pain only hurts
when you know it is pain
the bliss of ignorance
cancels out the ache
hurt me if you like
i will be ok
the not knowing is my silent saviour
the same way i don't know faith

people are so scared of each other
they can not make eye contact
in the super market
on a crowded train
they keep their heads bowed
praying i will leave
like i have a bomb hidden
underneath my sleeve
i take a crazy leap of faith
say hello
give a friendly wave
then wait for them to detonate

once you choose to leave the closet
you can never crawl back inside
so he stays hidden
unseen
silent
waiting for signs of change
the accepting sound of safety
it takes a certain level of brave
to leave that anonymous space
to know the closet will always be open
and choose to leave it anyway

you wanted me dead,
buried
rotting in the ground
you wanted me to sacrifice
my survival
in the spirit of goodbye
I admit to entertaining the thought
tempting as it was
but i know that my death would result in you winning
taking home the grand prize of corruption
that just would not do at all
so i chose to live on

when you towered over my bleeding body
bruised,
broken,
weakened
my fractures made you stronger
my vulnerability kept you secure
the bleeding stopped
The bones all healed
the bruises faded away
but you're still beating women down
long after i walked away
i had the strength to leave
i had enough self respect to survive
not every woman has that in her
that haunts me, even now
after all this time
i wonder who is in your trap
trying desperately to get free
sometimes i think i hear her whisper
sometimes i hear her calling me
i know you are towering over her
i know you think you've got the power
but you don't know the endurance
that comes from being female
babe, i'm on a rescue mission
we've got numbers on you now

truth hunted me down
knocked on my door
forced me to look
at what i had ignored
truth handed me a mirror
i saw my real self
i was a monster
the truth visited me in hell

teetering on the edge of forever
staring into the abyss of eternity
clutching onto the hope of growth
questioning evolution
in the search for truth
teetering on the edge of forever
spending eternity with you

he slipped beneath my skin
pervading the depths of my psyche
he did so, silently
whilst I was sleeping
disturbingly unaware
of his spirit lurking within me
i was possessed
i was tainted
i was branded
with a scar shaped like a *****
all i can say
is that something like ****
comes with a ******* life sentence

i wonder if you know the way to my insides
i wonder if you know the way to my soul
i wonder if you could find your way past the stop sign in my mind
speed through the traffic lights flashing
RED! RED! RED!
invade the secret hiding spots inside of my head
i wonder if you're capable of such disrespect
or would you politely ask me instead?

never tell someone they can't
unless you want them to succeed
in that case,
tell someone they can't
they will
they can
because you tried to tell them that they can't

let's create a facility
call it something great
when its truth is horrid
wait a minute!
back up.
regroup.
that idea is taken
it's already been done.