mood with the weather
make your heart beat three times faster
I want to be like Wild Fire.

A sweet old lady told me that:
I've got a poet's heart and a wanderer's spirit
I don't know about that, but
I like to paint life
to be more than I see it
If time stops now,
I wonder if we'll know?
I think...,I think
we're all trying to freeze time
the best way we know how.

Body of water
you love the way it moves
feel it grow stronger
as the sun sets
Dark skies and bright moon
invite you to rest
but you feel alive
as the world sleeps

Waves crashing into rocks
making a roaring sound
captured in slow motion
deep within your mind
Dark skies and the blue moon
invite you to gaze
at the stars up above
until your troubles fade

Occasionally I look upwards,
and wish to be as free as the birds.
I watch them fly with their blue tipped wings,
and wonder what the blue jays would think,
if they found out I wish to trade.
I think they will laugh and rightly so,
their life is hard, I just don't know.

It showcases your footprints
your handwritten I love you's, and will you marry me's
you draw a smiley face and add follow you dreams
the possibilities are endless so you keep carving your messages

Then the wind blows and so the waves rise
they wash away the imprint you left behind
standing ashore, you watch the sand castles collapse
But your memories...your memories will stay intact

Your embrace is like the
warmth I get from
the sunshine.

I wish to never worry about tomorrow
Never worry about the someday
Take the joy with the sorrow
And just live for today.

I want to write to save my life.
To put to rest what’s eating me up inside.
Pull it out from the traps within my heart and watch it unfold.
I pull it out with the might of my mind and the dexterity of my fingers. Good bye. So long.
They will finally stop scaring my sprits to the corners of my soul. They will no longer shiver. They are Reborn.
Maybe what saves me can save you. And what saves us can save them. A seed, a bud, a tree. I write so I save me.

Billy was a boy
I saw at a coffee place
I used to frequent
when I needed catharsis
He had long hair
with a freckled face
he played the guitar
and sang my favorites

I called him Billy
but that wasn't his name
I never got a chance
to talk with him face to face

I swear, sometimes I thought
He looked me in the eyes
we connected on a deeper level
than meets the eye
Suddenly I got busy
started going less and less
That one weekend I went?
he wasn't at the place

Billy was what I called him
that wasn't his name
every time I tried to talk to him,
my face caught flame

Next time I see Billy
I will definitely say Hi
or maybe, I will just start with a smile
I will compliment his voice
and ask him out for a bite
Wait!!
I'm forgetting something
I think I moved too fast
Uhh...Yes
Before I proceed to ask him out,
I will ask Billy,
What name he goes by

My mind is in overdrive
All my thoughts are amplified
I need a megaphone
I don't really know what for
But I feel if I scream,
it will make my thoughts real

I have a sweet melody
playing in my head
I probably should work
on my life instead
but words keep echoing in my mind
My brain is always occupied

Are my words as dark as a stormy day's cloud?
Even gray clouds have feelings and emotions they hide
until they let loose and let it all pour out.
But I seem to be as blank as a white page...No. Better yet,
As a leaf caught underneath a rock with no escape
With a weight on my chest that can't be explained!

You won't understand.
You might think you can and that's fine
   but when you ask me why? And I sigh,
It's because...
You won't understand.

Life, although hard and fraught with a series of conflicts,
you make living it better.

I write
then delete
sometimes I shred
and repeat
Never once knowing  
the right words
that will give you peace

Question: How can Love be extremely simple yet severely complicated?